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Oh how did He made you

You are wonderful and odd

You are amazing as fck

Oh how did He made you.

The junkiest of them all...

I've known you since our 7th grade. You are that Maitim na mayabang na Gold (im not a gold then). I never liked you. You are damn annoying.

Grade 8 and my impression on you is still like that. I don't know why would I hate when we don't even know each other and we didn't even interact with each other but then Impression..

Grade 9 and I got promoted and it still like that, i don't like you. But then, we can't predict things, We became friends. You tag along with us even if we didn't know each other much. Ive known your attitude and such. And well... i didn't have a wrong impression.

Grade 10 and i was surprised, We became closer and even on the same Squad (lol). Youre not good at any serious things except for always pissing me off. You're not ideal. You're not cool. You're not serious either.

Most dont like you, for your guts, attitude and such. You are not likeable and all. But as we are here for you; we would accept you as you. No questions and queries. No second thoughts. I always hate your lits- cringy lits but what can I do, right? But to read it and let cringe overall my body.

We always argue on small silly things. We cant be together. No day would go that we dont have a stupid fights. But we can be good to be together; just for a sec tho.

For more "aways", "kainan", "utangans", "katangahans" and everything. Hope to let this journey with you continues. And hope for more years of these.

Spare me. I'm a no directional.

Everyone is excited to see you, to embrace you. They bought something for you, for a grand openning I guess. (But) What’s in you? Why is everyone thrilled to meet you? What’s your difference with the others? Are you gonna bring better things than those who passed? Or not.

Every year’s a gift. It will give you fear, excitements and curiosity. Everyone is looking forward for another wonderful things that you may unfold. For the new chances and challenges. New laughters and cryings. New things- material or not. Some are looking forward for trips and adventures and I want that too- who wouldnt,right?

As everyone howls for the new year here I am wondering on how should I begin. As they party and joy here I am confused on how should I act. As they play and laugh here I am afraid to gamble.

Cant you slow down? Im not ready for this.

This would be the table-turning year for me-us. Moving up is nearing and I dont want that. I dont want new things. I dont want new environment. I dont want new challenges. I dont wanna be away from my comfort. I dont want that. But there’s no other way but to face that.

Those yellow walls. Those red bricks. Those kiosks. Those games. Those tables amd chairs. That platform. Those laughs and trips. Those late night walays and more.

I want new things but I dont want to adjust and that is stupid. I am planning so many things yet Im lazy to do so. Im excited to meet you but I don’t want to, too. Im so clueless and that’s terrifying for this means that I am a no directional person- hard to make a decision by myself. And I want that to change.

I want to be mature enough on how to handle things and not to meddle my emotions with it. I want to learn on how to responsible enough to lead and make a plan- not just for me but for the others too. I want to be grown up and to act my age.

I dont want to expect but I want it to happen and so I dont have expectations but I want it be real.

I want those blurs to clear.

I want those storms to calm.

I want those thunders to silent.

I want those barks too hum.

As colors and noises envelops the sky when you unfold, I want you to close that way.

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Trust your instincts. Intuition doesn’t lie.

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You know you are on the right track when you become uninterested in looking back.

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Saying “I love you” doesn’t fix anything or remove any of the things you said.

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Beauty in Disguise

You are one of my treasured person in life. You taught me things, making me realize that the world is big spend life exploring it.

In our 8th grade, our journey together has begun. I never thought that we would make a wonderful friendship. You're good in English, I am not. I love Maths, You do but not as much as I do (then). You are particular with General Knowledge, I don't.

I don't always talk with you then because I thought that we won't make a good friendship because,well, I don't feel you that time. We are that usual classmates: know each other but don't talk unless one would have something to tell to the other.

Until that Science Quiz Bee came. Our teacher chose us to go and luckily we placed. Since then we got closer and always pair up together. We helped in each other in every quizzes and activities (na).

That was the beginning of our friendship (well, for me).

Grade 9, we got promoted together, as in 'together' (So as Lyka,of course).

We are foreign to that room that we are the only one who talk with each other. You witnessed (and still) my craziness, obsessions, 'katangahans', 'ka-oa-ans'. I've known your character, habits, talents. We've done many craziness together!

Cryings, "tampuhans" and all just for that school year!

You are my walking diary. You know every happenings in my life. You know all of my 'Bain Moments'. You are the witness in everything that happened to me. You are always there for me, trust me I will be here for you too,always. You are my eye-openner. You are wonderful.

You are my stars in the night sky,shining upon my wonders.

You are that charger of my phone, shouldn't be not around or I'll left empty bat.

You are the ink of my pen, should not be gone or I will be left useless.

A SAD TRUTH

We got issues everywhere. When will these be gone right? Probably, never.

Politics is the dirtiest game they say. Politicians are the ones who should push their people to the bright side yet they don't, they are the one making them stay in the dark side.

Corruption is a disease, can't prevent, can't cure. They re like our nervous system, once one organ malfunctioned all the processes will be disabled. Air that once polluted, all you got is diseases. It has entered into every single aspect of our lives becoming all pervasive. It is growing massively in huge proportions and there is barely any sphere of social,political,economic and even religious aspects that is free from fraud,graft and corruption.

I think that we can't live without these anymore,even in its smallest form.

It is like a bait and a fish, we small people are the fish and they [political people] are the bait. They would do anything for us to hooked up to them. Once we did, all they got to do is to grill and cook us for their own desires.

They are full of temptations and inhibitions.

Corruption in the Philippines is very massive, definitely one of the reasons why we can't succeed. Everyday we watch,hear and read news corruption is always involved and one of the main topics. When we talk about our government, people would already think of corruption,thieves,exploitations.

We can't blame them thinking like these since they [politicians] are the one making these impressions for them.

They "wanted" to be in that position to serve the people not people to serve them. They wanted to "help" but all of these were gone because they are blinded by their desires. They are the leaders not to make people their servant but their masters. Making things not for their convenience but for the ones who put them in that positions. People are hoping that they would be the answers to their never-ending problems.

If people would go nasty they will be barbaric,uneducated and such but why do when these people [politicians] go and do nasty it is (for them) the right thing to do (even if it is not) not minding their "supposed masters".

People are not the masters anymore, they are now the servants of their servants.

When will all these be eradicated? Don't we have a chance anymore? Do these people have chance still? Maybe yes,maybe no. All the answers are on them, depending on themselves.

Hope when time comes, it is not too late or they will suffer on their own conscience.

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Math is just one long series of “learn this so you can learn that” and by the end of it, all you’ve really learned is that there’s software that does these calculations for you

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Lol.

Ishaan Awasthi is an eight-year-old child whose world is filled with wonders that no one else seems to appreciate; colours, fish, dogs and kites are just not important in the world of adults, who are much more interested in things like homework, marks and neatness. And Ishaan just cannot seem to get anything right in class. When he gets into far more trouble than his parents can handle, he is packed off to a boarding school to 'be disciplined'. Things are no different at his new school, and Ishaan has to contend with the added trauma of separation from his family. One day a new art teacher bursts onto the scene, Ram Shankar Nikumbh, who infects the students with joy and optimism. He breaks all the rules of 'how things are done' by asking them to think, dream and imagine, and all the children respond with enthusiasm, all except Ishaan. Nikumbh soon realizes that Ishaan is very unhappy, and he sets out to discover why. With time, patience and care, he ultimately helps Ishaan find himself.

Life lessons can be learned? Everyone one of us have talents. We should not underestimate or discriminate someone when they got some things we do not have. Something that a normal person don't have. And that made each one os us special.

The most enduring part is when Ishaan was brought to a boarding school when he got kicked out from his previous school because of his "psychological problem".

My favorite character was of course because even though he knew that he is special, he didn't gave up and continued living with his colourful life.

I also loved his teacher, who patiently and passionately teaches and guided Ishaan.

Anything happened in the movie that remind of something similar? Uh, maybe when Ishaan was underestimated and his brother was the only one appreciated by his father. I got a brother, all my life I've been always number two to our father because the only one he always appreciated wreciated

Ask a character from that movie? Ishaan, what are your thoughts on a father that continously discriminate their child?

Futuristic? Nope.

Ten years from now? Can we not talk about that? Can we just go blah blah blah...

Thinking 10 years ahead of me is frightening. Im afraid people around me might be gone that time. Things already changed big time then. And all we have to do is to reminisce.

Imagining myself 10 years from now? Duh, I cant. I didnt build any plan for that yet.

Maybe if I did? Then maybe Im still in my Med school surviving to be a licensed doctor. Everyone know how hard it is to be one, many years of studying, hardships and so on. The journey through it would be difficult, not impossible to meet failure ahead of but then, we dont gain when we dont have hardships, we cant be successful when we dont experience failures.

Still in that school continuing my passion is a big struggle. Im still studying huh, how about when all of these ends? There would be a longer,harder part and that is when duty starts. Duty to serve people and help them to survive the complications they've been through.

Still unsure for future plans? I am, though I already have thoughts for that, i cant help but to be bothered. Ten long years, imagine that? May be if i'd imagine myself then, I would see a big difference. Maybe I would see a grown up woman. Already dedicating her life for her passion. Sparing time not to read ebooks and teen fictions but to help others with their battles. Allowing herself to be serving the needed ones.

I need to take all of these seriously now or the future may not turn to be how I wanted. Sacrificing isnt a big thing when you know that this will bring you more success and hope. Hope for the good outcome of all. Hope for the good living you've struggle to achieve. Hope you have a life full of blessings and we are more than willing to give it back to others by giving our service and time and strength and care.

If time would be the key for me to be that woman, mature and firm, should i continue to be a coward and turn it down? Or use that as my advantage?

Im wondering... why are the others excited when the topic is about their future? Easy for them to answer and be glad with that. Maybe they are open for them growing up eh?

I cant help to be bothered by the fact that there are possibilities that these might not be the product of the future. Who wouldn't right? That maybe when time comes and our paths will cross, we'll be disappointed by futures' decision.

Afraid of complications time might bring. Afraid of changes and things she's not used to. Is it really frightening? Or i just made myself a fool for being afraid on its own?

Waiting for the time when all I have to say is that I did, not might or would or maybe anymore.

If you would read this 10 years older Editha, you might wanna congratulate yourself ten years ago.

Might come that far, and hoping for many more. Watch out 😉.

Goodness it brought. Badness it might bring.

Many youngsters and even oldies had theur own gadgets with them now. Funny as how time flies and even them had interests with these gadgets and such.

These gadgets gives us much benefits that we can already learn from it alone. Many of us use these gadgets mainly because of communication and leisure reasons. Parents can even train their young ones using thesee. Teenagers now mainly uses gadgets to help them with their studies and many more. These technologies dominated the current generation and is continue to spread and widen their reach. Televisions, radios, laptops, internet are just a few example of the current technology. We personally love a particular gadget that helps us big time. With all the technologies that bloomed, my favorite one is the cellular phone. Everyone of us might already have our own phones and its not quite surprising. I loved tgis one because it is so comfortable and manageable. We can do many things with the it like capture pics, sending messages, making calls and many other things. It is so handy that you can just go anywhere with it, not like laptops and other things that are huge and heavy.

We were being dominated by the change and inventions. We are being addicted to these that we might forget its harmful affects or even the bad habits that we might engage into because of these. We should not be dependent with it that we might forget our responsibilities as a student, worker, and a person.

I Love You Since 1892

How if you need to go to the past to fix something so future might not at risk? What would you feel if you have a mission and act as someone you are not just to have the success of this situation?

Carmella Isabella needs to act as Carmelita Montecarlos who happened to be the sister of her great-great-grandmother, Maria Montecarlos.

When she became 19 years old, she saw someone who is so cryptic and took her to the past, year 1892. She had a mission and that is to save Juanito Alfonso from his death- supposed death.

Carmelita and Juanito was arranged to marry each other mainly because Carmelita's wish. She was so spoiled by her father that he gave what her daughter wants. She knew that Helena (one of her bestfriend who happened to be sister of her ex) already had a feeling for Juanito. What should she do? Stop her feelings for Helena or be selfish and claim Juanito?

Juanito never wanted the marriage but he did not want to disobey his father so he didn't pursue Helena (anymore that he already like too that time). Days of bonding with Carmelita, Juanito learned what and who Carmelita Montecarlos is. He hated her guts. Carmelita is so selfish and self-centered- the reason why Juanito hated her.

He started pursuing Helena and plead Carmelita o stop the upcoming wedding but Carmelita refused and still continued the wedding. Juanito still pursued Helena that yeilds Carmelita's anger. Carmelita hired Kolonel Santos to kill Juanito on their wedding day-shoot him exactly at his heart.

The big day came, the oh-so-called-wedding of theirs, Carmelita knew what would happen then, she's not comfortable anymore, for the thought that Juanito will die, because of her. She tried to stop the Kolonel but its too late, Juanito already died, on their wedding day.

Here comes Carmella Isabella, to stop that from happening. Carmella knew that she should not fall for Juanito or she would experienced what Carmelita experienced then, or Juanito will die again because of her.

But truly, we cannot dictate the future. Juanito and Carmella fell with each other, with Juanito not knowing that she is Carmella not Carmelita. The love that was built for the second time changed everything, the whole history and plans.

What life lessons can be learned? ● We its meant to be, it will be. Everything that we deserve will come on our way. Not the way we wanted it to be, but how it should be.

2. What was the most powerful and enduring part? ● When Juanito decided not to love any other girl anymore. He stayed loyal to Carmela- the girl he loved from the future even though he know that they will not see each other ever again.

3. Who was your favorite character?

● Every character in the story played a very memorable role. My favorite one is Juanito, as he is always positive even though he already had tons of problems and is already facing troubles and such. He always put God in everything he do.

4. Did anything that happened in the book remind of something similar? Cite the event.

● I dont remember any though.

5. If you had a chance to ask a character form the book a question, what would it be?

● Juanito are all your sacrifices worth it? Or did you ever regret any of your decisions?

I love you since 1892 is a story of Mary Jane Imaculata. It tackles about the Philippine History, Spaniards Colonel Time.

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I never would have thought it would be you

To be the one to leave a mark on my heart forever

Although I knew the moment I saw you

You would be the one to change my life forever

I knew I would fall for you, and because of that

I fell apart because of you

Everywhere I go I see you

Even though I know you’re not really there

You were once my lover; my life partner

My one and only; my forever and always

Now you are a stranger

The only thing I am left with is a memory of you

A lesson learned; a story

A dream of the plans we once made

The hope that my future holds something as great as what it once held for you and I

But now I am moving on

Because to hurt like this; for this long

Is not okay anymore

You have had a toxic hold on me

One that I wasn’t able to let go of

But now I am freeing my myself from you

A bad word will never come from my mouth about you

I will only have good words to speak about you

I will always remember the best of you

And the best of what we once had

Because that is what I think of you

You were the one; the one that got away

But now it is time

To take in every second of this thing called life

To be the better version of myself

To live for today; not yesterday

Because I love you; I am letting go

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