Author Marie Batiste

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I haven't had a panic attack(anxiety attack) in a long time. Almost forgot what it felt like until my anxiety decided to remind me this morning. The heart palpitations and the shortness of breath are always difficult to deal with. I mean I can deal with being sweaty or my fingers feeling numb for some reason but feeling my heart is in overdrive and not being able to breathe at the same time is terrifying. The feeling that my death or something equally terrifying is right around the corner doesn't help either. I also feel like I'm falling and I'll never be able to get back up even though I'm standing on the ground. When I felt like I could finally catch my breath again I went outside for a little bit and listened to the birds. I feel a little bit better now although my heart hasn't fully returned to normal. It isn't racing so that's something. This is just further proof that I have neglected my mental health. I've gotten so caught up in my work. I have to finish this project or I have to edit these chapters. I have to write these articles for that person, meet these deadlines. (I have 6 deadlines to meet by next Wednesday) I haven't done the things I know that help me. Writing helps but with the deadlines it can also be stressful. I also need to exercise and I should probably stay away from caffeine which might explain some things. (My blood is mostly coffee). And getting some sun daily is a thing...I do not do. Unless the sunlight from the window in front of my desk counts. It probably doesn't. If I was a houseplant I would be dead. Or not, I do get a lot of water. Anyway long story short I need to get back on my mental health plan and I should probably get at the root at what makes me anxious to begin with, probably childhood trauma, feeling insignificant and worthless which probably speaks to my depression too. This would probably involve diving into my childhood so... that should be fun. Thank you for joining my mental health check-in. Excuse me while I go do some kind of exercise and try to get myself together. https://www.instagram.com/p/CAs5RjeA951/?igshid=1xw24jkqk6qa4

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Redesigning my website is both fun, and frustrating at the same time. But mostly fun...for now anyway. 🤔😑 #authorgram #authorlife #websitedesign https://www.instagram.com/p/CAa8-vYgv31/?igshid=1jgo37d5x5u61

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Breakfast of champions: peach cobbler with vanilla ice cream and coffee. #amwriting #authorslife #authorgram https://www.instagram.com/p/CAabKvngpZx/?igshid=97hma14t6y05

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They better not call me a loser or somebody is dying in the first chapter. 😑 How do your characters come to you? #authorgram #amwriting #writingcommunity #authorlife https://www.instagram.com/p/CAX6DWuA6MM/?igshid=b1w5lscvazxc

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Free for a limited time! Necromancers being on the payroll should make solving crimes easier. It doesnt. #amreading #readers #bookaholic #booklover #bookcommunity #bookish #booklove #paranormal #urbanfantasy https://www.instagram.com/p/CAQasjLAj9T/?igshid=12kh6579hgp25

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I mean seriously! Or if you are going to kill your husband for the insurance money at least act like you loved him at his funeral. And don't try to collect on the insurance a day after he died. #idchannel #idchanneladdict #amwriting #authorgram #authorlife #truecrime https://www.instagram.com/p/CAQA2Vygd9l/?igshid=1lh7u8dxfqho9

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Free on Amazon now through the 17th! Link in bio! Necromancers being on the payroll should make solving crimes easier. Mr. and Mrs. Green come home after a weekend trip to find a blood-stained dining room, human organs tucked neatly in the corner, and their nineteen-year-old daughter Riley missing. Following a ten-month suspension and forced rehab, Detective Rachel Dixon is finally piecing her life together. Joined by her new partner Elias Crowe, an intuitive elf, Rachel starts investigating Riley's case. Soon the investigation leads them to a series of strange murders not just in the city but across the nation. To solve the case, the detectives will seek help from an undead blood analyst, a standoffish necromancer, a tree spirit, and a living sculpture. But catching the killer may prove difficult when Rachel catches the killer's eye. #paranormalfantasy #urbanfantasy #bookish #bookaddict #readers #amreading #books #booknerds #bookworm #necromancers https://www.instagram.com/p/CANosM7gAdR/?igshid=1et8jtzpid32n

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Book 2 in the Rachel Dixon series cover reveal and Blurb coming soon! #murdercircus #amwriting #bookstagram #bookaddict #coverreveal #bookworm #booklover #urbanfantasy #paranormalfantasy #authorsofinstagram #mystery https://www.instagram.com/p/B_abFQ4gIIj/?igshid=hfmgufuk6qsx

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A girl needs her coffee! #authorgram #amwriting #coffee #authorlife https://www.instagram.com/p/B-__J-Yg93I/?igshid=32oi94v8ehtd

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I always have the world in mind first. It is always the first thing I create and then I seem to figure out the plot as I write. I thought that was just me. I write because there are these people and world in my head that I want to explore. I'm exploring I find my plot. Sometimes it doesn't take me long. Sometimes I'm halfway done when I figure out the plot and I have to go back redo everything. . . .#amwriting #writingcommunity #authorgram https://www.instagram.com/p/B--K56Agjwb/?igshid=1voxbcca6fkvm

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A little breakfast before the writing begins. Trying to get six things done today so I can take tomorrow off. 😅 #amwriting #authorlife #authorgram #foodie https://www.instagram.com/p/B-120-ug7aq/?igshid=1egzd2khngfox

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What is everybody watching and reading during quarantine? I could use some recommendations. Running out of things to watch. It's been a little difficult to be productive during this time and instead of forcing myself to be creative, I'm going to take it easy for a few days and let my mind rest. #amwriting #authorgram #authorize #reading #netflix https://www.instagram.com/p/B-zwVgiAFU0/?igshid=g301qm5ehmma

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Gave up coffee for three weeks. Words can't express how much I've missed it. Probably addicted but that's okay. ☕😍😚 #authorgram #authorlife #amwriting https://www.instagram.com/p/B-pAkJAALKy/?igshid=qp9ytgyzs2

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Giving myself permission to not do anything today and try to not feel guilty about it. It's harder than it is supposed to be. Sitting around watching Harry Potter waiting on #wrestlemania #authorgram #selfcare #ravenclaw https://www.instagram.com/p/B-nJqwygVxc/?igshid=1x2d5crqpe4ik

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Free today through tomorrow. Link in bio! Necromancers being on the payroll should make solving crimes easier. Mr. and Mrs. Green come home after a weekend trip to find a blood-stained dining room, human organs tucked neatly in the corner, and their nineteen-year-old daughter Riley missing. Following a ten-month suspension and forced rehab, Detective Rachel Dixon is finally piecing her life together. Joined by her new partner Elias Crowe, an intuitive elf, Rachel starts investigating Riley's case. Soon the investigation leads them to a series of strange murders not just in the city but across the nation. To solve the case, the detectives will seek help from an undead blood analyst, a standoffish necromancer, a tree spirit, and a living sculpture. But catching the killer may prove difficult when Rachel catches the killer's eye. #authorsofinstagram #amwriting #writerslife #authorslife #urbanfantasy #writersofinstagram #writersofig #authorgram #authorsofig #bookstagram #booknerd #bookworms #bookish #booklover #indieauthor #writergram #bookaddict #bibliophile #booksofig #bookaholic #necromancers #magic #newbook #indieauthorsofinstagram #paranormal #thelastthingyousee #upcomingrelease #instabook #readersofinstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/B96u16sACjh/?igshid=196gn2dqpze2d

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Pretty much. #authorgram #authorsofig #amwriting https://www.instagram.com/p/B9picXmgzDl/?igshid=uv6gji5e5o0r

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This year I wanted to try and actually create a writing process. I don’t think I have a writing process and so far, I don’t think I have succeeded in creating one. I guess my process is I just write until the book is finished but that doesn’t feel like much of a process or a routine. I can’t help but feel like I’m doing it wrong or I’m not working hard enough. I don’t really have any author friends that I can ask to see if what I’m doing or feeling is normal. What constitutes a writing process? I mean I write until the book is finished. I know the ending and sometimes the beginning but that is it. I might know a few points in between. I figure out everything else as I go. I’ve tried outlining but if I know too much then the story becomes boring. It becomes a chore to write and I don’t want to finish the project. I don’t know if I’m bore or just trying to figure things out. Or perhaps both. I think I’m going to try something different and start writing by hand. I used to write by hand when I was younger, mostly because we didn’t have a computer. I remember in writing a story that was 57 pages front and back in middle school. There is something about putting pen to paper that is just so satisfying. The words flow better so I’ll see if that’ll help. I’ve been feeling stuck lately. Maybe switching things up will help. #amwriting #writingcommunity #writerslife #authorslife #urbanfantasy #writersofinstagram #writersofig #writer #authorgram #authorsofig #indieauthor #authorofinstagram #writergram #indiesareworthit https://www.instagram.com/p/B9nEkcJA-Q9/?igshid=19xbut1j2y4da