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“No, not at all, I love honesty,” they smiled back softly. They hadn’t let themselves have that feeling of wanting someone else in so long that they forgot what it was like to long for even a kiss or a touch or something more. Then they were brought back to reality, all they were, were friends and they had let themselves get fooled into something that was just- not real. It had been in her head, “friends do keep the best secrets.” They weren’t sure exactly if Marisa would even want them if she knew that she would be the first girl Victoria had ever even been with. They heard stories of how fucked up it is to be someone’s experiment and that’s the last thing they would ever want the other girl to feel. “I think you’ll be surprised when it comes down to it,” now they knew they were thinking too much into it all and they really were jumping the gun and thinking that the kiss would lead to something more. At least she’ll be drunk enough to forget that this all happened but in the mean time, she’ll let herself enjoy the kiss and when the other deepened it, she wanted to remember the taste and feeling of it all. Victoria didn’t want any of it to stop, no matter if it was just a friendly kiss, she wanted more of it. “I think that’s because you were a better one, not gonna lie I want to do it again,” her mind was fogged with so many drunken thoughts but with Marisa in front of her, she couldn’t help the words from coming out.

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Honesty. It wasn’t something she practiced often, but tonight she felt vulnerable in a good way, willing to reveal all her secrets to Victoria with fully confidence that they would keep them. Her relationship with them seemed to have changed in a blink of an eye. Just an hour ago, she would have considered them nothing but a friend but now she had all these emotions, her heart racing when she saw them smile and her stomach full of butterflies when they touched. That couldn’t be just friendship, right? She should know, yet she wasn’t sure. Marisa could have told Victoria it was more than friendship, but insecurity took over her and instead nodded, a small smile hiding her self-doubt. “Just don’t overthink it. I think it would be great.” And that wasn’t a lie, Marisa didn’t care if the she had more experience than them. “If you ever, uh, want to try I wouldn’t mind.” It was odd of her to fight with her words but she was nervous and excited all at the same time. She could feel how flushed she was and sure, maybe it was the alcohol but it could also be how Victoria made her feel. It was nice. It had been so long since someone made her feel this way. “Me too,” she whispered, looking at them for a second before leaning in again. The kiss made her skin tingle and the butterflies flutter inside of her. They weren’t deep, long kisses, they were simple and intimate which meant all the more.

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“When did you get so cute? Am I toast, why are you trying to butter me up so much?” They teased but they didn’t mind it, it was the first time in a long time where they felt like they were being seen for Victoria and not for someone on cam who people longed for, this was all for them. “You’re honestly amazing, thank you for not being so weird about it,” they had truly appreciated how good Marisa was and how understanding she had been the whole time about their secret. “I-” she started to try to form some kind of sentence because she was sure that the other girl wasn’t actually serious until that moment, what would the girl think if she knew that Victoria only ever had sex with one other person? How she wouldn’t even know what to do with Marisa if she had the chance to be with her in that way. “I wouldn’t really be looking forward to it if I was you,” now she was feeling the alcohol in her system how it was taking over her mind and making her think things she shouldn’t be. Now the girl was getting closer and she could feel her heart pounding at this point, lips on hers and hands felt like they were all over her body and she gave into the kiss, taking what she wanted for once.

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“I’m just being honest, is that bad?” she said, smiling at them. Being around Victoria simply felt natural as if they’ve known each other for years and not just a couple of weeks. “That’s what friends are for, right?” And with that, she silently promises to put the whole topic behind them. Marisa stared at Victoria for a few seconds, confused for their statement before a warm smile formed on her lips. “Yet I look forward to it,” she admitted, alcohol already making her even more brutally honest than normally. She knew that compared to her, Victoria probably wasn’t as experienced but did it really matter? She didn’t think it did. She could have sworn her heart stopped the second her lips met their lips, it was soft yet she felt the eagerness. Her lips tasted like tequila and lime, she could have kissed them forever. Marisa moved her hand to cup her cheek, deepening the kiss as if it was the last time she would get this chance (although she hoped it wasn’t), her other hand rested on her thigh. Pulling away was something she wouldn’t want but the demand for oxygen forced her to withdraw, her face still only inches away from theirs as smile started to grace her features. “You’re a great kisser,” she admitted with a chuckle, cheeks turning red.

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“I don’t think I would’ve ever been okay with not meeting you,” so maybe something good did come out them camming for all those years and they’re thankful for someone as good and kind as Marisa was. “I never want to so it’s best if you just forget about it,” they hoped that more than anything the other will forget and never think about it again. She’s not sure why she said it in the first place when the obvious choice was to just admit to a crush that was probably beyond obvious at that moment. “Oh, I don’t doubt that, you might even be my favorite from the start but I would rather you see me like that on my own terms,” if she was gonna get naked for the other girl, she wanted it to at least be in person which she knows will never happen. They were so close, everything felt soo good and she wanted nothing more than to give into her desires for once. “I should probably warn you that I’ve never been with a girl before, so kissing you might be terrible,” she can’t help but love the ways she asked though, it wasn’t just assumed and it made Victoria only like her more for it.

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Her stomach fluttered at her words, a smile playing on her lips. “Me neither. I need someone like you in my life,” she admitted. Victoria was kind, a good person overall. It was a nice change from the people she used to surround herself with before she came on the ship. “Consider it forgotten.” Marisa would respect their decision, and if Victoria didn’t want to discuss the subject anymore then they wouldn’t. She was speechless at the other girl’s words. Was it the alcohol that made her head things or did she really said that? “Whenever you are ready to let me see you that way.” Marisa wasn’t even sure if all this was because of the alcohol or if Victoria felt the same way as she was feeling right now. It had been so long since someone made her heart feel this way. Usually Ruby made her feel this way but those feelings were also accompanied with hurt and resentment. This was not the case, it was pure even. “I’d be honored to be your first,” she said with a smile as she closed her eyes. Her lips brushing against theirs, she waited a few seconds, her hand rubbing her cheek as her other hand set on her thigh. Not wanting to wait any longer, Marisa pressed her lips against theirs, softly and tender.

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“Ah, I never really thought of it that way but I wouldn’t speak too soon, I saved up for years to go here so not exactly rich.. and hopefully not famous, seeing as i want no one on here to recognize me.” They would do more camming if that was the case, they only cammed when they really needed the money to get something for themselves but nothing more than when they had to. They didn’t want that to define who they were. “Nope, no need for you to remind me. I would rather you forget as well, thank you very much,” just as they said it a new set of drinks got placed in front of them but the moment Victoria saw it, their stomach turned. That not a good sign at all. “You do not get another confession out of me, I’m already fucked,” she doesn’t really cussed unless her emotions were on high alert and that included being embarrassed. “And I will have to deny the request sorry about that,” not just because it’s her nudes but because the girl didn’t have the money for it and both of that wouldn’t sit right with her. “Oh,?” she panicked when the other grabbed her face and when she leaned in Victoria held her breath only to be set at ease when she was just placing their foreheads together. “Me too.”

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“You made it here and that’s a big achievement,” she said. If it hadn’t been thanks to a scholarship Marisa wouldn’t be here, and she understood that sometimes drastic measures are need to be taken. Despite the revelation, her opinion of Victoria didn’t waver. “How could I forget? But don’t worry, we won’t talk about it unless you want to.” She offered her a small smile. “Okay, fine, tomorrow then,” she teased and while she did wonder what was the other secret, Marisa decided to let it go. She barely realizes a new pair of shots were there, all her attention belonged to Victoria. “I’d be a good client,” she pouted before laughing. Although she wouldn’t deny she was curious about it. She was curious about many things, one of them, her growing feelings for Victoria. Her heart was racing as their foreheads touched. Her thumb caressing their cheek as she tilted her head, their noses touching as her lips ghosted theirs. “May I?” she asked, looking at her lips and she could have sworn her heart would jump out of her chest.

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“I’m really glad to have met you, you know that? You are something great,” she confessed. “Sadly, I didn’t come from the rich and famous,” she playfully pouted trying to ease tension of what they just confessed to each other. “To be honest, I probably won’t even remember because now I definitely have to get blacked out drunk in order to forget that I even told you. Not because I’m ashamed or don’t trust you, I’m just kind of embarrassed I spilled something so big when I could’ve gone for the other thing,” they rambled as they signaled for more shots. They looked straight at the other shaking their head, “no way, promise me you won’t look for them, I’ll do anything for you not to, okay?” She knows if the other found pictures she would definitely find the videos and that, she couldn’t deny as much. Or even be able to look in the other’s eyes again even though she trusts Marisa, that didn’t mean that she wanted the other to see what time of things she did to herself behind closed doors. Victoria tried not to act on it but she couldn’t help it, no one has touched her in months and maybe she longed for it without realizing it so she tilted her head against the hand, before turning quickly, “you’re worth every word.”

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“I’m glad I met you too,” she assured them with a smile. “You are becoming rich and famous on your own and I admire that.” It was easy to fall back into a normal conversation with Victoria. “Do you want me to remind you?” she joked as she would never bring up the topic unless they did. However, her interest piqued when she mentioned another thing. “What other thing? I mean it can’t be any more shocking than the nudes thing.” She noticed Victoria ordering more shots but her attention was all over them, waiting for their answer. “Of course I won’t. If anything, I’d order some for me,” she joked, well, kinda. She was just grateful that Victoria has trusted her with this secret and while Marisa could be a lot of things, she would never break a promise she’d made to a friend. Had she imagined that or had Victoria tilted her head against her hand? Maybe the alcohol was starting to cloud her judgment but with enough tequila shots in her system, Marisa felt as if she had nothing to lose. “I love spending time with you,” she whispered, cupping Victoria’s face as she leaned in, pressing her forehead against theirs.

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“Do you mean that? I might be really boring and not an interesting without the alcohol though,” which was true, they were always late and a mess with paint all over their clothes and skin, not to mention that they couldn’t even form the right words when they had a conversation with someone without putting their foot in their mouth. “I think being sick balances out with my time with you,” they admitted. “I mean how do you think I’m able to go here? It’s not because I’m smart that’s for damn sure,” she couldn’t even if she tried. “Don’t go looking for my nudes or anything, I’m might actually die if I knew if you saw what I look like.” Now she felt kind of bad that they were drinking with her money when she was struggling, she’ll just have to make sure that she could do everything she can to make Marisa happy. “Hey,” she nudged her hand to get the other too look up at her, “there is nothing wrong with having a secret that is your own, I heard this from a little somebody a while ago but basically she said that you don’t owe anyone anything, not even an explanation so don’t you dare feel sorry for yourself.”

“Of course I do. I like spending time with you and I want to go out more with you.” There was something absolutely endearing about Victoria, they were good. Perhaps too good for her and for that reason maybe Marisa should keep her distance but she was happy around them. “I don’t know, I thought you just came from money like all the others,” she said, grabbing their hand. “This doesn’t change how I feel about you or what I think of you. Thanks for trusting me with this.” It meant a lot to Marisa being able to have a form a bond like the one she felt was forming tonight with Victoria. “Now I want to look for them,” she teased, pushing her lightly. “What’s wrong with how you look like? You are beautiful and you have an amazing body.” She wasn’t just trying to hype them up, she had noticed many of her qualities. A weak smile appeared on her lips. Those were the words she’d been longing to hear. “That means a lot,” she said, impulsively leaning in, gazing at her as she tucked a lock of hair behind their ear.

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“The tequila is helping with my nerves but you’re the best part of tonight, I don’t think that I would ever say no to tequila again if it meant I could hang out with you like this,” it couldn’t be more true, it’s no wonder they had a crush on the other girl and it seemed like that would only bite them in the ass when they realized that they’re too over their head when it came to liking someone like Marisa. “Let’s get one thing straight,” she leaned in, smile on her lips, “alcohol has never made me this happy and it still hasn’t.” She thought of going with the safer route something that even if she said it, it wouldn’t sound so true, “I send nudes to people on the internet for money.” She giggled as she took the shot on the table, this time it didn’t burn as much and she only hoped that it would help to make her forget about that confession. “Your turn.”

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Heart racing and she really can’t blame the alcohol anymore. Could it be that she liked Victoria more than just a friend? “We can always hang out like this with or without tequila.” Although she did believe that the alcohol had something to do with the honesty going on between them. It was hard to read Victoria, were they just being friendly? Her cheeks turned red as the other leaned in. “It might make you a bit sick tomorrow,” she warned her with a chuckle. Her revelation shocked her, it took a few seconds to come up with a response. She would have never imagined Victoria would do something like that. “You do?” she asked before shaking her head. “I mean, it’s fine. I don’t judge you, I’m just surprised.” Then the attention came back to her and suddenly her secret didn’t seem as shocking but she still felt ashamed. “Uh, I’ve been lying about who I am,” she started, looking down at the bar as she fidgeted with her fingers. “I’m not rich, in fact, my family barely has money. I’m here on a scholarship.”

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