High Hopes

ao3: FivePips. Icon: breathing-and-stuff

[marlenemckinn]

The End of August by FivePips (Chapter 1/3)

Most people tend to assume only women gossip. This is stupid. And sexist. Ilya thinks the worse gossips are actually professional sports players. He knows far too much about other guy’s lives. The best part of hearing all the gossip is that he can use it against the various players on the ice. Last year he heard that Rippen slept with his linemate’s wife (some Finn). He managed to get the two men to fight one another instead of him. That was the cherry on top because he threw them off their game enough all night he tallied a hat trick.

Until today, he rarely heard gossip about Shane Hollander. Barring hearing about Rose Fucking Landry, normally it’s about Shane being a little intense. Or some quirk the guys pick up on — he hates those because no one should make fun of Hollander. Except him, but he does it nicely.

But today… well today the sky fell.

“Holy shit, Hollander is gay?”

At the speed Ilya turns his head, he’s almost positive he pulls something. There’s a slight burning in his neck but he ignores it because he is trying to figure think of how anyone could know. They are very careful. Shane is very careful. “What the fuck are you talking about Connors?”

[marlenemckinn]

My Heartbeat: A Heated Rivalry Fic by FivePips (Chapter 14/43)

“I am not a good person. You know rumors.” Ilya chuckled before finishing his sandwich. No one ever said that he was a good person before. Something funny twisted in his chest.

While waving her fork around, Mrs. Hollander made a noise of protest as she chewed a forkful of her salad. “Absolutely not. You’re amazing, you’re just a kind of a dick to people but not maliciously. You’re actually pretty funny.”

“No, I can be very mean. You didn’t like me until now, I’m sure.”

“Well, it didn’t change right at this moment. My opinion of you changed when you started working on the charity. You’re a really thoughtful person with a big heart. Don’t worry I won’t tell anyone that.”

That made Ilya laugh. “It will keep my, uh, reputation.”

“Exactly.” Mrs. Hollander reached over and patted his forearm. “You can ask Shane, I don’t just go around handing out compliments. So trust me, you are a good person and the second best hockey player I know.”

[marlenemckinn]

My Heartbeat: A Heated Rivalry Fic by Fivepips (Chapters 11/43)

“About an hour until we get there.”

Rozanov hummed. “You are slow driver.”

“Fuck off.” A smile threatens to break out on his lips. “In my boring car. Sorry, I don’t own five sports cars.”

Out of the corner of Shane’s eye he could see Rozanov looked at him. “It’s now 2 sports cars, a motorcycle, and G-Wagen for winter.”

Shane’s brows jumped. “A motorcycle? Why would you buy a motorcycle? Do you drive it?”

“No, I look at it in my garage.”

“Those are so dangerous!” The idea of Rozanov crashing a motorcycle made Shane sick. “What if you get into an accident?”

A huff of a laugh came from Rozanov. “Everything is dangerous. We play dangerous sport.”

Shane couldn’t find his words for a moment because Rozanov wasn’t wrong. It had to be safer than a motorcycle, right? “I think you just have a death wish.”

Rozanov shrugged. “Or I just like doing stupid and dangerous things.”

[marlenemckinn]

My Heartbeat: A Heated Rivalry Fic by Fivepips (9/30)

“I will be there.” Rozanov’s eyes went to Shane’s mouth quickly before making eye contact. Immediately Shane’s eyes flicked down so they were not holding eye contact.

“Could we talk about the charity before we go? Just want to check in on that.”

Both of Rozanov’s eyebrows jumped up. “Yes.”

“Great.”

“You two aren’t going to fight again, are you?” Hayes asked around a laugh.

Shane cringed so fast, he didn’t have time to even try to keep his face neutral. “No, no. That was a one time thing.”

“He got too tired too fast.” Of course Rozanov had to make an asshole comment.

Strangely enough though, relief flooded through Shane’s body. The tone of his voice was that monotone but somewhat playful and not empty or angry. “Asshole.” Shane couldn’t help the quirk of his lips.

Rozanov looked away and rubbed his nose as heat rose in Shane’s cheeks.

[marlenemckinn]

My Heartbeat: A Heated Rivalry Fic (7/30 Chapters)

"Roz, hey. Hollander wants to meet you in the hall near the exit and he told me to tell you to not be an asshole. Oh and here," Chris, one of the equipment managers, said before handing Ilya a binder.

Both of his brows immediately went up to his hairline.

The front of the binder had an insert that read: Proposed Charity Organization. The lines on Ilya's forehead deepened as he flipped it opened. There were lists and maps and graphs. The words hockey camp, diversity, funding, co-founders, and summer all stood out to him. A lot of information that needed to be looked over.

"What the fuck, Hollander?" He muttered under his breath.

[may12324]

Not very professional to be accepting dubious forms of payment... but what wouldn't you do to be a hot butch kissing a pretty fae

[selkie-on-land]

Omg it exists in colours too !! 🥹😍

[marlenemckinn]

My Heartbeat: A Heated Rivalry Fic by FivePips (5/?)

They continued to talk as they ate lunch. It felt like some tightly wound ball in his chest started to unravel. Even though he had been panicky when his mom brought up sponsors and preparing a statement if his sexuality somehow got leaked, he still felt better than he did before telling them. Knowing that they would have his back if something did ever happen, that was soothing in a way.

"Now what's this got to do with Rozanov? That's what got us on the topic. Are you two dating or something?" His mom laughed when she settled back in her chair.

The heat rose in Shane's cheeks. "Well... not now?"

[marlenemckinn]

My Heartbeat: A Heated Rivalry Fic by Fivepips (Chapters 4/?)

Being an asshole was one of his defenses and it came naturally. "Took you a long time."

Hollander's big brown eyes went wide, but didn’t make eye contact. He never looked Ilya in the eyes when they faced off. They hadn't exchanged many words the last few years. "What?"

"For engagement. Second thought? Is she missing something in particular?" Ilya asked with a smirk. "She does not hit all the right spots."

"Fuck you, Rozanov."

"Other way and not anymore," he said quietly before the ref skated into his periphery.

"You're such an asshole."

"All right boys, settle. Keep it clean."

[marlenemckinn]

My Heartbeat by Fivepips (Chapters 2/33)

“Okay.” He gave a nod as both of their phones dinged. He didn’t bother to pull it out, knowing it must be some news story. “I will be back from road trip Friday.”

“Mm, yeah, that’s fine. I’ll be — damn finally.” He looked up from his phone. “Rose Landry got engaged. She’s been dating your buddy there for years, eh?”

Even though Ilya had enough time to prepare for this, it felt like someone punched him right in the solar plexus. He grabbed his coffee, turning away from Tadhg as he took a breath and attempted to train his face to neutral. It had been a long time since he had to pretend to not care about something. “Hollander is not my buddy.”

“Yeah, well you’re work colleague. They’ve been dating for like three years, right?”

Just shy of four years. It will be four year since Ilya blew up their relationship in only two weeks. Then two weeks after that will be four years for Hollander and Landry.

[spitblossoms]

[allthingsteddy]

We’ve reached the finale of All Things Teddy Fest! We encourage you to revisit the works you liked and take a moment to leave kudos, comment on, and share them—your support brightens the day for our creators, who make this festival possible. A big thank you to everyone who participated, from our talented creators to all of you who engaged by reading, liking, commenting, and sharing. Thank you for making this event a success!

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[noodle-the-queen]

Ao3 does not need an algorithm, you're just lazy

Ao3 does not need a 1-5 star rating system, you just want to bring down authors writing for FREE

Ao3 does not need automatic censorship, it is an archive, therefore anything can be posted

Writing or reading about something illegal does not mean the author nor the reader condones it, if that were true, you could never read a story involving anything negative

Purity culture is ruining fan culture and you all are fucking annoying

[marlenemckinn]

1, 16, 26 for soft asks <3

Sorry for the delay! It got lost in spam messages I’ve been getting.

1. What song makes you feel better?

- It depends. Lately it’s been How Bad Do Ypu Want Me by Gaga because it’s such a bop.

16. What’s something you want to create soon?

- One of my fest fics! I’m struggling with one of them and causing my to ignore all my other writing.

26. If you could live anywhere with anyone you want where would it be and who would you bring?

- My friends and I always joke we just need to have our own compound/commune. I think I’d being us to Galway, Ireland or somewhere in Tuscany just because they’re my favorite places I’ve been so far. Also @jennandblitz and co are invited to join as well 😂

[wolfstarlibrarian]

Re-posting fics: How not to be an asshole

I know, kind of salty for a heading, sorry, but we got some stuff to talk about. (Also, sorry I haven't been around as much but my life has been WONDERFULLY full, so thank you to everyone who's checked in. ❤️)

I've gotten a few asks in my inbox and I don't want to embarrass anyone and I also don't want to inadvertently give any future scoundrels and any tips.

"I love this fic but the author took it down, so I'm going to repost it on AO3, and just mention that I'm not the author"

NO! ABSOLUTELY NOT! *sprays you with water*

You have a copy of the fic. Kudos. But if they author wanted it on AO3 then IT WOULD BE ON AO3. Taking a fic not on A03 and putting it on A03 is a massive "fuck you!" to the author. The ultimate sign of disrespect to someone who put HOURS AND HOURS of work into their. FOR FREE. The LEAST we can do as fans is GIVE RESPECT.

Authors are not corporations. Authors are not sponsored. Authors are not "content creators". They are HOBBYISTS who are sharing their HOBBY with you.

Enjoy the fact that you have the fic.

If the author wanted it shared in ANY WAY they would put it back on A03.

Also I hate that I have to say this, but this same logic goes for Wattpad, Goodreads, Fanfiction.net, PDFs on reddit, and every site ever. Please stop.

"But no one is getting hurt"

Many authors took down work because they don't want their art mined by AI and you're putting it back up for AI.

Many authors took down their work as a rebellion against JKR and you're spitting in their face while they're trying to protest something.

Many authors took down their work because they're trying to pitch it as a book and they can't because agents and publishers search for the phrases and go "Well this exact story is already up for free and it's got gross, X-rated material I didn't see in my draft, so I'm definitely not giving them a book deal now". Congrats, now you'll never get a published and bound copy of your favorite fic.

Many authors took down their work because they are no longer proud of their work and they've grown as an artist and having the work up brings them daily shame, but you put it back up anyway.

Many authors took down their work for reasons that WE WILL NEVER KNOW and it's still our place to respect that.

Look, I support piracy. Corporations don't let us own anything anymore, so pirating isn't even stealing. But fanfic authors are not corporations. And you can't own a fic that isn't yours.

These authors have NOTHING but control over their work and you are stealing that. You are ruining their art, after they made it for you, for free.

If you love something, respect it.

I know you think you're helping fans by reposting a fic but I can't tel you how many authors I know that no longer post their fics BECAUSE THEY KNOW PEOPLE WILL STEAL THEM.

Reposting fanfics is killing fandom.

What do you do as a fan when you see reposted fanfics?

If you can, find and tell the author so they can take legal action.

Bully the author. Respond to every single comment on A03 and tell them exactly why the fic shouldn't be online, and why they shouldn't be supporting the non-author who published the fic without the author's consent

Go to the re-poster's social media and spread the word there. IDC anymore.

Talk about it with your friends and in servers. Every time you see someone asking for "PDFs of a fic" on tiktok go ape shit in the comments and get all your friends to help.

Okay, rant done. And remember, if you feel powerless, you will always have the power fanfic authors. You're part of this community. Your value and actions matter.

[wolfstarlibrarian]

A few more thoughts.

People repost fics and share PDFs because of 2 reasons:

They want attention. In a society that has taught them popularity is the highest currency, this seems like a great shortcut.

They don't care and think no one else does.

They think they're helping people

So, if you want to stop people from doing this, you must educate them and shatter their illusions by:

Making sure they only receive negative attention, enough to make them want to take the fic down. (This is how we stopped the lunchbucket impersonator)

Let them know that you and your friends care that what they're doing is shitty.

Point out to them how much they're harming the authors that create the work that they love. Repeatedly. Until they take it down.

Okay this feels real aggressive for my account I can't not say anything as so many fanfic authors lament to me about this problem. You haven't heard how it breaks their hearts, how they don't feel safe to post anymore because someone will steal it, to know someone will always take advantage of something meant as a shared gift.

Reposters don't know how many authors they hurt by reposting and that is a privilege they exploit.

[metamorphesque]

[queermasculine]

[gripping the sink] perfectionism does not help me avoid embarrassment or shame. perfectionism is in itself a form of shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame. when i struggle with perfectionism i struggle with shame

[riffingtheverse]

this feels like one of the lesser known bene gesserit litanies

[captainofthetidesbreath]

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