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Do You Suffer from Smiling Depression? How Is It Different from ‘Depression’?

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Many people suffer in silence about issues in their lives. They hide their pain behind a smile.

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A letter to my boss

I want to apologize for being snippy and hard to work with as well as letting the team down without any explanation earlier today. As you know I suffer from bi-polar disorder, and most of the time my medication works and I am able to handle the ups and downs that come with this disease. Sometimes though, episodes can be triggered and for me it happens when I get overly stressed. The episode started yesterday when I needed to work on the fulfillments, at least I think. I was able to make it yesterday and was doing okay until around 12/12:30 but when I went to lunch today something happened that caused me to spiral. I was about to snap and needed to leave before I said or did anything that I would regret later.

Sincerely,

#mental health #mental illness #bipolar #bipolar disorder #depression #anxitey #living with mental illness #having a career with bipolar #corporate america #real life #life long illness

A letter to my co-workers

Team,

I want to start off by saying I'm sorry. I know I get snippy, unreasonable and mean for no apparent reason. I also want to say that though this is news to you all, it is something that I have dealt with for more than half my life. It doesn't change who I am to you but I want to explain because it has been affecting me at work more so this year than it has in the past. I suffer from bi-polar disorder, depression and anxiety. I am on medications for this, which work most of the time. Sometimes though, my disease will overpower my medication. This can lead to me being irritable, short-tempered, and a wide range of emotions that tend to change on a moments notice. I have "coping skills" that I use to help settle myself down but that only works so much. Today was a prime example of my disease taking ahold of me: I seemed fine in the morning, grumpy, but not unreasonably so. The orders/fulfillments started to pile up at my desk which caused anxiety to start coursing through me. I put on a face around noon because I was taking a break, I could relax for a moment and get back to my "normal self". Instead though, I went into a full episode because of something small that happened while I was on my lunch. I attempted to settle myself down, I managed to get myself presentable for work, angry and irritated but I intended to work. Instead, when I got back to the office to see all the orders at my desk and I flipped. The calming techniques that I had just used to settle myself down just went out the door. Less than 10 minutes after getting back from my lunch, I was about to go into a full-out meltdown. I wasn't going to be able to control myself very well and I needed to leave before I wasn't able to remove myself safely. This is the point where I had tears running down my face as I left the building and also where my day ended with you. I drove home, which I really shouldn't do while in this state. I turned my phone off and fell asleep. These episodes will drain my body and one of the only ways for me to recover after a certain point is to sleep. Please understand, that I don't use this as an excuse not to work or that I fake this. I feel terrible about not being at work because of my illness or for any reason. I try my very best to work through my issues everyday, but sometimes I am not able to. I am now sitting at my computer debating whether I should send this or not. This is something that is incredibly personal and not something that I talk about. I will talk about mental health and the issues in society/workplace but I rarely mention it is something I deal with personally. I am exposing a huge piece of me that most do not ever see and I am not sure if it is a great idea. However, I feel that it is something you have a right to know since me not being at work has a huge impact on everyone's workload. I appreciate you taking the time to read this,

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #depression #anxitey #living with mental illness #having a career with mental illness #bipolar life #bipolar explanations #working with bipolar #working with depression #life long illness #real life #corporate america #mental health #mental illness

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An Insult To Feminists & My Generation?

Am I a horrible female, millennial, and person for wanting to be a stay-at-home wife and mother?

I feel as though I am a disgrace to my gender and generation because I have no want to be a career woman and/or single. I want the house with 3 kids playing in the backyard on the swingset and the dog running around with them. I want my kids to come home and have a parent there to greet them and help with homework. I want to have dinner ready for my husband when he gets home from work. Family is so important to me and I want to put my family first. I don’t need a big, fancy house, an expensive car or the newest designer handbag. Give me a comfortable pair of jeans and a t-shirt, a good book with a cup of chai tea latte and I am a happy camper. I am not saying that having nice things would not be nice, I just know that having only one income limits the available spending money.

I work now and provide for myself (cell phone, car, insurance, clothing, necessities, food, and care for my dog; the only thing I don’t pay for is rent - I live with my dad), so I am in no way lazy. I work for all that I have and help out around the house. But having a career has never appealed to me. I wanted to be a”babysitter” when I was in kindergarten. Caring for others and being a mother-hen is part of my makeup.

I just never feel comfortable sharing how I feel about any of this because of how everyone reacts. If you are a stay-at-home mother/wife, you are looked at as weak, dependent, dumb and unable to speak/think for yourself. Why is that okay? These mothers raise the children, keep a clean house, have food on the table, do the grocery shopping, walk the dog, washes everyone’s clothes, help with homework, support their husband’s and children’s activities, cheer everyone on when they need a boost, chauffeur the kids to school and ballet/football/soccer and everything else in between. These mothers don’t get paid to take care of their family, they do it because they want to. Don’t insult someone who rather take care of their family rather then go to an office everyday. Just like you choose your career and how you live your life, others get to do the same, even when you don’t agree with how they live. I shouldn’t feel uncomfortable when I say I want to be a mom and have no desire to have a career beyond motherhood.

*Side note: I am not saying I refuse to work, if it is needed then I will. But if given the option, I would rather spend time and energy caring for my family.

#insult #generation gap #motherhood #feminism #millennials #just accept it #not your choice #don't judge #stay-at-home-mom #stay-at-home wife #being female #21st century #career

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If you park like that you’re a f*cking goose

#not a pond #it's okay #puddles #goose #silly goose #optimistic goose #parking lot

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*hears first 0.00000334 seconds of the song* *REBLOGS THE SHIT OUT OUT OF IT*

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magical. that is all.

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IT’S BACK!!!!!!!!

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I wish it was on iTunes!

#can dreams come true #itunes please #itunes #apple #taylor swift #ellie goulding #Rachel Platten #P!nk #reblog forever #love this #LOVE #wishes please #a dream is a wish your heart makes

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oh my god. this is great!

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Watch: Franchesca Ramsey’s powerful video about rape and victim blaming is more relevant than ever.

#truth #stop the victim blaming #reality

So I was driving the convertible and come up on a red light. I of course have the music loud because the top is down. I notice some people are crossing the street and then this song comes on. I turn bright red and start smirking. The couple is watching me and laughing with me as the opening lines are starting.