Making Sense of Whatever This Is

[acupofkeen]

Just the other night I stared blankly at my bedroom wall asking myself how often I’ve done that in the past. How often have I drowned in my uncertainty? How often have I spoke ill of my choices when they didn’t turn out the way I had imagined? Is there ever truly a way of knowing what the future can look like? No matter how far ahead I plan, and as intrinsically as I map out every detail of every decision, there is still no way of knowing where it is I will truly end up. But there’s also a huge chunk of my gut telling me that it will always be okay. No matter what. No matter how often I dread tomorrow in my sleep. No matter how late I stay up at night trying to figure it all out. No matter how crazy I drive my boyfriend about my fears and insecurities, no matter that. It’s all going to be okay, anyway. 

[acupofkeen]

Just the other night I stared blankly at my bedroom wall asking myself how often I’ve done that in the past. How often have I drowned in my uncertainty? How often have I spoke ill of my choices when they didn’t turn out the way I had imagined? Is there ever truly a way of knowing what the future can look like? No matter how far ahead I plan, and as intrinsically as I map out every detail of every decision, there is still no way of knowing where it is I will truly end up. But there’s also a huge chunk of my gut telling me that it will always be okay. No matter what. No matter how often I dread tomorrow in my sleep. No matter how late I stay up at night trying to figure it all out. No matter how crazy I drive my boyfriend about my fears and insecurities, no matter that. It’s all going to be okay, anyway. 

[acupofkeen]

“Maybe you’re in your mid-20s, and you’re going through some tough mental health issues, and you’re feeling left out in life. Maybe you sometimes ask yourself if it’s too late for you to heal. To turn everything in your life around. Some people who are younger than you have it all together. Sticking with your depression seems to make a lot of sense. You’ve learned so late about stuff. Maybe it’s your passion for writing poetry or painting or making music. You’ve learned that you’ve wasted years doing useless things. You’re now living a life filled with regrets, and I’m here to tell you that you’re not alone in feeling this way and that you are never too late to heal. Everyone has made mistakes. Everyone has wasted years. Everyone has their own regrets. And you and I are late bloomers in passion and in healing. We don’t need to compare our progress to anyone other than ourselves. We are what overcomes us at the present moment. We are not prisoners of our pasts, but we are pioneers of our futures. So please, let’s not stop writing poems, painting, and making music because this is what we love doing because we’re artists. Each and every single one of us is a revolution in the flesh conquering the tyranny of regret and despair. Each and every single one of us are heroes that make the world a better place through healing ourselves through our art. Yes, we are going through our quarter-life crisis, but that’s not going to stop us from creating and healing while there’s still air in our lungs and blood pumping through our hearts. We are never too late to heal because we’re just getting started and we’re going to leave this place filled with hope and self-love.”

— Juansen Dizon, You Are Never Too Late To Heal (via juansendizon)

[jscuttish]

[harlings]

[elizabetbennet]

[seedling]

it is actually really sweet when someone stays up late to talk to you

[bigmoose690]

What if they fall asleep by accident though?

[bigbutt-nobuts]

then you love it even more because they stayed up even though they were dead tired just to talk to you ya doof

[kawaii-blog-love]

Anime Kawaii ♥

[lustik]

Drawings by Elliana Esquivel.

Artists on tumblr

Etsy Shop

[paradiseforlana]

[austabeclair-deactivated2017063]

Dita Von Teese

[strangehorse]

my boyfriend and I sometimes struggle to be on the same page when it comes to comforting- often i just want to vent and don’t need advice, whereas validation confuses him and he wants a plan of action

to counter this, we’ve come up with a system where we ask: “do you want advice, empathy, both or neither?” 

if it’s just advice, i know to go straight to action points and not spend time on fluffy words 

if it’s just empathy, he knows i want to be reassured and comforted and that’s all

if it’s both, it’s time for advice that recognises how hard the situation is and is perhaps gentler in nature

if it’s neither, just a hug is really good

i recommend trying to use this in your lives! it makes sure you’re giving and getting what you need, and reduces the risk of resentment or similar

[eseotromundo]

[marymieanne]

2:48 AM. Wishing I was 15 again. Echos.

[marymieanne]

How do I reach out for you? How do I stop myself from feeling completely dettached?

[acupofkeen]

I do not have time for things that hold no substance.

Keen Malasarte, On Growing Up. (via acupofkeen)

[marymieanne]

And I hope you never read this. I really hope you don't.