Something Edgy

23 and unwell 🙃

[randomsplashes]

[masterofrum]

We’re all just insignificant people writing small words that sound big together.

[masterofrum]

Prior👏🏽 consent👏🏽 is not👏🏽 consent👏🏽.

Prior👏🏽 consent👏🏽 is not👏🏽 consent👏🏽.

Prior👏🏽 consent👏🏽 is not👏🏽 consent👏🏽.

[masterofrum]

Honest to god, the legit only reason I haven’t become a drug addict is because I’m so socially isolated from everyone else that I have no clue where to get them from

[masterofrum]

Toxic masculinity is...

A guy deciding he wants to be just friends and then later on when he asks for nudes and you repeatedly say “no,” he decides later that day that he no longer wants to be your friend.

*Comment below with your “Toxic Masculinity” stories*

[yourrdemise]

[yourfearswillfade]

I hate my brain/mind.

I hate how one thing will set off a domino effect of anxiety, catastrophic thinking, and endless “What If’s” and planning “What if this happens…” When in reality, the “What if” almost never actually happens.

It’s exhausting. I deal with it ALL day every day. I never get a break. Even when I’m sleeping, things that my anxiety are about come into my dreams.

I’m so sick of it. Right now, I don’t know that I have nothing to worry about. But chances are, there’s not. But that chance that there IS something to worry about, is what consumes my thoughts.

It’s no way to live. And I’m so tired of it.

[breeeliss]

they don’t tell you what anxious impulsivity looks like. 

when people imagine anxiety, they always imagine risk averse behavior. you overthink, you’re deliberate, your thinking is catastrophic, and you’re always thinking through seventeen possible scenarios in which things can go wrong. 

but sometimes you’re so anxious and things feel so horrible that you do things without thinking because you want the bad feelings to stop. you say something stupid in a group chat, so you immediately leave all of your servers and block your friends so that you don’t have to see the aftermath. you’re unsure about your relationship, so you break up with your partner out of nowhere or you wake up one morning and just decide to ghost them so you don’t have to deal with it anymore. you’re uncomfortable at a party with people you don’t know, so you run outside and take the train home at 3am without realizing how dangerous that is because you just need to leave. 

your anxiety can get so bad that, in an attempt to feel safe and secure, you can’t predict what you’ll do next. 

[masterofrum]

Never enough

I don’t know what you want from me.

I started going to the gym because you like women who share your interests. But that was not enough.

I kept exercising and eating healthy until I was down 20 lbs from November. But that was not enough.

I dyed my skin orangey bronze because you thought pale was an unattractive color. But that was not enough.

I let my hair grow out for you because you always found women with long hair more beautiful. But that was not enough.

I completely changed my attitude and regained passion for life because you didn’t like that I was a realist because to you it seemed like cynicism. But that was not enough.

I drove you to and from work every early morning and every late evening to save you money that you would’ve spent on an Uber. But that was not enough.

I’ve spent every day during your last two relationships wondering what they had that I didn’t because you were so quick to commit to them but even after everything I’ve done, i came to realize that it’s never going to be enough.

[purplebuddhaquotes]

““I thought about how you’re shaped so much by the people who surround you, and how careful you have to be in choosing them for this exact reason, and then I thought, despite all that, in the end maybe you have to lose them all in order to truly find yourself.””

—

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“One day it just clicks. You realize what’s important and what isn’t. You learn to care less about what other people think of you and more about what you think of yourself. You realize how far you’ve come and you remember when you thought things were such a mess that you would never recover. And you SMILE. You smile because you are truly proud of yourself and the person you’ve fought to become.”

— Unknown

[corymonteith]

[floraborea]

“Hell is other people.”

— Jean-Paul Sartre (via neckkiss)

[masterofrum]

Okay so here’s the tea

I’ve been depressed for years now and it’s gotten especially worse since ive been in college. I haven’t regularly exercised since I started school last year until now. And guys, let me tell you I feel amazing. And it makes sense too, like exercising is good for your body and health and it increases your energy but it also makes you feel good to know you’re doing something productive to take care of yourself. It’s like a win win win. I workout 4-5 times a week and I have all of this new confidence and positivity and good vibage in my life that I never experienced as a teenager. This shit is just amazing. It’s like a constant high. After being majorly depressed pretty much constantly for 7 years, I’m starting to understand why some people actually enjoy life. I feel great and I wanted to pass that along with others who are struggling. Even if you’re not a cardio person, go to the gym and lift weights, do body weight exercises, anything! And for women, I HIGHLY recommend going to an all women’s gym. It’s so much more comfortable of an environment to exercise in. I feel wayyyy less judged and/or intimidated. Okay just wanted to share

[lovehatefully]

[octobermoodsxox-deactivated2019]

People always say “You are not alone”. Bullshit. 

People always say “You just need to ask for help”. Bullshit. 

People always say “I will be there for you”. Bullshit.

[unknownworldofwonders]

I feel like instead of going through my 20’s having fun and going out with friends, instead I’m going through a shitty depression I’ve been going through for 9 years