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The dilemma of decorating my room. If I commit to building a haven inside the very place I feel unsafe in, where the voices that unsettle me can still reach me, am I not condemned from the start? Self-expression is my only cure but it grows roots. And I know I don’t want to stay here. What’s the point of taking up space, painting the walls with my soul, only for this to become a museum for all the things that can be used against me.

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is this you

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Yes 🥹💞

The dilemma of decorating my room. If I commit to building a haven inside the very place I feel unsafe in, where the voices that unsettle me can still reach me, am I not condemned from the start? Self-expression is my only cure but it grows roots. And I know I don’t want to stay here. What’s the point of taking up space, painting the walls with my soul, only for this to become a museum for all the things that can be used against me.

#writing #get it #writeblr #art #I don’t want to talk about it

I never understood the fear of dying alone, it’s more dreadful for me to imagine living unloved

#writing #get it #blogging #art #writeblr #thoughts #life and death #abdefgh

Everyone should be more direct, we should say what’s weighing on us. Why do we make things unnecessarily complicated, make our lives less eventful and more stressful. Fill it with a silence of wondering, not saying what we feel, staying in our own head in a spiral that drowns us in the bottomless ocean of the destructiveness of our own mind, and being unable to see the way out. The lifebelt on the surface someone else could easily see. Because they’re not drowning with you, because we all drown in our own oceans. That’s why it’s easier to see another person’s way out than your own. Maybe that means we’re meant to help eachother more than we’re meant to help ourselves. Almost like we’re made for community, not this radical individualistic isolation in western society.

#writing #sociology #get it #individualism #community #isolation #philosophy #social psychology #writeblr #blogging #oscar

I just tapped into collective consciousness I’m in I’m in IM IN

#I could see everything #birds perspective #collective consciousness #Downloading data #yeah #blogging #stream

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Elio… elio elio elio elio

Why do I wrap everything up in metaphors, so if someone hears me, their own projection onto my words overshadows the part of me I poured into them. I thought making art was my way of speaking my truth but I often end up forming it into a collective truth. Digestible, for everyone, the essence of the thing, never the thing itself. Like I’m trying to teach, to enlighten. I physically can’t say what I really think and feel. Who cares. But why does even art have to be useful. Why does it have to be liked. Doesn’t the desire to move weaken authenticity. The art of creating for the sake of creation. For the sake of raw unfiltered expression. It’s not easy to name things. Sometimes I get scared if I do it will make them real. And persistent. Because I don’t want this to be my reality, I don’t accept the darkness as my identity. Maybe just as an integral part of me. I don’t want to think and feel the way I do. I do it anyways but if I name it, what if I can never get rid of it. What if the taste never leaves my tongue.

#get it or not #art #writing #just hit rock bottom again ill be fine tmrw #philosophy #I don’t care #literature #Not editing this im tired

Want to be the moon but the sun refuses to illuminate me, but the moon is only the moon when it has a witness, because definitions only exist to the definers.