( TIMOTHÉE CHALAMET, 24, CIS MAN ) I just bumped into [ MATHIEU 'MAT' BERINUT ] the other day while walking down [ NORTH ] Kingsboro, where [ HE/HIM AMBITIOUS ] and [ OVERSENSITIVE ], but when I think of them I immediately think about [ BEARDS, FUTURE OSCARS, AND GUCCI ]
Roman gave the other male an instant glare when he asked if he wasn’t always a mess, because Roman had genuinely been trying to get on better terms with Mat, and the man was just stepping on his nerves even more intensely. “What’s your problem?” He finally asked, sitting up a little while keeping eye contact with the other. “Seriously. It’s like you have some vendetta against me and want to constantly piss me off.”
Mat wouldn’t go as far as to say he had a personal vendetta towards Roman. He was too busy too waste much time on things like that but he could at least admit the other wasn’t his favourite person in the world. Nothing personal other than the fact that they started off on the wrong foot. It was hard not to dislike him after the whole mess that was Sky. Now that his ‘ex’ was out of the picture though, there was no reason why they couldn’t try to start over. Some habits were just a little hard to break. “I wouldn’t do it so often if you didn’t make it so easy to piss me off.”
trav shrugged it off, it did bother him, but not enough to make a big deal about it anymore, after all, as long as mat was happy, he was happy. even if his insecurities often had him wondering what mat saw in him and if the comments by fans and management would eventually get between them…he hoped not and he pushed the thoughts from his mind at mat’s reassurances, which came often. “babe, i said it’s not a big deal, and it’s not. i don’t even post, so it’s all good.” he looked up with a grin now and pursed his lips, “it’s uh…” he chuckled, “it’ll be fine.” he spoke, unsure if that was entirely true considering he’d already been having trouble with the schedule aspect of the job, but when he was working he was doing a good job and he was hoping that would make up for all his miss shifts and lateness, though he was pretty sure that wasn’t how jobs worked. “it’ll be good.” he promised, making a note to do better. “when do you leave me again?” he asked, trying to change the topic and frowning before he stopped at the stove and pulled mat into himself, looking up at him with a pout, “you know i miss you when you go…”
Mat wasn’t sure if it was really as great as his boyfriend was making it out to be. It was true that he didn’t really post much on social media but being forced to delete everything because of the comments couldn’t be a nice feeling. Pushing the subject was pointless and would only lead to an argument so he dropped it for the moment, making a mental note to keep an eye on things. At least things at work seemed to be going well for Trav, tendency to be late aside. It probably seemed worse than it actually was. After all the only way Mat even knew about the tardiness was from some messages his boyfriend sent to the group chat. It couldn’t be that bad if he was the one always bringing it up. Mat let himself be pulled in, kissing the other’s pout away. “I’m leaving again next week but only for a few days. We should wrap up filming and then you’ll have me all to yourself permanently.” Or at least until he got himself another job.
“Hey, do you want to do a body shot off me?” Stella asked the next person who walked past her. She was currently at work, her shifts during the week always being a little slow. She didn’t even really care how much money she made tonight, considering she made a bulk of her tips during the weekend. The blonde was just….bored at the moment and in need of some new faces and entertainment. Dressed in her little hot pink lingerie set, she fanned her perfectly put on fake eyelashes, hoping they say yes.
Mat couldn’t look more unimpressed if he tried. He was already in a bad mood from his argument with Trav and he really thought going out for the night with a couple of friends would get his mind off of things but it wasn’t working. It was actually making him feel worse and getting offered a body shot off of some girl wasn’t exactly his idea of fun at the moment. “I’ll pass”, he said, barely giving her another glance. “I’m not in the mood.”
Description: Trav confronts Mat about his ‘feelings’ for Aaron and they break up...for a few hours.
Trigger Warnings: N/A
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Why didn't you tell me that Aaron meant so much to you.
Mathieu
huh?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I can handle it. I just wish you would have told me.
Mathieu
what in the world are you talking about?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
He's acting like you have this deep connection.
Mathieu
um...what?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
The only reason he hired me was because of you.
Mathieu
so what he did a favour for a friend?
did you fucking quit over this??? Are you serious?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
You know I don't want things just because of who you are.
Mathieu
it wasn’t because of who I am
fame has nothing to do with it
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
No just your asshole, right? You feelings for him, and his feelings for you.
Mathieu
what feelings?????
we’re just friends
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Sure Mat.
Mathieu
wtf
I’m being serious
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
That's not how he makes it sound. He's so connected to you. Giving me this job was him doing you a favor. Fuck that.
Mathieu
connected to me??? Do you hear yourself
we’re friendly but that’s it and he did me a favour, is that so hard to believe??
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
He's the one who said it.
Mathieu
besides he has two boyfriends...TWO
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I guess I don't go out doing favors for people I've fucked.
If you want me to move out I'll find someplace else to stay until I get another job.
Mathieu
so you’ve never fucked someone who is now your friend? Do you really want me to believe that???
are you serious
aaron told me that’s not what he said, he didn’t say we have a connection or whatever
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Have you ever had someone come up and tell you how special I am to them? After you know I fucked then and hold them up as my ultimate fuck? No.
Fine. Take his word Mat.
Mathieu
you’re not making any sense
there’s nothing between me and Aaron
yes we had sex but now we’re friends, nothing more
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I'm not your charity case. His either.
Mathieu
really?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
You had to go beg your ex fuck to give me a job. And you think I'd want that?
Mathieu
I didn’t beg him!!!!
I didn’t even ask him, I had no idea he was going to offer you a job
I just sent him a text to thank him after it all happened
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
To thank him. For hiring me based on a job I already had the skills for?
That's fucked up.
Mathieu
sending a thank you to a friend is fucked up,
*?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
A thank you for what?
I had the skills for the job. He wasn't doing you a favor.
Except as it turns out, he was. Because he cares for you so deeply.
Mathieu
you know as well as I do that others wouldn’t have been so quick to hire you with your past
and I’ve never judged you for it
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Yeah, sure.
Mathieu
I haven’t
but I also knew getting a job was going to be hard, regardless of skills
and he did it anyways so I thanked him
it’s not about a deep connection or whatever shit you’re inventing
and if he cares about me...what friends can’t care about each other?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
He's the one who said he cares about you so much. I didn't invent that.
Go on caring about him just don't expect me to take some pity job from him.
Mathieu
you know what
obviously it’s useless trying to talk with you, you’ve already chosen what you want to believe and you’re clearly not listening to a word I’m saying
I thought you trusted me a little more than this.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
So what? You're dumping me?
Mathieu
fuck you.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Okay. Fine.
Mathieu
read
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I'll find somewhere to stay then.
Mathieu
fine.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Okay then. See you, I guess.
Mathieu
fine.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I thought loved me.
Mathieu
and I thought you loved me.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I do
Mathieu
you’ve got a funny way of showing it.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Yeah, I don't like that this asshole is out here telling me how special you are to each other. That bothers me, sorry for feeling a way about it.
Mathieu
he didn’t say that
and I know for a fact because he’s in love with two other guys
and there’s nothing between us that’s so special other than tentative friendship
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I guess you're the one who doesn't trust me then. Since you believe his word over your boyfriend.
Mathieu
let’s say that Aaron somehow feels something other than friendship for me
does what I think not count for you?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
It's that you didn't tell me. And you already knew I was insecure about him.
Mathieu
how the fuck could I have told you if I didn’t know???
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I mean you already told me he was the best sex you've ever had. He's your dream guy.
Mathieu
I’ve had it up till here with that.
I said that before we were anything and I said it to make you jealous
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Well it worked.
Mathieu
and now I can’t do anything without you bringing him up over and over again
so if you’re so sure that I’m apparently in love with him, why the fuck were you with me huh?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Because I'm in love with you.
Mathieu
so am I
but obviously you don’t care about that
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
That's all I care about.
Mathieu
you don’t.
because for the past fifteen minutes I’ve been trying to talk to you about it and you won’t let me
because you’re so sure I don’t really love you that you were just waiting for the perfect excuse for you to think I’m confirming it
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Because you've only care about defending him and not caring about my feelings.
Mathieu
defending him?
there’s nothing to fucking defend Trav.
I don’t know what he told you and frankly at this point I don’t really care
what I do know is that I gave you an explanation and told you how things really are
and you don’t believe me.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I do it's just hard to get the idea that he's better than me out of my head
Mathieu
but you’re taking that out on me and it’s not fair.
I came out in front of thousands of people during the fucking oscars.
I did that for you
if that doesn’t prove I love you than I don’t think there’s anything that’s going to change your mind.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Okay, I'm sorry.
Mathieu
oh well that’s okay then
who cares that you came out of nowhere saying I’m a liar
or that I don’t love you
and not believing a word I said or telling me you’re moving out
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I never said you don't love me.
Mathieu
you said you’re sorry so it’s all good
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Fine Mat. What do you want?
You want to break up with me? You want me to go kiss the rich prick's ass for you? Take his stupid ass job that I'm overqualified for anyways? What do I have to do here?
Mathieu
Nothing Trav, you don’t have to do anything
I’ve got to go, have a meeting and then I’m going out after
don’t wait up
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
So what? We're just done?
Mathieu
that is if you’re still even living with me at this point.
you decide, I’m not the one with the problem here. Let me know when you feel like having an actual mutual conversation about this
and when you’re in the mood to listen to me
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I tried to apologize but that wasn't enough. I'm asking what you want me to do.
Mathieu
of course it wasn’t enough Trav for fuck’s sake
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Okay so what will be enough?
Mathieu
you apologise for forgetting an important date or for saying something a little rude
not for blindsiding me like this and telling me you’re moving out after barely two days of living together
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Okay well I told you I don't know shit about having a relationship.
Mathieu
Okay so what will be enough?
@𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛. (@sugarhoney) -
you figure it out.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Okay.
Mathieu
there’s not knowing shit and then there’s being a complete fucking jealous asshole
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I guess I'll try to figure it out. Sorry.
Mathieu
and guess which one’s you?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Okay. I'm sorry. I'll..fix it or whatever.
I guess I'll see you once I figure it out.
Mathieu
I have to go.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Ok
Mathieu
read
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
well...i already made dinner before we broke up or whatever so, i'll just leave it in the fridge for you. and you should eat before you go out our you'll drink too much and get sick.
Mathieu
read
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
pls babe. i don't want to break up.
Mathieu
could have fooled me.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Mat..
come on, i don't know what the fuck i'm doing here.
Mathieu
clearly.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
you said you'd help me.
Mathieu
and you said you wanted to make me happy so I guess we both failed.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
i don't make you happy?
Mathieu
I’m feeling a lot of things at this very moment and trust me Trav, happy isn’t at the top of the list
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
look...if i didn't make you happy then...maybe we should break up.
Mathieu
you’re really desperate to break up huh?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
No. But I really do want you to be happy.
Mathieu
fine, consider it done.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I'm sorry. I thought I was enough. I thought I could make you happy.
Mathieu
you do. When you’re not getting on my case about Aaron at least
it’s not even about that
why won’t you just...listen to me?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I'm trying to.
Mathieu
I really don’t know what else I can say to get you to believe me
you don’t want to work for Aaron? Fine. But if you keep doubting my feelings for you then how is this going to work?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I know. I'm sorry. It's just hard, you know? Like, no one's ever loved me before. It's just hard to wrap my head around it sometimes.
Mathieu
I love you so much and it hurts that you don’t trust me
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I trust you. I swear I do. my brain just...makes everything seem so much more complicated
Mathieu
you don’t.
we wouldn’t be discussing this if you did
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
You've never been insecure in your life?
Mathieu
I have
but being insecure and yelling at me about it are different things Trav ffs
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
well i feel like that all the time with you. and i know that's not your fault. but, you're so fucking...amazing.
Mathieu
I’m not
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
yeah you are.
Mathieu
no I’m not, I’m just like anyone else and so are you
when are you going to get that I don’t care about someone’s fame or success?
I’m with you, can’t you trust me to believe that I really don’t want anyone else?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Yes.
Mathieu
yeah?
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
Of course. I'm trying to not be so down on myself. But no one has ever shown me they love me the way you do.
Mathieu
I’m still going out tonight
I think we both need some space today
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
yeah. i have plans anyways
Mathieu
okay
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
I love you.
Mathieu
love you too.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
are you at home?
Mathieu
yeah
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
how was your night out?
Mathieu
wasn't really into it
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
oh. sorry.
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
can i...come home?
Mathieu
please
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
i'm pretty high...
Mathieu
oh
𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑜𝑛.
just weed. i might laugh a lot.
can i com home though? please? kiss you? i miss you matty
Jules had had one too much plant funerals in her life. She hated the idea of giving up on one of her babies, but this one was just too far gone. Growing plants came with its up and downs, and this was a down day for the plant owner. She had been trying to save this echeveria for what seemed like forever, She just couldn’t salvage it. With a cigarette hanging from her mouth, she walked out of her apartment building and to the dumpster in the alley next to her building. “His name was Todd. He was a troubled soul, but a good soul.” She took a puff of her cigarette before dumping the pot in the dumpster. “Goodbye old, friend.” She sighed. She wondered if there would ever come a time when she could consider herself a decent plant owner.
Mat was on his way to throw away all the dove soap he found in his boyfriend’s cupboard when he saw a girl there doing something he was too familiar with. He looked on with a look of sympathy as the girl threw away her clearly very dead plant in the dumpster. “It’s sad having to say goodbye, isn’t it? I trusted my boyfriend to look after my plants for a few days while I was away and came back to find one of them dead. Poor Robert, he didn’t deserve such a faith”, he shook his head sadly. “Rest in peace, Robert and Todd. May you find better people to take care of you in your next life.”
“well? what do you think?” lemon stared proudly up at the freshly-painted mural splashed across the wall in front of them. it had taken them the whole week, but it turned out great, and they couldn’t be more excited. “isn’t it neat? i think it’s my biggest project yet. the client pretty much gave me free reign as long as it was colourful. and you know me and colour.” he teased, flashing a grin at his fellow art-lover.
Mat wouldn’t consider himself an artist. Sometimes he doodled and sketched while distracted but it was no work of art. So most of the mural was done by Lemon while he watched and gave suggestions of what could be done to make it look even better. It never failed to surprise him how his friend could listen to what he said and turn his words into art such as the one before him. Taking a few steps back to take in the full work, Mat grinned. “It looks amazing! I think your client is going to be very impressed, as they should.”
Trav looked up form the stove and grinned, “I told you to stop that. It’s no big deal, I’m not mad or anything I just don’t really want to be in the spotlight, that’s your thing…and you’re fucking ace at it.” He spoke happily, stirring the pot and humming as he moved to the fridge to rummage through it a bit more. He loved hanging out at Mat’s, everything was clean and new, and the fridge was always stocked with fancy items that he never could afford on his own, plus he loved to cook for his boyfriend. “You are?” He grinned, “Well, hopefully it’ll work out, I’ve never really had a job before, where you have a schedule and stuff…but uh, if you think it’s sexy maybe I’ll do this job thing more often.”
Mat knew being in the spotlight wasn’t for everyone. Sometimes it was too much even for him but he loves his job too much to even think about giving it up. And now that he was out, it wasn’t so bad anymore. At least he didn’t have to date someone he hated anymore or pretend he was someone he was not. Trav was always so understanding but he still felt bad that he found himself being in a position he wouldn’t necessarily have chosen for himself. His boyfriend might not have used social media much, but the choice was always there when he wanted it. It was completely different after Mat’s coming out though. “I know, I just wish they wouldn’t bother you so much. I’m used to it but you’re not and you wouldn’t be in this position if it wasn’t for me.” The alternative was for them to keep hiding their relationship though and Mat knew that wasn’t something either of them wanted to do any more. “How’s it going so far?” Mat had seen a few messages about Trav going in late a couple of times and he worried that it could end badly but he didn’t want to put more pressure on his boyfriend, especially when he knew he was doing this for him. And although he could ask Aaron how it was going, he doubted Trav would be happy if he found it. It was bad enough that he ‘conveniently forgot’ to mention how he told Aaron he owed him for giving him the job in the first place.
“Trav’s so supportive of everything I do, even if sometimes takes me away from home for long periods of time. And it’s the way he’s always trying to be the best version of himself for me even though I love him as he is.”
what’s the gayest thing you’ve done since coming out?
“I don’t know, I’d say coming out was pretty gay? What’s considered something gay anyways? I’m just going to say sex with my boyfriend. That counts right? He’s rubbing off on me if I’m actually saying this.”
“Um...considering I only came out to the world a couple of weeks ago and my relationship is still quite new, it’s pretty safe to say that’s a no for now. I think.”
“I don’t think you could have asked me a harder question. How am I supposed to choose one single song from all of my favourites? It depends on what mood I’m in, the time of year, what I’m obsessed with at the time....so many possibilities.”
“So I managed to delete almost all my accounts on the internet, and thankfully I never had a facebook so the government can’t use facial recognition on me and stuff like that. Anyways I’m keeping my twitter because my takes are great and I’m on day 837 of Rihanna not noticing me…but I really feel like it’s gonna happen soon.” Trav explained and flashed a crooked grin, picking up his toolbox and shrugging, “Oh…and yeah, I got a job too, so I guess we could say I’m killing this adulthood thing lately.”
It didn’t matter how many times Trav told him not to worry, Mat was still going to feel bad that his boyfriend had to go through all that trouble because of him. Even though the majority were supportive of his coming out and the ones who weren’t were easy to ignore, there were still the ‘fans’ who did not take so kindly to him having a boyfriend. Why anyone would give someone he clearly cared about a hard time in their attempts to show him they liked him, he would never understand but he’d never stop feeling bad over Trav having to delete most social media. “I know you said to stop apologising but I really am sorry. I didn’t think things through and now you’re in the spotlight as well. But hey, have I said how proud I am of you for getting a job?” Mat definitely said it before but there was no harm in saying it again.
It wasn’t often that Ella had any visitors in the studio, so to say that it caught her off guard would be accurate. It wouldn’t so any harm though and the blonde could use the break, so she clearly didn’t mind. Picking up her water bottle, Ella took a sip. “It’s no problem at all.” For a moment she glanced into the mirror before looking over at him, “yeah, the joys of ballet,” she chuckled. “I’m hoping that with a bit more practice I can make the complicated movement look like second nature.”
To the untrained eye like Mat’s, the movement already looked like second nature but he also knew that he probably wasn’t the best judge considering how little he knew about ballet. “I know this probably won’t mean much coming from me since I don’t much about any sort of dancing, but I think it already looks pretty amazing. You make it look so natural.” But he also knew a thing or two about being your worst critic. Maybe it was something similar for the girl. “I guess more practice never hurts though”, he shrugged. “I’m Mat by the way, I figured I could at least introduce myself since you’re letting me hide in here.”
