Matt Jones

Everything, all at once

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http://www.cordovacanillas.com/12th-issue-mystic/

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The Cost of Love

extreme happiness comes at the cost of occasional extreme sadness i want to be swept off my feet and lose sleep thinking in love i want to be madly romantic and sometimes that means being madly disappointed and mad sad but to get to feel such great love you also open yourself up to feel such great pain

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Tough Read

you’re so hard to read like a freaking Time magazine but i keep coming back because you speak to me even when you refuse to

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Total Solar Eclipse Of The Heart

i’m the moon and you are the sun we made a pass at a beautiful thing and for a moment in time and space it was working it was a cosmic beauty we tried to make it last but we kept our set courses we orbited away from each other only to occasionally pass by it feels like we could overlap it feels like we can make something special but at the end of the day the moon is for the night and the sun, the day both beings beautiful but they are their own worlds

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How to Feel (just the right things)

everything feels right to me right now i’ve been writing a lot daily and it’s unlocked a new way to live life a way where i don’t miss things i’m connected to everything digging deep daily in your soul works i’m finding things i didn’t know were there to even look at i wake up and i feel the day i am going to have none of this makes sense on paper and it’s funny because if it weren’t on paper i wouldn’t have gotten here but i am here and i feel it i’ve arrived i’m who i was born to be if you don’t like me, ehh i do i like me makes me want to cry right now but i love me i love what i see in the world i love driving alone listening to the perfect song for that moment and feeling the air i’m just going to guess here but i feel like most people don’t know the air like i do the air is there and it’s alive it has things to say things that are meant to be felt are dealt by the air around us and if we are sucked into our technology we miss what it’s saying i’m still sucked in which is maybe why i love driving because it blows me away from my phone and the world i drive by the same world i drive by every day feels different constantly the world around us too has a mood that changes like the wind it too feels alone it longs to share moments with us i feel it i feel everything instead of being numbed by the things of our world i’m on top of it i know what i feel and why i search it out and find it and more before writing poetry or whatever this is (journaling?) i would be sad and not know why now now i know i feel something and i chase it down like a cowboy in the wild west hunting for the outlaw hunting for the reward i hunt down feelings and their sources and find peace when i shoot em dead a quick draw in the form of a poetryish rant i type and type and type and don’t look back if someone was sitting right in front of me right now and said “fella, I got $500 cash if you can tell me what you just wrote about at the beginning of this rant” i’d be just as rich/poor as i was when i wrote those lines the point is I AM ALIVE i feel alive and you should too just try it sit down and write not with the desire to write something good but to write something real take your heart out and use it as your pen find out why you are sad and then dig deeper find out why you like a girl you know you don’t actually like find out that it’s just because you want to like something find yourself and when you do keep writing and keep searching look around daily for clues to more feelings the reward? being able to sit in the grass with nothing going on no phone no music no people eyes shut just you and the air you’ll start to breath in the best conversation you’ve ever had

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I’m breathing doubt I want hope, but i’m fresh out

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love hurts

i see the sky and feel the air i feel it’s desperate to be shared

i feel like a bad romantic but a romantic nonetheless i see the need to love and the reasons i guess

i see why i can’t be alone although sometimes i really want it i feel like loving someone is easy but hurting someone is why i want to quit

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Why I Write

i was told yesterday “if i’m going to buy poetry i’m going to buy it from a real poet like walt wittman” i’m never going to be ww i’m never going to sell poetry

matt

you’re not in this game to sell poetry you are in it to better know yourself you are here, right now searching for something that makes you feel you are digging deep in the discog of thoughts to find the ones that bring back the feelings long gone for so long now you’re searching for something that makes sense you are searching for magic

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Talk

i just want someone to talk to so openly and for hours on end we would talk a perfect mix of observational nothingness and about life’s undeniable magic a delicate dance of the two we go deep and serious and seconds later we are impersonating jerry seinfeld i need someone with all green lights no idea is too crazy no conversation is too weird no thing shouldn’t be talked about i want or really i desperately need weird conversations i need someone who is also thinking about how weird people are and yet how beautiful we are and lucky to be alive how we are all monsters and angels i just think if my life were a tv show and us together is an episode i’d lose all my viewers by just staring at a phone or a television but good dialogue that’s how we get the emmy

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Not Perfect

i don’t like perfection it’s fake i don’t like pretty it too is fake i’m into the real not lies and cheap tricks when i write i don’t always write pretty rarely if you think i shouldn’t write think again this isn’t for you this is for me and if you know me you’ve probably heard that before that should be my poem disclaimer “if you think this is bad, i don’t. that’s all that matters. also i might think it’s bad, but i still love it like a parent loves their little bastard child.” real stories have rabbit trails real talks aren’t perfect and fumble real thoughts aren’t filtered filtered filtered emphasis on filtered real is real and it flows fast if you like the kardashians you won’t like this if you like reading a man’s brain transcript you’ll love this this is real - this is me

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Only She

lately i’ve been thinking of sunset walks and rainy day make outs picking flowers and people watching together but we’re not together whoever you are some days i feel like i’m made to be alone and be alone forever other days i feel like there is part of me that isn’t meant for me to hold it’s for someone else to take and take with great joy or that maybe there is a deep part of me locked up and locked away and some woman out there has the key and only she can open me up to my full potential only she can teach me what loving someone is like

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Writing wrongs

i feel a lot daily i feel a lot hourly i feel a lot minutely some of you understand the feeling others wish you felt more but imagine being sad and not knowing why to find why you have to go searching the hay stack of your soul for the needle that pricked your heart and made you hurt i do that here i write  till i find out why i write and why i feel i write till i find the wrong and then i write the wrong