Jan 27, 2025
memory holes litter my mind, blotting out years. i don’t follow the rabbit down them.
#river dipping#theodore doe#echthroi#ts4#ts4 edit#ts4 screenshots#cw blood#i had these long rambling tags talking about the logistics of this edit bc i didn't actually want to talk about the edit itself#realized i was avoiding it and just deleted all of them. this is the edit i wanted to make for theo's birthday back in september.#i've worked on this preset/build/pose/edit in small sections for weeks now but finally locked in these past two weeks.#this is fifteen year-old theo in the hallway of his summer boarding school#i’ve talked previously about how theo has these gaps in his memory and struggles with probing questions about his past...#he has a very negative reaction to being asked them and there’s this dread that rises when there's nothing that floats to surface.#like memory is a reel of film left too long out in the sun. overexposed. spotty.#dizzy with all the light in his eyes when he tries to remember what used to fill the gaps.#it gets worse the further back he tries going like something’s sunken in there and he can’t touch his feet to it.#so he doesn’t think about it. he doesn’t follow the rabbit down.#this is only a glimpse of what spills out when a door is left ajar in his mind.#that's all i'll say#my oc...#yeah#quality kind of got nuked despite resizing so zoom if you want to see the details better
