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anyway notes is simultaneously really good and really bad
I watched new(ish) Matty interviews the whole way home and it’s made me actually want to write something for the first time in like a year
#george daniel is my biggest hobby... and my greatest fear.
whats your favorite dlid/pre-1975 song of theirs?
Is this even a question?? I can’t believe we’re back on emerald hill... is obviously the only right answer.
posting your fic on AO3 like
June was a vibe. Give us moreeee. Also, I can't believe that was three years ago. Wtf
June was the worst thing that happened to this blog because I was an angsty fuck
#j u n e and Other Things That Ruined My Life: An Autobiography by mattyrambles
I want #matty healy to stomp on me.
k e l s e y // sonic youth
I didn’t see much of George after the night at Penelope’s. The false security of being alone, drunk and mega high didn’t extend to everyday life. In the following weeks I often wondered if it had even happened at all - if George Daniel and I had really exchanged middle names and shared body heat on Penelope’s sofa.
The night clung in dreamlike sequences - waking up the next morning, alone and disorientated. A bit hungover. George was gone, the only proof he had been there rested in the empty bags of Doritios, cans of coke, slight indents on the couch cushions, and the numb fuzziness of pins and needles running up and down my legs from his weight.
In morning light - the house was quiet, an eerie kind of tranquility. Penelope and Matty - still asleep, her bedroom. Encased in blankets, soft sounds. Her room exudes warmth, unlike the rest of her house. Huge - too much space, cold and empty. Although it could be the neutral colours, the unsmiling family photos, the generic portraits of wine bottles and grass fields that only people who don’t understand art buy to fill walls and offer the pretense that they did. It could be the pang of jasmine and lavender that hangs in every room - a sign that the house wasn’t lived in as it meant to be, it didn’t have that distinct family smell. Always clean and crisp. It could be the plastic plants scattered among rooms - ferns, orchids, lilies. Always in the same positions, never wilting. I always felt like the house was dying - a beautiful kind of decay.
I couldn’t stand to be there alone.
Matty’s bike - left laying on the grass from the day before, I cycled home. I would have texted him to tell him to pick it up later - but my phone was dead. My house was quiet - like Penelope’s, so quiet I flinched and held my breath when the front door shut a bit too loudly behind me. No one was awake yet, but unlike Penelope’s the walls held life, warmth - a snore drifting down the stairs, the dog pattering around the kitchen, the smell of dinner from the night before. A clock ticks and the stairs creak with natural groans when the sunlight hits the wood. A kind of relief that I wonder if Penelope ever feels - the comfort of being home.
It’s two weeks later that I see them all together in one place again - Penelope’s friend’s house, I could never remember her name - despite having met her over and over again. She was pretty in a conventional way - like Penelope, her hair a lighter shade of brown with more waves than curls, her eyes a lighter shade of blue, more ice than ocean, her lips less full but more defined than Penelope’s trademark pout, her jaw and cheekbones harsher, scattered freckles and overall more asymmetrical features than her friend. She has a septum piercing, I think that makes her self entitled. Her house is just as big as Penelope’s - and just as cold, empty. More neutral colours, fake plants, fake paintings, although it smells different. Sandalwood.
“You, you drank my raspberry vodka at Adam’s last weekend.”
“Oi, you stole my fucking bike.”
“So.. Kelsey has a thing for Layla.”
Accusations - always seem to follow me around lately. Room to room. The first is hurled from a drunk blonde kneeling on the kitchen island, clutching a bottle of what I assumed to be - raspberry vodka. I don’t know her, but I know her name is Emma, there’s a lot of Emma’s. There’s also a lot of Adam’s. I only know two, and I wasn’t at either of their houses last weekend. And on top of that I don’t like raspberries, raspberry flavoured things. She holds out the bottle, I shrug. She calls me Penelope, I shrug.
The second is posed on the stairs - a strangely sober Matty blocking my path. I don’t hear what he says the first time, Radiohead. He leans in closer - the vibrations of his voice, lips brushing against my ear sends me into a fit of giggles, drunken sounds. Curling - around his torso, efforts to push past him, continue up the stairs. Something he disallows, pushing me back - keeping a grip on my arm, we’re balanced halfway up the stairs, his knuckles whiten.
“Jesus Christ, what are you on, Kelsey?”
I can't tell if he says it in a harsh, patronizing tone - or if it's in a soft, curious way. My eyes struggle to focus on him, his voice hazed with static. I must look a mess - I do look a mess, knowing - precise eye makeup smudged from forgetfulness and the lifelong habit of rubbing my eyes, my hair frizzed from the rain, tights ripped from the fall after running through said rain, and a dark stain that smells like whiskey on my shirt.
I’ve only been here for an hour.
“Listen - Kels, have you seen Pen?”
It drags out - slowly, and I shake my head - slowly. I haven’t seen Penelope in days, no one’s seen Penelope in days.
A body tries to push past us, a face I vaguely recognize as one of the Adam’s. Matty doesn’t really try to move out of the way - his nails graze skin, his grip on my arms. Maybe Adam smiles and holds up a hand as he passes - a peace offering, a tab.
Before I can accept - a hand clamps over my mouth, Matty. My sounds of disdain drowned by Matty’s threatening sounds of - “Keep moving, mate.”
Maybe Adam raises his other hand - holding a beer bottle, the classic non confrontational stance, continuing down the stairs, a trail of sorry’s. I wonder if Matty heard Penelope’s name mixed in with the apologies too. Just fades into High and Dry. Penelope’s favourite Radiohead song.
Matty tenses. A hiccup - raspberry vodka, I gag and for a second I’m sure I’m going to puke.
I do puke.
In his strange sense of sobriety and obligations of responsibility - he reacts quick, not missing how I gag, shudder. His hand pulls from my mouth, instead grasping the back of my neck, pushing my head over the banisters - just in time, vomit splattering over the hardwood floors. Safely away from us. From him - the initial target.
“Fuck’s sake, fucking hell.”
He huffs - when I heave for a second time. Fingers - rough, raking through my hair, clearing it from my face. I think it’s too late for that. Pulling me back up - after a few seconds, I wipe my jumper sleeve over my mouth - his face blurred, tears collecting. I feel like shit - in every sense. The bitter taste - my mouth, and fucking raspberries. A muttered ‘sorry’ and then I do the utmost cliche of starting to cry, sob. I don’t even know why. It takes him a few seconds to realise - preoccupied with eyeing the few passing bodies below us that dodge around the splatters of puke with sounds of disgust, or maybe he was looking for Penelope.
Attention - turning back to me, shoulders shuddering, soft sounds reverberating from my throat, I start to find it hard to breath. A surprised sound curls around my name, dismayed concern coating his words.
“Kelsey, are you - shit, no don’t do that. It’s okay, love - it’s okay. C’mere.”
Arms wrapping around me - pulling me into him, he sits down on one of the steps, I hadn’t realised that I had been struggling to stand, and I kind of slump into him - despite being too hot, skin prickling, warmth from him, the room. I feel dizzy - head spinning, and a bit sick again.
Matty shushes me - it’s a soft sound, a lot more gentle than the curses of annoyance a few minute ago. I see stars - statics of colour, when I close my eyes, pressing them into his shoulder. That cool thing everyone did as kids, pressing the heels of your palms to your eyes. It’s not so fun when you’re drunk and tripping out. I think it makes me feel more sick.
“You’re okay - it’s only a bit of sick, nothing to cry about, darlin’,”
Except now that I’ve started - I can’t stop. Smearing - makeup, vomit, and snot on his shirt. I don’t know if he doesn’t realise, or if he just doesn’t care. There’s not enough air reaching my lungs, leaving me to make those stupidly annoying uneven sighs and hiccups. His hands rub circles against my back in replacement of words. Scattered shush’s and ‘it’s alright’s’.
I try to tell him it’s not the sick, it’s not anything really - but it’s everything. I'm drunk, and high. I don’t want to be here, I don’t know why I came here. My head is pounding, stomach churning - there’s too many people, too many voices. Obnoxious kind of sounds that only teenage girls are capable of making - pass remarkable titterings, censorious snickers wrap around Penelope’s name while they edge past us on the stairs. A rumble in Matty’s throat tells them to piss off.
Shudders - rake through me, hiccups and sighs ensue, although the tears stop, I think, or maybe I’m just beyond feeling them. My throat hurts now too, and I’m still struggling to get a grip on my breaths. Hands - almost absentmindedly circling my back, my ear is pressed against his throat, blood flowing. His pulse is steady, calm - it sounds like how I want to feel. He stops telling me to relax, breathe - maybe he’s figured it’s not going to work. But I want him to talk - I wonder if he does will it make me feel less detached, and I manage to get a groan of his name out between sighs and hiccups.
“S’alright, look - try counting it out, yeah?”
Another groan in response. I don’t know what he means, I feel too fucking dizzy - trying too hard not to puke again.
“One,”
Someone’s turned up the music, Sonic Youth grumbles from the walls. Somebody shouts that Sonic Youth’s shit, for something better to be put on.
“Two,”
I’m either going to puke or pass out - fingers clutching onto him tighter.
“Three,”
Schizophrenia is Penelope’s favourite Sonic Youth song, the only Sonic Youth song she knows. It drives Matty mental, she owns three band tshirts.
“Four,”
Shadow of Doubt is my favourite Sonic Youth song, I’ve told her to listen to it. She never does. Matty likes Teenage Riot, or any of the Daydream Nation album. I don’t think she’s listened to that either. Not properly.
He starts over when he gets to four, and to my surprise it actually starts to work. Focusing on his pulse - in sync with his counting. Everything else fades - the voices, music, the dizziness, sickness, and Matty becomes a sort of anchor. Sparse sniffles. I wonder where he’s learned it from. He didn’t seem the type to be into meditation or whatever.
“Better?” A whisper, after a few minutes. A nod - into his shoulder. I don’t know exactly what his counting magic did, but it made me relax - brought me back to the less anxious more chilled high. I still felt fucked, still shaking - but in a better way. My head is lifted off his shoulder, and I can’t tell if it’s voluntary or on his prompting, but suddenly I’m looking right at him. Faces inches apart, and I’d never realised that his eyes were sort of pretty. More green than brown, up close. His breath smells of spearmint - rather than cigarettes, for once.
Fingers - push back strands of hair that stick to my cheeks, drying tears, probably snot. Either not having a tissue or not bothering to look for one - he uses the end of a shirt sleeve to wipe my face. I guess he thinks that his shirt is already ruined anyway - puke, makeup, tears, snot. It’s kind of disgusting. It’s a mess, I’m a mess. Incinerate is playing, a bit more quiet, whoever hates Sonic Youth managed to turn down the music.
“You’re a fucking mess, love.” A sigh - but there’s a smile in the sigh, on his lips.
That’s how George finds us.
that George piece felt like you'd taken the exact idea of his personality and behavior from my head and slapped me with it using proper english. bless.
lol aw this made me giggle - thank you so much angel!
@pitysxxx is the inspo blog 4 this one btw
the latest thing u wrote made my mood so smiley and soft love
Aw this is cute thanks bby
Thanks for the G piece. You did awesome as always. 🤘
lol it was pure shite but thanks angel
thursday
Waking up in a uncommon place isn’t out of the ordinary for George. Finding himself in spare beds, occupied beds, couches, bedroom floors, bathroom floors, kitchen floors, back gardens, bathtubs, bins. It takes him a minute to adjust, to situate around the dull throbs echoing - his head. He can tell he’s in a bed - at least there’s that.
The first thing he realises is that it’s raining - hard. Pounding - against the window, the pavements outside. Almost in time with the aches circling his skull. He can smell it nearly as clear as he can hear it - window open. Cool air mingling with weed and coffee.
The second thing that breaks through the haze of his hangover, music. Drifting - he doesn’t recongise it, but it still sounds familiar. Quiet and angsty - if American Football and My Bloody Valentine had a baby. Emo lyrics, melancholy melodies - it reminds him of long days spent in Matty’s garage, Pete’s back garden, writing about everything and nothing. His youth - early adolescence. He likes it - deciding whoever put it on has good taste, rolling onto his back.
The third and final things that tells him where he is, who’s bed he’s in - the musk of jasmine and vanilla, fairy lights strung over his head - eyes opening, black sheer curtains, and familiar posters, pictures. A dorm room, your dorm room.
Sitting up, hand dragging through his hair - dim light, dark clouds, thunder rolling not too far in the distance. Lights flicker and tremble - casting shadows. Eyes heavy with sleep, glimpses of you - sat across the room, a desk chair, an old t-shirt, bare legs pulled your chest, hair a mess of waves around your shoulders, bed hair - spliff, hanging from your lips. Focused - your laptop, fingers relentless against the keyboard.
He watches through hazed vision - waking up, adjusting. That weird kind of feeling bubbling in his stomach, the more awake he becomes - not fully panic, but waves of anxiety, drunken amnesia. Thoughts of what he did, how he ended up in your bed. His jeans are still on but his shirt is gone, so are his socks. His feet are cold.
Blurred vision - hesitating on the bin, an empty Domino’s box, bottle of tequlia. The sight alone enough to bring his stomach to flip and throat to close, resurfacing memories.
Friday night, nearing ten - showing up unannounced with a tequlia bottle in one hand, a pizza box much too big for two people, and a smile that desperately tried to hide that something was wrong. And of course - a bit of weed. George.
Insisting that it was his way of saying thank you - a few weeks back, a bar, towards the end of the night, meeting him outside struggling to light a smoke. You were drunk but George was drunker. Completely wrecked with a dead phone and no Matty in sight, even after a few laps around said pub. You ended up bringing him back to your dorm, feeling inexplicably responsible for his well being. His tall frame and drunken limbs occupied most if not all of the mattress, a smaller than average double, so you left him snoring soundly on his side - in case he got sick, and crashed with one of your friends down the hall.
So a favour masked as a thank you - a thank you for taking care of him and a subtle plea to get drunk with him, give him a distraction. Because like most people who don’t deal with their emotions and refuse to face their problems, George simply wanted to get fucked up. He didn’t need to tell you something was bothering him, You weren’t one to pry. Instead of questions you pulled out leftover lukewarm beers from the temperamental mini fridge. Silent acceptance, George’s smile grew.
By twelve - the pizza box held nothing more than grease stains, empty sweet wrappers littered the floor, and idle conversations about nothing in particular circled the room, the low hum of Web in Front soundtracking. George’s focus on empty beer cans - triangled across the floor, tearing pages from an empty notebook, crumpling sheets into balls and flinging them in the general direction of the cans. Spliff - hanging from his lips, his aim, judgement is terrible. Something you laugh at between swigs of tequlia.
Entertained sounds only seeming to make him more determined - when he runs out of paper, grunts of frustration, pulling off a shoe and firing it at the cans. It too misses, instead finding a target in your lamp - knocking from the shelf, ceramic shattering over the floor. Your laughs fade into a gasp - eyes widening as they meet his.
He’s apologising - your exaggerated dismay, promises of replacing it, paying for it. Relatively blazed - finding his honest concern more amusing than you should, winding him up further. Telling him he can’t replace it - a special uni lamp, limited edition, made specifically for campus dorms, cost a fortune, and that you’ll have to pay for a replacement at the end of term.
Not quite believing that he’s actually buying it, probably the weed, or tequlia, or both - patting down his pockets in search for his wallet, mutterings of, “sorry - fuck, sorry, I’ll.. I can pay for…”
A bubble of laughter - finding the situation, George’s seriousness, suddenly immensely funny. Piercing through the illusion. Probably the weed, tequlia, both. Eyes - flickering to you, confusion, and then realisation. Practically hearing the click - gaze darting from you to the shattered ceramic.
A slow, deliberate sound. “You’re having me on.”
“You’re having me on,” Repeating - accusatory.
Fingers - a shard of ceramic, holding it out to him. An IKEA stamp. “A special Uni lamp - really, George?”
He blinks dumbly, the IKEA marking - “I’m a fucking idiot.”
“You’re an idiot,” resounding.
“Oi, piss off.”
And then his hands were on you, pulling you closer to him, across the floor. Fingers - finding places that made you shriek, squeal. Laughter entwined with protests, scrambling, and, ‘I’ll fucking special uni lamp you.”
Vain attempts - to tell him that doesn’t even make sense, to break his grip on you. Something that finally happens when your foot kicks the tequila bottle, liquor spilling, your shorts. Breathless - you blame him, the trail of destruction he’s leading around your room.
A shrug, toothy grin, and sarcastic mumbles of promises to buy you new shorts and a new special uni lamp - reaching for skins on your desk, another spliff.
Glancing up - met with an eyeroll, telling him to let the lamp thing go, but still a soft sound, laughter. Something he intends to quip back to - tongue halting, turning to lead, bare skin, your legs. Tossing tequlia stained shorts into the corner, what he assumes is your washing pile.
He doesn’t quite know why his heart begins to kick - maybe it was the drink, or the weed, or maybe it was down to the lighting situation. Fairy lights - hues of blue, flickering over skin. Your average height - but it’s the first time he’s taken notice of how long your legs are, and how smooth they are, and how pretty they are - and fuck, he thinks he’s way too high, or drunk, or both. Knowing - Matty would get months of torment out of this if he were here, how he was borderline getting off to your fucking legs.
It only worsens - turning your back to him, faintly hearing your voice, quickly drowned out - blood rushing in his ears when you pull your tshirt over your head. Earlier stains of pizza, not escaping the splatters of tequlia - he’s faced with more bare skin, your back. Nothing but your underwear left.
His heart does that weird jack hammering into his throat kind of thing, his stomach flutters and plummets. Too high, or drunk, or both.
Blue, accentuating - a tattoo beneath your shoulder blades, stretchmarks scattered across your hips, paler skin - a scar running from the back of your thigh to knee, peaking curiosity.
And then your side profile, curve of your lips, dip of your nose - glancing back, calling out his name when you realise he wasn’t listening at all. Sounds of acknowledgment - sort of, he feels a bit dizzy.
Finally - putting him out of his misery, pulling an over sized thsirt from the drawer you had been rooting through. Much too big for you - he wonders if it’s actually yours or someone else’s. He oddly finds himself hoping for the first option.
“You gonna roll that or not?” asking, giving him a strange look, kneeling back on the floor beside him, pulling your hair back, ponytail. He thinks you look prettier like that, with your hair up. He doesn’t know why - he’s never really thought about you being pretty before, not this way. Maybe in a ‘just friend’s way’. Too drunk, too high.
Nodding - your question, but his fingers fumble, hands shake, mumbled curses. His heart still pounding against his ribs. Another laugh - from you, a drunken whisper.
“George, why’re you acting like you’ve never seen a girl in her knickers before?”
His throat - closing up, eyes meeting yours, feeling his cheeks flood with heat, thankful for the shitty lighting, and he doesn’t even know why he’s suddenly so flustered. Way too drunk, too high - the only explanation.
“I wasn’t - I mean, wasn’t watching you or anything, you were just-”
The more he fails to offer excuses, the more intense your gaze on him feels. Teeth - your bottom lip, attempts to suppress giggles, spilling past your lips anyway. Another realisation - that it’s a sound he likes, loves even, your laugh.
The Streets - somewhere in the background, when laughs fade to silence, but you’re still looking at him, and he still has that weird feeling in his stomach, and it’s suddenly way too hot, blood boiling under his skin.
He wants to kiss you. An unanticipated thought - almost intrusive. Your face - closer, unsure if it was him or you that had leaned in. Not missing how your eyes slide down, lingering on his lips. Conscious - that he’s done the same to you. Way too drunk, too high.
Half sure - that he can feel your breath, that you can hear his heart beating. The room spins, everything sudden, melting, moving too fast. The innocence of earlier in the night - spiraling after the fucking lamp, tequlia, weed. Skin - prickling, stomach churning, and before he even realises what’s happening, he’s sick, puking - right into your lap.
“You snore, you know.”
Dragging him back - he blinks.
“I puked on you.”
A giggle weaving with his groan, head hitting the wall, closing his eyes. The room was too bright. Fucking tequlia.
“Yeah, you did. Fucking rank it was - all bits of pizza, and fucking red vines in it.”
He groans, again. Surprised - that you sound entertained by it, not disgusted. His skull feels like it has a pulse, or maybe his brain, or maybe both. Craving - to curl up and pass out under the duvet for another few hours, the more he remembers about the night before, the more he cringes, the more his head throbs.
A passing thought - if you knew, that he had wanted to kiss you. Not knowing what he’s more embarrassed about - the fact that he had turned all fifteen year old boy at the sight of you in your knickers and had worked himself up so much over the prospect of kissing you that he had puked on you or just the actual fact that he had puked on you.
About to apologize - catching up on your ealier comment, and instead of sorry, his tongue curls around, “I don’t snore.”
Voice - hoarse, sounding as bad as he feels. A scoff, and “yeah, you do.”
A small game - ‘Don’t’, ‘Do’ tennis.
Until - he finds the cold toast, lukewarm coffee, and a fresh spilff on the bedside table, starting to feel more human again. His phone, missed calls from Matty, not something he’s ready to deal with.
Quiet again - finally managing to open his eyes properly, asking what you’re typing, more so to hear your voice again rather than interest, and you call him out for it.
“Nothing you’d be interested in, just uni stuff.” Glancing over - a teasing sort of smirk, closing your laptop, rolling your chair over to him. He feels his stomach flip again, he’ll blame the hangover. Refusing to believe - that now sober, he still feels the same as last night, that you look equally as pretty in the morning light as you did last night, and that your laugh still makes him smile. Unintentional, unaware.
“Makes me sound like a bad influence.”
A shrug - telling him that’s because he is. That you were supposed to finish an assignment last night - ended up looking after him instead, again.
The rain is starting to die off - inconsistent splatters, outside. Wishing he could say the same about his headache, hangover. A creak in his neck, shoulder - sleeping awkwardly. A frown - a sudden thought, asking where you slept last night, the mattress hardly seeming big enough for two bodies.
Confusion - your answer sounding more like a question. “In my bed?”
“What, here?” Voice - an octave or two higher, he cringes at the sound, fifteen year old boy, again. In fact - he thinks he was a lot smoother as a teenager.
A nod - still with the same glint in your eye as last night, the look that told him you thought he was being a bit mental, a bit insane. Shifting - the space beside him, your lips tilting. Telling him you slept right here.
“-but don’t worry, I had these on,” fingers - tugging your tshirt, pajama shorts, “know how freaked you get over me in my knickers.”
Desperation - he laughs despite himself, a hoarse sound, then a groan, hands rubbing over his face. Knowing - you were not going to let that go anytime soon, and fuck, he needs a smoke.
Sun - breaking through the clouds, the window. It was too bright before - cloudy, torture now, sun rays echoing in his head, stinging eyes. Although - he likes the way sun catches your skin, hair - natural highlights. Gaze lingering - watching him watching you, until he has to say something, silence too heavy. Another drag - spliff.
An apology, sincere - for last night, the other night before that, for you having to deal with him messy drunk. Smoke curling - mingling with sunlight. Closer - again, too close. He remembers you get freckles in summer, adolescence. It’s only spring.
Fingers - stealing the last of the joint, a sound between a sigh, a laugh, his name. Shaking of the sorry’s, apology. Saying you like his hair - changing the topic. He’d been starting to grow it out again. Sunlight - your eyes don’t move, saying on his. He feels a bit sick again, leaning in anyway.
Lips - meeting yours, a soft halfway there kind of kiss. Lingering - until he pulls back. A snap of reality - another apology and, ‘dunno why i did that.”
You ask him, tell him - to do it again.
A mumble, a surprised sound - thinking he’s heard you wrong.
“Want you to kiss me again, properly.”
Lips - curving, not needing to be told twice. Despite the fact his stomach flips again, defying odds that he could puke on you again. He kisses you.
A different kind of kiss - starting off uncoordinated at best, spiraling into open mouths and tongues. Growing heated quite quickly. Your hands - his jaw, face. His hands - your waist, hips. Efforts to pull you closer - his lap. All heavy breathing, desperate sounds echoing, swollen lips. Heat - building, the more you press into him, soft sounds. Lungs - straining, neither you nor him even attempting to pull away, burning.
Perceptions - a new noise, George’s phone, ringtone. It goes ignored, dying out only to start again, seconds later. Sounds of annoyance, vibrating against his lips, his hands - dipping under your shirt, a silent reassurance. It’s when it happens a third time - you pull part, sighs of impatience, you reaching for his phone. Annoyed mutterings - why doesn’t he keep it on silent like everyone else. George - not missing your eye roll when you look at the screen.
He already knows - only one person who could have the most awful timing. Matty.
SHIT I DIDN'T REALIZE YOU REBL9GGGED MY POST I came to re-read somethn and I was so surprised to see my own post woe it's an HONOR
lmao pls don't torture yourself by rereading any of this trash... But your thing was dead cute so pls pls pls write more angel x
You’d spent enough nights over at his apartment that Matty has started washing the clothes you left, giving you your own drawer in his falling apart dresser. No matter how many times he took it apart again and again, the drawers never closed properly. He claimed to have gotten it at a yard sale. Spending more time living with your parents during the school year, and with him in the summer, this felt more like home than your actual bed. He always told you he loved waking up to you in the morning, and since having graduated last spring, you became just another part of his daily life.
Of course, your parents had an issue with their only daughter seeing an older boy, but ever since your wonderful 18th birthday, where you told them to ‘stick it’ during dinner; their complaints grew less frequent. They still had yet to meet the boy that captured their daughter’s heart - Matty adding to his never-ending list of excuses as to why he could never come inside whenever he dropped you off. Your mother always poking her head through the dining room curtains as you leaned across the console to kiss him goodnight. The short conversation about your evening as you made a beeline to your bedroom. Graduating high school was a blessing. With school permanently off of your overflowing plate, you spent as much time as you possibly could with your boyfriend.
You had friends, and yes, sometimes you saw them too, but none of them could come close to the bond you and him shared. His best friend, George, called it a “vibe.” You called it soulmates. Matty groaned.
Honestly iliwys was the best album and era, a brief inquiry is not all that people are making it out to be - it's fucking good but it's the first 1975 record where I skip songs willingly. I feel like there are there are THE songs and then there's just tracks that don't fit. I mean iliwys and the self titled had a narrative - a brief inquiry seems to have a narrative and then a sub narrative