[thedevilinmybrain]

Grief Resources

What's Your Grief? - Website centered on all sorts of grief and responses to the passing of people

How to Grieve a Celebrity's Death - News article specifically about grieving a celebrity and Liam Payne

Mindfulness and Grief - Helping you cope through grief with yoga or journeling

Grief: What Everyone Should Know - Ted Talk by Tanya Villanueva

When Someone You Love Dies - Ted Talk by Kelley Lynn

Coping with Grief and Loss - Stages of grief, the grieving process, and learning to heal

[femstyles]

Those 5 boys and the community around them held such a strong role in shaping me and knowing one of them is just... no more... I can't explain this feeling.

[hldailyupdate]

Louis followed Danielle Campbell on Instagram. (31 January 2024)

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[enchantedlandcoffee]

reblog if you love louis

[syzygy-yzygy]

People who don't hyperfixate will never know the slightly horrible, completely impossible-to-replicate feeling of being so intensely invested in something it possesses you, takes over your waking thoughts and rides some weird line between being excited, anxious, and stressed as hell while still being entirely some other beast.

[sudaca-swag]

fucked up that we got 2024 on monday

[sabrinathecat]

imagine how weird it would be, if one day you decide to upload silly little videos on a small website for fun. you meet someone you like and you start making those silly little videos with them. you are still learning who you are but feel comfortable enough with this person to do these videos because, “only a few people will see it”. suddenly they start to get more popular and people start not only noticing your relationship and personal life, but have opinions on it and want to know more.

people love your personalities and find you entertaining, but the internet is still new and parasocial relationships have never really existed or been talked about before, so there are no boundaries set.

over time you realize you are becoming more popular and need to be careful what you put out there, still struggling with self acceptance and relationships with family. it becomes an actual reliable source of income and before you know it you’re going on world tours and selling books, merch, and hosting radio shows and meeting celebrities.

the whole time you’re still struggling internally and the invasion from the audience on your personal life has only gotten worse. old videos are brought up from the time when you thought maybe 20 people would see them, and it’s traumatizing. but you continue on, being strong for yourself and your partner. you are forced to acknowledge and talk about things you want to forget and can’t delete and every little thing you do is analyzed like crazy

eventually after 10 years you finally learn to love and accept yourself and recognize the intricacies of the situation you’re in. you’ve persevered and come out stronger than ever after all the hard times, and all with your partner alongside you dealing with the exact same things. things are in your control now. you reached this part of your life all because of some silly videos you uploaded 14+ years ago.

i feel like this is something we all forget. i tried to think of this as if it was myself, because for a lot of us “dan and phil” were just a couple of youtubers we hyperfixated on as weird teens, seeing them as just a form of entertainment and not really real people. looking at it this way really just highlights that disconnect.

dan and phil have absolutely every right to fuck with us and say whatever they want now. after dealing with all this i can’t imagine what it must’ve been like and the strength it all must have taken..

of course this isn’t even the extent i’m sure of what it was like but it’s what i gather from things they’ve talked about before. and honestly good for dan and phil for not hating us 😅

[2009phan]

yeah it's so crazy if you think about it. like. nowadays being a youtuber is such a standard thing. i mean idk about you, but i literally started watching youtubers as a child and the concept of being a youtuber is like normal for me. but imagine being one of the first youtubers. and going through the evolution of youtube on the other side of it. like you start filming little silly videos and then bam you're famous and have parasocial demon phfans. literally no one has gone through what dnp have gone through before them, like ever. they have such a unique experience like even from just a purely non-fan psychological/anthropological point of view. like wow if i think about it too much i start shaking a little bit. in this essay i will

[2009phan]

i want dnp to write a tell all autobiography or do a two hour long interview where they like seriously talk about this experience and how they feel about it

[hldailyupdate]

Louis at the venue for his show tonight in Tampa! (14 July 2023)

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[hlupdate]

Louis’ recent instagram activity - 14/07/23

[himboniall]

i love girls who love cats and louis tomlinson .

[overlyspecificmcrmemes]

happy birthday to the happy couple ~<3

[yoshiki-tsuijnaka]

WE'RE BELIEVERS, I BELIEVE TONIGHT

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[tricktack]

ugly sobbing over the kintsugi kid (ten years). the fact that it's got such hopeless lyrics about growing up and learning how to get through life while feeling so broken, and yet the meaning of the word "kintsugi" is the art of repairing broken pottery with gold, often with the realization that sometimes you value it much more now that it's been put back together, and being broken is not the end of all things but rather the start of something else... it's part of the process it's part of growing up it's part of life, being broken is not the end.

[shark-myths]

the best thing about kintsugi is it's not just putting something back together and pretending it was never broken, it's that the break is gold, it's the brightest and most precious part. the fact that is was broken is highlighted; it's better than it was before. before it was a teacup, then it was garbage, then it became more beautiful than it ever was. i'm fine

[keepingupwithzayn]

Zayn attends the TOM FORD Women’s FW18 show in New York City on February 8, 2018.

[boxedwhiner]

[pop-punklouis]

louis using his one call in jail to phone his tattoo artist so he can get sick knuckle tatts while inside

[alphalouis]

love how zayn doing promo just means being sexy on insta