I was raised Christain but over a year ago lost my faith. I considered myself atheist for a while before considering myself omnist. I have recently over the past several months constantly found myself coming back to Hellenic polytheism and Iāve been wondering if someone is calling to me, if itās just my algorithm, or if Iām simply curious about other religions.
I have a few questions, if anyone can answer them.
1) how do I know if Iām truly wanting to āconvertā or start worshiping the gods? I have always been interested in Greek mythology and I donāt want to seem disrespectful towards the religion.
2) if I do start worshiping/praying, how do I know who to pray to? Iāve never had any experience praying to more than one god, and I havenāt prayed in a long, long time. Do I know if there is one that I am drawn to? Or perhaps feel a connection towards? I have done some research (definitely not enough by any means), but I donāt know how to begin, really.
3) if I do start praying and worshipping as a beginner, can I do so without an altar at the beginning? I donāt know if I have anything to give to the gods or what I would even do to begin.
I donāt have anyone to talk to about this kind of thing, and I am surrounded by people who would not support me. I for a while didnāt think religion was for me, but I have see many peopleās stories about previously being Christian, like me, and not hearing anything from the Christian god, but started praying to Apollo, or Aphrodite, or Hestia, or Hecate, or any of the other gods, and hearing from them almost instantly, and Iām wondering if I will hear something from the gods too.
Again, I donāt want to be disrespectful towards anyone or seem like itās only because Iām interested in Greek mythology and wonāt take it seriously. I have seen many altars and shrines and has heard the way people talk to the gods and about their relationship with the gods and I think itās beautiful. I guess Iām just curious if it will be similar or the same for me. If anyone can help me, Iād love your advice!