I give up. Iโm never writing again. Itโs like ruining my appetite but instead itโs my love for writing. Mcverse and every other blog I have is official dead.
Iโm not. Like seriously. Theyโre upset because itโs in my story. That doesnโt mean Iโm okay with it. Itโs a story! Itโs an angst genre story! Itโs supposed to be toxic. I literally canโt figure out how to explain it any better without everyone coming for my neck. Never in my life have I been okay with any abuse, it just so happens to me in this story, and if Iโm being honest with youโI didnโt even notice. I didnโt think it would be this big of a deal to write something angsty but I guess it is. Iโm not going to change it. Iโm keeping it. Will I write more angsty shit in the future? Probably, I like fucking Yandere stories.
What do yall want me to do, write a whole new freaking story to appeal to you or do you want me to delete my fucking acct? Iโm getting rlly fucking frustrated wtf. How are you going to tell me how to write, you never go to a fucking author and tell them their writing has too much death and gore and to stop it.
Apparently itโs @pandoraslxna and they choose today to wanna voice their upon when the story has been out for a year or sum.
MIND U, THE ORGINAL ANON WANTED A FUCKING HAPPY ENDING TO, ONE WHERE SHE GETS WITH NETE. SO HOW YALL GETTING ON ME WHEN I WAS JUST DOING WHAT THE ANON WANTED???
I can if I want to. Fr who is this. Donโt send anon again. Msg privately or send it publicly. This your last anon going to be published. I hate repeating myself. Itโs a pet peeve and youโre overstepping it.
If your story has an abusive love interest then donโt make the reader forgive him. Give her someone who loves her unconditionally and make neteyam have consequences for his actions and not be okay with abusing the reader
Or donโt tell me how to write my story, on my blogโฆ. Who are u? We can talk in private instead of anon. Not that itโll make much of a difference but Iโll rather not keep posting you.
As a survivor of sa and emotional abuse, I understand where the anon is coming from
And I do too, Iโve seen itโhell, my brother is verbally abusive to me and my mother all his life so for some of yโall to sit here typing behind yall phones, claiming I think im okay with it is insane. Itโs a story, Iโm not going to write just about rainbows and happy go shit all the time. If I wanna write angst, Iโm gonna write angst. Youโre acting like there arenโt ppl out there that didnโt do what reader did in the story. I feel for them, really, but at the same time, itโs my writing. Am I supposed to change or delete something I wrote because they donโt like it? Iโm not going to do that. So while youโre sending in anons like thatโs going to change what I said, it wonโt. Iโm keeping the story. I might write more. I might not.
Not sure why ur so aggressive, but what that anon said was right. Emotional abuse is a from of abuse and you just excused because you think itโs okay
I never said it was okay. I get reading comprehension is not everyoneโs strong suit. Iโm aggressive cause ur only reading what u want to read. ๐ how many times do i have to repeat it? Nor did i said emotional abuse wasnโt abuse. I said there was a smidge of it, and I gave u said example of what it was. Stop sending in anons if you canโt understand anything besides trying to, sorry what are u trying to do?
So after neteyam tells the reader pretty words and why he treated her that way she automatically forgives him. Her abuser
Putting words in my mouth are we? Did u not read wtf I said or u just wanna argue with me ๐ค firstly, if u wanna get technical, which it seems like u do, thereโs only a smidge of emotional abuse, like ignorance. Not physical, like hello? Anyway like I saidโfiction vs reality, I know when to draw a line. Itโs fake. It could happen in real life but I donโt condone it and neither should anyone. Ur annoyed that I made the reader forgive an abuser like there isnโt fictions like this everywhere. Go bark up their tree babes. Imma write what I want, how I want, when I want. If ur donโt like something, donโt read it and find something thatโll make u happy or go write ur own. Simple.
Donโt ever romanticize abuse and toxic relationships like u did with neteyam and forcing the reader to forgive him because he loved her. He is a serial abuser
Came back to drop thisโ
Baby I think Yanderes are hot so that might tell you some bout me.. but besides that weird fact, I know when to draw a line between reality and fiction. I would never be in a toxic relationship or be okay with anyone in one. Itโs strictly writing. Iโm confused how heโs a serial abuser, however, when he only abused reader though??
โถ cw. rough drabble โญ headcanons โญ jealousy โญ angsty โญ aged up โญ BREAKUP โญ interspecies relationship โญ alien x human โญ established situation-ship
โถ note. i've never tried to write something like this before, but i was feelin angsty. lmk what you think, i dont really know what style this is but i guess its a drabble/hc kinda thing?? it's fun! not edited or anything really
โญ it wasn't obvious when things started to change, but slowly it became more and more noticeable the way you were being treated.
โญ he'd leave early in the day before you'd even wake up, when he'd come back he'd say that he was in a rush and didn't think.
"i didn't mean to okay?" he said, bluntly. he moves past you rather quickly. "you wouldn't have been up yet, anyway."
your eyebrows are stitched together, feeling that odd feeling inside your chest as if something was wrong. it felt like a bad time to press matters, even if it hurts to keep those feelings in.
"you could've still asked, i would've gone with you."
neteyam sighs, putting away his bow. his eyes can't meet yours, darting anywhere but at them. "yea, i know."
โญ you can't pinpoint the reason for his coldness. inside the lab, everyone could feel it. you weren't good at hiding your feelings but neither was he.
โญ kiri likes to visit her mom, bring lo'ak and neteyam who's body stiffens the seconds he sees you. it wasn't just him though, they all seemed to be acting differently. only kiri remained truly nice to you.
"hey!" kiri waves her hand at you as if there wasn't a huge chill in the room from the tension.
you smiled at her from your desk, continuing with your daily reports without uttering a word.
โญ neteyam can't keep his feelings off his face, it was obvious. his coldness was within reason, it was out of his control even if he hates it.
โญ it hurts him to see you that way. alone most of the day, no one really your age since you were closer in range with them. most were far beyond adulthood and nothing much to really talk to about.
โญ you were the closest to kiri, and well kiri couldn't help it but talk to you. he notices the way you've been avoiding her now, because of him.
โญ it wasn't until the day that neteyam noticed you weren't in the lab, that his heart leaps and feels that surging feeling of impending doom.
"she went out in the morning," one of the lab guys said. neteyam rushes to your desk, the same one you've always sat at and looks through piles of sticky notes and journals. his large hands practically destroying everything in it's path.
a gasp from behind him was heard, "what are you doing neteyam, she's going to be so pissed you decided to ruin her stuff."
kiri didn't seem to feel that awful gut feeling he felt. he turns to her with a frantic look on his face, finally looking over at the monitor to find a sticky note with your small handwriting, 'out for the day, i think it's hunting season but don't worry, i'll be back later.'
"she's not stupid," kiri said, following her brother as he gathers his weapons and ionar. he was on a mission, his lips are in the tight line.
neteyam shakes his head, going towards the edge of the cliffs where his ikran rests, "i know, but right now she's really stupidโshe knows it's hunting season why would she go?"
"i'm sure she's fine."
โญ you were indeed fine. but neteyam was not.
โญ neteyam rushes off his ikran with a mission. angry rushes through his bones as he pushes himself through the vegetation to spot you with a boy, a na'vi boy.
"what are you doing?"
you seemed unphased by him. not even bothering to reply. this seemed to make his blood boil by the second. the na'vi boy looks awkwardly been the two of you.
"and what are you doing here?"
the na'vi boy stutters, unable to say a word to the first born son of the clan leader.
your voice was flat, lacking emotion, "he gave me a ride." you get up off the ground, hands filled with bags of random plants and rocks.
โญ he's never been so annoyed. he didn't think he'd get jealous easily, he thought things like this wouldn't bother him.
โญ lo'ak always bothered him, pointing out his mood which doesn't make it any better.
"just talk to her man, she'll hate you forever if you don't."
โญ he did. he talked to you, he stood there. the boy you liked, stands there telling you how he couldn't be with you. he was scared, of his feelings and what others would think.
you scoff, angrily you shoved him. pointing at him, "you of all people, i didn't think would care so much of what people think."
"i don't, iโlook, my mother doesn't like humans, she hates spiderโhe's like my brother and she never sees him," he explains. feeling the moisture in his eyes gather, he wipes them off quickly. his eyes trail the ground at your feet.
you look away, "so it's your mom?"
"it's everyone," he kicks the ground, "i should've never fallen for a human."
"is that what you see us as?"
his eyebrows are stitched together, unable to form words as his mind is frazzled.
"aliens, i am just a human to youโnot anything more." it hurts, it really does.
โญ it was then that you listed the possibilities of what was wrong with you. what didn't you have that he wanted. you didn't want to believe that he would let that affect him, what others think or see.
โญ he's lying to himself, he kicks himself after being reminded of how much of a skxawng he was.
โญ tuk found out what he did, she was really angry. she really liked you, you always took her places with you. everytime she'd see neteyam she'd hiss at him.
"hah, she hates you," kiri sings. she's also not his biggest fan after finding out from the source how much of his asshole her brother was.
โญ it was then, they needed to leave. to save the tribeโto save everyone. neteyam and his family had to leave.
โญ the weather was awful that day, as if even eywa knew. he's completely covered in rainwater, head to toe trying to find you.
โญ you're saying bye to kiri and tuk.
"you're not coming?" it was the first words he'd spoken to you since, almost a month ago. it wasn't like he didn't try, his mouth always tried to say something but the moment you'd spot himโfelt his energy, you were gone, avoiding him like the plague.
kiri took tuk away, knowing that this was about to get dirty. you shrugged, watching the way the water fell from his pretty face after not really getting a look at him all this time, "what do you mean?"
"since you're saying bye, i assume you knowโbut you're not going with us? but you're my faโ"
an ironic laugh leaves your lips, interrupting him, "i'm just a human, neteyam, i know my place."
โญ neteyam never had felt heartbreak before, not before today. irony, your heart broke a month ago. he'd not only lost his home, but he lost...his true home.
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I have not recommended a piece of art in a LONG TIME nor have I written in a long time but thatโs BESIDES THE POINT! Okay! This right here ate the fuck down. Sure it was kinda jumpy but I loved it! It was some โthe fault in our starsโ type shit and I LOVE tfios ๐๐ canโt recommend enoughโgojo fans might be a little hurt though, oooh I love the little Q& A in the final chapter btww
