i don’t have enough money to get to work this week from an already short paycheck from not having enough last week. it’s like a cycle of being poor forver and ever and i will never get out of it
you’re in my mind! i was just thinking that it’s been so long since i have discussed sam/tommy & need to fix that soon. do you have any ideas/suggestions?
ok. finished writing a little sam blurb and to add onto it i would just like to say… i am one of the hapless few who can’t get over sam’s egocentrism. something so very fun about remembering that while yes, sam’s not intrinsically evil, he’s still not… y’know. good. and maybe it’s just cause i like giving sam that Itch for greatness but . i don’t know. in my heart i know he holds so much love inside himself but Realistically… … … 💧 my guy’s equally an over-thinker as paulie is. though i think the difference between them is that paulie talks shit out (drunk or otherwise) and sam just.. bottles everything up. he’s a brick wall. a very goal-oriented, ethically self-demoralizing brick wall.
i think… the unfortunate thing about sam is that he isn’t flexible, emotionally. his trials come from the fact that his entire complex remains engrained in loyalty. he needs 100% of it or else he’s just like, hey, i know i’ve known you practically my entire life but unfortunately, i need to put two bullets in you now! —and it isn’t even out of any targeted malice (at least not intentionally) because sam, hand to heart, loves So deeply. he entrusts parts of himself in you when you enter his life. he expects you to be in-sync with him, to walk each of his steps in tandem. but the moment - the Second he learns you’ve wronged him he just.. can’t let it go. the family is his life, his blood, him. i think for sam, when he talks about any increment of the family with you, he expects you to keep it to your chest, to your grave. so when, for example, michelle started gossiping to the other girls - it was easy for him to cut her out of his life. it showed him that, maybe, his love (platonic or otherwise) wasn’t truly reciprocated. he’d given the deepest part of himself - as small as the information may have been - and she ran with it.
sam’s such a fun antagonist because, realistically speaking, he was never in the wrong. he felt (as any of us would’ve) betrayed. he felt wronged and acted accordingly— and while killing probably wasn’t the sanest option, he did what was necessary to keep the family, and himself, secure. true, he would’ve gotten leverage for picking off traitors, but… it’s almost sad. that he’s so entrenched in this lifestyle that meaningful friendships go into the gutters because above all else, it’s him. him, his title, his family’s legacy, him. all he knows is loyalty and it’s put him six feet under.
when it’s really bad again and it’s still way better than it used to be but it’s still really bad. and you do all the right stuff and you try and try and it still really hurts but it’s working but it still hurts and you go see the beautiful majesty of nature and your soul is so close to being at peace but your mind is still in pain. and it’s better but it’s still bad. and the sun is setting.
Platonic friends with just so much bi-sexual sexual tension
glad you can see the rampant sexual tension between paulie and sarah !!! it’s like if they ever catch each other’s eye from across the room, everyone else will immediately cease to exist to them. witnessing the stare down between them would be enough to make you feel like you’re trapped under 3x the gravity of earth. it’s painfully obvious to anyone who’s had to be alone with the two of them. especially sam, pre-tommy entering the family.
paulie would do anything for sarah, and sarah knows paulie has the kind of devotion you need to keep on a leash. an arm’s length away, but just close enough, always close enough, to serve her.
Where’s my mafia au game where Sam put his friendship first ahead of his job and changed his mind about killing Paulie, instead giving him a warning and he, Tommy, and Paulie all try to overthrow Salieri.
ok ok tommy seeing this guy around the bar, and he’s shorter than most, but damn if he doesn’t command the room.. damn if the tone doesn’t shift when he walks in. damn if he doesn’t know what the hell he’s talking about.
this guy who knows all the plans. who knows all the angles. who thinks about things that would never cross anyone else’s mind. who’s somehow 10 feet ahead of everyone else. this guy everyone only calls by his last name, marino. everyone says that’s luigi’s kid, and nothing more about him.
tommy is enamored with him. has a massive amount of respect for him (re: he has a massive crush). everyone says he’s the greatest soldato the don has. and when tommy gets promoted to a capo, he’s asking why marino isn’t a capo too. no one can give him an answer.
tommy who gets injured, who leans on marino until he takes him back to his place, and when they walk through the door, and he shrugs off him jacket, turns to go get the medical supplies, comes back with the top few buttons of his shirt undone…. tommy is staring like 😧
“marino… you’re a WOMAN?”
and sarah just counters with, “loosely speaking. now clam up, i ain’t gonna go easy on you with this needle.”
hi, i love dynamics that r like “we make each other worse” on the surface but when u look deeper it is actually just “we understand each other on a level that no one else does and nudge each other out of our typical comfort zone” which just circles around to “we make each other better”. it’s abt the accidental growth just by being in each other’s lives. idk
for tommy to be the main character of the game, i actually think about him the least ! he’s such a blank character in the game and has the most nothing personality ever 😭 i still love him tho ofc !
- i think tommy is a bit naïve and oblivious. he always sees the best in everyone, and he is quick to defend someone, even if he may be wrong in the end. he doesn’t really question a lot, and is always just going with the flow. this is a bad quality sometimes.
- i think he’s very family oriented and it actually really kills him that he doesn’t speak to his parents/siblings/any nieces or nephews. i think this is why he throws himself so fully into being friends/family with the Salieri Family.
- i think had he not went to prison, he would’ve had at least 4 kids. he loves children and he doesn’t mind at all being the caretaker for them when he’s home. when his daughter is born, he never puts her down when he’s home.
- tommy is actually very funny, but in a ‘dad-humor’ kind of way. he’s also an OK cook, but he often will start something, get distracted, then burn it all and have to start over. #myadhd
- i think him & sarah got pregnant and then had to have a shotgun wedding. he doesn’t know it, but sarah wanted to get out of a big wedding & this was the best way she knew how. it was her plan all along.
- also tommy has had sex with men before, because he used to work on the railroads and that was very common, especially since they were away from communities for so long. tommy really enjoyed this and doesn’t know not every man does. i love the angelos. the bi4bi couple ever
- paulie teaches tommy some italian, bc as the only italian-american, paulie knows the best ways to learn italian alongside english. sam and sarah teach him more sicilian focused phrases. he messes both of these up. he can only understand his daughter half of the time. she thinks it’s funny.
- tommy has incredible aim and incredible eyesight. he has no artist ability though. hes very out of the loop with music/drama/sports. he loves his sometimes simple and quiet life, he doesn’t think there’s anything more to life than just having a family and being a good man. this is central to him
- he has a strong moral compass around things with strict rules (protect women and children, drugs are bad) though he struggled with morality in grey areas (being in the mafia is ok bc he only kills bad people….. does this make him a bad person because he’s in the mafia too? is his family bad? his wife’s family? no… he knows those people, of course not) also #adhdthings
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