thoughts

just a glimpse of my thoughts each day. trying to write again

[sacred-portal]

[me-a-h]

07. January

I'm desperately trying - failing -

To recreate fictional characters

That I feel resemble me

While hiding from the lingering question

- what character am I? -

[me-a-h]

03. January

I become so lost

In fictional characters

I forget I am a real person

Sometimes it's just easier this way

[me-a-h]

01. November

Why can't

I just have something good

In my life

Ever

[me-a-h]

01. November

Why can't

I just have something good

In my life

Ever

[me-a-h]

01. November

Why can't

I just have something good

In my life

Ever

[me-a-h]

13. October

When I sit there

Sobbing

Holding myself so I won't fall apart

I realize

How little you actually care about me

[me-a-h]

12. October

Sometimes

It just hits me

How much things have

Fucked me up

[me-a-h]

25. September

Nothing good

Stays good long

Ever

I should have known

[me-a-h]

06. September

Why do I

Never quite match

The person I am talking to

I am trying my best

[me-a-h]

25. July

I feel completely content

Letting my the sea take over my body

Letting her take me away

Feeling at peace

Not knowing if its because of

How she hugs me softer than any lover could

Or of the familiarity of the thpughts of dying

[me-a-h]

17. July

Isn't it funny

That I once almost died

For your attention

And now I'm dying to not be noticed by you

[me-a-h]

14. July

Why is it

That even your faults

End up being

Mine

[me-a-h]

25. June

You've set your priorities

I haven't been able to breath properly

But I'm coming to terms

With not really being one of them

[me-a-h]

25. June

You've set your priorities

I haven't been able to breath properly

But I'm coming to terms

With not really being one of them

[me-a-h]

21. June

Why is it

That I'm always going out empty

That even when other give to me

They take more

[me-a-h]

20. June

Why do I always end up

Putting people before me

Who prioritise me as much as I do

Not at all.