Fml

Recording med school and pre med school journey

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5 days until i go home. Next 4 wont be nice

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Suddenly have so much work to do and on top of that learn whatever the fuck was taught + read ahead bcoz the fucking hw is from that but my brain isnt processing anything and i found nothing on yt now i really just wanna lay down and cry

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I want. To cry. Or kill myself. Idk

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Jfc im so tired. First day of actual classes.

Had biochem and anatomy lectures in the morning (both by HODs). Mostly general overview of the whole session + exam pattern. In biochem she taught a lil abt the fjrst chap (mostly glossing over things and all coz its old stuff. The only new thing i learnt was marker enzymes which i have to review rn)

Anatomy was mostly abt rules and regulations and again, the general overview. After that there was the AETCOM class with respecting the cadaver blah blah. I nearly slept throught that. The only thing that stopped me was no backrest which was fucking annoying and the worsening cold. Dk how i managed to get sick on the first fucking day of college :)

Post lunch we had SGT abt bones and clavicle. Learnt abt all the muscle attachment of the bone and general stuff abt it. (Lore dumping here to help me recall)

Clavicle is a long bone and the only horizontal bone of the body. Its superior surface is smooth and inferior is full of ridges and grooves and is porous at the ends.

The lateral is flat and the median end is a knob like structure with 4 directions. Its divided into two parts

* median 2/3rd part(convex curve)

*lateral 1/3rd curve (concave part)

Median side is the sternal end and lateral side is the scapullary(?) end.

Median curve has 4 surfaces - superior, inferior, anterior, posterior.

Muscles attached to said surfaces -

Sup - sternocleidomasteoid muscle

Ant_ pectolaris major

Post - sterno hyoid

Inf - cost(?) Clavicular(?) Ligament

Lateral part later im so fucking tired

Then we had histo lab which basically consistef of fucking around and finding out with the microscope. After that received the manuals (The Horror) and then went to buy meds (my stupid dumbass cold and why tf are the meds so costly jfc) then went to buy an umbrella phir books (barely managed to restrain myself and avoid impulsive purchases. So proud of myself) then went to buy a pen stand (fuck u fungi)

Annddddd then cleaned my desk. Filled my bottle. Anf finally melted into a puddle of goo on the bed. Abhi padhna hai but himmat nahi ho rahi. Baad mei karungi amen.

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Watching jab we met,,, first sat (its 11 07)

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One lecture and im already so fucking zoned out my god. Had to physically keep my eyes open and all

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Fuck i want to cry and throw up fuck

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No one :

Me and my frnd post 20th birthday :

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Mum's fever finally down and we went shopping. Finally feel a lil alive and excited abt college

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Why am i like this

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I HAVE MY STICKERS BACK!! CAN CRY FREELY NOW

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I want to cry so hard fuck

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Sat in bus, its noice ig specially when we are all alone. Nothing freaky happened. Flight was 1 hr late and then wasted a lot of time when it couldnt land later so we didnt get any time to ctach up with didi except for a few mins. Mum is super sick. We hope its just a viral and she isnt coming down with dengue but with the way her body is aching i dont have any high hopes. Hope the admissiom process goes well bcoz ill be doing everything alone mostly and am not very confident. Fml

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Ough they woke us up twice ,, saari neend kharab kardi,, isse acha train se hi na chali jaati mei

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Sat in bus, its noice ig specially when we are all alone. Nothing freaky happened. Flight was 1 hr late and then wasted a lot of time when it couldnt land later so we didnt get any time to ctach up with didi except for a few mins. Mum is super sick. We hope its just a viral and she isnt coming down with dengue but with the way her body is aching i dont have any high hopes. Hope the admissiom process goes well bcoz ill be doing everything alone mostly and am not very confident. Fml

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At the airport✈️ nearly burst into tears when pa and sis left,, its getting incredibly difficult to pretend to be emotionally dead

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The moment mum leaves after dropping me off at college :

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Ough why the fuck did i open insta today, dying of fomo now.