synopsis: a wolf feels guilty he missed your birthday, and wants to come over to celebrate.
wc: 1k
a/n: my birthday was yesterday and we still have no valko :( anyways this is for all my july babies.
The day didn't just magically pass by without anyone noticing.
No, that wasn't it. It had simply passed by.
Quietly.
No one meant to forget- of course not. That was not it at all.
You had strangers congratulate you (though you had worn a sash).
Your father had given you well wishes before work (he didn't come home till much later).
Your family had gotten you new headphones to replace the ones you had lost at the beach (and you were grateful, immensely).
Indeed, no one really meant to forget, outside of your family that is.
Life had just moved on.
It was hard to describe how you felt in a way that felt honest. It's not like you didn't get a present, didn't go out or even didn't get a cake. You got to hang out, hell, you did what you wanted, but something was off. It felt like you had forced everyone to enjoy your day….
And of course, waiting on a "Happy Birthday" from your friends had been…fruitless, more or less.
You had even hinted at it. Had a stupid count down on your instagram that you noticed no one clicked "remind me on" and everything.
Tried to? You weren't great at socializing.
So when the day rolled around, it wasn't too surprising that no one you had actualy wanted to hear from said anything, but it still felt bad.
At least, until your phone buzzed while you were halfway through eating your free birthday cake from your local bakery (that, mind you, you had to pull 5 emails to prove that you were owed said freebie).
Valko: Are you busy?
You frowned, swallowing thickly.
You: Depends.
The typing bubble appeared almost immediately, and its dissapearance just as fast.
Again.
Can I come over?
About 30 minutes later, there was a hesitant knock. You opened the door to find Valko standing there with one hand buried in his pocket, the other holding a rather limp bouquet, suggesting he ran all the way to your place from wherever he had been. Some of the petals were even missing.
He looked….nervous.
Which was strange. Valko was many things. Occaisonally awkward? Sure. A genius? Absolutley. But nervous?
That usually wasn't one of them.
"…Hi."
"Hi."
"…Everything okay?"
He nodded once. Then shook his head.
"I…" he exhaled through his nose, handing you the flowers. His face cringed as more petals and leaves hit the floor before looking back at you. "Can- May I come in first?"
You stepped aside, holding the flowers. An ant was on a stem. You flick it off.
He wandered into your apartment like he had forgotten how legs worked, stopping near the island.
Silence.
You leaned against the counter.
"So?"
Another silence. Then,
"Yesterday was your birthday."
You blinked. Is that why he was here? "…Yeah."
"I didn't know."
"Oh."
"I found out this morning."
"…Oh."
" I would've said something- I- I tried to get better flowers but that's all they had."
You smile faintly. "I know- that you would have said something, I mean."
"I missed it."
"It was one day."
"It mattered."
His answer came too quickly, as if he hadn't meant to say that out loud. The room fell quiet once again as he rubbed the back of his neck.
"I just…" Valko looked anywhere except you, eyes on the blue and yellow umbrella toy your nephew left behind yesterday. "I kept thinking about you yesterday."
You tilt your head. "What about it?"
"I was answering emails. In meetings. You were probably…I don't know," he laughed under his breath. "Having cake. Getting calls."
You snort. "I didn't buy a cake. I had a freebie though."
"…"
"I went out for lunch and collected my freebies from my emails."
"…"
"I even went to bed at 10 cause I wasn't feeling great."
He stared. "….That was your birthday?"
"Pretty much."
You watched as something in his expression changed. Not pity, but not something smaller. "So…you spent it alone?"
"Not exactly. Just family."
"So…no friends."
"I didn't mind. I don't really mind being alone, Valko."
"That's different."
You looked at him for a second before opening your fridge, grabbing the premade coffee. "Is it?"
He didn't answer. Instead, he reached into his coat pocket. "I know I got you the flowers but, I did stop somewhere else."
He set a small paper bag on the counter. It wasn't wrapped. Inside sat a slice of strawberry shortcake, with a single candle sitting crookedly on top.
A single candle.
Still in the plastic sleeve.
You looked up. "…Valko,"
"I know it's late."
"You didn't have to."
"I wanted to."
His voice stayed soft. "I didn't like the idea of your birthday ending with leftovers."
Your chest tightened, but you laughed anyway. "I like leftovers."
"I don't."
"You weren't even there."
"I know."
"…"
"…I wish I had been."
The words slipped out before he could stop them. He froze. You did too. Neither of you spoke only until after several painfully long seconds. He cleared his throat.
"…Can I still…?"
He awkwardly lifted the cake, fixing the candle to sit straight, his free hand grabbing a lighter from his pocket. "Even if it's technically the day after?"
You looked from him to the tiny slice to the candle, then back at the man who looked like he was genuinley worried you'd say no.
"…Yeah, yeah. Go ahead."
Valko's shoulders visibly relaxed. The lighter took a couple tries to actually hold a flame, and he lit the candle, a small smile tugging at his lips, canines poking out.
"Do I sing?"
"…Yes please."
You listen to him, not even realizing you're wiping your eyes cause you feel them watering. When he's done, he holds it out to you, still in his hands. You close your eyes, puffing your cheeks out when you blow the flame out.
"…Did you wish for anything?"
"I can't tell you."
"I know. I hope it comes true anyways."
You look down at the cake. "Thank you."
"For what?"
"For remembering."
He smiled sadly. "I didn't. I remembered a day late."
"That still counts."
For a moment, neither of you moved. Then you grabbed two forks from the drawer. "You staying?"
"If you'll have me."
"I wasn't going to enjoy the slice by myself." You hand him the second fork.
Outside, life kept moving…
Inside, your birthday was already over.
emt enjin who eats you out while you study for your exams (med/nurse/healthcare student reader). just lazily with his weight on top of you. and hes real sweet on you before rushing his subordinates to hurry up with getting the patients out and ready.
teaches you the "easy way" of doing assessments on patients and all that
like
laying on your tummy reading through some textbook, eyes heavy cause your bored and tired and stressed and hes got his arms wrapped around your waist to keep you from squirming while hes just eating you out from the back and mumbling answers to your questions about whatever, trying to get you to put the book down and focus on him.
"C'mon ma...focus on me, m'kay?"
"Mhmmm, that's right sweet girl,"
"Look at you, so- mm- smart."
alright, i'll be the one to say it. ao3 and tumblr becoming "mainstream" did so much damage to the community and the writers. i have seen loads of videos and posts about:
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at the end of the day, we are all humans, reading and writing is what we do and what we're meant to do. and for you to talk shit about a person WRITING is so insane. we are humans. not some robots that you can tell what to do so you can consume it.
i've seen so so many authors take down their fanfics and losing all motivation to write because of a hate comment. DONT LIKE DONT READ‼️
and to every author reading this, this community values your work and your contribution. we love u and, please, never let anyone's negative words have an effect on you.
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synopsis: Beneath Zuko's usual calm and decisiveness, he grows shy and soft in your hands, still unused to comfort that comes so easily.
wc: 2.1k
The bedroom was too quiet for a place so large.
Candlelight flickered along towering walls of carved stone, catching on gold inlays and silk drapery that spilled from the canopy above the bed. The air smelled faintly of melted wax and something softer-jasmine, maybe-clinging to the sheets, to the curtains, to you. Outside, the palace had long since settled into silence, guards posted like statues beyond thick doors, the world held at a respectful distance.
Inside, everything felt… close.
Zuko stood near the edge of the room at first, as if crossing it required permission he did not yet have. Long black hair fell over his shoulders in a loose spill, unbound, unfamiliar like this. It softened him in a way no one else was ever allowed to see, save for the moments in battle. The scar over his left eye caught the candlelight when he turned his head-sharp, red against his skin-but even that seemed less intimidating tonight.
Because he wouldn’t look at you.
Not fully.
Golden eyes flickered in your direction and then away just as quickly, like he’d touched something too hot.
“…You should rest,” he said, voice steady, almost too steady, the kind he used in court, in front of others, when every word was measured and deliberate.
But there was no one here to perform for.
You were sitting at the edge of the bed, hands folded in your lap, watching him with a quiet patience that only seemed to make it worse. The mattress dipped slightly beneath you, silk whispering with the smallest shift of your weight. It drew his attention again-brief, betraying-and this time his gaze lingered a fraction too long.
Then his face flushed.
It was subtle at first. A faint warmth at the tips of his ears. A soft color rising along his cheekbones.
He turned away again.
“…It’s late,” he added, as if that solved anything.
You almost smiled.
Because this was the same man who faced down entire courts without hesitation. The same man whose presence alone could silence a room. Whose voice carried authority without ever needing to rise.
And yet now…
Now Zuko looked like he didn’t know what to do with his own hands.
They flexed at his sides, then stilled, then shifted again like he was trying to decide where they belonged. His posture remained straight out of habit, but there was tension in it now, something uncertain threading through all that practiced composure.
You tilted your head slightly. “You’re not coming to bed?”
The question was simple.
It ruined him.
His shoulders stiffened, just for a second, before he forced them to relax. Slowly, he turned back toward you-this time committing to it, even if it clearly cost him something.
Golden eyes met yours.
Held.
And immediately betrayed him.
The flush deepened, spreading down his neck, disappearing beneath the collar of his robes. His jaw tightened, like he was annoyed with himself for it, but he didn’t look away this time. That might’ve been the only thing he had left to cling to-his stubbornness.
“I…” He stopped. Tried again. “I will.”
A pause.
“I simply-”
He exhaled, slow and controlled, like steadying himself before stepping into battle.
Ridiculous.
There was no battlefield here. Just you. Just a quiet room and too many candles and the weight of something new settling between you both.
Still, he moved.
Each step toward the bed was measured, deliberate, as though he could maintain control that way. As though he could pretend his pulse wasn’t betraying him, wasn’t loud enough to drown out the silence.
When he reached you, he hesitated again.
Closer now, you could see it more clearly-the way his golden eyes softened despite himself, the way his breath caught almost imperceptibly when you looked up at him. The scar over his eye didn’t make him look harsher like it did in the daylight. In this light, it only made him look… real.
Human.
And very, very flustered.
“You’re staring,” he said quietly.
You didn’t deny it.
That only made it worse.
Color bloomed deeper across his face, and for a moment, he looked like he might retreat again- step back, put distance between you and whatever this was.
But he didn’t.
Instead, slowly, almost cautiously, he sat beside you.
The mattress dipped under his weight, bringing him closer, the space between you shrinking to something fragile and noticeable. His arm brushed yours- just barely- and he froze like the contact had sent a shock through him.
It might as well have.
His hand hovered for a second, uncertain, before settling on the bed between you. Fingers curled slightly into the silk, gripping it like an anchor.
“I have faced worse situations than this,” he muttered, more to himself than to you.
And yet he still couldn’t quite bring himself to look at you again without that soft, helpless flush returning. Calm. Honorable.
Except here.
You take his hand, guiding him to sit between your legs on the down-filled bed. gathering his hair between your fingers, the silky strands slip with ease. you lift a strand, smelling it- jasmine, burnt cedar.
Zuko goes still the moment your fingers lace with his. Not tense-no, not pulling away-but aware.
Deeply, acutely aware.
And yet he lets you guide him.
There’s no resistance as you gently pull him back, settling him between your legs on the plush, down-filled bed. The softness gives beneath his weight, but he feels anything but grounded. If anything, it only makes him more unsteady, more conscious of every point of contact-your knees at his sides, your hands in his hair, your breath just behind him.
His breath catches.
Your fingers gather his hair like silk, and it is; smooth, well-kept, slipping easily through your touch. He doesn’t tie it back tonight, didn’t even think to. Now he’s painfully aware of that too, of how exposed it makes him feel, how close it lets you get.
When you lift a strand and bring it to your nose, he nearly forgets how to breathe altogether.
Jasmine. Burnt cedar. Him.
“Zuko, my love, why are you so shy all of a sudden?” A teasing lilt graced your lips along with a smile he did not miss. You were messing with him.
He exhales quietly through his nose, like he’s trying to steady something unraveling in his chest-but it doesn’t quite work. Not when your voice is laced with that soft teasing, not when your lips brush his jaw-
Once.
Twice.
A third time, slower.
His hands tighten slightly where they rest on his thighs, fingers curling into the fabric there. His shoulders draw up just a fraction before he forces them to relax again, but the effect lingers-subtle, but unmistakable.
“You-” he starts, then stops.
His voice isn’t as steady as before.
He swallows, tilting his head just slightly-just enough to give you more space, though he doesn’t seem to realize he’s doing it.
“You’re… making it difficult,” he murmurs, quieter now, the words slipping out like a reluctant confession.
Another kiss.
Softer this time.
His composure cracks a little more.
A faint, helpless flush spreads across his cheeks again, deeper than before, and this time it doesn’t fade when he tries to will it away. His golden eyes flicker downward, like he’s searching for something-control, maybe, or the right words-but they don’t stay there long.
They close instead.
Just for a second.
Because it’s easier than trying to hold himself together while you do this to him.
“I'm not shy,” he adds, though there’s no real conviction behind it now. Not when his voice dips like that, not when his breath hitches almost imperceptibly as your lips linger near his jaw.
Not when he leans-just slightly-back into you.
As if drawn there without thinking.
“…I am simply unused to this.”
That, at least, is honest.
Painfully so.
You laugh softly. "Still? This is routine now, is it not?"
His hand lifts then, hesitant, uncertain, before settling lightly over yours where it still threads through his hair. He doesn’t stop you- doesn’t even try.
He’s quiet for a moment after that-your hand still in his hair, his resting over yours-like he’s weighing something small, something almost… embarrassing.
Then, softer than before-
“Will you do my hair?”
There’s a pause, just long enough to feel fragile.
“Just to sleep in?”
It’s such a simple request. Almost boyish, in a way that doesn’t match the man everyone else sees. No command, no expectation-just a quiet ask, like he’s not entirely sure you’ll say yes.
“Of course.”
The answer comes easily, warmly, and something in him loosens.
Not all at once-but enough.
His shoulders drop a fraction, the tension easing as he exhales slowly. Carefully, he shifts, turning just enough to give you better access, settling more comfortably between your legs. This time, when his back brushes against you, he doesn’t go still.
He leans into it.
Just slightly.
Your fingers move through his hair again, more deliberate now, smoothing through the long, dark strands. They fall easily into place beneath your touch, soft and warm from his skin. He lets his head tilt forward when you guide it, compliant in a way he never is with anyone else.
The room feels quieter now.
Closer.
His eyes drift shut as you begin, your fingers parting sections, weaving them together with gentle care. Each movement is slow, unhurried-something meant to soothe rather than impress.
And it works.
His breathing steadies, evening out as he sinks into the feeling. The faintest furrow in his brow disappears, replaced with something softer, something almost… peaceful.
“…You’ve done this before,” he murmurs, voice low, touched with quiet curiosity.
Not suspicion. Not doubt.
Just… noticing.
Your fingers glide through another section, smoothing it down, and he exhales again-this time heavier, like it’s pulling something deeper out of him.
There’s a long pause.
Then, quieter still-
“My mother used to do my hair.” Zuko says, breaking the silence. He rarely spoke of his mother these days.
The words are simple, but they settle heavily in the air between you.
He doesn’t open his eyes.
Doesn’t move away.
If anything, he leans back just a little more into your touch, trusting, unguarded in a way that feels rare-like something you’re being allowed to see.
Your hands continue their gentle work, braiding his hair loosely, something comfortable enough to sleep in. A few strands slip free near his face, framing it softly, but he doesn’t seem to mind.
Not tonight.
His hand, still resting over yours from before, shifts slightly-fingers brushing against your wrist, then settling there.
Not stopping you.
Just… staying.
“…It feels the same…yours I mean.” he admits, barely above a whisper.
Your hands still for just a moment in his hair.
Not stopping-never stopping-but slowing, softening, like the words deserve something gentler in return.
“...she used to brush my hair when I was a child,” he says quietly.
There’s no bitterness in his voice. Not quite. Just something distant. Remembered.
“Father thought it wasn’t a thing boys should do.”
Your fingers resume their slow rhythm, smoothing, parting, weaving. Careful. Intentional. Like you’re holding something fragile without ever letting him feel it might break.
“Your hands feel like hers.”
That makes your chest ache.
He doesn’t move when he says it. Doesn’t look at you. If anything, he sinks further back against you, his weight settling more fully, trusting you to hold it.
The candles flicker.
The room breathes around you.
And he-this man who carries himself like steel and fire in every other room-sits quiet and open in your hands.
You lean forward slightly, your lips brushing the crown of his head this time. Softer than before. Slower.
“Then I’ll do it as often as you want,” you murmur.
No teasing now.
Just warmth.
Your fingers continue the braid, loose and comfortable, something meant for rest rather than formality. A few strands slip free, grazing his cheek, and you smooth them back without thinking.
He exhales.
It’s different this time-deeper, like something long held finally eased.
“…He was wrong,” he says after a moment.
There’s a quiet steadiness to it now. Not defiance. Not anger.
Just certainty.
His hand shifts again, still resting over yours, but this time his fingers curl slightly-just enough to hold. Not to stop you.
Just to feel you there.
“I don’t care what he thought.”
Another pause.
Then, softer, “I would rather have this.”
And he leans back into you again, eyes closed, letting your hands move through his hair like it’s something he’s been missing for far longer than he ever allowed himself to admit.
I just wanted to let you in on a little Eid Al-Fitr tradition that you may not have known about. Traditionally, before every Eid, parents buy their children new clothes. The purpose of Eid is to celebrate the end of the year and the beginning of the next, so it is very fitting (pun-intended) for part of this celebration to include new vestments.
My friend Mahmoud Qassas has four children - and as they've gone through the accelerated genocide in Ghazzah without being able to evacuate or start a new life in safety - they have nothing left. His children are asking him for new clothes for Eid, but he cannot afford them.
I know many of you have asked how you could help me with my financial and housing struggles. I would greatly appreciate it if you could instead help him afford to buy new clothes for his children, one of whom is a newborn.
Thank you to all who have helped Ghazzawiyeh survive these times, from the bottom of my heart.
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I've noticed how the collective religious psychosis of Christian evangelical communities worldwide and the religious psychosis of their useful idiot Jewish supremacists start to go on overdrive everytime the West starts to bomb and kill people from the SWANA region.
It's such a cruel irony that the victims and fetishized targets of religious fanaticist state-sponsored terrorism are often also the ones labeled religious fanatics. Muslim girls don't deserve to go to school in safety because the fundamentalist Judeo-Christian West is really dedicated to making sure their Messiah arrives and ethnically cleanses all of us - Amalek - which would be the true righteous ending to the world in their eyes.
And the easiest way to justify this blood lust against Muslim children is to claim that those Muslim children hold the same perspective as the people killing them, to claim that fundamentalist beliefs are being sown into every child at those schools.
Muslim children don't deserve to learn to count, read, eat lunch with friends, play football in the playground, trip and fall and scrape their knees, because your local pastor really wants Armageddon to start...
And really what's the big deal anyway? I'm sure those kids are being taught the same thing about us good-natured Christians. Those dirty Moslems aren't learning anything, they're going to their dirty Moslem schools and are being taught Sharia Law and Qur'an verses about killing infidels... we're just preventing religious terrorism being done unto innocents! So what will your plans for the rapture be? Do you think we'll meet Jesus in his second coming? How long will it take him to get rid of those Moslems?
