Existence Is Pain

[skinny-depression]

i’m exhausted. i’m constantly exhausted. i go to bed exhausted. i wake up exhausted. every day, every hour i’m exhausted. it’s exhausting. 

[thoughtkick]

“It’s okay if I’m not your favorite chapter you have written, but I hope you sometimes smile when you flip back to the pages I was still apart of.”

— Unknown

[versesofourhearts]

-versesofourhearts

[thepersonalwords]

““Be nice to yourself. It is hard to be happy when someone is being mean to you all the time.” - Unknown”

—

[catchymemes]

[somewordsarebiggerthanothers]

[meeseeksmind]

„After all this time?“

[meeseeksmind]

Echoes That Keep Me Alive

Slowly, I begin to understand what the problem is.

I don’t know if it’s some kind of karmic lesson—

but I am so tired of feeling,

so tired of having hope,

if every moment feels like my heart is about to tear itself open.

If it means believing

that no one will ever love me

as deeply, as fiercely, as I love them.

That no one will ever worry the way I do,

care the way I do,

or fall apart at the thought of losing me.

No one would walk in circles for hours,

crying, breaking, screaming into the silence,

consumed by panic and fear.

No one—

except the one person who did.

And I lost him.

Forever.

No return, no second chance.

Because he lost the battle within himself.

And the last thing that held me together,

the last fragile thread of hope,

were the final words you gave me:

“Please… don’t leave me too.

You’re the last thing I have.”

There was no blame in them—

only fear.

Only the quiet terror

of that endless, devouring darkness.

And now, eight years later,

I understand.

I understand why.

I understand how that darkness

can swallow a soul whole.

And still—

after all this time—

that one piece of you I carry

still gives me strength.

Still gives me the courage

to keep going, somehow.

Because I know

you would never have wanted

for me to lose that fight too.

[mournfulroses]

Ariel Day, from a poem titled "Games," featured in Black Roses: Poems about Love, Heartbreak, Mental Health, Self Love

[disc90s]

ah i’d sit beside it forever... quietly loving it, gently watering it, and making sure it never felt alone 🥺

[queenoquestions]

existence is pain

qq.

[traeumendestille]

Jemanden zu vermissen der gestorben ist, ist eine Sache die nie heilen wird..

[thoughtkick]

“Nothing haunts us like the things we don’t say.”

— Mitch Albom, Have a Little Faith

[thoughtkick]

“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole life fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”

— F.Scott Fitzgerald

[ashstfu]

“what if i’m always the one who loves more?”“congratulate yourself.”

[meeseeksmind]

„Congratulation, you‘re now on the fastest road to let your heart break, again.“

[shoelace4-48]

excuse me, which level of hell is this?

[kosmogrl]