At the close of 2012, I began working on material to present to the MR. KIND boys for a studio date we had booked at the end of January. I had just gone through a break-up (just in time for the holidays) and thought that I'd have plenty of ideas to sink my teeth into.
I kept being drawn, however, to the skeleton of a song that I had written well over a year ago but never finished. Whenever I started working on a new song, I was drawn back to my initial sketch, a song that preceded and wasn't even considered for OK.
I brought it to Jon, who helped co-produce OK, and over the course of a couple weeks, we picked away at the arrangement, while I constantly refined the lyrics. It's the wordiest song I've ever written, rooted in sentiments I've felt although the narrative itself is fictional. Once brought to the band, the song then really began to find its wings.
I recorded a rough acoustic demo to share this new song for y'all before we head into the studio on Sunday. I've been trying to move away from acoustic folk and less intuitive instrumentation so what you see/hear below is much different than the arrangement the band is kicking around. Still, it should give you a sense of where things are going with this one. Draft lyrics can be found below the video.
Verse 1:
I won't disturb you dear when I leave here in the morning
I think it best that I not serve a warning, delay us from admitting just what we did
My head aches as evidence from a night of heavy drinking
Designed to interrupt, distort our thinking, distract from things once felt with our maliced hearts
Verse 2:
The girl I knew back in school she had a different way to get you
In subtlety she found herself a warm ruse enough to make you feel some more alive
When I first became aware of the flash of early interest
The trumpets blared loudly enough to deafen, and others seemed extras in a dream
Chorus 1:
I don't know what was done to make you leave
But now we've gone and fucked it up, completely, completely
Verse 3:
When Jack left the party ran to fish his friend out of the river
I stuck around long enough to find reason to stay as I caught you from afar and all others went dark
The night moved, I found myself in a room had grown more crowded but still unseen by the one that had held my attention
‘Til the cops came to kick, kick, us out to the night
Bridge 1:
The familiar feeling of the tightening of your grip, you're on my mind
Verse 4:
Under cover of darkness I found you, free to forget our history, allowed to pretend that this was a first meeting, allow ourselves to indulge now put the past in its place
And briefly the girl from back in school returned, the one I knew before the rules the one before the boredom,
The girl who could put all at ease if just given the chance
Chorus 2:
I don’t know what we said that made it bleed
But now we’ve gone and fucked it up, completely
I don't know what was done to make you leave
But now we've gone and fucked it up, completely, completely
Bridge 2:
The familiar feeling of the tightening of your grip, you're on my mind
You throw me out of synch, would it be easier to just let it be?
The familiar feeling of the tightening of your grip when you're in my mind
V5:
Now where does this leave us, I don’t want to think myself too hasty
Each minute I feel my feelings ever-changing
I’ve worked too hard getting whole to just give it away
And briefly I’m reminded of trumpets loud enough to deafen
With a stillness found only with divine intervention
It’s the thought that I take as I leave when I close the door
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