"Please, do not let me die."

"Zan Gin. Her lack of physical condition and her tendency to panic make her unfit to be a leader, but her strong survival instinct and bright mind have managed to save her and her comrades multiple times." [SNK OC roleplay blog- Multiship and OC friendly, of course~!]

[dauntlesscommander]

"Put. The. Weapon. Down." // s o r r y we've never roleplayed before and I sent you that meme ask thing because i'm lame i'm s o r ry

"Why should I? I’m merely eliminating the risk of further corruption within the Military Police."

[dauntlesscommander]

"I don’t care. They could try, but they can’t," he replied. He smiled bitterly. "I’m probably going to die soon, anyway. Assassins are  being hired more and more often, you know."

[meetzan]

That was too much. She burst out crying. "N-no, please don’t say that !! W-who else is going to fight for the g-glory of humanity…? Y-you are o-our only hope !!"

"O-our enemies are the titans, r-right ?! W-why would you get killed by humans…? T-this is absurd…!!"

[dauntlesscommander]

Erwin shrugged. “It’s rather difficult to fight without my right arm, nowadays,” he replied. “And there are just some people who are so corrupt that they are willing to hurt anyone who disagrees with them. It’s that simple.”

"That’s why I’m doing this. But please stop crying," he said, his voice strained.

[meetzan]

She had only noticed his arm was...missing. A gasp escaped her lips, and she took a step away. "...y...your arm, c-commander...b-but what...h-how...?"

"...i-is the situation really...that bad...? Is...is the military...really so corrupt...? B-but..but I thought..."

[meetzan]

"They won’t, I promise !"

"Besides, you look lovely. Why do you worry so much, squad leader…?"

[adxtuendam]

"People here like to gossip… Not a lot of people have been saying nice things about me lately"

[meetzan]

"O-oh...um, y-yes, well..."

"I don't think gossips can be really  helped, though. I-I mean, they all hear what they want to hear. Explaining and clearing up stuff never works..." Zan gave her a smile.  "Well, just ignore it, squad leader ! You're way too cool to listen to stupid stuff like that !"

[meetzan]

"N-Nik !" A horrified expression appeared on her face, followed by immediate anger.

"H-how could you even laugh about something s-so horrible !! Y-you know I would never take your gear !! I would never put you in danger like that !!"

[beyondthesword-deactivated20140]

"I’m going to die eventually.. You have to come to terms with that," he said as he looked at her. "There is no need for you to get so angry about it. I just laugh at death."

[meetzan]

"You goddamn idiot !!"

She burst out crying, suddenly clinging to his arm and shaking him like a tree. "You can't die !! You won't die, you hear me ?! Nobody cares if I die. I won't make a difference. B-but you...you are a titan shifter !! You're a soldier from the Survey Corps !! Y-you...you can't die like this !! You can actually make a difference...!!"

[the-unpopular-opinions]

     I really wish people on this site would stop speaking on behalf of the Sami culture. I am Sami. I was born and raised in Norway (Where Frozen takes place.) I know alot of other Sami people. I am white and blonde. I look like Kristoff. Most of my Sami friends are also white. We are white. When people say that Disney “fucked up” by making Kristoff white because “they aren’t white” it hurts me because I am and a lot of other people are too.     Most of my Sami friends- most Sami that I know, actually (Not that I’m speaking for everyone, just from my experience living in Norway and growing up around other Samis) loved this movie. I LOVE that they had a Sami composer come in to do the intro. I LOVED all the little references to our culture. I didn’t feel “cheapened” or “appropriated” or whatever people are trying to say. Our own president, Aili Keskitalo, LOVED the movie. The movie is going to be shown at Skábmagovat, a Sámi movie festival in Finland. Most of us (from what I’ve gathered) really liked this movie.     You all tell white, straight, cis people to “check their privilege” and to “not speak on behalf of PoC,” but so many people who are not of my culture are speaking on behalf of us and I find it very hypocritical. Most of you had never even heard of the Sami culture until this film.      So please. Put down the virtual pitchforks and just enjoy the movie. 

[meetzan]

"I could always steal your gear and you would be sorry."

"I would wake you up in the middle of the night with a high-pitched scream, then disappear. I bet you would wet your pants !" She giggled quietly, amused by her own joke.

[beyondthesword-deactivated20140]

"Well.. if you steal my gear then.. I’d either be relieved until I find it or I’d die on the battlefield," he said with a small chuckle. "Sorry for laughing.."

[meetzan]

"N-Nik !" A horrified expression appeared on her face, followed by immediate anger.

"H-how could you even laugh about something s-so horrible !! Y-you know I would never take your gear !! I would never put you in danger like that !!"

[meetzan]

"See ? Your stomach agreed with me !"

"I won’t take any of your protests, squad leader. You’re coming with me and we’ll get you lots of food !!" Still holding Alek with one arm, she grabbed Rico with the other, pulling her towards the door. "It’s okay, most of the soldiers are already done eating.  They won’t bother you or ask you questions."

[adxtuendam]

Reluctantly being pulled to the door, she followed with Zan. “Hopefully, I don’t want people seeing me so drained”

[meetzan]

"They won't, I promise !"

"Besides, you look lovely. Why do you worry so much, squad leader...?"

[goobsohard]

The sexual tension between two people when one of them says “make me”

[meetzan]

"Naturally ! But now…" Zan approached Rico and gently took Alek in her arms. “I will take care of this little gentleman while you eat breakfast, alright ? You need to eat, squad leader ! You need to be strong so you can come back to the Garrison soon ! We all miss you~!”

[adxtuendam]

No longer having Alek on her knees, she stretched herself out. Bones cracking from the strain and she yawned yet again. “You really don’t have to Zan, I’ll be able to come down for luch” Her stomach growled as she said that statement. “Well… Maybe breakfast isn’t a bad idea” She chuckled a little. “Hopefully I’ll be back to work soon, I miss you all too” She smiled briefly.

[meetzan]

"See ? Your stomach agreed with me !"

"I won't take any of your protests, squad leader. You're coming with me and we'll get you lots of food !!" Still holding Alek with one arm, she grabbed Rico with the other, pulling her towards the door. "It's okay, most of the soldiers are already done eating.  They won't bother you or ask you questions."

[meetzan]

"I would scare you so hard you wouldn’t be able to sleep for the next twenty years."

"Also I would steal your stuff to annoy you."

[beyondthesword-deactivated20140]

"It would take a lot to scare me, and I don’t have a lot of stuff.. Good luck finding something," he said with a chuckle.

[meetzan]

"I could always steal your gear and you would be sorry."

"I would wake you up in the middle of the night with a high-pitched scream, then disappear. I bet you would wet your pants !" She giggled quietly, amused by her own joke.

[meetzan]

"…but…I saw so many dead bodies a-already…t-the Scouting Legion always comes back with a s-stack of corpses, a-and I-"  She put her hand over her mouth. God dammit. She was so stupid, so fucking stupid. Why did she have to fuck up again ? Those “corpses” were once living, breathing people, just like she was. Calling them ‘corpses’ was disrespectful and just…horrible. ”..forgive me. I…It’s just…I tried to help with the bodies once. I-it…didn’t…turn out well…” She didn’t feel the need to mention that as soon as she had seen the face of one of the dead soldiers, she kept screaming or at least five minutes only to be finally evacuated to the medical wing, where she remained for a few days, spending her time on either throwing up or crying.

"…I am weak. Physically and mentally. I can’t help it, I just- I tried to be stronger, I swear I did. A-all I can do is take care of wounded soldiers, a-and sometimes help with s-strategic stuff, t-that’s all…I could never kill titans outside the walls, I just- I know it’s dangerous out there, I…I know how many Scouting Legion soldiers die everytime you make an expedition…b-but…you still have to…to do your best to stay alive. Please…” She noticed his confused look. Of course. Her sentence had been really awkwardly formulated, like she was desperately in love with him or something. So she cleared her throat, skillfully hiding her blush. "…You are a real, skilled, brave soldier. You…you can actually make a difference. You fight titans, you help the Scouting Legion to gather information, y-you…you protect people, you are helpful, useful, you…you are needed. Unlike me. I’m just a random soldier from the Garrison. If I got killed by a titan, no one would really miss me. I wonder if anyone would even notice my death. I wouldn’t like to die alone and forgotten…but beggars can’t be choosers, I suppose."

[bluntkirstein-deactivated201404]

Jean sighed. “Zan. Listen to me. Just fucking listen to me for a moment. You ranked what, 87th? It’s a long way from the top, but it’s a long way from the bottom too. There were over two hundred graduates in the 104th Squad, remember? Not to mention that you lasted through the entire three years of training. How many people didn’t? That in itself is quite an achievement. And you survived Trost, too. You obviously have capability if you survived through that hell. And so what if you’re not physically strong? Not everyone can be. Taking care of wounded soldiers and strategic work is really important too, y’know. And who cares if you stay safe behind the walls? There’s nothing wrong with valuing your own life…”

Jean wasn’t sure why he cared so much. Bouts of self hate or self depreciation were common enough in the Scouting Legion, what with people beating themselves up over things they did wrong, or having survivor’s guilt. Usually, Jean just let them sort it out themselves, but here he was; going out of his way to comfort this stranger in the Garrison.

Jean looked down at her words. Skilled, yes. He had come sixth, he had to be skilled. Brave? If Zan knew the terror that always threatened to overwhelm him, she wouldn’t call him brave. If she knew how he nearly froze up whenever he had a close brush with a titan, if she knew how he woke up scared witless and reduced to tears during the night from the nightmares, she wouldn’t use the word brave to describe him.

"A titan isn’t going to kill you," he said quietly, still not looking up. "We’re not going to let the Colossal Titan break Wall Rose again. We’ll keep the titans out. You’ll be safe behind the walls. And if somehow, you did die…that would be the titan I’d slice to ribbons." He gripped her hand tightly. "You wouldn’t be forgotten. I’d kill any titan that hurt you, no matter what."

[meetzan]

Her heart started racing again. To be honest, she didn't know how to feel anymore. They were surrounded by casualties, their moans of pain, and terrified doctors. Yet, he was still trying to comfort her. It was sweet. Somewhat macabre, given the circumstances, but sweet. And he was right, after all. She went through three hard years of training, just like the other soldiers. And even though she had ranked 87th, she had survived Trost.

Marco Bodt didn't.  And he was part of the top 10.

A feeling of guilt hit her like a ton of bricks. Though she was refusing to admit it, she couldn't understand how she had managed to survive, while so many stronger soldiers had to die. Marco was in the top 10. He was also Jean's best friend, obviously. If only she wasn't such a coward, only trying to save her own life. If only she had helped more, or fought harder. Perhaps Marco would still be alive. Perhaps Mina would still be alive as well. Biting her lower lip so she wouldn't cry, Zan covered her mouth with her hands, shaking a bit. She didn't know why he was so caring towards her. Any other soldier would have already slapped her and told her to toughen up. It was nice, finally having someone who actually acted like her life was worth something. And if he was faking it, well...he was a good actor nonetheless, because it appeared genuine. Or perhaps he just knew how she felt. He too must have been subject to nightmares, after all...just like her after Mina's death. And then Erd... Had he lost relatives ? That she couldn't tell. But surely he had lost friends, comrades. People he shared his dorm with, who he used to see everyday, to train with, to talk with. Losing family or friends was a pain so difficult to manage. And being skilled didn't have anything to do with it. Weak or strong, soldiers remained humans: with their flaws, qualities, and feelings.  A titan is not going to kill you. His words made her snap out of her reflexions, and caused her to look at him. But he didn't look back at her. He had lowered his head, his stare difficult to decrypt. What was he saying ? How could he know ? She lowered her head as well. You will be safe behind the walls.

Her heart skipped a beat, and she finally looked at him. "...I will be...safe...?" She didn't know how he intended to keep the titans out.  She didn't know how he was going to stop the Colossal Titan from breaking Wall Rose again. But it didn't matter. He cared about her. He wanted to keep her safe. To protect her. A warm, fuzzy feeling filled her body, and she calmed down for a couple seconds, her muscles finally relaxing a bit. But when he grabbed her hand, her cheeks turned crimson red, her entire back tensing as if she was saluting. "...y...you don't have t-to put yourself in danger j-just to avenge m-my eventual death." She gave him a nervous smile. "I-if you could just remember my name...so the nurses would be able to identify my body, a-and give it back to my mother...you know, s-so she wouldn't have to worry about me not coming back home...that would be very nice of you." 

[meetzan]

"…and here I thought a Scouting Legion soldier would be able to drink tea in bed without spilling it everywhere…"

"Life sure is full of surprises."

[notabadleader-archive-deactivat]

"Hey, hey," It hadn’t been a completely serious argument, he was just too lazy to do both, "I’m only coordinated in the air, kid, not s’much when I’m sittin’ around." 

[meetzan]

"Wait, you mean you're coordinated enough to kill titans but not enough to drink tea ?"

"And who are you callin' a kid ?"

[meetzan]

"Goooooooooooood morning, squad leader !"

The door opened slowly, and Zan peeked in. Last time she had visited Rico she had kicked the door open, and the woman didn’t appreciate it at all. With a grin, Zan entered the room, then closed the door behind her and saluted. "Reporting for duty ! Um…I did not see you at breakfast, squad leader. Did you eat today ?"

[adxtuendam]

The bright voice of Zan made Rico shake her head a little to wake up, she wouldn’t want to be caught dozing off. “Good morning Zan. Ah, no I haven’t yet since the little one had to be taken care of first” Rico yawned, covering her mouth. “Y’know what babies are like”

[meetzan]

"Naturally ! But now..." Zan approached Rico and gently took Alek in her arms. "I will take care of this little gentleman while you eat breakfast, alright ? You need to eat, squad leader ! You need to be strong so you can come back to the Garrison soon ! We all miss you~!"

[meetzan]

Cry until he couldn’t cry anymore ?

For her ? That was way too much. "Nik, I’m serious."

"If you cry when I die, I’m going ot come back as a ghost and haunt you forever."

[beyondthesword-deactivated20140]

"Go ahead.. I don’t mind," he said with a chuckle.

[meetzan]

"I would scare you so hard you wouldn't be able to sleep for the next twenty years."

"Also I would steal your stuff to annoy you."

[adxtuendam]

Rico sat with her knees propped up and Alek lay with his head against her knees. The two of them were rather bored. Rico held a teddy out in front of him to play with, teasing him to grab it. Her eyes began to droop, she was hardly ever getting sleep now.

Giving Alek the teddy she leaned back a little nipped at the bridge of her nose, sliding her glasses up.

"I really need to do something to keep me awake…"

[meetzan]

"Goooooooooooood morning, squad leader !"

The door opened slowly, and Zan peeked in. Last time she had visited Rico she had kicked the door open, and the woman didn't appreciate it at all. With a grin, Zan entered the room, then closed the door behind her and saluted. "Reporting for duty ! Um...I did not see you at breakfast, squad leader. Did you eat today ?"

[meetzan]

"I never met her. But I already can’t stand her. Everyone keeps talking about her, and I can’t stand it."

His story made her heart ache. “…I used to live in Stohess. Dad took me there so I would be safe from the titans, a-and Erd decided to stay with mom in Karanese, because he wanted to join the military…b-but when dad died, they sent me back, and I joined the military as well. My life was fairly easy, b-but…” The knot in her throat appeared again. “…ever since Erd got killed…”

"…I have to work twice as hard. T-to bring money home. Mom and Erd’s fiancée need it. A-a lot. And i-it’s not like anyone is going to help us.” She didn’t want him to pity her at all. But since he told her his story, she could as well tell him hers. "…and obviously Ackerman doesn’t understand she isn’t the only person in the world who has almost no family left. And that she has people willing to help her." "…Nik…you shouldn’t worry about me. It’s okay. If I die, don’t be sad."

[beyondthesword-deactivated20140]

"Zan.. you don’t get it do you? I will worry and if you die.. I will cry for you. I will cry until I can not cry anymore. I do love you, and no one can make me stop.. I will always have these feelings for you, but if you prefer someone else, I can respect that."

[meetzan]

Cry until he couldn't cry anymore ? For her ? That was way too much. "Nik, I'm serious."

"If you cry when I die, I'm going ot come back as a ghost and haunt you forever."

[kickeverykat]

進撃の巨人 女・男体化 | Giant Jellyfish 

[meetzan]

Something was wrong with Lance Corporal Levi.

She didn't know him personally. She had met Commander Erwin multiple times, but never got the chance to talk to Corporal Levi. Yet people around her couldn't seem to stop talking about him. And their words weren't reassuring. Corporal Levi has lost his mind, they said. Corporal Levi's mental state is questionable.  She refused to believe such rumors, of course. Growing up with the hope that someday, somehow, the Survey Corps will succeed and free humanity, there were no people she admired more than Commander Erwin and Lance Corporal Levi.  Hearing that one of them could be accused of being a traitor and executed anytime was already painful. But to know that the second one was having mental problems ? That was more than she could handle.

The other soldiers kept mocking her because of her concern for the Survey Corps. And she tried not to care. But when Commander Erwin officially asked her to go to the Survey Corps headquarters to check up on Corporal Levi and make sure he was alright, her only reaction was a nervous cough. She couldn't refuse, naturally, but could she really accept such a request ?

A hour later, she was on her way to the headquarters.