Meg

🌿Artist and gardener. Journal, artwork, photography, quotes, and dreams. 🌿

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I time my doggie walks for the sunsets.

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My friend and I got a little crazy on the white board at work.

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Some progress pics of the next portrait I am working on. Paint is not my usual medium but I’m trying to just have fun with it.

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Gave my friend some spooky hair.

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This morning, I asked my husband if we could talk about some of our issues at noon. By noon he was too drunk to see straight.

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Mechanical pencil with digital color portrait I finished today.

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Work pics this week. I did my coworker’s hair color and put some pretty fall leaves in her hair tie yesterday. 🍁

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Finished building a catio for the kitties today. Now they have a safe outdoor space they can access anytime. They both love it already.

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Made my friend’s hair half black and half peach last night.

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I love this Avatar game so damn much.

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Toe beans.

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1•29•2024

Waiting for N to get home from work. I have no idea how tonight is going to go. I told him our dog is literally getting sick from all of the stress of us fighting for weeks. She hasn’t been eating very much for the past few days and definitely got sick overnight when I slept in another room. If that doesn’t get through to him to take it easy on drinking and be civil to me then I don’t know what will. No matter how mad we are at each other, we love our animals so much. We need to put aside our differences for them at the very least. I can’t imagine having human children in the middle of all of this.

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1•28•2024

Today I prepared the guest bedroom for me to stay in while N and I are not ok. I brought in my dragonfly lamp, my journal, my book, and my favorite pillow and blanket to help me feel comfortable even though I’m not sleeping in our room anymore. I’m grateful to have a house big enough that I can make my own space when I need to, and that all of the pets are still sleeping with me. Never thought I’d have to do this though.

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Nimun next to my dragon statue.

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Screaming nights, silent days.

Alone but sitting right next to you, trapped but the door is unlocked.

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1•21•2024

I woke up with the full intention to finish a portrait I’m working on for M today, and halfway through the day, I knew that wasn’t going to happen. I could blame it on the weather since it was overcast and gloomy, but the truth is that I always struggle with motivation and procrastination on my days off no matter what the weather is.

Instead I escaped into playing Avatar all day. I felt guilty but I justified it by telling myself I’ll get it done on my next day off. If I tell M I’m going to get it done this week, that will hold me accountable.

But damn I had a good time just playing video games in my pj’s all day.

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Our new kitten is so beautiful I almost can’t stand it.