Trigger warning

This is a personal depressing blog that includes: -Depression -Self Harm -Eating Disorders -ect.

[worthless-mess]

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

[nightlongnight]

Main character syndrome? I think I actually have minor character syndrome: irrelevant, unecessary and dismissable. Only existing while other people do things that are more important.

[maddisons-headspace]

Everytime I let it slip how bad I’m actually doing, I’m reminded I’m not allowed to actually feel anything.

I have to be okay all the time that’s my job.

[23anddyingg-deactivated20250704]

Don't mind me, I'm just casually sabotaging all my positive relationships with negative delusions because my life doesn't feel real unless something dramatic and destructive is constantly occurring

[the-suicide-effect]

[hello-its-the-ivy-blog]

I’m the “friend” left out and talked about

[myye]

“Thanks for ignoring me even though you’ve been up, all night talking to other people and forgetting me, feeling pretty darn special right now.“”

—

[lonelydaydreamers]

not just lately

[marryjuanagemini-319-deactivate]

[deadbyinsidee]

every night

[thebookquotes]

The truth was I was tired way underneath my skin. I was tired where even I couldn't see. I do not know how that happened. How I ended up like that. It all happened so fast.

— Rebecca Wells, The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood

[queerlysad]

[bpddisaster]

having abandonment issues like

[riotneko]

[hoangjennibong]

I always feel so secluded and unwanted .

I see pictures of a bunch of my friends hanging out , having fun, making memories without me . I just feel so left out . I mean of course I want to hang out with them but I guess I’m not on their go to list of hanging out or something . And I hate asking if I could tag along because sometimes I feel like they’ll say yes cos they feel bad for me . That’s why I really don’t go out often . 

It’s hard seeing your friends have fun without you , you know? it just really sucks . I mean seeing all that happen on tumblr and facebook makes me want to go out too but since no one asks me to go I always have the hesitation to ask if anyone wants to hang out with me . I would always be like “ of course they don’t want to hang out with you, I mean they didn’t ask if you wanted to hang out with them in the first place, so why ask them If you’re pretty sure they’ll say no?”

I hate this feeling, but I guess I’ve had this feeling ever since I’ve had friends . 

[darkangel-rainbowwings]

For me, it’s either people exclude me, forget about me and treat me as if I’m completely useless, or people use me in the wrong way… So sick of being me.

[ookamia]

i feel like my no one in my friends group actually wants to be involved with me anymore, they always meet up with each other, excluding me.