mélange

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Acid melt my ego, 

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always felt ‘off’ - 

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Pessimism and all...

When alone in my thoughts, the pessimism creeps, engulfing me into this oblique shaded black world. 

May I cease to continue to feel, death, from one moment to the next - all will move forward regardless. 

Emotion, colour, love, drugs, passion, pain, sorrow... all gone and peak nothingness enters. Into the void we succumb. Dust. 

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playin’ around - 

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I feel so at home, so in tune, so content at merely standing and looking forward into that vastness of colour. 

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Perception; Anxiety.

A way of thought which over the years I have developed, just to avoid the persistent social anxiety I’ve had in the past. 

By acknowledging truly, everyday to my core values - that I am no more than another ant in this colony. 

Anything I do, will be forgotten almost instantly, as others return to their First Person narrative life story. No one really gives a damn about you, only yourself - 

We disappear, vanish into the vast millions and millions of people in the past and those to come. 

A reminder that I’m finite, just as that dude next to me, and all else. 

A drug like mindset, a drug like state of mind whilst stone cold sober. 

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Close-up of an Aztec Eel. 

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Bay area chums, 

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Amethyst

#9966CC 

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What a shot. When’s the mixtape coming? 

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We may blink out of existence, die, any moment for no logical reason. So please, relinquish the present moment as much as you can. 

Meditate, exercise, travel, love, listen, speak, hear... savour it all. 

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Coast, we coast - we coast chum. 

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oscillating muttering sea shores 

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Coast Chum, humble by our surroundings - 

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coast chum . 

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Urban decay / essentially we turn to dust and that seems oddly reassuring... 

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surf skate slide ski