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[mellowwillowy]

𝐖𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐚𝐩𝐢𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐋𝐈𝐟𝐄

[𝘍𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘳𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘷𝘦, 𝘐 𝘩𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘊𝘢𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘓𝘐𝘧𝘌 𝘢𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵.]

˗ˏˋ Commission Info

˚₊· The most prominent figure in this Capital— Our Dearest Mother, our Creator, goes by the name Merra/Willow.

˚₊· The Master of the Theatre, the one who rules over all the casts, the one who delivers the tales of all wandering souls in the finest way you can't even detail, XL the Capricious.

˚₊· The Master of the Archive, the one who graces the remnant of archives that have ever existed, the one who shall grace your story and archive it, Vellanie the Time.

𝘞𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘸𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘥𝘶𝘭𝘵 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴.

𝘙𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴, 𝘈𝘴𝘬𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯. 𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘥𝘳𝘰𝘱 𝘣𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮. 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺'𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 <𝘗𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘢>. 𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦, 𝘥𝘰 𝘴𝘰. 𝘐𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘥, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘦𝘯𝘫𝘰𝘺𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘥 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵?

Tags: #Art Shelves , #Theatric Guest

"Oh, do you perhaps fancy a game of chessboard more than spectating the theatric show? If so, allow me to indulge you in a new board game. Hm? Oh no, not a literal board game but rather... a story in which we get to play like a game of chess."

- 𝐗𝐋 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐚𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬

"You may stray as far as you wish but I'll advise you something the other doesn't, do not open the door that seems ominously foreign to you lest you get into an... unsightly trouble."

- 𝐕𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐞

Pamphlet Stand:

˗ˏˋ𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

˗ˏˋ𝐀 𝐓𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐥 𝐆𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐂𝐚𝐩𝐢𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞

𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘦𝘯𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘊𝘢𝘵𝘣𝘰𝘟, 𝘳𝘶𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘭𝘭.

𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘦𝘯𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘓𝘐𝘧𝘌 𝘗𝘳𝘰𝘫𝘦𝘤𝘵, 𝘳𝘶𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘦𝘳𝘤𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘭𝘭.

𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘦𝘯𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘣𝘰𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦. 𝘌𝘹𝘤𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘪𝘵? 𝘉𝘶𝘵, 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘯, 𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘴𝘦, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘣𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘰𝘰𝘳?

[mellowwillowy]

I was just thinking but… seriously, you'd expect Yulian to have less reaction than Blue but in reality, he is more expressive because Spouse Reader rarely does anything

[mellowwillowy]

So currently im very infatuated with a character (a niche one so uhm, I'm gonna see if I wanna upload it) BUT

Imagine a Yan! hybrid cat, like, your pet cat. Very adorable, very grumpy, very fluffy. You love him to death but damn you gotta chop off those balls soon. Obviously your pet cat was scared to death hearing that and the night before the vet appointment, the gods granted his wish to save his balls.

By turning him into a… sexthothybrid—

You woke up to a random ass man with cat ears and tails, naked like a baby. You would have called the police on him right away if not for his handsome face. (Pretty privilege)

Fortunately, he could speak your language and explained that he didn't know how this could have happened.

He even proved himself by telling you your schedule, what you like to do to him, and well, the hours when you’d lock him out of your bedroom to do your business (courtesy of a smart cat who is hyper aware of whatever the fuck it is)

So great, now he had saved his balls. If you had chopped off his balls, he wouldn't be able to go balls dee—

Anyway, you had a blast dressing him up in a sexy skimpy shirt huh? Well, he had the body to show off all his curves and muscles anyway.

[mellowwillowy]

Am writing husband x reader content right now but…

[mellowwillowy]

All of you will listen to my fairy tale.

So I had a dream, a dream about my (beep). In the dream, I saw him uploaded something on his account. I remembered it was a showcase of his playlist, but forgot about it when I woke up lol.

Long story short, I was just mindless scrolling (stalking) before I got to work and noticed he updated something again after weeks. After a momentary loading, I remembered that I dreamed something similar. My dream self was saying "Look at this" to me.

It was no surprise to have him appear in my dreams at the most random times for the past 4 years. Matter of fact, he tends to appear when I least expect it. At times when I was doing so well with my life, with him barely registered in my memories anymore, that would be his favorite time to surface back.

It almost makes me think that "Ah, you really are like a ghost. I loved you so much, but it's a shame I couldn't show it properly in the past. Are you here to ridicule me?"

Many times, I missed the chance to really make things right with him in the dreams. I mean, I could just tail after him or anything. Hit him even. But this is no lucid dream, I could only 'watch'.

Sometimes, he'd appear and stay for a few nights. Sometimes, he'd leave for many months and eventually come back uninvited. Funnily enough, I was still sane enough not to memorize any of those dreams. All these years, I still could remember the first year we were together vividly despite my attempt to just forget it.

Another awful timing was that there were people who anonymously came at me and guess what? Some things just didn't change and I assumed they were him (Nice~ accusing someone now~)

I'd often ask myself, why him? Not someone else? Aside from petty reasonings, why am I so used to the idea that it might be him? Trauma or what?

Another valid question would be that, if I still **** him, why? At least 4 years have passed, and he has damn well changed. Do I just want to make things right or what? And considering how much of an asshole I am, what guarantees me that I won't snap back?

And years have passed, we are heading toward adulthood, in which more things should be considered properly.

still, last night, i laid down and imagined about things. based on all of those thoughts, i asked myself. "Hey, is this just... impulsive imagination, or do I just like him that much?"

Or is it just the comfort (funny enough, fear of him too) of knowing him... that much back then? Either way,

Why is it that he can do better than me? To go on dates freely, see others out, not that I envy it that much. Bitter, perhaps. Angry? No. Just a bit bitter...? Ah, bitter because I was still stuck in this zone after all these years. I guess I pitied my second ex and was grateful we broke up. And that boy? Bless his heart, we knew what we were.

Aside from them both, who else? Just him again?

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[mellowwillowy]

When Blue said “What can I not do for you?”

I think the perfect answer would be “Not ruining my life and my future.”

[mellowwillowy]

Wow I almost officially don't give a fuck about Genshin, tsaritsa, Fatui, Snezhnaya. Like, the entire Sandrone bullshit already killed me.

The reveal was mid to me, I don't even bother to look for more because I'm just so disappointed in the game and the bootlickers themselves. It's pure rage bait.

As usual, none of the characters were that interesting just like NK. (except Zibai and Illuga, and Nefer)

I don't even think I will write for them anymore, and I'm gonna sell the Genshin merch away.

[mellowwillowy]

I feel like I might have to cut Blue’s hair or at least give him a new (easier) hairstyle BUT this one has lived in me for 6 years 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 what a struggle… I need to learn how to draw him better…

It's so hard to draw it without any proper reference I can study… does anyone know a character who shares the same hairstyle as him? I knew there was one but I don't know which webcomic he was from… (I don't even have the photos)

[mellowwillowy]

Every time I read your vague post, I get reminded of the time during the online class era where I accidentally chatted "I'm sorry but I don't love you anymore" in the class chat and the teacher read it outloud, then proceeded to disable chats, making me not be able to delete it for the whole 40 minutes of class time.

So yeah, I sometimes think that you do that but I forget it's intentional. Love your works and praise Yulian.

Anon dear, that was FOUL 😭😭😭😭 core memory for sure too 😭😭😭

And kkkkk. Yes, it is intentional 🤣🤣 I even made an account for a bunch of vague posts. I just hope my posts could reach the person somehow~

Hail Yulian! (Aight, let’s see what can I write for him now cuz this post cracks me up)

[mellowwillowy]

XUN YU • JIA XU

[mellowwillowy]

LOHEN

[mellowwillowy]

I'm cracking up. Every time I (vague) post, I almost see these familiar faces liking it like damn, I have ppl who are reading my shits 😭😭😭

[mellowwillowy]

Why can't we be together though? Even if I've changed, I still think there's more problems.

[mellowwillowy]

The thing about writing for Yulian is that I try my best not to reduce Spouse to just a ‘Spouse’ but it's very hard lol.

[mellowwillowy]

hello

Hii

[mellowwillowy]

Hello, can we talk?

[mellowwillowy]

Breaking News: After who knows how many days, Yulian-mii finally fell for his wife!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Who knows how many days it will take for them to date and marry?????

Bonus: OOC Yulian being clingy and creepy hahaha idk why she's like that... she's usually very warm and friendly to him.