Dysphoria

I’ve seen loyalty turn fake and promises shatter like glass. Trust no one.

[imgoingtopissonthefloor]

[meloverice]

It took me 10 months to finally put her stuff in a box and tape it shut. There’s a lot of memories in there, every single picture we have ever taken together was moved to 2 different USBs and locked in 2 different safes because I could never delete all those memories. I thought I was going to be with her for the rest of my life but I guess that chapter is over. I’ll never forget her beautiful eyes, gorgeous smile or how amazing I felt every time I got to hug her. It’s crazy how thinking about her still makes me smile even with tears rolling down my face. Somehow even after all this time I still dream about her, horseback riding, traveling to different countries, the wedding…. All the memories replay over and over. I’ll work 80 hours a week just to try to stay busy but no matter what as much as I hate to admit it she’s always in the back of my mind. I can say I have experienced true heartbreak but hey she moved on, she’s happy and that’s all that matters.

[meloverice]

Dates that will forever haunt me

10/8/2023

07/12/2025

2/17/2026

[mellblogss]

I wonder if I was your hardest goodbye? Cause you sure as hell were mine.

[meloverice]

The only reason I sleep is so I can see her again.

[fearlessknightsandfairytales]

[blvcknaesth]

[meloverice]

I hate notifications. I look up instantly every time and hope it’s her… it never is

[rebelculture]

[heavensghost]

In the name of Love, Katie Maria

[lilacl00n-deactivated20260128]

[weltenwellen]

Anaïs Nin, Fire: From “A Journal of Love”: The Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1934–1937

[childalter-moved-deactivated201]

[lovelifeinlove]

[crimsolyn]

[linkinmoon]

Edna St. Vincent Millay, in Letters (1952)

[meloverice]

All my friends are getting married and having kids

Meanwhile I’m getting divorced from the person I thought I would be with forever…