* HEAVEN FELL !

heaven  won't  have  anything  to  do  with  me

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i really had to read a post where someone complained abt tumblr being mean towards/irt straight muses huh

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i haven’t forgotten this blog i swear sjfmkdj i’m drowning in final papers and exams rn but i’ll be more active starting mid-april !!  i might jump in ppl’s inboxes from time to time, but for the most part i’m trying to focus on uni work

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i’m weak af so even though my activity is super spotty... i’m gonna test out emma and norman from tpn !!

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update: i watched all the eps of tpn then caught up with the manga even though i had an essay due the next day :)))

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uni has sapped all my energy so i’m gonna make icons tonight ... i’ll be lurking meanwhile tho !

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SHIPPING MEME !

What is your OTP for your character ?

god i’ve got too many ... jaehee / mc, ukyo / heroine, kent / heroine, isabela / hawke, isabela / fenris, haru / kyoko, gokudera / yamamoto, lou / debbie ... sjmffjkj

What are you willing to write when it comes to shipping ?

i’m good with anything, i think, except the obvious gross stuff ( pedophilia, incest, etc. )

How large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable ?

it sorta depends ?  for minors, it’s wishy-washy, since some ages are more mature than others ... i’ll say 2 years or smth generally.  for adults, i’m uncomf at the thought of shipping a new adult with an older one ( 20 year old and 28 year old, for example ? )

Are you selective when shipping ?

i say i’m selective, but i kind of tend to jump on any ship that has chemistry jfmkdjfk then again i find it’s rare for muses and muns to click that well right off the bat

How far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW ?

uhh when it gets past making out, i suppose ?

Who are the other characters you ship your character with ?

hmm i have soft spots for emily / jess, haru / gokudera, isabela / merrill, steve / nancy / jonathan, amita / constance ... as you can see i have lots of lowkey ships LMAO

Does one have to ask to ship with you ?

yup !  if we’re talking ooc abt our muses after we’ve interacted some, feel free to ask !  i won’t say no unless things really aren’t clicking tbh

How often do you like to ship ?

i’m not sure ... i do love to ship, but sometimes a good dynamic is better off platonic ?  it depends on the muse as well as how many ships i already have going with them

Are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less ?

leaning closer to ship obsessed ?  i have more muse when my characters click with another’s, and i love romance ajfkjfdm but honestly as long as we have a good dynamic going, romantic or platonic, i’m inchrested !!

Are you multi-ship ?

yes, for sure !  all my muses are multi-ship.  i practice ship exclusivity, esp with rare ships / small fandoms          i don’t mind if it’s one-sided on my end, though !

What are your favorite ships in your current fandom ?

most of my 'ships’ are platonic tbh, apart from jaehee / yerin ( conseille ), i love my girls sm !!  haru and nana ( courtscaptor ) instantly became close friends, then there’s nanami’s rls with shin ( desultorii ) and toma ( locksfate ), also isabela and merrill ( desultorii ) oof ... i think i listed almost every dynamic i have rn FJDMKFSJ

Finally, how does one ship with you ?

all it takes is an ask or tumblr im          as long as we’ve written together, i’m totally up for talking, brainstorming, and so forth !

TAGGED BY:  no one :~) TAGGING:  @conseille, @desultorii, @courtscaptor or any of your other blogs, @believinghxpe, whoever wants to do this !!

[courtscaptor]

🎀 play with your muse’s hair / from haru !

Soft Affection (Send in an icon for my muse to:) // accepting

   → 🎀 play with your muse’s hair

     Today’s plans to take on the new nearby theme park’s scariest rollercoasters has been thoroughly rained on–both figuratively and literally. Nana can’t stop sending intense glares out the window as she jiggles her leg, snaps at one of the scrunchies around her wrist, flicks at her dangling earrings–as if the force of her stare and her movement will send the torrential downpour to a stuttering stop and let them get back outside.

    (It doesn’t.)

     Haru has taken to manning the remote control, rapidly flipping through the channels in search of something (anything) interesting. There’s a clap of thunder outside and Nana finds herself groaning loudly back, drawing Haru’s attention away from the screen and eliciting a laugh from her. Nana’s grasp on time generally isn’t the best, so she doesn’t know how long it’s been since Haru settled on a channel and then plopped herself down on the floor right in front of her, but Nana’s attention snaps back to the living room at large and she finds her hands in the other girl’s hair, fingers seemingly working on autopilot to intertwine a few small sections of the other’s hair back into neat braids while she’s been half-spacing out.

     …Well, whatever! Whether Haru intended to or not, it’s definitely helping to keep Nana’s hands occupied and her restlessness (somewhat) at bay. And the braids are cute, so it’s a win-win, she thinks. Finally, she turns her attention to the TV and balks at the game show challenge playing out on screen.

     “Haaaa?! What’s with that? Doesn’t it look like he totally gave up? We could do better than that! Actually, hey–I bet we could make something that looks like that with the couch cushions, right?”

     If the wide, playful grin Haru flashes her when she turns her head is anything to go by, they absolutely will be putting that to the test today. 

     There are worse things, Nana reflects, than being cooped up all day–so long as she’s got a friend to pass the time with.

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“Who did this to you?” nanami @ shin !

NANAMI——  dammit.  of all times for her to show up … typical.  her voice had caused him to immediately perk up,  eyes widening a fraction in surprise (  why,  why,  why  )  before noticing her own expression change.  TCH  !!   his bruises barely covered by strands of hair,  he quickly dips his head and averts gaze.  oh,  but the damage had already been done,  there was no point trying to deny it.  ‘ who did this to you  ? ’ nothing could hurt him more then seeing that shocked expression on her face,  the worry that seeped into her every word,  that pained gaze … all because of him.  he hated this.  shin wasn’t supposed to be the one to make her sad all the time.  he was often cold,  blunt and even unsupportive at times,  but it didn’t stop him from CARING DEEPLY about his childhood friend.  he really did just want to keep her safe,  and that meant from situations like this too.  if it made her worry,  then … ,, 

words are muttered,  barely above a whisper,  to draw her closer.  though,  it’s truly unintentional until she’s within reach.  a question,  a chance to repeat himself——  all meaningless as he suddenly flicks her forehead.  “  quit being so nosy,  you dummy.  go home.  you shouldn’t be out so late.   ”  posture slackens,  finally easing himself into comfort.  he wouldn’t make her worry,  not over him.  “   i was going home anyway.  i might as well make sure you get to your apartment too.  how annoying.  you really are a nuisance at times.   ”  was it selfish of him to want the company  ?  well,,  he couldn’t just leave her at this hour either.  it would irritate him too much,  and it’s something he can’t simply shrug off.  

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Valentine’s Day RP Meme

Symbols:

send 💝 to give my muse a box of chocolates

send 🌹 to give my muse a rose

send 💕 to ask my muse out on a date

send 💍 to propose to my muse

send 💋 to kiss my muse

send 💧 to find out that my muse was stood up on their date

send 💿 to give my muse a romantic mixtape

send 🎶 to serenade my muse

Starters:

“Wow is all this chocolate really for me?”

“Aw, you shouldn’t have. Really. You shouldn’t have.”

“You don’t think a literal truckload of roses is too much?”

“Will you be mine?”

“Happy Valentine’s day! Here, I got you this.”

“So, do you have a date tonight?”

“Love stinks, what do you say to a night in? Just you, me, and all the ice cream we can stuff in our faces.”

“I love you, I love you more than anything.”

“I know it’s cheesy but I wrote you a poem.”

“This is the worst day of the year.”

“Sorry but I’m allergic to strawberries.”

“Love is in the air.”

“Maybe I’m only in love with the idea of being in love.”

“Look at all those happy couples, fawning over each other. Disgusting.”

“This Valentine’s day I’m treating myself. I don’t need anybody else.”

“I’m so nervous about my date tonight. Maybe I should just cancel and say I was sick.”

“You’re the best boyfriend/girlfriend/datemate ever.”

“You ready to hit the stores once all the leftover candy gets discounted?”

“I couldn’t get reservations, are you alright with pizza instead?”

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i’m revisiting the game after a long time, but this first scene with orion is really telling about the heroine’s mental state at the start of her amnesia.  not only has she lost her memories, but her personality / emotions are largely missing as well.  this is why she has barely any reaction to meeting orion and learning about her amnesia.

personally, i think it has to do with her memories---after all, as you create new, important memories, your personality evolves.  because the heroine has lost her memories, she has also lost her personality and, to an extent, her emotions.  to me, this also explains why orion does most of the talking in the game; the heroine has become extremely passive and silent due to her lack of memories / personality.

as the route progresses and the heroine begins regaining her memories, her personality / emotions trickle back as well.  which is why the heroine will start narrating (internally) instead of orion at certain times---she’s slowly losing her passivity.

u.kyo’s route goes more into detail about the heroine’s passivity and lack of emotions, i think.  though, since i need to complete the other routes first, i’m going to have to come back to this point at a later date sjkfjdfkn but this scene is a big reason why i try to write nanami as robotic and passive in her amnesia verse !

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❥      NON - SEXUAL   ACTS   OF   DOMINANCE . 

feel free to edit or elaborate as you please .   ( add  ‘ reverse ‘  to your message if you’d like to see how my muse would perform the action ) . otherwise , send in one of these for my muse’s reaction to   …

[ lit ]  your muse lighting a cigarette , spliff , etc. for mine . 

[ order ]  your muse ordering for mine at a restaurant or bar .

[ guide ]  your muse putting a hand on mine’s back to lead them .

[ pay ]  your muse paying for mine at a store , bar , restaurant , etc . ( you can specify where or for what . )

[ open ]  your muse opening a door for mine .

[ dry ]  your muse drying mine off with a towel after a shower , bath , swimming , etc . 

[ instruct ]  your muse giving mine instructions / telling them what to do . 

[ groom ]  your muse adjusting mine’s appearance , such as straightening a tie , fixing their hair , or buttoning their shirt for them , etc . 

[ direct ]  your muse taking mine by the chin and telling them to look yours in the eye .

[ disagree ]  your muse sternly telling mine  ‘ no ‘ .

[ rest ]  your muse resting their arm over mine’s shoulder / s .

[ clean ]  your muse cleaning a smudge of something off mine’s cheek , forehead , etc .   feel free to specify what and how . 

[ answer ]  your muse answering a question meant for mine . 

[ coat ]   your muse holds mine’s coat out for them while they put it on .

[ pilot ]  your muse taking mine by the arm , hand , shoulder , etc . to lead them . 

[ stare ]  your muse staring mine down . 

[ placement ]  your muse telling mine to sit down .

[ teach ]  your muse taking control of mine’s hand , arm , hips , etc . to make sure they do something correctly .  

[ patience ]  your muse telling mine to be patient .

[ tears ]  your muse wiping away mine’s tears .

[ swat ]  your muse swatting mine’s hand away from something they’re not supposed to touch .  

[ jewelry  ]  your muse clasping a piece of jewelry for mine , such as a necklace , or earrings . 

[ enough ]  your muse commanding mine to stop talking . 

[ retrieve ]  your muse requesting or ordering mine to retrieve them something .

[ invite ]  your muse inviting mine to sit on their lap .

[ lean ]  your muse inviting mine to lean into their side while they’re sitting or laying together . 

[ calm ]   your muse telling mine to  ‘ just breathe ‘ .

[ scold ]  your muse scolding mine for something .

[ comfort ]  your muse pulling mine into a reassuring hug .

[ approval ]  your muse complimenting mine on a choice they’ve made .

[ beckon ]  your muse beckoning mine to them without speaking . 

[ laces ]  your muse lacing , tying , or zipping something for mine , such as shoes , a dress , or a jacket , etc .

[ stay ]  your muse telling mine to stay in the car . 

[ defend ]  your muse defending mine’s reputation , dignity , or safety for them . 

[ feed ]  your muse feeding mine something , feel free to specify what .

[ volume ]  your muse demanding mine speak louder .

[ read ]  your muse reading something to mine .

[ refill ]  your muse refilling mine’s glass for them . 

[ possessive ]  your muse resting their hand on mine’s leg or the small of their back while they’re sitting beside each other . 

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                                                          shin  &  toma  &  heroine                                                                            ♢                                                                      written by.  gwyn,  chris,   joy.                                                                            — — — — — — — — 

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“Want a hug?” merrill @ isabela !

       mirthless chuckle passes the pirate’s lips.  ❛  what’s brought this on ?  ❜  she asks, though she knows the answer.  merrill may be naive to some things due to her sheltered upbringing, but she is perceptive.  no doubt the mage noticed her low mood.  isabela takes another swig of her tankard; it’s easier to dodge merrill’s gaze this way.  ❛  sometimes, kitten … you can be too kind for your own good.  ❜  especially to those who don’t deserve it.

3 LITTLE WORDS STARTER PACK.

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‘ this looks like disney land. i wouldn’t be surprised if they got cotton candy in there. ’

       it’s been ages since jaehee has gone to an amusement park.  memories of holding her mother’s hand, laughing on rides, spring to mind, leaving her smiling to herself.  old resentment and pain that used to surface at happier times are long gone.  at twenty-six, she knows better than to succumb to grief and anger.  not to mention, it’s difficult to think morose thoughts with yerin by her side, the reason behind this outing.  the wonderment on the other woman’s features makes it impossible for jaehee to feel anything but EXCITED, as childish as that may seem.

       ❛  oh, i’m sure disney land is similar to this.  amusement parks are fundamentally the same when you think about it.  though that doesn’t lessen the fun, of course.  ❜  her eyes take in the various sights, lingering on THE FERRIS WHEEL.  she privately hopes they will have time to ride it.  then they flick back to the woman beside her.  ( it never takes long for her gaze to return to yerin. )   ❛  are you in the mood for cotton candy ?  i’m certain we’ll find some somewhere nearby …  ❜  already she’s craning her neck in the hopes of spotting a vendor selling the confection.  jaehee personally does not care for cotton candy, but if yerin likes it … she must buy some.

BUZZFEED UNSOLVED SENTENCE STARTERS.

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my warmth or kindness ... all those values i cherished are being buried.