i think writing on a computer is more interesting than my journal? it seems more "effective" online. my handwriting isn't very interesting.
danced awkwardly past the mirror in my work bathroom. i do that maybe 40-78% of the time.
wondering how much alcohol affects ur voice. i've had a cough since getting drunk last week. kinda like how my voice sounds w a sore throat.
looked out the window, very sunny and plants are swaying, looked at the clock on my work computer and got a burst of excitement to get off in 34 minutes.
scheduled till 5 but coworker gets here at 3 so going to plot my escape. do this every time but still get nervous. i wonder how my speech class will go this semester. decided to go to a new school when i can. maybe next year/. but maybe idk. i mean i do want to go but idk when. i kind of just say things i want but never do anything to attain them until its a time crunch. or i get really sad or something. the excitement i had last week talkign about going to this other school isnt as grand as it was. but i think im still excited.
i wish i could feel excited all the time. like my baseline. is excited. then my "being sad" was like feeling pretty solid. i like feeling excited but a lot of things that ive gotten excited about end up not following through as i expect. i look forward to something that gets me through a week then when it happens, it wasnt worth the anticipation. but i guess it got me through the week so maybe thats soemthing.
i dont usually feel the "effects" of coffee. but the coffee ive been making at home "feels" effective. i want a moped. i might just get one. but i already feel unsafe as a woman in my subaru. men would probably- maybe not probably but more certainly- sexualize or caycall me. maybe if i dressed like a guy. helmet will help of course. i wouldnt like to moped on the roads by my home though. i would like to moped on the windy roads though.
coworker got up to get a drink and i lowered the brightness because of "embarrassment".