ok.

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[mentalphysical]

I barely use this website anymore. This will be my third post on this blog in as many years. I suspect that I'll be using it much more frequently to simply spew whatever is on my mind out for my future self to analyze.

He's due practically any day now. I'm certainly... something about it. Anxious? Nervous? Full of anticipation?

Dare I say excited?

Everything's prepared. I find myself worrying about the two of them. I certainly hope nothing goes wrong, but I find there's a few small concerns worming around my brain ever since Park overworked himself into the hospital. Especially since this was, somehow, ultimately my decision.

Hm. I've found myself shaking.

I'm going to chalk it up to anticipation.

[mentalphysical]

Ignore the troll ignore the troll ignore the troll.

[mentalphysical]

he does tend to check my pulse when i visit leblanc though.

[mentalphysical]

magician is one i can take or leave

[mentalphysical]

ever grateful for emperor and lovers.

[mentalphysical]

went through and tagged posts relating to either of you with first letter of names

[mentalphysical]

hello dear park

[mentalphysical]

we can thank park and my need to torment him over his own jokes for that one

[mentalphysical]

sure, here

[mentalphysical]

and done

[mentalphysical]

god.

[mentalphysical]

went through and tagged all nsft with hpost.

[mentalphysical]

considering separating vent and nsft postings

[mentalphysical]

current emotion: yelling into the closest soft object.

[mentalphysical]

that sounded so fucking stupid.

oh well

[angelslant]

life is just about art of people holding each other actually. that’s it.

[angelslant]

Erich Auerbach / Salman Toor / Brideshead Revisited / Ed Van Der Elsken / Malcolm T. Liepke / Keanu and River by Bruce Weber

[mentalphysical]

i think im feeling protective of futaba after seeing her responses to those asks and im unsure of what to do about this.