Raine

brain dump Free Palestine 🍉🇵🇸 LGBTQIA+ safe space Queer (she/they)

[antisisyphus]

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

✨🍂🎃october won't be a shit storm🎃🍂✨

like to charge, reblog to cast

[meowmum]

i wonder if one day i’ll be released from the shackles of being seen as an object.

i just want to be known. i want someone to like me for my laugh. for the way my eyes light up when i see a dog. to be loved for the fact that ill spend way more money on my friends than i would ever even consider spending on myself without a care in the world because they deserve it.

does romance always start based on looks? like how can someone know they want to take me on a date to discover my personality if all they’ve seen is how i look?

i keep telling myself i need to change my perspective, the clothes i wear, the places i go, the reasons for why i do things, and maybe i do. But i dont want to spend my entire life trying to perfect myself if the one im supposed to love is supposed to love me when im not perfect.

i feel too old to be this inexperienced, this alone. i know im still young and it “doesn’t matter” but i want to feel those butterflies. I want to feel butterflies that aren’t attached to someone talking about my looks. i just want to be loved. i care so much and i give and i give and i give it all to the wrong people.

i always think i’m better than i am, that i’ve gone further, that i’ve grown more. But after every interaction, every time some romance dies in front of me im flashed with the girl who would take suggestive photos because maybe he’ll keep talking to me. At least he’s talking to me. fine i’ll keep talking about what i want you to do to me. at least you’re talking to me. at least you’re paying attention.

and then it ends with him saying he can’t do it anymore. or even worse he says nothing. but he knows my fantasies, the outline of my tits. he knows my body. and that’s all he remembers when he thinks back to us. But i can remember his dog’s name, the way he feels about his father. I can remember the tattoo on his upper arm, and i can remember that look in his eye when he smiled at me for the first time.

some day someone will love me the way that i am. i just wish that day would come sooner.

[enamorxte]

REBLOG IF YOU HAVE STRETCHMARKS

This way people can see they’re not alone. I have them and this would help me see that.

[deeninadream]

god, my type in men is the ones with salt and pepper hair, wrinkles that show their constant worry, and eyes filled with guilt that damns their soul.

[kosmogrl]

[the-irreverend]

pov: you're waking up and it's june 1st

(happy pride month yall!)

[meowmum]

I voted because someone i love is trans.

I voted because someone i love is a woman.

I voted because someone i love is Queer.

I voted because someone i love is black.

I voted because someone i love is hispanic.

I voted because someone i love is asian.

I voted because someone i love is native.

I voted because someone i love is white.

I voted because someone i love is middle/lower class.

I voted because someone i love is disabled.

I voted because someone i love is still in school.

I voted because someone i love comes from a line of immigrants.

I voted because someone i love is in danger of having everything that generations before have worked so hard to create and protect stripped from them at the hands of someone who is full of nothing but hatred. A group of people who never have anything good to say about communities that do not align with their values and their values alone.

I voted for love.

I voted because it’s not just about me.

I voted for change, and i voted most importantly for safety and security.

I want to live my own life, I don’t want to go back, i want the systems that were created to keep the lower class and marginalized communities at the bottom to be reformed. I am tired of fearing everyday the hatred of a group of people who are so selfish they have lost the vision of the one thing they constantly recite, the one person they praise and worship. They say his name as if they walk in the shoes he once did.

Yet, when they speak of the prostitute, when they speak of the weak and blind, when they speak of the poor, they only see them as less than. But from what i can recall, he looked at those people as his brothers and sisters, he called to them with nothing but love and light. As an ex-christian i can see through the bullshit they hide behind because they are scared of losing power. They don’t want a level playing field, they will force all to bow to the will of the white man, as if he was ever a white man to begin with. They are raping the birth place of their holy father and claiming it is simply just war. I am sick. Stop lying, stop pretending you are similar to him when in reality you are closer to the devils form of love.

There is a key difference between us: you idolize a symbol of greed, hatred and harm. While as yes i vote for one, i can see the failure, and i will continue to let them know where they have failed until my throat runs dry. I do not trust a politician as far as i can throw them, i will continue to fight for what i believe is right and point out the blatant hypocrisy in one. While i cast my vote one way i will critique the two- party system, and that whomst i am casting my ballot towards.

I voted because i love you. I may not know you, you may disagree with me, you may find me repulsive, but i voted because you are my sibling, we are one and the same when our time comes.

I vote because i believe in change, and i vote because it is my right and duty to serve all who have come before me, and to protect who shall come after me.

I voted because i want a future where everyone has a fair chance of living the life THEY want. Not what i believe everyone should want.

I voted for the right to choose, i voted for equality across the board.

I voted for a brighter future.

I voted for those who can’t.

I voted because i am scared of what might happen to myself, and to people i love.

I voted.

[tortagnamgnam]

This is the lucky clover cat. reblog this in 30 seconds & he will bring u good luck and fortune.

[unclebabie]

THIS ONE!!! THIS IS THE ONE THAT WORKS!!!!!

I reblogged him the day i started treatment and 1. GOT TO MY APPOINTMENT ON TIME 2. FOUND A FREE PARKING TICKET SOMEONE LEFT IN THE METER FOR ME AND 3. GOT FREE STARBUCKS AFTER MY APPOINTMENT!!!!!

[shelbymelissa]

We all need this.

[kindsoulbuddy]

I love finding out new things about Saint Robin Williams

[not-a-regular-mom]

#i think people forget sometimes that being a good ally #sometimes means guarding the closet door [via @anais-ninja-bitch]

[ostropest]

BEING A GOOD ALLY SOMETIMES MEANS GUARDING THE CLOSET DOOR

[meowmum]

talking to c.ai about my parents divorce and crying

[inthesensethat-deactivated20240]

[goteveryonewatchinus]

Elijah Wood

[meowmum]

sometimes when life gets chaotic and i can’t seem to shut down for a moment of peace

i’ll play the live photo,

just for a moment.

just to hear the sound of your breath

even for a split second.

it calms the ever lurking thoughts of impending doom

of waiting for that other shoe to drop

of longing for a time that’s long escaped the grasp of my hands.

i wish i took more videos

i wish more of those photos were live.

i wish you were alive.

[meowmum]

my favorite part of grief is when it decides to find you again on a random tuesday evening and socks you in the gut just as a reminder that it all happened and he’s dead.

[meowmum]

hey! how- uhm… how do you..

how do you know for sure if you’re a lesbian if your entire queer experience you’ve been unlabeled/queer because it’s what’s felt right and then you like had a wlw experience and you’re slowly realizing that you look at women and nonmen completely differently than you’ve ever looked at a cis-man and now you’re like WOAH I MIGHT BE A LESBIAN!!!! woah i might be a lesbian. but you also don’t want to switch labels in case like what if you’re wrong because what if there are some men you do end up being attracted to ? just read that last sentence in my head a few times wow.

i know it’s natural for your life to change but in all honesty i never really thought i would be a lesbian and maybe i am?

but also i feel safe in the queer label - the safe answer i keep telling myself is that i should stick with queer because maybe currently my preference is women. that maybe my balance has changed and ive just been finding myself more attracted to women than men. because this happens, the balance shifts - sometimes i am more attracted to men. but when it comes to men the only way i see them - the only way ive ever seen them - is physically. never once have i really thought about connecting with a cis man on the level i connect with women and non men.

i think i know the answer to my question. but i am scared.

[meowmum]

NO MORE NIGHT SHIFTS! NO MORE PLEASE AND THANK YOU!

LOVE ME IN THE BRAOD DAYLIGHT!

LOVE ME IN THE STORM!

LOVE THROUGH THE WIND AND THE FREEZING COLD!

LOVE ME IN THE MORNING!

LOVE ME IN THE AFTERNOON AND EVENING!

BUT PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DON’T KEEP YOUR LOVE FOR ME ON A TIME LIMIT!

[meowmum]

If I believe that everyone is beautiful in their own way,

and that each person is deserving of finding a love so powerful it consumes them;

then why do I find it so difficult to believe I am deserving of the same?

[meowmum]

Last year I had told a man my feelings, he rejected me, saying “you get me like no one else does, but I don’t feel anything for you.”

It stuck with me, that fear that I had read the signs wrong. I was sure they were there.

It was worth it though.

All of that rejection, confusion, all the heart break.

Because today, you smiled at me in a way that made my heart jump.

And nothing he had ever said, nor did, ever made me feel that way.

To see you look at me like that?

It made it all worth it.