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22. Australia. I don't know what I want anymore. CAUTION: this site may contain triggering material, please read with care.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Drink some coffee and pretend you know what you’re doing.

Unknown

[the-sad-boy]

[thegoodvybe]

[wordsnquotes]

Probably the closest things to perfection are the huge absolutely empty holes that astronomers have recently discovered in space. If there’s nothing there, how can anything go wrong?

Richard Brautigan, An Unfortunate Woman  (via down-the-rabbith0le)

[eatingdisorderconfession]

22524) i don’t feel valid. i don’t feel valid. i don’t feel valid. i don’t feel valid. i don’t feel valid. but i know i don’t /need/ to fit a label exactly. i keep fighting this in my brain: rational thinking vs irrational thinking.

[mesfantome]

Every aspect of my life is dictated by food and weight. Too much, not enough, yes, no, love, hate.

[mesfantome]

I feel so worthless and fat and ugly today I can’t handle it ....

[dirtyboy420-blog]

[mesfantome]

Having absolute crap days - going over xxxx cals and fuck it all

[goodfuuuuuuuckinriddance]

i hate how my entire day can be ruined because of a particular conversation i had, or because of how someone phrased something or because of the tone they used. i hate how i am so horribly sensitive that what counts for me as a “bad day” hinges entirely on the most insignificant things. things other people can shrug off, but they weigh heavy on me all day.

[mesfantome]

Does anyone else's parents/friends/etc trigger you... But not in the "usual" way?

So my new job is in the same company as my mum... And having her around is so bad. She keeps making comments about my weight and food ("you're too skinny" "eat your snacks") and it's triggering me to not want to eat. And then obviously bc it's out of my control, I then feel like I need to binge and it's just messing with my head so much, to the point where I've considered quitting.

And I want control. But I don't ever have any. Especially when it comes to being with my "family".

[mesfantome]

I honestly feel like I want to cry but I have no tears. It's a heart-aching sadness that I can't shake. I'm overwhelmed and nothing can make me happy.

[maurypovichofficial-deactivated]

The worst thing about having an anxiety disorder is when you’re having a good day and everything is fine and you’re just living life and then out of nowhere your brain is just like “be scared and worried and filled with impending dread” and I’m like “why nothing’s wrong nothing is going to happen” and your brain is just like “haha you don’t know that, something bad is bound to happen”

[mesfantome]

This week has been me eating everything seeing as its peoples' birthdays left, right and center... The thoughts are not being kind.

[mesfantome]

Tomorrow is my birthday and if I could have my control back that'd be great thanks.

[glassboytoy]

Making things worse for myself is my favorite coping method

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

She loves hard because she knows how it feels to be loved so little.

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