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[michelleqle52]

This picture doesn’t do it justice, but from traveling and to touching starfish, I really did get to experience everything possible in ATL! I can’t want to go back and travel even more in this wonderful city.. 

[michelleqle52]

That bittersweet feeling.

It’s been a while since I’ve been on here! Wow! But I’ve just been having the urge to finally sit down and type out what I need to. 

After being in ATL for 5 days, it’s such a bittersweet feeling to finally be back home to work, homework, and reality.. I had such a blast in ATL meeting new people and trying out new things like new food places and taking my first Uber! It was a great time enjoyed with even greater people. Part of me is so sad that I have to be back to reality.. I love the feeling of traveling, making every second in a big city worth it. We literally spent every second either going somewhere or just enjoying each other’s company in the hotel lobby. It was amazing to have a getaway with new people. That’s what I love about Phi Beta Lambda. This organization has allowed me to be in a wanderlust of traveling and meeting new people. It’s gained me a networking ability, a set of confidence, and so much more. Without such an organization, I really would not know how I would be today. Thank you, PBL NLC 2016 for giving me a great set of memories and for giving me new friends to connect with today. It’s opened my eyes to another person’s life, to their lifestyles, and to new things in general. I can’t wait to be in wanderlust traveling again in Anaheim next summer ~~ 

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[michelleqle52]

Life Update

Wow. I finally got my ass back on tumblr. lol. it’s one of those nights where i feel like i need to type everything out in order to feel better.

Never judge a person by how they look on the outside. You never know what battles they’re truly having on the inside.

I can’t tell you how much this week has drained me out so much. These past two days have been back to back to back with just stuff I need to do, homework I want to stay on top of, and thoughts overwhelming myself. I mean, it’s hard enough to be in a somewhat long distance relationship (even tho i go home literally every weekend) but those little moments that we do get to talk actually mean the world to me. I’ve learned to appreciate the time I do have with you more, or talk with you more. Yet, I know you and I have been busy as fuck this week because it’s just one of those weeks, but damn. Know that we’re both gonna be moody and that all I want is for you to just lift me up after such a tiring day. That’s all I ask for. The slightest pick me up to keep me going while you’re busy. 

Life’s also hard whenever I think of family. I know my family hasn’t been the same since my mom passed away. We never will be. We’re broken without our guardian angel in our lives. Whenever I sit and think sometimes, I end up crying because I know how true it is. I can’t come to my own house without being comfortable anymore. I’ve grown somewhat closer to my siblings ever since, but I can’t tell you how many times I long for that closer relationship. Our age gaps, the way we grew up so differently, and our loss has just made it so different for me. Don’t get me wrong now; I love my siblings to death. But they’re all grown up with families while I’m in college trying to figure out what to do with my life. It’s a hard decision. And it’s an opportunity they also didn’t have. 

Speaking of family, it’s even hard for me to talk to my own dad since I’ve gone up here. Yes, Dad, I miss you a lot. I miss your salty cooking and constant cooking of fried rice or noodles. But how am I ever supposed to feel normal in the house again? Even tonight whenever I tried to call you and make a conversation with you (which I rarely ever do when I’m up here), you were the one to cut the conversation short tonight. So don’t blame it all on me and tell others that I never come home and I always stay up here in hattiesburg. There’s a reason why I rarely come home now or even WANT to be home. 

Mom, I’ve thought about you so much these past couple of days just sitting in my dorm room. Wondering what you would think of me now that I’ve made it this far to college like you’ve wanted me to.. I never see you in my dreams anymore. Sissy tells me that it’s because you’re in heaven now. Once you’re there, you can no longer come into our dreams. It makes me happy that I know you’ve been sent off to an amazing place that you so deserve, but I wish I could revisit our times together or have you give me a pep talk or something. It’s hard to say I don’t have a mom.. It’s still a touchy subject when people ask me. They feel sorry for me, but I tell them it’s okay. I miss you a lot, and I can’t wait to see you.. 

It’s been a long day, a long week. I can’t wait to head home to just familiarity. To places where I really need to visit. To see familiar faces. To see my nieces and siblings. Family and friends overall. 

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[michelleqle52]

I've never felt so much hurt and pain before. You call it off for so long, but it just catches right back up with you.

[michelleqle52]

Waking up and getting up is the hardest thing now each day..

[michelleqle52]

Of course.. The day before I go back to school. Shit goes wrong and everything just falls apart. Life honestly sucks and I can't even do anything about it.

[hoemami-deactivated20171229]

Do not raise your children the way your parents raised you; they were born for a different time.


Abi bin Abi Taleb (599—661 A.D.)

[michelleqle52]

Just to blog about life for a while.

You know how people are always like, hey stop and smell the roses? I guess it's time for one of those moments. Doing calculus homework is wrecking my brain, and I'd much rather vent about life right now..

So this is the week mom passed away a year ago. Life changed forever.. The flashbacks of that day are coming back, and they pop in at the most random times. It's hard to not cry about it. It's hard to hold it in. I lost my motherly figure that I love and looked up to. I'm honestly jealous of the years my siblings got with her because they have so much more memories than me.. I'm still young, trying to make something out of myself to be successful one day, but it's hard not having my mom there sometimes. As I pass milestones in my life, such as my 18th birthday next week, it's hard to wonder what would it be like that day if she were still here. I'm not gonna be able to say Happy Birthday to her next week.. She passed exactly a week before her birthday.. and so last year.. I spent my 17th birthday in the funeral home watching over her. That was kinda my last birthday I could spend with her..

Now, the week has finally come and it's her one year. It came so fast, and it doesn't even feel like a year.. Why has time gone by so fast? Things have changed so much within the past year that it's unreal. Mom.. I just wish you were here in general.. :(

However, I'm thankful for my partner in crime because he just makes it all better. Laying there today while he was sleeping on me was a sweet moment because well, it's rare that he falls asleep before me. Usually I'm the first one! But we both get tired easily since we are both busy with our own lives. :P Literally though, this Friday is going to be the hardest day especially with the ACT around the corner (or literally the next day of the hardest time of my life ugh)

Yet, I'm still sitting here unprepared for yet again another ACT test that basically determines my future.. whoop. :( Gosh, I miss the times of being a kid because growing up does suck. Paying for stuff that you buy on a daily basis adds up so much, and now I'm looking for a job so I don't have to depend on my dad. If my mom were still here, she would slap me for trying to find a job.. she always wanted me to focus on school, but I can't depend on my family for money forever. It's time to grow up and face yet again another milestone.. Praying I get a job soon to just start out with something.. :/ I definitely just need one to be able to pay for everything I do.

[michelleqle52]

Babe ☺️

I know we argue over the little things here and there, but tonight was such a great day with you. We haven't had like a sit down and bonding kinda night in what it seems like forever because partly because of both of us being busy. 😩 But today, all because you put on a movie (Catching Fire, which was amazinggggg!!), we got to eat pizza and wings together for dinner, lay down and watch a movie and cuddle and just enjoy something together. ☺️ I hope we get to have these more this week and so forth because it's gonna be a tough ass busy week... This week a year ago, Mom passed away. 😔 And if she were looking down.. Least she knows that you've been taking care of me, feeding me, making sure I get my rest.. And all of that. Just listening to you sleep because you fell asleep first on FaceTime.. 😚☺️ It's the little things like that that I really love. You fell asleep because you were letting me finish up my homework too. 😁 Hehe. 💕 I can't wait to see you again tomorrow babe. You're the absolute best of the best, and no one can replace what you've done for me since I've met you. So super thankful that you're with me through it all, and that you're glad to do all of that. I love you, pooh bear! 🐻💛🍯😘 💏💑👫