Midnight Eater

just a hazy southeast asian babe who occasionally thinks somewhere across the milky way

[frie-nds]

[n0cturnv]

pal of

[ojibwa]

[demonykittyy]

[olivedidanova]

[megairea]

Caitlyn Siehl, from Start Here

[remanence-of-love]

[yesterdaysprint]

Saskatoon Daily Star, Saskatchewan, November 4, 1918

[midnightsunnydream]

Imagine you and your long time partner, who has always offered you emotionally support, have parted ways.

[midnightsunnydream]

Why I sometimes hated the way I talk? telling stories, answering questions or explaining.

When the conversations started turning side ways. I cannot always notice it right away. It’s usually someone that is listening in front of me can pointed it out. Imagine this; You suddenly got stopped from the middle of talking or explaining because they got confused of the way you deliver your explanation. It keeps turning back sideways and not straightforward.

I know, it’s embarrassing. I feel disappointed on myself too because these happens a lot. I’m ashamed but I want to do something about it. So, I gave it a hard thought and typing it here helps. And I’ve realized that it all depends on my mood.

No, I don’t have a strong mind. If when I am out feeling under the weather, and stressed, drained and pressured then my mind can’t function properly. But still, you are here. Asking questions cause you don’t know.

I’ll respond. Yes, I have something to say. It’s on my mind. Every scenario all laid out on my brain. But when it’s my turn to speak I then started to crumble. Anxious. What if I say it wrong? I can’t straight up my thoughts. Overwhelmed. You can hear me talking but unable to communicate because I couldn’t find the right words to speak and it makes myself foolishly sound like unintelligible and dumb.

Embarrassed. Every time it happens and be able to realize it afterwards makes me feel like a clown.

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I know he somehow gets it and that a good thing but I still can’t help thinking how dumb I may have sound to him. ;/ Well, I’m still young, 20 something. I’m still learning. So, it’s okay. It’s all good.

The important thing is that I understands and I am aware. I am still growing. Self-love. Body and mind. I am hoping on becoming a better speaker and listener. I know It will take time and practice. But with patience and trust. I know I can get there. -chzl

[midnightsunnydream]

My fav Marilyn Monroe quotes❤️

[saying]

[unbotheredmuse]

[lil--lulu]

[midnightsunnydream]

Red to a blind person.

How will you describe the red colour to a blind person?. A question that commonly asked for interviews. When I heard the question again. I instantly thought about roses.. the red rose. I would give him a bouquet of red roses. I would let him touch, smell and taste it. Red rose symbolise love, romance and passion.

When we’re passionate about someone we feel the touch of flame burning filled with love and intimacy whenever we are with them.

The roses scent have a smell of strong romantic-night aroma of falling in love.

The passionate feelings on someone can be very exciting but sometimes too much passion can be bad because it could make someone obsessive and their fiery passions can cause intense arguments and fights because they can’t control their emotions. The result will toxic and lost. Pain keeps hurting passionately.

But life are like rose petals very fragrant. Sometimes it tastes sweet and sometimes it’s bitter.

[moaza]

[orwell]

Toshio Saeki