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Many Years Ago

Hi everyone!

I thought I would share a story since this is the reason I have tumblr. I grew up in a quiet small town outside of Pocatello, called Chubbuck. It was the best neighborhood ever. Everyone knew everyone and kids would play in the streets or be out past nighttime and parents didn’t have to worry about them. Anyways, my house was on Henry a cute 5 bedroom house. My dad worked at the Union Pacific Railroad as a welder and my mom stayed at home. My parents loved eachother very much and met in highschool when my mom moved from Utah to Pocatello. 

There was this park called Stuart Park....best park ever!!! It was right below the canal and every summer a couple times the canal would be drained to irrigate the park and we had such a blast. We would pretend it was a swimming pool and pull ourselves with the grass, or just play in the water. Our bus stop was at Stuart Park as well. It wasn’t a long walk maybe 4-5 minutes, during the winter we would slide our way so it cut it down to like 3-4 minutes. Every kid knew eachother and we all went to Rulon Ellis Elementary. It was an awesome school and I went from K to 6th grade. I remember all my teachers names and even the principals name. Anyways back to Stuart Park. They had a play ground there, it was huge just enough to keep kids occupied. It had a huge slide, merry go round, swings and a couple other things. I spent many of summers there. They had a pavillion full of metal tables and my tongue has many of scars from playing on them and falling and bitting my tongue. That is a story all in itself. What a blast this park was. It was right across from the church I use to go to, but that is a story all in itself, for another time perhaps.The park had a baseball field, and a tennis/basketball court. We would ride our bikes in the tennis court or pretend we were playing tennis in Wimbledon.... Kids and their imagination was so impeccable, we could do or be anything we wanted. One day I would like to bring my son to the park and show him all the things I use to enjoy, the park was a safe haven for many reasons and I will always have a place in my heart for it.

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Lost

Ever have that feeling of being completly alone. No one fights for your friendship even though you would do anything for anyone and are always there when they need someone. Ever feel so exhausted emotional you had no fight left. Today I lost a friend over something so petty, and got blamed for being the one who causes all the pain and heartache. Everything I try to do, anything I say is just bad and no one cares. My feelings dont matter... Family true family doesnt exist. Sure I have my husband and son, but anything else just crumbles. They say they care or they love you but when something is done unintentionally the hate they have is overbearing. How can you trust anyone? You cant. Everything you say and everything you do will never be enough. You suck as a mom, you suck as a wife it just would be less of a burden to everyone if you werent around.

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Adulting

Technically I have been adulting since I was 13... but that is beside the point. These last couple weeks have been an extreme struggle for me financially and emotionally....Most of the time I think I am not going to be able to handle what is going on....and then my husband comes home and says to me...we will make it through this, you always find a solution to any problem we have ever had.

I doubted him, and he continued to reassure me that we were going to make it through. How did I get so lucky with this man? He may not be a hunky manly man but he sure is my rock and better half.

I hope my son grows up knowing he wants to stay a kid forever, because being an adult is not all the peaches and cream I thought it would be. Yes its nice having my own rules and such, but the bills and the drama NEVER go away. To live a life debt free is a goal I think every adult has but I know one day we shall conquer this!