Quick Post: I am not okay.
Several times I’ve come to twitter to tweet about how my bad night is going bad. Several times I’ve come to my super secret void on the internet. Several times I’ve written on my diary. I am not okay right now. While typing a small condescending voice whispers to my mind, “Neither are other people okay and they might be having it worse than you.” There are so much unnecessarily stressful things going on in my life and I don’t know where to begin. I just feel so... inadequate as a person. Unwanted. Strange. Lonely. Very lonely. I don’t know what to do when I start feeling like this. It doesn’t end. This feeling comes just so strongly at random parts of my life, at such strange and very busy circumstances. Every one I know who I can trust and vent to is busy as well. And the best thing I can do now? Suppress. Suppress. Suppress. Law school. Will I pass? If I don’t, how do I live with myself? Did I really want this though? Is it for me? Will my grandparents be proud? Or am I setting myself up for self-destruction and disappointment? If this isn’t for me, where on earth do I go? How do I move forward? How do I live with myself. I barely accomplished anything in this lifetime. I feel like I overrate myself too much. I can’t do this anymore. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know. And I’m not okay.
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*Things might get better in the morning. Maybe. Hopefully.











