yes ma'am that's me.

Miles Newhall - 23 years old - Yes I'm the one with the funny accent. - I'm a grief counselor... just here to help. "Finding your way in this world is a long and winding road. Guidance is nothing to be ashamed of."

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Maddie smiled into the kiss, then pulled away to smile at him, as she ran her fingers up and down his arm that was drabed over her, softly. “you were amazing.” She whispered to him, turning her body over to face him. “Definately, I think…worth the seven date wait.” She added, her smile growing

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He hummed and moved to face her a bit more and smiled, running a thumb along her cheek. “Definitely worth the wait.” He said with a smile still on his face. “I meant what I said earlier, by the way - that liking you this much is one of the easiest things I’ve ever done.” He said in a quiet voice, still hoarse with pleasure. “And I definitely won’t mind waking up next to you again.” He smiled as he kissed her shoulder.

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Maddie dug her nails into his skin as she tightened her grip of her legs around him. Then when his hips met hers she had lost it. Letting out a loud gasp and a drawn out moan as she reached her peak and her body started relaxing after a minute. “God…amazing…” She panted.

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Everything from the patterns her nails were making on his back and the way his toes curled up tightly flew out of his mind for a while until he collapsed beside her, every muscle in his body tired from the activities only seconds before but he stood up, only long enough to throw away the condom and pull on his boxers before joining her again. “Yeah... amazing.” He said with a happy say, laying an arm across her body. as he kissed her softly. 

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Maddie felt her nails sink into Miles’ skin with each passing minute. Her breaths caught up into her throat, and she fould feel small beads of sweat begin to slowly cascade  down her hairline, she could feel the sheets begin to cling to her body. “Miles… I-I’m…” She stuttered out, although she didn’t think her words were audible. 

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His breaths became labored, even more than earlier and he couldn’t open his eyes as much as he wanted to because he was sure she looked beautiful but every muscle in his face was screwed up and he couldn’t help it. “S’okay Lovely. It’s okay...” The words were hard to get past his lips but even as his arm muscles grew weak from all of the sensory overload he was able to keep meeting her hips with his own because as boy-ish as it sounded he’d never felt anything like this.

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Maddies hands went up and down his side and up and down his back with each move he made. She wantd to tell him it was pretty hard to believe him, but her mind was becoming too clouded and the only thing she could get out of her mouth were moans. Had she really been this sex deprived that she was becoming a puddle? “God…” She let out, letting her head sink into the pillow.

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He smiled into her skin where he was pressing more kisses as he heard the moans passing her lips. The same euphoric noises were spilling past his own lips as well and he didn’t know what was going on but he could feel some sort of something within him that he thought was better than heaven but he knew if he let go right now he’d be exhausted and this was about her not him so he sped up, smiling even more as her kissed her on the lips. 

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[maddieroads]

She kept taking in sharp breaths, and every time she would exhale they came out as moans. Her grip on his arms tightenedand she feared that she would end up breakig his arms. “Sure you haven’t done this… this before?” She moaned out, letting her head fall back into the pillow.

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He nodded and held himself up with both arms now. No matter how much he longed to touch every inch of her he longed even more to be bettter to go faster to do anything so that he wouldn’t pale in comparison to the others she’d been with. “I’m... s-sure....” He panted out. He laid his bare chest against hers, relishing every feeling he was experiencing as he slowed down once more. 

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Letting out a shuttered breath, Maddied relaxed into the bed, however it didn’t last long. Letting otu a loud gasp, not one of pain or discomfort, Maddie gripped onto his back. Her back arched, and her legs hooked htemseles around his hips, she let her head fall back. She had definately missed the feeling of having sex,that fact was definately for sure, and the other fact, was that the first person she was having sex with after a long dry spell happened to be Miles, made tonight probably one of the best nights of her life. She knew he was kind of new to this,and even though they had just started, she had a feeling that he was going to be one of the bests she’s ever had. Guess what they said about american Cowboys were true.

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He didn’t know what had happened to his brain or where all his knowledge had gone but he couldn’t have told you what 2+2 was at that very moment. He focused on slow movements, making sure he knew what he was doing was right first. He decided that from the symphonies pouring past her lips he was doing something correct. So he dipped his hips down again, lower, deeper, let out a small moan because he knew what they meant when they said sex was better than pizza. He just kept going slow because he heard that was good and though he planned on stepping it up soon this was great for now.

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Maddie kept her eyes closed, just enjoying the touch of his fingers and his lips  Maddie couldn’t o anything but shake her head at his words. Maybe it was the fact she had went so long with out actually having sex and she was anticipating this night; or maybe it ws because she liked Miles so much that sehw as enjoying this far more than she normally would have. Or, well it could just be both of the options together. 

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Miles reached towards his bedside table. His father told him earlier that night he’d left some protection in there and Miles almost died but his father just laughed. He didn’t know if Maddie was on some sort of tonic that wouldn’t let her get pregnant but he’d learned far more about Kherington Rhodes than he ever really wanted to and one of them was that she “forgot hers like twice and that’s when Marcus decided he was ready to bang so here we are.” And as nice as their kid was, Miles was not ready for that. Anyway, he focused again on the task at hand - literally - and threw the wrapper to the side. “Okay...” He whispered mostly to motivate himself, kissing from her shoulders down to her left breast.”You’re incredible.” He said, wishing there was a better word to describe how he thought she was perfect - even in her imperfections. Surprising himself (hopefully not her) he’d been paying enough attention during high school health class to know what happened next so he kissed her neck and ran one hand through her hair as the other held his body up and he bit his lip as soon as he felt himself inside her. He wished that he could think of more lovely things to say but his focus - already shredded to bits - was completely gone.

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Maddie bit her lip, looking at him and was just thinking to herself: she was lucky. Oh boy, was she one lucky woman. Madie shook her head,looking up at him. “You could never hurt me, Miles…” SHe whispered toh im. “You are literally the last person I would ever expect to hurt me.” SHe assured him. “But I do promise…if I feel pain I will tell you.” She assured him before she laned up and kissed him. 

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He sighed in relief as soon as she said she wouldn’t let him hurt her. It was in his very nature to protect others. How could he possibly explain this intense need to bring only happiness to others? He couldn’t even remember hurting a fly in his lifetime. Now here, with Maddie, it had never before felt more important to him to not hurt her. “Thank you.” He whispered, pulling her face a bit closer by tipping her chin up. He kissed her slowly until he pulled away, tugging her lip a bit as he did. “I’m going to take the rest of your clothes off now too.” He said, almost expecting her to protest though he knew she wouldn’t. “I think I know how to do that much.” He said with a wink. His hands moved at a slow paced as they slid behind her back, unclasping the hooks of her bra and setting it to the side before he did the same with her panties. They were, by the way both very beautiful and he wished he’d taken the time to compliment her on them because he thought that a lot of guys didn’t appreciate lingerie like it should be appreciated but instead of telling her that he took them both and set them on the floor in front of her dress before coming back. “i-I can get those for you when y-you need them.” He told her, his voice shaking with nerves. Less now that he knew he wouldn’t hurt her, more that he wouldn’t be good enough or that this would change everything and he wanted it to change everything because he wanted to love her and as he selfishly allowed his eyes to roam her body he did love her. At the moment his love may have also been expressed by... other parts of his body but he felt it most with his heart. So he kissed her again. That was a much better thing to do with his mouth than talking at the moment. 

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Maddie couldn’t help but smile at Miles as he ust placed her dress nicely on the chair. Oh how she was falling so hard for this man. Laughing breathlessly she looked up at him, running her fingers down his side lightly. “Take the rest of your clothing off.” She whispered to him, leaning up and kisshing his shoulder. She thought it was cute, how he was acting towards her…and them doing this, she thought it was sweet, but she felt kind of bad that she was going to be doing  this with him, when it was obvious he hasn’t before. 

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Oh man oh man oh man he was acting like a damn fool. A fool. Maddie probably thought he was some sort of kindergartner who still needed to learn about the Birds and the Bees. And that was the worst part! He knew about this, he knew what was supposed to happen, he knew what his body was telling him to do, but his mind was keeping him in check. The most important thing to him at that moment - more than her body or his body or her pleasure or his pleasure - was her comfort. He didn’t want to hurt her, and he didn’t know what he was doing. So he nodded and pulled off his suit pants and socks or else he thought that would look weird if he was completely naked except for socks and then he tugged off his boxers and discarded those to wherever. That fabric didn’t wrinkle. And although his cheeks burned he wasn’t wanting to crawl under a rock because this was the first time anyone but the doctor, his Mama when he was a child, and that one really awkward time with his friend Luke, had ever seen him like this. So he knew that he was with the right person as he held himself above her. “You’ll tell me if I ever hurt you, right? Do you promise?” He sounded childish again, but as he leaned down to kiss down her tummy and one hand trailed its way up and down her thigh he meant it with complete seriousness. “I don’t want to hurt you.”

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Letting out a shakey breath, she could feel her mind clouding with each breath she would take.She remembers what sex with a man felt like, she remembered men doing this to he; rhowever she does not remember feeling this. Opening her eyes to look at him, she nodded her head. “Of course you can, Miles….” She whispered to him, and that was all she could muster. A whisper.

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Miles nodded, kissing along her neck softly as he pulled the zipper down, running his finger along the skin slowly. He stood up from the bed, pulling the dress the rest of the way off and setting it nicely on the chair - he heard that material wrinkled okay? He returned quickly, running his hands up her sides now. “Wh-What now?” Miles asked quietly. “I’m sorry I don’t know- h-how to do this...”

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Maddie’s breathing became heavier and more frequent as she felt his hand o her thigh. She idn’t dare move or say anything, she just breathed as she closed her eyes. She didn’t know whawt it was, but just his  kisses and his touch just… put her over the edge. She had never felt anything much like it beore, despibte t her being very….experienced. “I will thank you as much as I like to…I knwo I’m not easy to like.” She whispered. “At least…not deeply.”

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Maddie did not in fact protest so with only a bit of hesitation (improvement for him) he slid it up just a bit further, running his thumb along the soft skin of the inside of her thigh. He shook his head as he continued pressing kisses along her chest. “You have no idea how wrong you are. Or how deeply I like you...” He mumbled against the skin. His heart was screaming TELL HER YOU LOVE HER and his brain was saying she won’t believe you, look where you are she won’t believe you. So he decided tomorrow he’d tell her. Charged by sudden adrenaline after deciding he would indeed tell her, his hand found the zipper on her dress. “May I?” He asked hoarsely. 

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She smiled at Miles as he relaxed and let his body do all the work. She wanted this, not only for her, but for him and she sort of….most likely …well actualy she did know that he wasn’t use to this at all and that was okay with her. She was fine with it. Letting out a shuttered breath when his hands ran their way down her body, she closed her eyes and melted into his touch. Looking up at him she smiled, placing her hands on his abdomen, enjoying th feel of it under her fingers. It mae her quiver in anticipation. Her face flushed pink at his words and she couldn’t help but smile. “no….thank you for picking me in the first place….” She whispered into his ear as he kissed her collarbone. 

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His hand slid up her thigh a few inches, making its way under the skirt of her dress and he paused so that she could protest if she’d like to. So while his hand rested on her thigh he smiled into the kisses that trailed their way lower down her chest until they began reaching the upper curve of his breast. He thought that in that very moment he could face whoever claimed to be the luckiest man on earth and tell him he won because he was there with Maddie. He shook his head, kissing the dip between her breasts softly. “Don’t thank me... it was the easiest thing I’ve done in my life.”

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“Mhm.” She mumbled. “You don’t have to be so timid either Miles…. I’m not a delicate doll that’ll break if you handle her roughly.” She whispered to him, tugging onto the collar of his shirt. “You feel a little tense…” She whispered into his ear, kissing his cheek. “Deep breath….relax a little.. don’t over think… let your body and isnticnts take control.” She told him softly.

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He really didn’t know if he had any instincts and if he did they all flew out of his mind at the very moment he needed them the most so he just nodded. It seemed like what he’d done so far had been good. He followed her instructions. Took a deep breath. His hands went down his shirt quickly, unbuttoning it and tossing it behind him, before doing the same with his undershirt. Relax. He told himself, taking another deep breath. Because he wanted this. Oh god almighty did he love being where he was right now. So his hands developed brains of their own and one of them held him up while the other ran its way slowly down the curve of her side, touching the skin of her thigh that was so much softer than he thought angel’s pillows probably felt like which was a weird analogy but his mind was racing. “You’re so perfect.” He said, kissing her jawline now. “Thank you for picking me back.” He presed a few kisses in the soft spot behind her ear before kissing along her collarbone.

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A squeal left her throat when he lifted her from the ground and she wrapped her legs around his waist. She hadn’t expected that at all, but she wasn’t complaining. Soft laughs came from her  throat. “Don’t…don’t apologize.” She whispered, shaking her head at him. “Don’t worry about anything…just… go with your insticts.” She whispoered in his ear as she planted kisses along his neck.

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Instincts... right... he had those. Didn’t he? Of course he did. God why was the only man probably on earth that had never seen a split second of a porno. If only he’d conformed all those years ago. His instincts - at least that’s what he thought they were - were telling him to lay down on bed and start taking off her clothes but as soon as they reached it finally all he could do was admire how pretty she was. So instead of unzipping and ripping and tossing he made sure there were soft touches and he placed a large hand in between her shoulders to lift them a bit so he could brush her hair behind her shoulders. His lips traveled from her shoulder, pressing soft curves until they got to her neck. “I-Is this alright...?”

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“Good…because I want it too.” She whispered and kissed him, her hands went to his waist and tugged on the waist ban of his trousers. “Want to… head hup ot your room?” She asked in between kisses. “Because I really want this…”She mumbled against his lips, pulling on his waist band again.

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Oh thank god. He thought to himself when she said she wanted this too. How embarrassing would that have been? He nodded, pecking kisses all over her as he hooked his hands under her thighs, wrapping them around his waist as he climbed the stairs effortlessly because he thought that was something that was maybe a good thing to do. He fumbled with the door, still holding her up with one of his arms as the other finally seemed to remember how to unlock a door. “S-Sorry...” He mumbled, his hands shaking as he closed the door behind him. “J-Just a bit new at-at this.” He stuttered with a blush as he got closer to the bed. 

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“Well, please be sure to tell her how amazing th food is.” Maddie smiled at his parents. She watched them and she couldn’t help but be happy for them, two people finding love the way they did. She wished she could find love that way…she’s always wished she could. WHen his parents told them to head out she was shocked, she was never todl she coud leave early, she always had to wait until all the guests were gone. Standing up with Miles she looked at her parents and smiled. “Thank you so much for having he mere Mr. and Mrs. Newhall…and congratulations again.” She said softly. WHen they arrived back to his home she smiled at him and pulled him closer to her, leaning up she kissed him. “I’ve been wanting to do that all night.” SHe whispered to him.

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Thank god she’d made the first move. Because Lord did he want this - Lord did he want her, but he’d never gone through this, he didn’t know how to initiate anything. He wasn’t completely hopeless, though, and he placed a hand on the small of her back to hold her closer to him tightly. He smirked down at her. “I have been too.” He whispered, tipping her chin up a bit to kiss her. “And so much more.” He finally admitted after all those nerves that had built up inside of him. They melted away at Maddie’s kiss. “Only if you do of course.” He stated, kissing her again. “No pressure.” His voice was low as he kissed her. “Up to you.”

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“Well, I can’t wait to meet her.” SHe told him, looking over at Miles with a smile. Maddie smiled at the food that had appeared with each course, and she enjoyed the meal greatly,s he thought it was all delicious, and she has commented so. Maddie looked over at him and smiled, and rested her hand on his knee under the ntable.TO say she was nervous for the night to come was a complete understatement. Sure, she’s been with plenty of men before - not as much as her cousin had  that was for sure, but Maddie had been with men before… but she was nervous for that night. Well…if he wanted to that is…she wasn’t going to force him…but give him the option. But if he took her… boy was she nervous. Was this what waiting for the right was, felt like? This anxiety? She shook the feeling off and smiled at the food on her plate. “I cnnot believe how delicious this food is.” She complimented once more. 

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”Oh well thank you! Miles’ Aunt Trina made it all by hand can you believe?” His Mom said. His dad laughed and shook his head. “Don’t leave out the fact that Trina has a whole restaurant and complete staff to help her.” He pointed out. Brenda rolled her eyes but rested her head on his shoulder and Miles smiled at them. He hoped someday he could be in love like that. Maybe he was already. Dessert was served. Miles could barely eat it and he wondered if with his luck he’d be that guy who was literally too full to be turned on but he didn’t think that was possible because every time he looked at Maddie he had to catch his breath because she was that beautiful. “You guys will be at Aunt Trina’s then?” He asked. “Just so I know if I should leave a key under the door.” He lied. “Oh yeah she told us we could stay there, you know how we get after a few drinks.” Brenda said with a laugh as they stood up. “You guys get outta here we’ll be here for at least another hour saying our goodbyes.” His dad complained, receiving a laugh from Miles. “Alright alright. Congratulations you guys.” He said, hugging both of his parents tightly. “Thank you both for coming.” His mother said, offering Maddie a hug. “And Miles, go out the back way, you can magic yourselves out of here.” His dad whispered conspiratorially. Miles chuckled and laced his fingers in between Maddie’s, following his father’s instructions. “Ahhh, home sweet home.” He said grinning. How did he go about bringing up that throughout the entire gala he couldn’t think of anything but laying her on his bed and showing off the moves he liked to imagine he had?