YOU ARE THE REASON
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Sooooooo this is a vent blog that I made :)
DO NOT LOOK THROUGH THIS BLOG IF TRIGGERED BY THE FOLLOWING:
SA mentions and trama
Suicidal Ideation
Heavy venting
Grief
Gender dysphoria
Parental issues

Honestly don’t follow me cause i don’t wanna depress anyone, I recommend therapy if you are feeling depressed/ anxious or anything else, it works wonders for me
So yeah, that’s about it, I’ll be posting vent art, poems, and animations here
26 she/her/chi/cher/it/it’s
To miss someone I never knew, to miss someone I’ve never known
Is a pain so aching
So present
So real
So much
I never expected it to be such a large whole in my being
I miss you
I miss who I was when I watched you
I miss the way I felt then
I’ve never felt the same since
Core belief 1
I am a burden on those I love
Core belief 2
Everyone I love will leave me. By their choice or not
Core belief 3
I am loved
Core belief 4
I don’t deserve good things
Core belief 5
Everything changes. Nothing changes. Nothing nothing nothing
Core belief 6
I cannot die by my own hand/ god will not let me die
Core belief 7
Pain doesn’t go away. It changes, it shifts. It hides. But it never fades.
Core belief 8
The loneliness won’t go away
Core belief 9
I will wait and receive nothing at all
When do I get to stop
I have had. The longest week imaginable. And I am so tired. And I just want comfort content but my hyperfixation is my oc and I have no energy- or money to get content of him made.
Wow! Ia is absolutely remarkable how little my parents listen to a word i say!
I wonder how many,others are like me. Wanting to die so so desperately. But living anyways, living because you feel like you have to. Because dying would burden others, others you care about, and that makes you want to die more. I might be alone. Utterly. I hope I am. I hope no one else feels this. I hope one day everyone I love hates me. I hope they all stop caring. I hope when I die no one attends my funeral. I hope the priest sighs as he stands from my grave and shakes his head. I hope he forgets my name by the time he re enters the chapel. I hope they find my bones in ten thousand years, and wonder about my life. I hope they write a nicer story about me. I hope they think I was happy. Wouldn’t that be nice?
Core belief 1
I am a burden on those I love
Core belief 2
Everyone I love will leave me. By their choice or not
Core belief 3
I am loved
Core belief 4
I don’t deserve good things
Core belief 5
Everything changes. Nothing changes. Nothing nothing nothing
Core belief 6
I cannot die by my own hand/ god will not let me die
Core belief 7
Pain doesn’t go away. It changes, it shifts. It hides. But it never fades.
Core belief 8
The loneliness won’t go away
Sinking again.
I will not come out to my dad to counter his rage bait about Ai art. I will not use my sexuality to make him angry
Im so scared of losing you. Your arms are the only place I feel safe. I think I wish you would use them to kill me
A sick part of me hopes if I go through with the people I love find this blog after. Not my partner. Never them. But god. Hello family, I love you. I hate myself. I want to end. I want you to know how long ive wanted to die. Look through this fucking blog. Look at how far back those posts go! It's really quite impressive I made it this far. Hey dad! Therapy didn't help cause I refuse to work on thr core of the issue! You think im an abomination to God. If you knew me you woulf hate me. Would i even be your little girl anymore? It's almost funny!!
Hey hey haha, what's the easiest way to die? The one i won't pussy out of?
I should have done it years ago
I really should have
I wish mom had aborted me
I wish thr appendicitis got me
Coin flip says I should kill myself tomorrow and damn the consequences cause I won't be around to suffer