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ind/selective terra from kingdom hearts written by senka

[extravagantwit]

extravagantwit && extravagantliar

independent & selective purple/green garrett hawke and varric tethras of dragon age

                                ‘ You know I hate it when you do that. ’                         “ Hawke muttered in an angry aside to the dwarf… ”

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pick one for me!

I chose:  ‘ sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want. ’

Teeth grit as fists curl, anger bubbling up in a wave that is not uncommon, but uneeded. He can’t lose his cool, not when his opponent cackles and mocks; holding a Keyblade that bares the sharpness of it’s teeth with each blow. He is strong, but so is this Wielder-- and he’s faster too. It’s not an automatic loss, but he struggles here, his attacks landing a second or more too late and hitting nothing but ghosts of where the other had been standing. His weakness mocking-- it’s infuriating.

“You’re wrong.” He says it less in a statement of fact and more of an opinion of person. The Unversed cackle like the other, gathering around as negative emotions summon them, and he struggles. The fight will end poorly if he loses his cool more than he already has; he knows that his own lack of self control can summon more Unversed to the area. Why do they seem to ignore him though? He doesn’t know, but he will find out. His Keyblade hums, encouragement swimming in the blood that pounds through his ears as he yells; another attack lunging through him at the other.

He refuses to swallow the selfishness-- of others.

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‘ i am not worth saving & i am not worth redemption. let me stay in the dark. ’

“Is that what you think?”

Children has weakness. You pick at it, like a scab, and the weakness bleeds out. Gently chipping at their faults would help shape them over time. That is what a good mentor does; they figure out their pupil’s weaknesses and help pick at it, making it bleed out, and wash away. They were some of the unlucky ones: the pupils who didn’t have good mentors. Their mentors picked at the wounds to the point they got bigger, reached in, and tugged until they found the most crippling bit. Until he found the most crippling bit.

Darkness is in everything after all.

His words almost carry a chuckle to them, a soft roll of noise that might be familiar to Saïx. The Nobody that was made from this body shared some of this body’s cues after all-- his body’s cues. The lines of individuality blurred years ago, when memories were scattered by an act of good will, and youthful determination was paired with aged cunning. He is still there though, despite it all. He lingers, despite his failures, and his misguided actions. He will never stop fighting. He hopes he’s not the only one.

“Do you like it? The Darkness. How it aches and creeps inside. These coats-- they don’t do much. It’s a band-aid on a wound, but there’s still poison being dribbled on top. If you stay you know what will happen.” Did he have a choice? Did they have a choice? Yes. “I don’t remember you being the type to back down.”

Darkness cannot exist without Light after all.

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‘ it’s not murder if they deserved it, right? ’

“No one deserves to die!”

His voice booms; projected proudly from within him in a deceleration of ideals. A body disintegrates between them, the Heart fluttering away to Kingdom Hearts, where it would be safe. He will make sure it makes it there safely, his Keyblade already summoned, and humming in familiar energy beside him. Shadows skirt around, hungry, but wary. Their Her Darkness calls to them, as does the exposed Heart, but he won’t allow it. He won’t stand down.

“You act as if life is something that can just be thrown away! Like it’s-- a toy! Don’t pretend you’re so self-entitled to dictate the lives of others. You have no right!” Anger crawls like a line of blotted violet through him, blurring his edges with feathery tendrils of something familiar as his heart pounds in his chest. He had just watched her throw away someone else’s life like it was nothing. She acted as if this was all nothing. How absurd. How-- liberating.

The Darkness recedes, like a rubber band snapping back, as the chain of his Keyblade rings with a sweep of his arm. “I won’t let you do that to anyone else!”

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ornoirtier:

Vivi hadn’t expected anyone to be out here – when he’d lived with his Grandpa, no one had ever really… visited. It had just been the two of them for the entire time they were together, so now that he had a quick moment to return to the only place he’d been able to really call a home, Vivi hadn’t expected that anyone would be… around.

Needless to say, hearing a voice where he absolutely had not expected to hear a voice had the poor boy very nearly jumping out of his skin.

“Whoa–!”

He whirled around so quickly that he nearly fell over; with a little wobble, Vivi managed to regain his balance, readjusting his hat nervously before speaking up again.

“Um… yeah, I have somewhere I’m going.” Not looking for something per se, but close enough. “No one ever really comes out this far… did you get lost?”

He hadn’t meant to startle him; he swears! The boy spinning about and teetering is hard to watch. He moves forward, a foot already in front of the other with a hand out stretched when the other steadies himself. The action of help would have been too late anyway, what with the distance between them, but-- it was second nature. He squares his posture again, carefully, and rolls his shoulders. Well, at least he didn’t get hurt from being startled...

“Uh... sorta.” He’s not a liar by habit, but he’s also careful. Some Worlds have forgotten that they were part of more; their Hearts thriving in individuality and choosing to revel in it. He can’t blame those Hearts at all, but he’s just-- careful. No need to add confusion were there doesn’t need to be ( he hopes, anyway ). “I’m a traveler and I’m pretty sure I got off track.” He will just omit where he was going. Partially because even he doesn’t know.

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terra is a thrill seeker. he likes pushing himself to the limit, in any sense. his drive to become ‘stronger’ is more so an emotional ‘strength’, than a physical one, though it is an excuse to continue to push himself. he loves working out, running, swimming, etc. on the waterfalls in the Land of Departure he would jump off of them to dive, or ride down them in a kayak, etc. he has also been known to sky dive off his keyglider, much to eraqus’ dismay. the adrenaline thrill helps clear his head if he is having a ‘bad brain day’ and generally just puts him in a good mood. he will rarely turn down an opportunity to have a friendly spar or a racing contest because of it, though if he is with someone else, he will generally curb his thrill seeking behavior. 

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‘ even after all you have done, i will always want you fighting on my side. ’

“You’re too forgiving.”

He’s ashamed. Guilty once more of being a hot head and pushing when he shouldn’t have pushed. He pushes himself on the daily, but sometimes he shouldn’t. He knows that and he did it anyway. He made a mistake someone his age shouldn’t be making. Eraqus scolds him after Aqua collects him, picks him up out of the injury he made with poor judgement, and brought him back to be healed. He should be thanking her; he should be grateful.

“I’m going to make a mistake that’s going to hurt you too one of these days.” A Keyglider crash was bad enough, but what if it was during a spar? Not a simple mistake where a no-blood spar suddenly becomes bloody because someone slipped in their stance. No; what if he couldn’t control one of his explosions? What if his canon misfired and hit her? What if he forgot himself and let the teeth of his Keyblade turn sharp. What if.

He’s supposed to be resting, but resting is hard. He’s itching to go for a run, to tape his hands and let stress bleed out while he hits the gym, or something. He hates sitting still. He hates being generally hobbled while he waits for ‘okay’ to take off his knee brace. He hates how he limps, even as he paces on the other side of the room. He hates his weakness; his judgement-- but.

He’s being an ass.

The realization isn’t sudden, it was there to begin with, but he didn’t want to admit it. Admitting fault is hard; it always has been. He’s misguided at times, but he’s not an ass-- well. He tries not to be. So he stops pacing, his palm finding the edge of the desk and holding onto it, just so he can gimp his leg just a bit. It hurts, but not terribly ( he knows it would hurt less if he would just rest ). “I’m sorry.” The words are ushered out with an exhale, a sigh of annoyance holding hands with just plain exhaustion. He’s not tired, but he is. He’s not this, but he’s that.

He’s a kid that’s got a ways to go.

“You don’t deserve my anger; I’m sorry. I just-- I don’t want to hurt you Aqua.” He’s honest, a proverbial heart tacked to his sleeve, and he’s not ashamed of that. He’s ashamed that he lets his emotions get the better of him sometimes, but of the emotions themselves? Never. “One of these days I’m going to screw up so bad that a ‘sorry’ won’t even start to make it better and I... I really don’t want that to happen to you.” He doesn’t want to hurt his peer, his friend-- heck-- his best friend. He doesn’t want to be that person.

“I’ll always be on your side; I promise. I won’t ever let you tough it alone.”

[spctlessminds]

based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

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terra isn’t the best when it comes to tact. sometimes he can speak very eloquently, but usually when he does, it does not concern his emotions or some of his personal views (except his views on Light/Darkness/The Heart). most of the time he is rather blunt, generally friendly, but blunt. he will sometimes, unintentionally, be hurtful with his words because of this. people calling him out on that behavior have helped him learn, but he can still be too blunt at times.

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as much as terra loves animals, he has bad allergies in regards to most animals. cats and dogs give him a typical ‘i look like i have a moderate cold’ allergic reaction and muskier animals (like ferrets, for example) only make it worse. it’s an annoyance for him, seeing as he genuinely loves animals, but he can’t be around them for long periods of time.

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@ornoirtier

He knows that every World is different, the Heart that holds it aloft in the sea of Darkness is unique, so whatever lives on that World would be unique as well. Unique Hearts, unique forms of Darkness, and evidently-- well; unique forms of people too. A small body spotted through tall trees isn’t what is surprising, it’s just... everything else about the other. Wasn’t there a type of monster that looked sort of like that? “Hey--”

“Are you looking for something?” Why else would someone be moving about the woods-- himself not included.

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you can like for a starter

[mislxd-blog]

there’s been an influx of kingdom hearts on my dash, so i thought i’d bring back terra from death by crying birth by sleep written by senka you can give this post a like/reblog if you want to interact with a well intentioned guy who makes a lot of mistakes so I can hopefully follow back! this blog is selective/mutual exclusive due to this being my final semester at college

[benvey]

i’ve been replaying bbs lately and this game is freaking good.

[benvey]

quick terra and terranort, because i’m still upset.