10232020 - the day I start to look down
This year, swear i cant count anymore how many times i have said the line “why is this happening to me”
-TBC
Aqua Utopia|海の底で記憶を紡ぐ

No title available

pixel skylines
styofa doing anything
"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"

JBB: An Artblog!

Product Placement

@theartofmadeline
Sade Olutola

Janaina Medeiros
Monterey Bay Aquarium

JVL
Alisa U Zemlji Chuda

⁂

#extradirty
Xuebing Du

tannertan36
wallacepolsom
art blog(derogatory)

祝日 / Permanent Vacation

seen from Türkiye

seen from Malaysia
seen from Jordan
seen from Saudi Arabia
seen from United Arab Emirates

seen from New Zealand
seen from Philippines
seen from United States

seen from Malaysia
seen from Dominican Republic

seen from Switzerland
seen from Libya
seen from Türkiye
seen from United Arab Emirates
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
@missbhienkey
10232020 - the day I start to look down
This year, swear i cant count anymore how many times i have said the line “why is this happening to me”
-TBC
yesterday, i decided not to pursue ipad pro na talaga for real.
bukod sa kahit anong gawin ko, hindi talaga ako makakuha ng work or source of money, mukhang malabo na rin talaga ako kay papa eh. hindi sa pagtatampo pero valid naman kasi yung reasons niya like baka di ko naman daw talaga need ang ipad pro, and dahil na rin sa tanginang covid19 na ‘yan. like en, wala na kasi talaga siyang legit project na winowork so mej hirap din talaga kami sa money rn. tapos syempre baka may mangyari and wala kaming magamit na emergency funds kaya ayern. galingan ko na nga lang hahaha
anime_irl
#stl
Whatever causes night in your soul may leave stars.
Victor Hugo (via quotemadness)
Do it please.
Write poetry and novels, draw a sunset with pastels or watercolours, record yourself speaking about your life and opinions, open an Instagram account for your pet, become a self-coach on Tumblr, open a little etsy shop with your jewel creations, start a fitness journey and share your progress, take up an online martial art course and make YouTube videos about it, dive into vlogging of places around you with subtitles for everyone to read, whatever it is.
Share yourself to the world. Your life. Because it's not coming back after it's gone.
“The Lord is my light and the one who saves me. So why should I fear anyone? The Lord protects my life. So why should I be afraid?”
Psalm 27:1
DailyWellSpiration
today, i’ll stop looking for a source of income na.
Sobrang weird and out of nowhere pero bigla akong naiyak kanina nung biglang tumugtog sa youtube ko yung pretty boy by m2m. Bakit? Hindi ko rin alam. Pero dahil don desidido na ako na di na titigilan ko na ang paghahanap ng work para magkaroon ng pambili ng ipad pro.
These past few weeks were really hard for me. i was a covid19 pum, rejected by ****** (sorry di pa ako ready ilantad haha), and really torn between working/looking for another job, and kung mag aadvance study ba me for medschool. Pero ayun, since may mga utang ako rn and pangarap ko talaga magka ipad pro mula sa katas ng dugo at pawis ko, isinantabi ko na yung option na advance study. Tapos dahil underpaid ako sa current job ko, desparada na talaga ako makakuha/makahanap ng ibang work. At eto na nga.
Two days ago, inaccept ng isang filipino-english transcriber yung application ko tapos nag uundergo na ako sa video tutorials/trainings nila. Nakakahilo yung dami ng vids pero kering-keri naman since feeling ko mag eenjoy talaga ako sa work dahil fan talaga ako ng wikang tagalog. Kaso.... di ko magawang mag over-think at malunod sa anxiety kasi what if ireject din ako ng company na ‘to diba? like pota. Dun sa **** nagreject sa’kin, ilang gabi kong pinag puyatan yung mga patraining nila. 2 steps from getting hired na raw ako tas bigla akong irereject? like okay siz gets ko naman na ako yung may pagkukulang talaga kaya di nila ako hinire pero pota pinaka ayoko talaga sa mundong ito eh magkaroon ng regrets. Like pota talaga haha tnx pu sa xp? pero hayop kayo bitter pa rin ako. :(
Eh kaso ayun nga, may final exam din kasi ‘tong transcriber eme. Like unli take naman sa exam pero alam mo yun? Di ko magawang hindi mag overthink at magpalunod sa anxiety na what if.... di rin pala nila ako ihire tas another series na naman ng sayang sa resources ko (time, effort, emotion ganern) :( Eh if ever, yung time na masasayang ko sa training, sana winork ko na lang o kaya nag advance study ako diba? Sobrang lost ko talaga. Lalo na kahapon. Lumipas lang yung araw ng August 13 nang wala ako nagawang kahit ano :((( tapos syempre pinag sisisihan ko rin kung bakit di na lang ako ng work or smthng diba? ang hirap.
Pagod na ako mentally. Tapos 3 weeks from now mag sstart na rin yung classes ko sa medschool. So lalong lumalakas yung guilt na bakit di ako nag aadvance study? Yung stress pa sa enrollment ko na pagka mahal mahal like ugh mahal kita dahil dream medschool kita pero gago talaga ng 9k for lib fee tapos 15k naman for lab fee. Eh online classes? Dapat to follow-up yung mga ‘yon eh. Auq na. Us2 q lang naman ng ipad pro eh. CHZ HAHAHA
Kaya ayun na nga kanina, nag break down na ako sa lahat ng shts sa utak ko. Maraming salamat M2M sa pagkanta sa Pretty Boy haha. Walang koneksyon pero may narealize ako kanina habang lowkey nag bbdown ako..... I r need to stop chasing the impossible dream of having ipad pro na talaga for this year. So what kung easier money sa mga online jobs? I still have my youtube channel and wattpad story.... walang assurance pero hell yeah i like doing wattpad stories. HAHAAH
*sighs*
Today I’ll stop looking for a source of income na. I’m gonna advance study na. Tiis sa underpaid job, and focus sa things na will make me happy-- writing wattpad stories. and sige na nga, pati sa pagvvlog haha.
0814202048
Tysm Tumblr for making me feel this liberated on your platform. This is more liberating than my secret twitter account. ✌️