Eva⛓️

Primitive transsexual woman held in captivity 21 - She/her

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Imma just post whatever on here muahaha.

Follow if you DARE 😧

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Aka I will probably post my naked body on here this is your final warning

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Wait I forgot about this account AGAIN 😭😭

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But I just realized that I have massive bottom dysphoria and that’s what’s been getting to me :(

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Okay I’m back :D

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How do I (socially anxious 21 year old trans girl) even find a boyfriend? 😭

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Aside from Cali boy I don’t think I’ve ever met a guy who is into me and unashamed (and not like an unrealistic age difference LMAO like let’s keep it ~5 years older at most

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And I love Cali boy but we were always online and it never even was a relationship just someone I sexted with consistently and was good friends with for months

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How do I (socially anxious 21 year old trans girl) even find a boyfriend? 😭

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Aside from Cali boy I don’t think I’ve ever met a guy who is into me and unashamed (and not like an unrealistic age difference LMAO like let’s keep it ~5 years older at most

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How do I (socially anxious 21 year old trans girl) even find a boyfriend? 😭

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Due to insurance being wonky and not covering my progesterone my mom gave me a lot of extra ones she has. So I’ve been doing a little experiment and double dosing the last few days.

My god, I feel so feral LOL

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I need a man’s hands on me so fucking bad. Grab me PLEASE

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I’d melt under the slightest bit of male attention

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Due to insurance being wonky and not covering my progesterone my mom gave me a lot of extra ones she has. So I’ve been doing a little experiment and double dosing the last few days.

My god, I feel so feral LOL

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I need a man’s hands on me so fucking bad. Grab me PLEASE

[misspinhead]

Due to insurance being wonky and not covering my progesterone my mom gave me a lot of extra ones she has. So I’ve been doing a little experiment and double dosing the last few days.

My god, I feel so feral LOL

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I’m on tumblr at the club

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I think the intersection between feedism and trans identities is extremely interesting.

Im bringing this up because I ended up stuffing ~30ish minutes ago. To be honest feedism doesn’t actually do much at all for me sexually, but I can still feel its presence in my life as someone who had been making content in the community since their early teen years.

In fact I’d go as far as to say I needed feedism. It was the only thing that gave me hope in a sense that I could have control over my body, and in a way use it to potentially feminize myself through weight gain. As I saw that I could just maybe get some degree of “curviness” that otherwise my body wasn’t able to have, and also escape things like muscle and the sharpness of my body that I struggled with. (Not to say fat men are inherently feminine because that is not true at all)

But since transitioning I’ve come full circle with feedism and it’s no longer something that I feel as intensely drawn to. It’s mostly run its course, and I don’t feel like I’m forcing it to not be in my life it just isn’t something I’m drawn to as much.

But because of the time I spent in the community I have noticed there are still some things I struggle with. I admittedly am kinda scared of losing weight, and like losing any more femininely distributed weight because of that. Plus like it is genuinely a good idea to gain a little bit of weight once your levels are good but my mind sees that and translates it to “stuff yourself with fast food” even though that’s not something I want to do. But idk I’ve gotten a lot more control and even tonight didn’t eat everything I ordered. But it still sucks because that’s money wasted I could’ve used for anything else 😖

Idk I’m just curious if there are any other trans people (especially trans fems but really everyone!) who as almost obsessively into feedism pre-transition and has since been navigating feeling not interested in it, but still partaking in some not-amazing behaviors because of it

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I locked eyes with the only other trans / queer person in any of my classes this semester. I’m not out yet but they clocked me SO hard just from the look they knew

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I swear to god I keep accidentally running into them elsewhere on campus and we haven’t spoken but I feel so bad like I worry that they think I’m stalking them it’s so bad 😭😭

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I will click on every Cillian Murphy edit that pops on my ig explore page until I am only recommended Cillian Murphy content

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The only way I can ever talk with anyone is through nudes that’s it that’s literally the only thing I have and know

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Coming back to once again regretfully inform you that I am the most socially inept person in all of existence

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I went to a board game club on campus. And I just sat in the middle of the room for 20 minutes doing nothing before leaving 😭 genuinely I think I’ll never make another friend I don’t know how plus everyone already has their groups. Like I literally did nothing they need a club on campus for people who have no idea how to socialize and then like paid them with each other help me please

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Coming back to once again regretfully inform you that I am the most socially inept person in all of existence