Call Me Pixie

38. When the fuck did that happen? Living in rural Idaho, in recovery, learning to be body positive, in self healing awareness, flower crown loving neo-hippy sans the cultural appropriation.

[misspixiejane]

Letter to Myselves

A letter to my past present nd future selves.

According to Mama. as a baby you were sweet and easy (it was not until you hit three that you turned into a diva meant for the stage). Equally a Mama and Daddy’s girl, you were also obsessed with your older sister Lori and Grandma McGinty, To the best of my ability I have determined that you were happiest when held, didn’t matter who, you just needed to be in someone’s arms. It is not lost on…

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[animentality]

[laughoutloud-club]

[mrshamill]

check your voter registration, people, esp in red states (and esp if you're a poc). tRump's fascists will stop at nothing to see to it he wins.

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

Boooooost

Make sure that you are still registered to vote and if not, make sure that you are in time for this years election <3

[misspixiejane]

9:13 PM and I am just now sitting down at my laptop. Why you may ask? What busy and important things did I have to do today? The answer is literally nothing. Today was a day I wanted to lay in bed …

[misspixiejane]

On Faux Christians and Health Updates

In which Pixie takes to task those who only show up to criticize and recent developments with health struggles.

9:13 PM and I am just now sitting down at my laptop. Why you may ask? What busy and important things did I have to do today? The answer is literally nothing. Today was a day I wanted to lay in bed and disassociate for the whole of it… and that is mostly what I did this morning. I just laid there because I have this bee in my bonnet about something someone posted on something I posted on Facebook.…

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[misspixiejane]

It is currently 1 minute to 4 AM on Friday March 1st and what better time to write out all of my thoughts and feelings than 4 AM on a Friday? I am sitting in my new bed in my new apartment wrapped up in what I like to call my Muppet skin blanket (it’s tie-dye shag and makes me happy). So much has changed in the last few months and yet so much remains the same. It’s not where you are so much as…

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[thoughtportal]

5 simple exercises to awaken dormant muscles

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[onemillionwordsofcrap]

I appreciate this video a lot--people don't realize how important it is to start slow if you're trying to come back from a completely sedentary lifestyle, and they get really hurt as a result. Straining your muscles too much, too suddenly can land you in the E.R. and the wrong joint injury can permanently affect your mobility, so please start with absolute basics and easy stretches!

[celiavonhinten]

[michaelnothing]

This twink wishes he was HALF the weirdo.

[monkeysaysficus]

I love how this sentence could apply in either direction

[theworsethingsgettheharderifight]

no it couldn't. show gonzo some respect.

[misspixiejane]

On Traveling

Just a quickie post

It is a new month and I have safely arrived in Oregon! I am so excited to be here – I have some worries about being entertaining for 18 days but! I keep telling myself that I don’t actually have to perform or mask here. I can just be – or figure out how to be this version of me I am having to become. They have a dog! His name is Traveler, aka Trav which of course I have turned into Travy –…

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[misspixiejane]

On Heavy Topics

Read at your own risk

TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF SEXUAL ASSAULT AND RESULTING EMOTIONAL SPIRAL I have danced around this issue and eluded to it enough. The language we use to talk about these things is important and while I am sure there will be some fall out from this…I have to use the language I have access to to begin healing. It has taken me three weeks to come to a place where I can say these words aloud, and…

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[misspixiejane]

On Scenery Changes

I am determined to finish out this month strong, to post every Monday and Wednesday even if I feel I have very little to say. I’ve also been posting more on TikTok as I try to process difficult emotions and where I am in my journey. One marked change that I have noticed in myself is that I actually want to be around people now. I want to talk and talk and talk, before I would have collapsed it on…

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[misspixiejane]

On Getting Through

It is 4:30 in the morning and I don’t know what to do with myself. I meant to write yesterday but if I am very honest with you I ended up sleeping most of the day. That is how I am coping right now, it’s the only thing I feel like I can do until I see my psychiatrist on the 25th. I can’t seem to focus on anything – not shows, no writing projects, not even makeup. I just look at my pile of…

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[misspixiejane]

On Safety and Experience

I have thoughts in my head

It is Monday. That means a blog post must go up. I am not in the headspace to talk about positivity. I am not in the headspace to do anything if I am perfectly honest with you, I am struggling right now, more than I know how to put into words. I keep thinking how it became so trendy to say “consent is sexy” for awhile and today that sentiment is filling me with rage. Consent isn’t “sexy” consent…

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[misspixiejane]

On No Meaning No

This makes no sense, I am spiraling a little bit... or a lot a bit.

I have a sticker on my laptop, it says I am no longer available for things that make me feel like shit – my friend Cole sent it to me and I knew she needed a home on something I would see all the time. I love the sentiment of said sticker. This isn’t an update on how my laptop decorating is going, I swear there is a point to all of this. I have spent so many years of my life trying to be who…

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[misspixiejane]

On Anniversaries

One year ago today I was sitting in a hospital room, taking to my mama and my sister and my bonus mom about whether or not I was nervous about the procedure I was about to go under. As I reflect back over the last year I can’t believe I am really here. A year ago I could not have imagined everything I would go through – the good and the bad. I could not picture my life as it is now, if you had…

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[misspixiejane]

On Comparisons and Joy

It's 3:19 on a Monday. Have some words

Sunday marked the first of October and for me that meant the first day of FALL – here in my little corner of Idaho it was gloomy and rainy and absolutely perfect fall weather. I cuddled down in my blankets and had a do nothing sort of day. I rested and tried not to beat myself up for it until Snapchat sent me a reminder of what I was doing on this day a year ago. A year ago I was feeling anxious…

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[misspixiejane]

On Discombobulation

WORDS AND STUFF AND THINGS, we got a case of the mean reds.

I am in a weird place emotionally – hence this post going up so late. I am sitting here reflecting on the last week and just feeling completely exhausted. I have no get up and go. I feel quiet and withdrawn and Im sort of of two minds about the whole thing. On one hand I just “got over” Covid and a rather emotional exam with a new doctor so all of that was stressful for my body even if I am…

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