missplacedsoul

IT'S TOO LOUD INSIDE MY HEAD.

[missplacedsoul]

I guess my worst nightmare is coming true. It's starting and I can feel my heart break little by little. Maybe I'm really selfish and don't really care about anything but myself. I'm starting to see how toxic I really am 😔

[neil-gaiman]

It's nice that it's starting to feel real.

[toastbutteregg]

[missplacedsoul]

True

[missplacedsoul]

02-07-21

I’ve been having consecutive bad days. It’s awful and it’s not okay. I think I’m drained from always pretending to smile and be cheerful. I’ve been exhausted. I keep on giving up and I’m not sure how to get back up again. I’ve been “resting” but still feel sooo tired...

[missplacedsoul]

01-14-21

Why does our mind play awful memories while doing the dishes or brushing your teeth or just anything simple. Worst was when you are about to sleep. I hate those times. Some other times your mind is just blank. I don’t know if it’s also lucky for any one else, but for me it is. I rarely get those moments. It’s as if my mind is just constantly playing the things I worry about; past mistakes, what ifs, bad decisions and things that I should do but not doing anything about it.

I’m an overthinker and that leads to my anxieties. I rarely rant to my close friends about my anxieties because I know they have them too and I don’t want to add mine to them. One friend that I have always asks me how I am because they know that when I’m quiet, that’s when my anxiety is at its peak. Sometimes I tell them some of my worries, other times I just avoid the question completely. They said that I should only worry about the things that I have control over, not those that naturally happen or anything accidental. I try my best to do just that, but in bad days I can’t control what my mind tells me. I just hope that after that bad day, comes a good day.

[missplacedsoul]

01-11-21

My bestfriend recently lost her father to Covid-19. She's in another country right now for work so I got excited to receive a call from her, but then my smile turned upside down when I saw her crying on the screen. I immediately asked her why, then she told me her dad was gone earlier that day. I couldn't form any sentences, I was stunned and devastated for her. She was crying throughout the call, and I was just staring at her, heartbroken, with tears in my eyes. And I have never felt so useless in my life, except in that moment. I don't know how to comfort her, what words to say to lessen her pain. I've lost dear loved ones and in those moments, no words can comfort you. They would say that "they are in a peaceful place now" but those words are not even enough. I know I sound like a shitty friend, believe me I know that too, but I really don't know how to. I suck at comforting words, I don't know why I just am. I just hope that she knows that I do care for her and her family. I check up on her and her mom and brothers every other day because I think if you ask them every day how they are doing, you're not actually helping them, you're just reminding them of the sadness and the loss they just had; no matter how many "how are you's" you ask them, what they feel won't change in the span of a day or two. So I tell her to eat something or be careful going to work, or take care of their health. She hadn't replied yet, but I understand, she needs a lot of time. I'll just be here if she needs me. I just feel sorry that I can't do anything big to help her or her family. I just hope that I could think of something to ease their pain even just a tiny amount.

random thought: I just noticed now that the date today is like adding 1 on the first number. sorry, simple joys you know?

[missplacedsoul]

The Beginning

At first I didn’t open this account because I simply forgot the password. Over time, I wanted to go back here but I was just too lazy to find what my password was hahahaha

Over time, as my thoughts keep on piling high, I remember this account where I can vent all I want and say all the things that fills my head. So, to my 57 followers (active or not) I’m saying sorry now if you happen to pass by and read all of my thoughts. It’s not my intention to burden you more, especially in this time of pandemic. I hope all are well, and have a good night.

[elladobdelapupa]

[thepigeongazette]

this is either the dumbest thing I’ve ever made or the culmination

[missplacedsoul]

Two kinds of people.

[buzzfeeduk]

“I’m fine, thanks”

[buzzfeed]

i feel personally attacked

[buzzfeed]

How I spent my weekend. (By Becky Barnicoat)

[shareaquote]

Every person I’ve ever loved has some how become toxic to me. A living, breathing reminder of why I was always better off alone. I love too hard, too quickly and then sometimes I don’t love enough. I guess I’m just bad at love.

Kristie Betts (via shareaquote)

[chasingshhadows]

So my cat Lydia likes paper right. If I open my mail on my bed, she’s right there, walking on it, listening to it crinkle under her toes, and then laying right down. Even if I leave paper on the floor, on carpet or tile or hardwood, she’s there, curling up, standing on it, happy as can be. And like many of my fellow fanfiction addicts, I don’t read a lot of print books, but I recently borrowed a novel that sounded a m a z i n g and I wanted to get it back to my coworker on Monday. It was going pretty well Saturday afternoon until

Every time I put this book down, whether open or closed or page up or down, she was there. Happy as can be. And so freaking cute that I didn’t want to move her, which meant I was not going to finish it.

So finally, in protest and so I could actually finish this book, I gave her another one

I finished my book (White is for Witching by Helen Oyeyemi, highly recommend) but I left the decoy out.

She’s been sleeping on it every night. It’s been a week.

[penguinteen]

This is a wise cat

[bryankonietzko]

Here's how to help Mexico after another deadly earthquake

You can help after a 7.1-magnitude earthquake hit near Mexico City.

As I’m sure you’ve heard, there was a devastating and deadly earthquake in Mexico City yesterday, a mere twelve days after another devastating and deadly earthquake in Chiapas and Oaxaca, in southern Mexico. The article above has links for various ways to donate to the relief efforts.

I’ve been seeing a lot of posts to donate to Topos.mx, “The Moles” organization that was founded after thousands died in the 1985 Mexican earthquake. However, their website does not seem to be working right now, but you can donate to them via PayPal:

1 - Login into your Paypal account 2 - Tools > Send Payments > Pay for goods or services 3 - Type this account: [email protected] 4 - Click Next > Type the amount you are willing to donate 5 - Click Continue > Choose how you want to pay 6 - Click Next > Click SEND PAYMENT NOW

You can also donate to relief efforts for Chiapas/Oaxaca earthquake and/or the Mexico City earthquake through the Paz Project & the El Paso Community Foundation: https://epcf.org/mxquake

[theartofanimation]

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[bryankonietzko]

Here Are Ways You Can Help People During Hurricane Harvey

As our hearts break for Houston, the Gulf Coast, and other affected areas, here are ways to contribute.

Pulling for you too, Louisiana! I have family and friends in Houston—luckily they are all safe so far, but so many others are not…

Reposting this link from a friend. As she put it, the article “includes links to many of the (mostly local) organizations I’ve seen most repeatedly lauded for their on-the-ground action and efficiency.”