She, Pt. 2
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Warnings: Anxiety attack, mature language. I think that's it? Although this series is going to get a lot more serious so please 18+ only.
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Heeere we gooooo..
Itās been three days since the New Years party. Since then, you and Harry had been talking non stop. From facetime calls to voice calls and when youāre not physically talking to one another, itās texting. It was pretty obvious that the both of you had a crush on each other but the both of you had just gotten out of a serious relationship. When Harry told you he had just gone through a break up, you remembered all of the posts you saw of Olivia Wilde. Neither of the two had ever publicly confirmed their relationship but Harry just did to you, he didnāt have to say her name. It was obvious.
This triggered an anxiety attack. Ever since breaking up with your ex, you have gotten a little more sensitive to things. You were unsure why. The relationship was toxic. He was verbally abusive. You thought your anxiety would ease up after leaving him.
You had told Harry youād call him right back once you felt the attack coming. The two of you were deep in conversation when you felt your chest tighten.
āHey H?ā You tried to hide the shakiness in your voice as best you could.
āLove?ā A grin started to form across his face. You smiled back at the pet name, which he had gotten so used to calling you. It was your new name. He rarely calls you by your name.
āCan I call you back in like fifteen?ā You asked, voice shaky as you tried to hide it.
āCourse, lovie.ā He said without hesitation and ended the facetime call.
You set your phone down and a loud groan escaped from the back of your throat. Your eyes became clouded and your chest got tighter. You felt your knees buckle and your body collapsed. You began to let the tears flow and try to soothe yourself but your thoughts took over.
āHow can I compare to Olivia Wilde? Sheās gorgeous, sheās successful. Rich. The perfect weight. Probably doesnāt have crippling anxiety. Iām probably just a rebound. Itās just a game to him..ā
Over an hour had passed and you were so completely lost in your thoughts, your eyes were red and puffy from crying every bit of water out of you that you possibly could. You finally grabbed onto the corner of your bed and picked yourself up. You noticed your phone sitting on the bed.
āFuck! Harry!ā You were punishing yourself and you wanted so much to just block him but you found yourself pressing send to a text message.
Before you knew it, Harry was calling you to let you know he was on his way and his eta was 12 minutes. You quickly pulled yourself together. You washed your face, moisturized and brushed your hair. You put on a clean pair of underwear, a new sports bra, t-shirt and some leggings.
You started to run down the hall but then ran back to put deodorant on and some perfume. āOkay no weāre together.ā You inhaled deeply and then exhaled. Your phone vibrating on the bathroom counter startled you as you were doing the exhale.
Harry.
āHey boo.ā You said cheerfully.
āBoo, thatās cute. Hi lovie! Whatās your apartment number? āM here.ā
ā233.ā
āGot it. Be there in a minute.ā
You decided it would be a good idea to go stand outside your door to greet Harry. It was a lot colder than you thought it would be and you didnāt have a jacket. You crossed your arms and leaned against your doorway. His eyes widened and he flashed a bright grin when he noticed you.
āBabe!ā He exclaimed and opened his arms widely.
āHey you.ā You said.
He immediately wrapped his arms around you and you felt your chest tighten again so you pulled away. āItās hella cold out here, H.ā
āHella?ā He snickered, āI canāt even say that with mā English accent.ā
He noticed your demeanor and how it changed since he had arrived but he didnāt say anything. The two of you walked into the house and took a seat on the couch. You distanced yourself from him and you were unsure what was going on inside you. Your eyes began to get watery and your chest tightened more. Harry looked up and saw your body fold, you brought your head to your knees and breathed in heavily.
He slid over to you quickly and pulled you into him. āHey. Shh shh, whatās the matter lovie? Talk to me please.ā
You snuggled into him taking comfort in the way that his arms engulfed you with the utmost feeling of. You sniffled and took another heavy breathing in, āI--I just..ā You stopped yourself.
āBabe, you can tell me anything. Please talk to me.ā His eyes began to water seeing you like this. Truth is, he had caught feelings which scared him because it had all happened so quickly and he just got out of a relationship that had lasted over a year. However, despite that, he was over her. As soon as he met you, itās like he forgot about his grieving. Harry Styles was falling for you, and he was falling hard.
āAfter you told me you were just in a relationship, I had a feeling that it was Olivia Wilde because I saw all the pictures and videos of her at your concerts. You just looked at her like you were so in love.ā You stopped yourself again to calm down again.
āLove, ās over with her. There is no Olivia anymore.ā
āBut sheās so perfect and pretty and successful and model skinny. Sheās literally picture perfect and youāre picture perfect and I just---,ā
āBabe, please. Donāt beat yourself up and donāt worry about her.ā
āI just donāt want to be a rebound.ā You said not looking at Harry.
He put his thumb and index finger under your chin and lifted it up so your watery eyes and tear stained face looked directly at him, āYou are far too perfect to be a rebound. Y/N I am falling so hard fā you. And you donāt have to feel the same right now. I know ām moving fast, but you are mā dream woman.ā
You immediately felt your anxiety lift like a weight off your shoulders. You could tell he was being genuine and you hated yourself for doubting him.
āI love you.ā You said inaudibly.
āWhat did you say?ā Harry asked.
āOh nothing.ā You smiled up at him.
āI love you too.ā He pressed his lips to yours. The kiss lasted about 10 seconds before he pulled back. āYeh, I love you too.ā
You had just kissed Harry Styles and he initiated it. You smiled as you thought to yourself about the moment you two just had.
āI thought you didnāt hear me.ā
āOh babe, I heard yeh. Jusā wanted to hear you say it again.ā A cheeky grin spread across his face.
You pecked his lips again and climbed onto his lap. You cupped his cheeks between your hands, āI love you. Thank you for coming over and talking me down. Iām so thankful for you.ā
"Again, I would do anythin' f' you Y/N. My only angel. My perfect love. My sweet creature. I adore you."
You were the absolute happiest you had been in a long time.
Fin
