well, i guess i'm in dire straits again. my life has fallen apart for the 5th time and i'm left with no other options. i have to go to a homeless shelter. i have no way to get to one because the nearest one is like 60 miles away. my small town, Falls City Nebraska doesn't have anything for a homeless person. i tried. i really did. i saved for a tent and i had it for a while but a possum destroyed it. i lived with family for 2 days before they made it a situation that i can't live in. like they thought i'd be an emotional punching bag because it's freezing outside. things were barely stable in the tent. i had job applications out, i had an interview hoping for a second competing with others whose interviews were postponed because of the holiday? but what is a slow interview process for a roll of the dice when you're homeless, broke, freezing and alone? i'm alone. i only have the homeless shelter as an option and god knows how dangerous that is when the Midwest is ravaged by covid-19? but it's that or die freezing this winter. i have nothing. it's over. getting covid is almost preferable. the medical debt is preferable because the hospital bed would at least be a warm death bed. if anyone could donate for at least being able to pay for gas for a ride to the nearest shelter, it would be appreciated. it's not hyperbole how far away they are from me. that's why i mentioned Falls City, Nebraska. you can see it for yourself should you be so inclined. i'm typing this as i sleep in a baseball dugout with two blankets and as much clothes i can wear and the last of my battery power.
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i'm Bea, not Bob. i'm two-spirit/winkté but as if i have any choice in staying in the closet. truthfully i don't expect anything at this point. i'm trying not to let myself be suicidal and attempt for the 6th time. i thought i had a strong enough will to overcome this so i wouldn't consider checking out but i'm so tired. just so tired.
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