Mistalintu

professional sidekick and meme regent that plans to usurp the throne

[schizocyberdollface]

thought it was relatable

[afraidofrabbits-deactivated2025]

love is when they take a train from another city to bring you energy drinks and bread

also to help your depressed ass wash the dishes finally

[schizoetic]

[mistalintu]

tagged by: @takiisieju

tagging: @melonbitter

1. are you named after anyone?

My old name - yes. My current one - no.

2. when was the last time you cried?

Last weekend.

I don't remember why.

3. do you have kids?

Yes, my two research studies. But human children, I shouldn't even be near them.

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

Yes. I love it.

5. what sports do you play/have you played?

I had like two classes of taekwando.

6. what’s the first thing you notice about other people?

Energy. Takii was very energetic when we first met.

7. eye colour?

Greyish green.

8. scary movies or happy endings?

Depends on my mood.

9. any special talents?

Losing stuff and staying focused on the task.

10. where were you born?

Stroyitel, Russia

11. what are your hobbies?

Postcrossing, scrapbooking, travelling.

12. do you have any pets?

My cat Theo. I used to also have one named Vincent.

13. how tall are you?

168 cm.

14. favourite subject in school?

Chemistry. Because the teacher was blabbering about dogs all the time.

15. dream job?

Travelling tea taster.

[mistalintu]

The first and so far the only time I was involuntarily in a psychiatric hospital was this autumn.

I started having problems in September and I hoped to solve them with a psychologist, with whom I could not make an appointment. When I finally succeeded after a month and a half, in the middle of the conversation she took me out of the office and took me to the doctor, who simply told me that they would take me away now.

There they took away all my personal belongings, including clothes, and took me to the ward where I was to spend the next few weeks.

As a heavy smoker, it was very difficult for me to smoke just once a day in the evenings. But for exemplary behavior and help in the department, several of the nurses' pets were allowed to smoke more often. I was not among them. They could get an extra cigarette for mopping the floors, washing the dishes, or giving a nurse a back massage.

In three weeks, I only managed to wash myself completely once. The rest of the time I had to wipe myself with tap water. In the toilet without any partitions, there were three toilet bowls in a row. There were no chairs either.

It was impossible for anyone to visit me, the only contact with my relatives was limited to the evenings, when they called to the nurse station. The conversation was limited to two minutes. This is extremely little. I felt isolated. Every evening we gathered at the telephone waiting for a call, but not everyone who was waiting was also called. It was the only thread connecting us to the world. A thread that is so easy to break if you just forget to call. For people outside, this is trifle, but for those who are locked up in compulsory treatment, this is the only ray of light, the only breath of air, the only moment when they can feel your love.

[mistalintu]

Hi guys im having a hallucination that my family came to visit me, turned on the light and are making noise, they don’t want to wake me up. I hear voices outside the door, I see a light in the corridor, I go out and there's nothing. When I'm back in the room, it starts again. I'm scared. Morning doesn't start with fucking coffee

[mistalintu]

For as long as I can remember, I have always had trouble falling asleep. Every time it's an adventure. I go to bed, I lie on one side for a while, then on the other, then on my back, then something begins. Instead of having dreams or coming up with some cool or not so cool ideas, my imagination seems to be outside of me. I see images, I hear voices talking to each other about something. I was told it's called hypnagogic hallucinations.

In general, I feel like I can’t think of almost anything myself, as if most of my thoughts are foreign, coming from the outside and not from me. Many of my ideas and decisions were also dictated by something outside of my consciousness. Of course, it was me, but I perceive it as if it were coming from a stranger, something foreign. As if someone else does all the thought processes and gives me the result. This is how my mind works.

And so I watch and listen to a movie directed by someone else for several hours. I am conscious, I am not sleeping. I clearly understand where I am and what is happening. In the morning, I finally lose touch with reality and fall asleep. I almost don’t dream, and what I hear before falling asleep, I forget. Once I tried to write down what I’ve been hearing, but it turned out to be some unreadable nonsense.

Reblog if you think or fall asleep in a similar way. I want to know that I'm not alone.

[mistalintu]

Idk if this'll be anonymous but if you had a houseplant of your own, which?

I don’t really like houseplants, but if I had one, it would be a monstera. it is big and green and not very whimsical, and it also cleans the air of small particles of dust, which I have a lot of haha

[doitdean-deactivated20120524]

Reblog if you want your followers to anonymously ask you one thing they want to know about you.

[takiisieju]

9. Given a choice of another place and time, where would they fit the best?

For Avaritie

9. He is the leader of a dystopian regime, convinced it is the heaven of justice he desired. The rebel that dispels that lie and turns the tyrant into ashes. The machine that runs the program, trapping both in an invigorating cycle of loss and victory.

Thank you for the question! The ask game is here.

Taglist: @roofgeese @spacestephh

[mistalintu]

The first case of delusion I remember happened a few years ago. Perhaps there were more before that, but I don’t remember myself until I was 17 years old. At that time, I had already been dealing with a depressive episode for half a year. I cannot restore the logical chain that led me to the fact that blue objects are scary, that they pose a threat. For several hours, I was terrified that my gaze accidentally fell on a blue object. It happened outside on the day when I had to go to the neuropsychiatric dispensary for my antidepressants. There was so much blue around. Road and street signs, buses and cars, people's clothes, packaging, book covers in the windows, advertising posters, even my hair... I tried not to look around, but my eyes kept falling on something blue. The blue objects seemed to glow, they were much brighter than the usual while the rest of the world dimmed, leaving me in a blue nightmare. I was so scared, but I didn't tell my doctor about it. I was so afraid that I would be taken away for compulsory treatment. It seems to me that she saw that everything was not all right with me, but nevertheless she let me go. I can't blame her. Please always tell your doctors about your concerns. They can't help you if you don't tell them about your problems. In my case, everything went quite alright, but who knows what would have happened if I had not taken the pills at the time. I think that was what saved me, although I convinced myself that the problem was in my dyed hair, which I cut off in a fit of delirium when I returned home. I don't know how harmful the advice is to treat delirium with delirium, but it worked.

[schizodiaries]

some schizophrenia symptoms that aren’t normally talked about

confusion

restricted range of emotion

incoherent thoughts/speech

lack of motivation

boredom/anhedonia

social withdrawal

apathy

trouble sleeping

taste and smell hallucinations

distorted thinking

thought blocking

poor memory

catatonia

labile affect

i usually see schizophrenia described in terms of paranoia, visual/auditory hallucinations, and delusions - so i thought I’d put together a list of other symptoms that may be present!

[speakingofpsychosis]

[mistalintu]

please support your having mental illness friends. they need you

[mistalintu]

Hi, everybody. Let me tell you about my schizophrenia experience. I was first diagnosed with it when I was 15, but I went into remission pretty quickly and forgot about it for a few years. But due to problems with studying at the university, I had a relapse, in which I have been continuously for three years now. All my life I have had a misunderstanding of social norms, but only recently have I begun to realize this and work on it. I am prone to compulsive lying and I can't even explain why I do it, I don't even understand how unpleasant it is for other people. I had to be explained that as well as that I should ask people how they are doing and how they feel. I just don’t understand when that is required. I've been such an asshole all these years.

I have a lot of trouble keeping order. There is always chaos around me, as well as in my head. Sometimes I can't hear my thoughts, sometimes I hear them too loudly, sometimes I don't hear them at all, sometimes there are too many of them. One thing that does not change is that my thoughts are always tangled. It takes a lot of work for me to even write one sentence.

As for the more obvious manifestations of my illness, hallucinations and delusions, fortunately I am able to be aware of them. And my mind just splits in two. It's too scary. Feeling like I'm going crazy. I no longer understand what is real and what is not. Usually, I just wait for it to pass. It always passes. It is very good if there is someone nearby who can explain what is really happening, and I am very angry at people who, in moments of enlightenment, say: "what if this is really so?" I try not to let myself think that my delusions are real. It's all in my head. These are not ghosts, not an attempt by the secret services to contact me, not signals from outer space, etc., these are just manifestations of my illness. It is very important for me to maintain a sense of reality, so in the moments when I feel bad, I try to be in touch with someone close, not to experience it alone. If you have people with schizophrenia in your life, never discount them or what you can do for them. Your support is much more important than you think.

[mistalintu]

WHAT TYPE OF A SECONDARY CHARACTER YOU ARE?

so i know we all feel like we are just a background for something amazing. but guess what, that can be fun too! or at least not terrible?

pretty accurate i'm really existing in my own world

Tagged by @takiisieju-moved

@melonbitter

[mistalintu]

18. If your OC where the type, what canonical pare(pair)? Would they ship?

With Amber

18. Taleena, I guess. wlw solidarity and so on

[mistalintu]

2. What are your character's Fatalities?

12. What are their signature moves?

For Amber <3

18+ for Fatalities!

2. Meltdown: Amber shocks the enemy with a shocker gun and walks towards them twirling handheld shockers. The disoriented enemy tries to stop her from pushing those onto their head, but fails. Their eyes, nose and mouth twitch and bleed as the insides of their head boil.

Head Down: Amber shocks the enemy. As they fall, she grabs them by the arms. She pushes them down with her boot and pulls their hands up simultaneously, tearing their arms off. She then walks away, tossing the arms away with a look of utter disgust.

12. Electrification: Amber shocks herself with a handheld shocker making herself Electrified which makes her attacks stronger. The effect remains for a few seconds after which another Electrification is needed.

Shock-shot: Amber fires a shocker gun. She can then end the connection or drag the enemy closer to kick them.

Looking Shocked: Amber grabs the enemy by the face, shocking them.

Jawbreaker: Amber makes a flip and kicks the enemy in the jaw with her spiked boots.

Chain Reaction: Amber hits the enemy with an electrified chain. Can be aimed high or low.

Dirty Shocker: Amber hits the enemy in throat then throws them onto the ground.

Carousel: Amber spins her chain, dragging in her enemy and shocking them.

Ramber: Amber grabs the enemy by the shoulders and hits them with her head, simultaneously kicking them between the legs.