The World of Me

This blog is created for expressing my own feeling when I cannot speak it out to someone. Every moment I went, am going, and will go through will be described nonverbally here.

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Always back to this place whenever feeling sad 😔

recently I am really changing to the person who can be described as burnt out person, due to expecting at work, failure of business expansion, family misunderstanding, relationships confusing …

I know the problem needs time to solve and I am the person who hates waiting , so what? Doing the process of healing, it’s hard to explain the this feeling… Very complicated , very hurtful…

just wish and wish again , everything is better day after day 😔

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Nearly End of 2023

Hello everyone who always follows and reads my blog here. I know it has been a very long time again. My life this year has been very struggling starting from work to family, however, I can settle them one by one partially and fully.

In April 2023, the first day of Khmer New Year, I was burnt due to my house praying room's fire. It was 3rd degree burn which needed to use Skin Graft for treatment. It has been 7 months since then, and the burn becomes scar on my skin. It disturbs me somehow at the beginning, but now I am used to it.

My family is the second one. Not my small family is the cause, but it is affected by the relatives. I don't wanna dig it out here , but just want to state that it is too much to accept. Now, I can justify myself to such atmosphere, and I can live my life again.

last month, I was ordained as a monk for 4 days as Khmer tradition, son must become a monk once in life. The 4 days at pagoda always in the room reading Dharma book and meditation. It helps me lots for being calm and mindful. It is not long enough to learn Dharma but enough for me to understand myself and life as a humanbeing, how to deal with people, and being calm and patient. Thanks to Venerable monks over there to take care of me during the time.

While bad things around this year, the best thing also comes along. Sophiya, my third adorable only daughter, come to our life on June 8, 2023. The name comes from Greece name, which means Knowledge. The writing is based on Khmer Pronunciation. She brightens our life, fulfills our missing, and makes everything better again. This cute rabbit is a lucky star in our family. Her smile all the time makes us relieve our stressful time. We, parents and brother Thit/nouk, love her so much.

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ហត់តែមិនអាចឈប់

កាលក្មេងលេងហត់អាចឈប់ផ្អាក ចូលគេងសម្រាកបានគ្រប់ពេល មិនបាច់គិតគូរវែងឆ្ងាយទេ គ្មានក្រែងអីទេព្រោះនៅក្មេង។

ពេលនេះទោះហត់ត្រូវអត់ធន់ រេគិតល្អីតល្អន់មិនលេងៗ ព្រោះមានបន្ទុកត្រូវរែកសែង ទោះហត់ខ្លួនឯងក៏មិនឈប់។

ជីវិតបែបនេះយើងដឹងស្រាប់ កើតចាស់ឈឺស្លាប់គេចមិនផុត ខំប្រឹងអោយហើយទាន់មិនស្រុត ក្រែងលោថ្ងៃមុខស្រណុកស្រួល។

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Deep Blue Bistro: Till We Meet Again

It's easier to start, but hard to finish. Nothing is permanant, but the change itself is. It has been 3 years already since I invested in Deep Blue Bistro, the small cocktail and beer shop, in one of community mall in BKK.

Why does it have to end if I am not ready to end? I have no choice. The contract come to an end, and the mall will take it back and convert to street food shop to be parallel with other shops nearby. The notice is about 1 month which stated Deep Blue Bistro must leave or changing to street food. This is not two choices, but only a choice provided by mall since my shop definitly cannot convert to Street Food like mall needs. OMG! the method used for removing the unwated shop is so simple, even Kids can understand.

What should I do beside saying Yes and moving all stuffs out soon. I won't waste my word to those who use autocrtic management rule there. Deep Blue Bistro was one of many shops which first opened when the mall inaugurated and more or less helped mall to grow to the present day. In business, there is no word "Understanding", but only "Profit". Got it!

That's a lesson in running business to learn in my life! Closing is not ending, but is a new begining for me.

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រដូវធ្លាក់ខ្យល់ត្រជាក់ មកមើលរូបចាស់ៗ នឹកម៉ាក់និងបងស្រី ខានជួបគ្នា្ទផ្ទាល់ជិត៣ឆ្នាំហើយ។ អារម្មណ៍មួយនេះ អ្នកមានបងប្អូននៅក្រៅប្រទេសទើបយល់ច្បាស់។ #hopetoreunionsoon #tripgonnarestartsoon #setthedate #deepbluetrip #deepbluefamily https://www.instagram.com/p/CXAfhmdB5wLToAfSg9bF1JiAkSBWDzIpX2T2FY0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Saturday Staycation #forgetlastweeksproblems #enjoytheday #deepbluefamily https://www.instagram.com/p/CWxXIsFhgVb8UflUhdjRWcgC-0GUU4zWdOF5l00/?utm_medium=tumblr

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"We are wearing the smile we give each other" @hellen_nana #deepbluetrip #deepbluefamily #rithneangtrip Photo Credit: Sokhaithit https://www.instagram.com/p/CURm-hnBYYz8dwxSfvDh1KE7EQZ_cIXb1jiDLg0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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"Sky above, Sand below, Peace within " #familyretreat #quickescape #breakfromroutine #vitaminsea https://www.instagram.com/p/CUNSgeXhpA7C2Y3fP5AQu5XNglKmNqJ1Yu1fyI0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Solo Trip ដោយកង់ តាមតម្រាយផ្លូវថ្មី មិនសូវមានអ្នកជិះកង់មកតាមនេះទេ ភ្នំពេញកោះពេជ្រ -កំពង់ចម្លងអរិយក្សត្រ - កំពង់ចម្លងត្រសះ-តាព្រហ្ម - ព្រែកឯង -ច្បារអំពៅភ្នំពេញ ការជិះកង់ជាទម្លាប់គឺជិះជាក្រុម ខ្ញុំក៏មិនខុសគេ តែថ្ងៃនេះសាកជិះម្នាក់ឯងលមើល៍ ។ ការជិះម្នាក់ឯងក៏មានសារៈប្រយោជន៍របស់វាដែរ ដូចជាមានសេរីភាព ចង់លឿន លឿន ចង់យឺត យឺត បើហត់ឈប់ បើឃើញទេសភាពស្អាតក៏ឈប់ថត ។ ខ្ញុំចេញពីផ្ទះម៉ោង៦ កន្លះព្រឹក មកដល់កំពង់ចម្លងកោះពេជ្រ អារិយក្សត ប្រហែលម៉ោង៧ព្រឹក ។ នៅលើសាឡាង មិនសូវមានមនុស្សច្រើនដូចរំពឹងរាល់ដងទេ តែជារឿង១ដែលល្អ អាចអោយខ្ញុំស្រូបខ្យល់ទន្លេពេលព្រឹកព្រលឹមបរិសុទ្ធ ដោយមិនខ្លាចរអាលជំងឺកូវិត ហើយមានអារម្មណ៍ស្រស់ស្រាយណាស់ ព្រមជាមួយនឹងការគន់មើលទេសភាពអាគារដ៏ខ្ពស់ៗនាទីក្រុង។ សាឡាងមកដល់អរិយក្សត្រ គោលដៅបន្ទាប់គឺ កំពង់ចម្លង ត្រសះ-តាព្រហ្ម ដែលថ្មីចែសសម្រាប់ខ្ញុំ។ បើតាមផែនទី ប្រហែលតែ១៥នាទីទេ តែកំពង់ចម្លងនោះប្រៀបដូចនៅក្នុងសួនវង្វេងអ៊ីចឹង។ កុំរំពឹងលើ Google map ពេក វាអាចនាំយើងចូលស្រះ ចូលចំការ ឬចូលផ្ទះគេក៏បាន ហាហា ដូចឹ្នង ខ្ញុំត្រូវប្រើវិធីបុរាណ ស្រួលហើយលឿន គឺប្រើមាត់ Sic! ខ្ញុំសួរអ្នកភូម៣ ដងទម្រាំដល់កំពង់ចម្លងនោះ មានទាំងជិះផ្លូវតូចខ្លាំង ជិះកាត់វត្ត ជិះកាត់ផ្សារ និយាយថាបើមិនសួរគឺរកមិនឃើញ។ ពេលមកដល់ ដំបូងគឺមករកសាឡាងតែម្តង សាឡាងនេះធុនតូចដាក់ឡានបាន២ អីទេ។ ខ្ញុំត្រូវអង្គុយចាំសាឡាងចេញពេលមានម៉ូតូ៤ ៥គ្រឿងអី។ ខ្ញុំថាមិនអីទេ តិចទៀតពេញហើយ តែមានណាអង្គុយកាន់តែយូរកាន់តែអត់មានម៉ូតូឡានណាមកមួយ។ ប្រហែលជិតខ្ទង់៤០នាទីក្រោយ ទើបមានម៉ូតូមក ហើយមកម្តង៤តែម្តង និយាយថាពីអរចង់ហោះ ហាហា។ នៅលើសាឡាងតូចនេះប្រហែល២៥នាទី យើងអាចមើលឃើញអាគារខ្ពស់ៗនៅកោះពេជ្រតូចៗ តែវាពិតជាស្រស់ស្អាតណាស់។ ឡើងមកដល់ខាងព្រែកឯង ឃ្លានល្មម រកហាងជិតជិតនោះរកអីញ៉ាំ ។ មានហាងកាហ្វេមួយសំបូរតារាប្រូម៉ូតឲ្យណាស់ ហើយនៅក្បែរនោះដែរឆ្លងតែថ្នល់ជាតិលេខ១ ហើយជិះ៥នាទីពីកំពង់ចម្លងនោះប៉ុណ្ណោះ សាកដែរសិនតើឆ្ងាញ់ប៉ុណ្ណា។ ហាងរៀបតុរក្សាគម្លាតបានល្អ គុយទាវឆ្ងាញ់ កាហ្វេល្មម ហើយធូរថ្លៃ ជាពិសេសរៀបចំកន្លែងថតរូបជាមួយវត្ថុបុរាណៗគួរឲ្យចង់ថត។ បន្ទាប់ពីសម្រាកញ៉ាំអាហារជាងកន្លះម៉ោង ក៏ចេញដំណើរត្រលប់មកគេហដ្ឋានវិញ តាមផ្លួវជាតិលេខ១ច្បារអំពៅវិញ។ នេះជាការជិះកង់បែបផ្សងព្រេង តម្រាយផ្លូវមិនឆ្ងាយទេតែ ប្រើពេលច្រើនគួរសម ហើយវាជាការជិះកង់នឹងស្ថិតក្នុងការចងចាំមួយ។ សំនេរដោយ Deep Blue https://www.instagram.com/p/CT8liq1h0T6NjPeDJ0MnBuBPjZf8muIdlG22Bg0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Missing training course, seminar, meeting abroad where I meet new people, new things, new culture and new experience. It's just like a trip which can refresh your mind for a short while. ****I forget the lady at the background already. Actually the camera man was focusing on Her. #whenwecantravelwithoutrestiction #deepbluetrip https://www.instagram.com/p/CSbh5WHhu3nZ0yh0r-6hWoXkSIh8LUaduaknac0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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We're back again 😃! @hellen_nana (at ផ្ទះខៀវស្រងាត់) https://www.instagram.com/p/CSUSTPeBLszQj-JOkdr6Fbw1bd8LSqO-zb-IIs0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Many things happened in this 14 Days. It can be equal to the book thickness if I put them into word. The unforgettable moment during 2 weeks under one roof brings much care and love in the whole family more than any other time . @hellen_nana #deepbluefamily #14daysundersameroof #unconditionallove https://www.instagram.com/p/CSQ3Ch9htlC6kQDo-naCQ0alRFxGOXFWVIxXSY0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Seeing this pic recalls me how adventurous, exhausted trip I took in Europe with my family. I always looked at the map in each countries I went and sometimes I got lost, missed the train, and caused my family tired especially 3 elderly people and my 2 kids. Being a leader is to make the follower happy. I really wanted them to enjoy the trip, although sometimes I wanted to give up, raise the white flag, and said 'ខ្ញុំទៅលែងរួចហើយ'. Not all train station had Elevator. I took two baby stroller for my kids , not even knowing that I need to lift them up and down the stairs. You can imagine 😉... One of the trip back from Paris, France to Munich, Germany frightened my family so bad due to the bad weather. Snow started falling and caused most of trains delayed and postponed. The night outside was so cold and we arrived on the small plateforme in one village to make a transit ,but it was said that only one train left to operate. It was 11:30 PM when we arrived and off to wait for the last train. Really pity my mother and aunt, esp my two kids who was really cold. We waited for 15 mn and there was no any shadow of coming train. Everyone lost hope and about to call the police for help, but finally the last train came and we took a very deep breath. The tiredness faded when we arrived ar the destination where we spent one or two night. Joy and Fun totally replaced everything. Next time,if asking me whether I have trip with my family again? The answer is Yes. Their happiness is mine no matter what. #throwbackthursday #experienceineurope #familytrip #europetrip #2018trip https://www.instagram.com/p/CRkzKPGLz1zNb7h7VINaW1L65Mzr4TpiLulFII0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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A small simple birthday party at home during the pandemic. #deepbluefamily #wifebirthday #sokhaithitthefirstprince #sopheanoukthesecondprince #deepbluehome https://www.instagram.com/p/CREiGj8rbQpI7YpmBI6h-QL5CtNTvvGrIlsGKw0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Life Solution’s QR Code

It’s normal for people to have a good and bad day. In the good day, keep a record and save in safe, and in the bad day, keep a record and throw it into the river. It’s just simple like this.

There are many types of people dealing with this issue. There’re people who hide everything, hide something, show something, and show everything. What type are you in? Each type has value, so don’t judge any type based on your own benchmark.

Everyone may have more or less problems in life and most often they are never solved. Each person mentioned above will act based on their type. I really wish that the QR code which has function Ask & Solve really existed in real life, so each type of people mentioned above may not hesitate to use it.

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I spun not less than 6 times for my business venture and the arrow always pointed the red one.How unlucky! "The difference between failure and success is the decision to sink or swim. Do you give up and drown in your failure, or do you embrace the strong waves and swim toward shore with the will and determination to survive?" This quote comes up to my mind and I choose to go on swimming in rainy storm 😂. How stupid! I am not good at swimming at all 😅. Let's find boat. Except for my few close people who always backs me, there are also flooded of the Fake 🤥 who always waits and sees me drowned. How patient they are! 😂 During this journey, just keep my fingers crossed. #deepbluesaying #deepblueventure https://www.instagram.com/p/CPIw4syrIO6/?utm_medium=tumblr

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When Nouk was born one day before Khmer New Year 4 years ago, his mom and I started running business that we didn't have much time with him like we did to his brother, Khaithit. Due to the poor environment around my old house , he was often sick and used to go to Kuntheakbopha Hospital for 1 week. I always blame myself about this. He looked very thin and unhealthy at his first year. What made me shaken until now whenever I am always from home is that there was a time he was trapped in the bedroom for more than 30mn. When we broke the door and entered the room, he sat on the bed and looked very pale . I really can't forget his face at that time. I hugged him tightly and told myself I will never let him alone again. But... Now he becomes a happy and healthy boy. He looks chubby and cute with his straight hairstyles. Today he turns 4 years old. As a parent, the only wish is wanting to see him stay healthy, happy, and smart boy. Happy Birthday Son! Bro. Khaithit, Mommy, and Daddy love you unconditionally. @hellen_nana #deepbluefamily #sopheanoukthesecondprince #sokhaithitthefirstprince #rithneang #happybirthday https://www.instagram.com/p/CNkZqjNri8wDrct6nfiMJ9dfHJqiatxbpNdQZ80/?igshid=1lliyoe4x42vj