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Synopsis: You weāre helping your boyfriend, Qifrey, run errands around different towns and you started getting mischievous and dirty ideas in your head. How much teasing can Qifrey take until heās met with his breaking point and how far will he take things?
Cw: porn with some plot, female reader and AFAB anatomy, terms about reader such as āmy love, my dear, good girl.ā, established relationship, Everything is consensual, reader is slightly a brat, nipple play (f receiving), blowjob, deep throat, edging, fingering, p in v, multiple orgasms, marking, cream pie, some fluff at the end. (Slightly edited and proof read, but could still contain mistakes.)
NO MANGA SPOILERS!!
š«A/N: I havenāt written a fan fiction in years so Iām a bit nervous posting thisš I see weāre lacking Qifrey x readers so I decided to just go for it. I also have no clue how to use tumblr and this is my first time actually posting my own content, I mainly used this account to read fanfic and look at art (aka a lurker lol) š I tried to make this post more aesthetic but Iām still learning how to post on tumblr. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy! Let me know what yāall think, thanks for reading! :) š«
Youāve been out and about all day with your boyfriend running errands in Kalhn and other towns. Qifrey was quite a busy man, whether it was teaching and adoring his students, helping out non witches in towns, going to meetings, working on spells, etc. He was always running around, but you decided to join him today to help him out with taskās instead of helping out back at the atelier. Except you started getting very mischievous thoughts and with your boyfriend always looking handsome especially when he was so focused on tasks on hand, your thoughts started to wander.
āQifreyā¦ā You whispered to him, poking his shoulder gently as he was focused looking at a shop from behind him, a small innocent yet playful smile playing on your lips.
āyes, my love?ā He turned his head to look over at you from his shoulder, that sweet smile of his now painted on his face as his one eye was shut and crinkled in the corners.
You leaned up over to his ear, whispering. āYou look so kissable right now, Iād love for you to bend me over.ā You pulled back just a tad just to see the look on his face as you smiled innocently at him.
He blinked for a moment before that same soft and gentle smile of his appeared on his face, throwing you off as you didnāt expect this reaction. āIs that so, love?ā He murmured oh so sweetly as if you whispered a loving quote to him instead of the filth that had actually exited from your lips.
You had to take a second to collect yourself, confused by his reaction, blinking as you decided to push a little further. āMhm, if we were alone right now Iād love to-ā
Before you could finish the shopkeeper came to check in on you two, completely oblivious to what filth was spilling out from your lips in a hushed whisper. āAre you two finding everything alright still?ā The shopkeeper asked in his heavy Irish accent.
You quickly stood normally, schooling a smile on your face as you felt your heart racing in your chest and heat creeping up your neck to your cheeks. āY-yes sir!ā You replied a bit too quick and eager, quickly hiding behind Qifrey with flush on your face, making Qifrey let out a soft breath of a laugh before he replied as well. āYes, weāre doing quite fine. Thank you for asking sir.ā
Qifrey and you left the shop after he purchased a few items, as you were slightly frustrated at his earlier reaction, thinking of your next chance to tease him more, or maybe more so seeing how far you can push the man.
As the day went on, you found chances to whisper to him nothing but filth, but to your dismay, each time he reacted the same. That sweet and gentle look of his with a soft smile painting his lips and sometimes a soft, breathy chuckle.
It was near the last task of the day as he had a meeting with a few old acquaintances discussing about magic and catching up as they all had dinner. You sat next to him, eating your food as you responded to a few questions here and there but mostly eating. As Qifrey was responding, you couldnāt help but place your hand on his thigh rubbing your thumb on his inner thigh, playing innocent.
No one saw it besides you, that quite inhale he had made as he remained composed as per usual. You slowly moved your hand to his inner thigh, not going too far high since it felt inappropriate, more so affectionate and teetering on the edge of slight teasing which he was clearly picking up on, internally. Before you could pull back, he quickly used his hand that was already under the table to grab yours firmly, but still gentle, and hold your hand for the rest of the dinner instead. Which he loved, he always loved your touch whether he admitted it by words or a clear indications in his behavior heād unintentionally show. Internally he was holding onto some restraint to not ravish you in front of everyone right there and then for teasing him all day.
After the dinner as you two tracked on back to the Atelier, he was oddly quiet. Your mind started ruminating which made you self doubt if you had actually upset him in someway today as you trailed beside him.
āQifrey?ā You hummed, peering your eyes to look at him beside you as the dark skies and starts illuminated his figure.
āYes, My love?ā He responded sweetly in a genuine tone, looking over at you with that kind smile of his. You could never tell what was going on behind that eye of his, maybe he was just tired after today.
āNothing, I just loved spending time with you today.ā you smiled back at him, as a light soft pink dusted his cheeks.
āIām glad you did, My love. So did I.ā he murmured softly before entangling his fingers with yours.
Back at the Atelier, it was already quiet as everyone was most likely asleep already. Luckily Olruggio agreed to help out with the girls today. You and Qifrey headed back to get ready to bed, you noticed Qifrey grabbed the key from his pocket opening up the door that wasnāt there on the wall before, gently leading you in as he locked the door behind him as the door slowly faded back to the wall once more. This truly was the only way Qifrey had time to himself was the magic door to his room (which youāve also made your own), except he never relocked it after entering incase of an emergency during the night. He quickly padded something down on his palm quire before placing the piece of paper on the wall.
āQifrey What are you-ā Before you could even finish your sentence the man walked towards you quickly with a glare that sent chills up your spine.
āYou have no idea what a torturous day itās been while your filthy words and actions continuously repeated in my mind.ā His voice was a bit deeper, yet calm as if it was before a bad storm was to hit. His eye was half lidded and slightly dark with restraint heās been barely holding onto all day. His hands firmly but not enough to hurt, tilt your chin up to face him. That sweet facade he always put on was cracking, in fact it might have completely shattered with the way he was breathing heavily.
You swallowed hard, this is what you wanted isnāt it? Though it was slightly unnerving to see your usually sweet and composed boyfriend like this, you couldnāt help but feel the excitement and heat starting to pool between your legs.
āDo not worry, my love. Iām going to give you exactly what you want.ā He murmured gruffly before lifting you up and pressing you against the wall, kissing you with hunger and fever you didnāt expect. You immediately melted into the kiss, unable to resist the way he was devouring you like a man starved. You wrapped your legs around his waist, feeling his throbbing length (for god know how long heās been this hard) press against your inner thigh and core. His lips against yours as he gently nibbled on your bottom lip, teeth clashing slightly.
He ground against you slightly, making a pathetic whimper leave your lips thatād usually leave you embarrassed if you werenāt completely hypnotized by how hungry he was. You tried to grind back, making him slightly growl into your mouth as he started grinding against your core shamelessly. You whined into his mouth as your nails dug into his shoulders, worried for a second someone would hear before you realized the spell he put on the wall was most likely a sound barrier spell. (Definitely was a sound barrier spell with the things he was about to do to you, he was a very responsible man after all).
āQifreyā¦ā you panted out as a string of saliva connected your lips, his forehead against yours as he panted. His eye glared into yours with a darkness you havenāt seen from him before, full of lust and hunger, as if he was ravishing you with his eye alone, undressing you in his mind.
āYou have been testing me all day.ā He huffed out with frustration as he walked with you still wrapped around him to your shared bed, plopping you down roughly, but of course not rough enough to actually cause harm to you. His hands were still behind your head as he plopped you down, protecting your head from dropping to hard and getting shaken around. Even with his frustration he still made sure you were safe and comfortable throughout it all.
āHave I now? I see maybe you are more pent up than I expected.ā You quipped back with a small smirk playing on your lips, making him let out a breath of a laugh that was slightly darker than anything youāve heard leave the manās lips before.
āPent up? That is not even the beginning of itā¦ā He stared down at you with a deep and dark hunger, his hands quickly yet gently discarding your clothes where ever on to the floor to be dealt with later, not caring on anything besides unraveling your form for his eye and only his eye to see. His eye quickly met with your breasts as he palmed the both of them, his cock throbbing visibly through his pants as a small wet spot started appearing. You really done it this timeā¦
His fingers flicked and circled your soft peaks that slowly hardened making you mewl slightly. He leaned down gently sucking on one of your sensitive peaks, tongue swirling around and flicking it before letting it go with a soft pop.āMy my, sensitive are we?ā He hummed gruffly before quickly discarding his own clothes with no sense of patience left in him, leaving him in his boxers. He slowly slipped them down as his long length sprang out, slapping against his skin, his tip red and angry, leaking thick clear fluid against his pale skin.
āsee what you have done to me? Now, fix it.ā He murmured in a hush dark tone, positioning himself over your lips as he dragging his weeping tip across your plump lips making you throb between the legs with how assertive and firm he was being with you, complete opposite of how he usually was.
āand if I donāt?ā You sultrily replied, eyes looking up at him half lidded as you teasingly rubbed your lipās against his tip, only fueling him on more, making him groan quietly.
āOh, My loveā¦ā His quiet yet dark hushed tone made you shudder beneath him. āYou will obey me if you want anything in return.ā He pushed his tip past your lips making you softly moan as you eagerly wrapped your lips around him. His observant eye knew too well that you would comply with how soaked you were getting the sheets beneath you. His hand gently trailed down your abdomen before teasingly brushing against your swollen nub. āLook at how wet you are already.ā He darkly chuckled as he pushed his length deeper into your mouth as you gladly took him in further, sucking and swirling your tongue around him.
He reached further back, his fingers collecting your slick as he slowly pushed one of his fingers in as you moaned around his cock, finally getting some sort of relief for the ache between your legs. āThatās it, taking me so wellā¦ā He calmly spoke in that deep voice of his, his hips slowly thrusting into your mouth as he added a second finger, his fingers slowly matching the pace of his hips. You couldnāt help but bob your head and suck harder as you took him down further, making your eyes roll back as you moaned around him sending vibrations up his spine.
A strangled moan left his throat, not expecting your sudden response. His long fingers starting to plunge fast and hard as he curled his fingers to hit that sweet spongy spot of yours he knew too well, the spots you could never reach yourself. His hips couldnāt help but start thrusting into your mouth as grunts and huffs left his lips. Sweat started beading on his forehead as he had his face slightly scrunched in focus as he thrusted his hips and matching the pace of his fingers.
You could feel that coil tightening and heating up more in your core indicating you were nearing your end soon. He could feel it with the way your gummy walls tightened and pulsated around his long fingers. āClose are we now?ā He gruffly panted out before stopping his movements, making you whine as you were right on the edge. His hips still thrusting into your mouth as obscene sounds filled your shared bedroom.
āuh-uh, not so fast now, my love.ā He murmured as you started deepthroating him, feeling his tip hitting the back of your throat making you gag and cough a bit but not enough to actually hurt you since the man would probably crumble and immediately panic if he hurt you in anyway. āFuckā¦ā the rare curse whispered under his breath, closing his eye for a moment as he composed himself again looking down at you. āBeg.ā
You looked up at him, blinking as he removed himself slowly from your mouth. Thick strings of saliva connected your lips to his tip, leaving a filthy scene for him to take in. āW-what?ā You stuttered out, hearing him clearly but more so taken aback than anything.
āBeg.ā He repeated himself firmly, glaring down at you with intensity you only ever seen him have when he talked about the brimmed hats. He took his cock slapping it against your lips filthily.
āplease, Qifreyā¦ā you panted out, face flushed and needy, too desperate to reach that finish line to care about how desperate and pathetic you probably looked right now. āPlease.ā
āGood girl.ā He whispered lowly and darkly as he started a brutal pace, his hand slapping against your skin as his thumb found your sensitive nub, rubbing quick circles, years of drawing spells trained his hand to be precise in every movement he made.
āCome for me [Name].ā He whispered in that sultry sweet voice of his, making your eyes roll back as you felt the tide rising once more, but much more extreme than the last.
āoh my god, Qifrey!ā You cried out, your thighs starting to tremble as you arched your back, face contorting in pure pleasure as the waves finally crashed down hard making your body tense. You twitch beneath him as your thighs clamped around his hand, walls throbbing around him, squeezing hard as your release gushed out onto his hand with obscene sounds only meant for him to hear.
āSuch a good girl for me, [Name].ā He quietly praised, watching every detail as your lips quivered and eyebrows furrowed, that pink dusting your cheeks. He couldnāt help but admire you like you were the most beautiful work of art in a museum or a lost treasure in the vast sea that he found and keeping it all to himself.
As the waves of your orgasm slowly came down, his fingers slowed to a stop as your eyes opened again, slightly dazed from the intensity of it all. āThere she isā¦ā He hummed as he withdrew his fingers gently with a soft pop, leaning down to kiss your lips passionately before pulling back and bringing his fingers to his lips to taste your sweet nectar. He moaned around his fingers as his length throbbed against your chest, leaking and angrier than ever before he leaned down once more capturing your lips again in a heated yet slow kiss, letting you taste yourself on his lips, swirling his tongue with yours.
As he gently pulled back, kneeling straight up again, you gently held his length before wrapping your lips around him again, causing a gasp to escape his lips, eye fluttering shut. You couldāve sworn another curse was muttered under his breath, though you werenāt sure exactly what he said. He scooted closer to your mouth once more as you took him in again, sucking around him and swirling your tongue around his length, specifically his sensitive tip, tracing each crack and crevice around his weeping tip.
āOh, keep doing that.ā He softly moaned, tipping his head back in ecstasy. His hips slowly followed the pace you were setting as you continued your motions, humming and moaning around him which only spur him on further. He started thrusting into your mouth with quick but gentle motions, desperate to reach his peak before he gasped.
āComing!ā He suddenly let out a strangled groaned as if he wasnāt expecting it to hit him this fast himself as you felt hot and salty spurts of ropes fill your mouth and even hit the back of your throat as you moaned and eagerly swallowed around him. His fingers tugged at your hair slightly, holding on as if his life depended on it. His hips involuntarily thrusted against your face as his cock throbbed against your tongue with every wave of pleasure that hit him.
As he finished he pulled his length out slowly, gently grabbing the base and stroking slowly to ease himself down as after shocks hit. A few remaining drops were squeezed out, coating your lips as you licked it up, not wanting to waste a drop as you looked up into his eyes, never breaking eye contact.
He panted softly, sweat drops rolling down his face as he looked down at you. āIncredibleā¦ā he softly praised with that sweet smile of his tugging at his lips. You were about to sit up to kiss him before he gently kept your shoulders in place, shifting his body down yours a bit before hovering over you. His silver hair falling down and tickling your face, while some strands stuck to the sweat on his forehead.
āuh-uh, Iām not done with you quite yet, my love.ā He looked into your eyes with hunger that hasnāt been fulfilled quite yet.
You swallowed hard, feeling your heart pounding hard against your chest that wasnāt from the exertion. āNot doneā¦?ā You repeated under your breath, feeling that heat in your lower stomach reappear. You had heard what he said of course, but your mind was still a bit hazy to process the meaning behind it quickly.
āNot even close, my dear.ā He hummed, his tip teasing your entrance, coating himself in your slick. āYou have really tested me today.ā He leaned down, whispering into your ear before gently nibbling at your earlobe. He slowly pushed his length in, both of you softly moaning at the sensation of him filling you up slowly.
āOh fuck, Qifrey.ā You huffed out, his hands finding yours as he held your hands next to your head, fingers tangling with each other as his grip was firm yet gentle in a way that showed his affection more than his words could right now with the way you were squeezing him.
āYou feel absolutely incredible.ā He panted out with restraint, slowly opening his eye to look back down at yours. He let you adjust first before slowly moving, letting out soft huffs and grunts as your walls squeezed him with absolute perfection. He couldāve sworn that your bodies were made for each other in this exact moment.
He started speeding up as your body adjusted to his, soft breathy moans leaving your lips as he continuously went faster and faster. His hands eventually moved to grip your hips tightly to keep the both of you stable as his hips slapped against yours. Your shared bed started shaking and creaking beneath you as he was completely ravishing you at a quick and rough pace, a pace he rarely would let himself indulge in unless he was stressed or in this case at his breaking point. You now knew how much he was really holding back all day at your teasing behind that faux smile of his, the one he gave you each time you teased him making you believe he was truly content in the moment.
He was plunging in and out of you like a man gone mad. āYouāre so perfect.ā He murmured against your ear, his forehead going to rest in the crook of your neck as his hips pounded into you. āMy sweet love.ā He was babbling praises into your ear, drunk on your pussy at this point. You were taking it all in, moaning and whining as your arms wrapped around his shoulders, holding him close as you both shook. His tip nudging your sweet spots and cervix perfectly as the ridges of his cock rubbed against sensitive areas against your walls. Pleasure was coursing through your veins and nervous system as you arched up into him involuntarily, your body reacting on its own accord. You felt so full of him, his cock stuffing you up to the brim as his hips met the base of your ass with every thrust.
āQifrey!ā You whined out in a cry, panting as your face was fully contorted in pure ecstasy, seeing stars behind your eyes. You couldāve sworn the man casted forbidden magic in this moment with how intense it felt, genuinely feeling like stars were going off in your head.
āplease, donāt stop! Iām sāclose!ā You cried out, nails digging into his shoulders as you started scratching his back up, holding onto him since he was the only thing keeping you grounded in the moment, not noticing the marks you were leaving on his back for only you to see, silently claiming his as yours.
āIām close tooā¦ā he huffed out, grunting as his pace started faltering and becoming sloppier, hearing the wet skin slapping going off rythym. His balls were slapping against your ass with every thrust, completely drenched with your arousal as he moaned and whimpered your name repeatedly into your ear like a mantra he needed to survive on. He was losing his composure even more than he usually did, completely letting himself go with the way he whimpered and moaned quietly in your ear only making you feel the heat become more intense in your lower stomach.
āIām gonna fill you up, gonna make you come on this cockā¦ā He was babbling filth at this point, as his hips slapped against your erratically. āSqueeze my cock, let me feel you.ā
āYes! Please, fill me up! Come inside me..!ā You cried out as your nails marked up his back more with scratches as you felt the heat in your stomach reaching its peak and crashing down as you came hard. Your walls squeezing and pulsating around him, only sucking him in deeper as your arousal gushed around his cock. Your eyes rolled back as your body tensed and shuddered beneath him, trembling and crying out his name.
He let out a choked noise, unable to hold back anymore as his hips gave a few last thrusts before halting as his balls tightened and drew up, coming hard with the choked cry of your name leaving his lips. His cock throbbed inside of you, releasing thick white ropes inside. His hips giving a few weak thrusts as both of you whined as your climaxes crashed through you.
After your high crashed through you, you trembled with aftershocks, whimpering beneath him as he gave a few last weak pumps as every last drop was emptied inside of you, panting heavily. He pulled back resting his forehead against yours, nuzzling his nose with yours.
āAre you okay? I didnāt hurt your did I?ā He whispered lovingly with concern as his eyebrows furrowed. His hand gently cupping your cheek to look at you making sure there were no signs of discomfort, his thumb gently brushing against the apple of your cheek.
āNo, you didnāt. That was amazing, reallyā¦ā you panted softly, nuzzling your nose back against his before he gently kissed you. You melted into him immediately, holding him close as you kissed him soft and lovingly, a stark contrast to the passionate and hungry kisses from earlier.
He pulled out slowly, letting out a shaky breath, ready to get up to get a warm and wet towel to clean you up before you held him there, not letting him pull back any further.
āStay.ā You hummed out sleepily before he looked thoughtfully at you before succumbing to his desire to just hold you and giving into what you want. He really couldnāt say no to you, especially when you looked so soft and sleepy like that. You truly were this manās weakness when it came to saying no. He adored you beyond the skies limits, it was spoken without words with the way he embraced you.
He laid back down behind you, holding you as he snuggled close. His face nuzzling into your hair as he inhaled your scent, sweet, comforting and what he calls home.
āI love youā¦ā You whispered softly, eyes slowly fluttering shut as you couldnāt fight the exhaustion washing over you. You already knew you were going to have trouble walking tomorrow.
āI love you too, [Name]ā¦ā He whispered back before you slowly drifted to sleep in his arms as he gently traced sigil patterns into your skin. āGoodnight, my love. Sleep wellā¦ā He whispered softly before pressing a soft kiss to your temple, drifting off into a deep slumber next to you as exhaustion caught up to him as well, only to have the sweetest of dreams of you as you dreamt of him.
ź±ŹÉ“į“į“ź±ÉŖź±: covering Gojoās eyes with your hands when the Six Eyes overwhelms him.
Fluff! Gojo gets overstimulated from the Six Eyes.
į“”į“Źį“ į“į“į“É“į“: 1k words
It was painfully obvious whenever Satoru was internally functioning at a rate of millions per second.
Heād lose his loudness, opting for a tight purse of his lips or an infinite string of sighs. Heād stare at nothing in particular yet would carry a deep furrow in his brows as if something ardently bothered him.
Bearing the Six Eyes was a double edged sword. On one hand, it grants complete mastery of cursed energy from the smallest speck to the greatest scale.
However, because of such precision, it became a potent poison when it was nothing but a visual mess that evoked a whole-body reaction. The neverending high-speed influx of information rushes in without warning with each blink.
On a particularly loose day, you managed to squeeze in a visit to Jujutsu High into your schedule.
Like usual, Satoru had clung onto you and yapped your ear off while his studentsāwho were used to him by nowāwere training within the grounds.
He was a man who didnāt run out of words or smiles.
Until he did.
When breaktime came, the trio skipped off to one of the vending machines on the premises, finally able to shake off the ache in their joints from the training.
You and Satoru perched upon an obsolete bench shadowed by the thick leaves of the overlooking tree behind.
Gaps through the green allowed for dapples of light to fall onto Satoruās uncharacteristically silent demeanor. The gentle glow traced along his flat expressionāreflecting the dullness in his stare.
āBaby, are you okay? You seem quiet today.ā You asked, carrying a gentle lilt to your concern. Your brows knitted together.
He doesnāt turn to you as he answers, āIām good, sweets.ā
Like hell he was.
You didnāt want to pry. You knew how he was.
But that didnāt mean you wouldnāt try to figure out through other means.
As you carefully beheld him, you didnāt fail to notice the slight shake of his eyes behind the glasses and the uncomfortable breaths wheezing from his mouth he tried to hide.
From the way his shoulders housed taut coils of muscle, foot tapping on the grass intermittently, and how cold sweat began to bead at the back of his neckā¦
Satoru was getting overwhelmed.
Shuffling softly, you stood up.
You reached towards him and gently pulled his glasses off.
Satoruās attention immediately locks onto you. His eyes dart towards you, āSweetheart, what are yāā
An immediate flash of visual overload floods his senses, twisting the ever-present dagger stuck in his lungs. A torrent of images overcame him: cursed energy of three people at 9 o clock, the grazing brush of breeze on his neck, the rustling of ants in the grass nearby.
The corners of his eyes strained, searing a painful burn into his scleras. His hands gripped onto his knees as the familiar churn in his gut grew from the onslaught of nausea.
Then, pitch-black. Suddenly, his world turns dark.
Despite being shrouded in a void, he could sense your cursed energy behind him.
He could feel the warmth of your body behind him, pressed against his back. The aroma of you engulfing him in an embrace.
He lifted his fingers to touch what had obscured his vision. The pads of it brushed against something unmistakably softāyour skin.
Then he traced blindly, from your knuckles down to your wrists.
So thatās what it was.
Your palms managed to dampen what had been stressing him the whole day.
Before he knew it, his shoulders had slouched and his entire frame melted onto you.
āBetter?ā You asked, voice hovering just above the top of his head.
Satoru lets out a sigh, one that spoke of relief.
You always knew. You somehow always knew.
What sweet solace you were, he thought.
āThank you, baby.ā He murmurs. His head tipped back and rested against your chest.
The appreciative smile on his face gave way to his muscles beginning to sink into you. Similarly, the sight of his growing relief sparked the same feeling in you.
A tender smile appeared on your face.
āOf course, Toru. You can always tell me these things.ā You pressed a gentle kiss on his forehead.
He tilts his head back further, bangs parting in a silent request.
āForgive me for using my hands, by the way. I couldnāt think of anything else.ā You chuckled, brushing away the strands on his forehead with your thumbs.
He hums, deep and throaty, as he nestled into you, āThis is better anyways.ā
āMaybe I should just carry you around like a backpack and have you be my glasses from now on.ā
Aaand there it was. That playful cadence in his tone.
āI think youāre feeling better now because youāre starting to say bizarre things.ā You began to act as if you were removing your palms from him.
A light laugh leaves him at the same time he clamps his hands over yours, holding them in place over his eyes.
His hands were soft despite the callouses. They were warm and largeādrowning your smaller ones underneath his palms.
āBizarre? I think itās completely feasible.ā He teases with his usual coy tone.
You snort, āYouāre impossible, Toru.ā
Regardless, you placed another kiss on his forehead. The corners of his mouth quirk upwards.
āWould you like to try?ā He smirks, smile way brighter than a few moments ago.
āNo thanks.ā
āItāll be fun,ā His words carried a gentleness to them, āYouāll be my glasses and Iāll be your legs.ā
āFair trade, hm?ā He muses, growing softer by the second.
You rolled your eyes playfully, āJust go to sleep, Toru.ā
āOkay, boss lady~ā He remarks and leans against you. Knowing him, it would probably be another 30 minutes before he could actually fall asleep, but you knew he wouldābecause it was obvious how taxing these episodes could get.
By the time Gojoās three students came back, they found you sitting beside him.
His broad shoulders were tilted down as his face buried into the crook of your neck like a man needing your touch to breathe. Your hand covered the exposed parts of his eyes while the other was intertwined with his fingers tightly conjoined.
And the most surprising part?
He was fast asleep in your arms.
Satoru never fell asleep unless it was with you.
A/N: Hiya! Sorry for being gone. Exams got in the way (fun fact: im a med student) and I will probably be more inactive from now on but if i am able, I will do my best to supply more fics! ą“¦ąµą“¦ą“æ(˵ ā¢Ģ į“ - ˵ ) ā§ Also, I canāt tell if i like the small text format better or not haha
Synopsis: Youāre on your menstrual cycle and your loving husband, Qifrey, does everything to help including using a spell heās made just for you!
CW: fluff, just pure tooth rotting fluff, Gn pronouns but reader has AFAB anatomy, endearments like āmy love, my dearā for reader!, comforting reader when they have doubts, Qifrey is truly a gentleman and a real yearner for reader (not fully proof read)
NO manga spoilers!!! :)
A/n: on my period rn and would love for this sweet man to just be by my side to comfort me when he could. I feel like he would be so attentive and patient, always worrying about the pain you were feeling. If only Qifrey was real š
You shouldāve known today was the day when the past week youāve been more irritated and fatigued, completely losing track of time with how busy itās been around the atelier.
You sighed as you luckily had caught it in time before staining your undergarments, but still frustrated it was here now. You quickly cleaned yourself before using menstrual products before walking out of the bathroom. You peered into the main area where you saw your husband crouched down and gently teaching his students, you couldnāt help but smile at the sight of him being so determined and kind to the new generation of witches.
You were going to join before that throbbing pain started to slowly creep up in your lower abdomen. You let out a shuddering breath as you crouched over, slowly waddling your way back into your shared bedroom. You slowly sat down on your side of the bed, laying down as you curled up, the cramps really starting to kick in as the throbbing and dull pain became more intense. You clutched your lower stomach, eyebrows furrowing as you closed your eyes to limit any other stimulants in the room to irritate you further.
After thirty minutes the floor board creeked as foot steps got closer, a familiar weight stepping towards the room that you instantly knew it was your husband.
āMy love, have you seen my-ā He opened the door amidst of asking question before noticing your distress. He immediately dropped what ever he was doing, quickly padding to you as he knelt by the side of the bed.
āWhatās going on? Are you hurt?ā He asked in a hushed tone, concern lacing his voice.
āCramps. Period.ā You managed to grumbled out, groaning in discomfort.
āOh, you poor thing. You should have told me, I wouldāve been right by your side immediately.ā He frowned as he gently held his hand over yours against your lower stomach, you could see the concern and sympathy glistening in his eye.
āYou were so busy with the girls⦠I didnāt want to disrupt youā¦ā You murmured with a strained voice, taking deep breaths through your nose.
He sighed quietly, shaking his head. āMy love, you could never disturb me. In fact, even if you tried, I would love for you to always disturb my presence, no matter if you just want to be near me or if you have a conflict of sorts. You know Iām here for you no matter what it is.ā He looked at you with concern and adoration gleaming in his eye as he gently rubbed soothing circles against your hands.
āI know butā¦ā
āNo buts- even if Iām teaching my students you wouldnāt be a bother. You are so very important to me, [name].ā He whispered, gently leaning in to press a kiss to your temple as you felt a sweet ache in your heart at his affirmations he always gave you when you felt an ounce of doubt in you.
āYouāre too sweet to meā¦ā you smiled softly at him, love swirling in your irises as you looked into your husbands eye deeply.
āI could never be too sweet to you, you deserve the world and beyond.ā He whispered sweet loving words to you, brushing your hair out of your face gently before standing up elegantly as he always did.
āNow, let me fetch you some herbal medicine for the pain, some nice hot tea, and I will heat up a blanket and towel for you with the spell Iāve made for you.ā He smiled gently, not accepting anything for an answer as he had one mission on his mind right now.
You watched him exit the door, seeing him walk quicker than usual. After a few more minutes he came back with some tea and herbal medicine.
āMy love, take these. Theyāll help with the inflammation and pain.ā He gently and carefully placed the tea on the side table by you, before padding to go get a towel and blanket. He quickly came back into the room, immediately sketching and completely focused on drawing the perfect heating spell for both the blanket and towel.
You watched his hands move with practiced ease as you took the medicine, drinking the tea. His hands moved with precision as he zoned everything out, making sure to create the perfect warmth and heating spell for you, nothing less for his partner he loved so much. Heās created this spell a few years ago for you but has never given up on perfecting it anymore than it has been, always wanting the best for you.
Once he was finished he quickly came back to the edge of the bed, gently placing the towel which was warmer than the blanket, over your lower abdomen, easing your cramps immediately as comfort seeped into your skin.
āIs this alright? Howās the temperature? I tweaked the spell a bit from last time to make sure it lasted longer as well.ā He hummed as he looked at your face for any signs of discomfort as his hands gently rubbed your side as concern crossed his soft features.
āItās perfect, really. Iāve told you already you donāt need to keep tweaking the spell, itās great as is.ā You smiled up at the man assuring him the spell was amazing, your eyes softly staring into his which always made his heart melt more than it already has.
āGreat is not perfect. My dear, you deserve perfection nothing less than that.ā He murmured with affection as he brought your hand up to kiss the back of it gently making you flush slightly despite being married. He always manages ways to give you butterflies still.
You really donāt know how you got so lucky, he truly was the sweetest and most thoughtful man you couldāve wished for. No thank you could ever repay the kindness and love heās shown you. You smiled softly at him, your eyes crinkling in the corners.
āYouāre spoiling me, really.ā You hummed with a soft chuckle from your lips.
āYou deserve to be spoiled.ā He replied back, not taking anything else for an answer. He gently covered you with the blanket, which was less warm than the towel, but a perfect temperature to keep you comfortable and cozy.
āThere we are, all snuggled up.ā He hummed softly with affection and adoration in his voice before he crawled onto your shared bed, beside you.
āArenāt you supposed to be teaching the girls?ā You asked with a slight look of surprise crossing your features.
āDonāt worry, Iāve told them to study for now and if they have any questions they are more than welcome to ask me. Do you not think I can multitask?ā He teasingly joked at the end with a hushed chuckle leaving his lips.
You chuckled softly, a gentle expression on your face. āYouāre a pro at multitasking at this point.ā Which earned you a soft chuckle from him and a light pink dusting his cheeks.
āThank you Qifrey.ā You filled the comfortably silent space with genuine appreciation for him, straight from your heart, facial features softening as you met his eye.
āAnything for you, My love.ā He whispered, spooning you as he kissed your temple softly. He gently rubbed his hands up and down your arms in a soothing massage as your body slowly became less tense as the pain faded to a much duller ache. You started feeling drowsy, completely relaxed and comfortable in his arms and surrounded by warmth.
āSleep I got youā¦ā He reassured you as he noticed your body molding into his and your eyes fighting against exhaustion as they kept drifting shut.
āI love you, Qifrey.ā You hummed softly, closing your eyes as he held you close making sure you were taken care of.
āI love you too, [Name].ā He kissed your temple, your cheek, then gently soothing you to sleep as his hands were now by your stomach, gently rubbing his thumb against you.
You couldnāt feel any safer as you fell asleep in his arms, feeling a sense of peace only your husband could ever bring to you.
Satoru stays the night at your place after a mission, and you tuck him in like heās the most precious thing in world. š¹
Heās shivering when he shows up at your door.
Not from cold, not reallyā heās still running a little hot, sweat clinging to his back beneath the black collar of his uniform. But his hands are trembling. His eyes are quiet. Like thereās something in him thatās still stuck out there, on that field, among the ash and the bones and whatever curse had the nerve to try him.
You donāt ask questions. You just open your door wider.
āCome in, babe,ā you murmur, already reaching for his hand like itās instinct.
And maybe it is.
Because it feels instinctual, the way your fingers slot through his like theyāve always belonged there, your soft little tug that brings him into the glow of your tiny, lamplit apartment. He doesnāt think heās ever seen it this dim before. Always cozy, sure, always warm. But tonight itās quieter. Softer. Like it knows what he needs.
Satoru doesnāt say a word.
He lets you pull him to the couch, lets you push him gently by the shoulders until he sits, lets you unfasten the zipper of his uniform top with hands that donāt tremble at all. You peel it off him like you're unwrapping something preciousā like you donāt want to hurt the thing inside.
You disappear for a moment. He hears your cabinets open. The clink of a kettle. A cupboard door. Hissing of the gas stove. Youāre moving through your little space like itās a sacred routine: a balm you built for nights like this, just in case the boy you love shows up with haunted eyes and shaky hands and doesn't know how to ask for comfort.
And then youāre back, dropping to your knees in front of him with a thick blanket in hand.
āArms up, baby.ā
He doesnāt think. He just obeys instantly.
The wool is soft, wrapping around his shoulders like a hug you canāt quite give him yet. But you do press your palms over his chest once itās onā fingers spreading gently over his sternum, like youāre checking his heart. Like youāre grounding him back into his body.
He swallows. āIām okay.ā
Your brows furrow slightly. āYouāre freezing.ā
āI said Iām okay,ā he tries again, but you just give him that lookā the one where your eyes go all gentle and your mouth presses together like you donāt believe him, but youāre too kind to call him a liar outright.
So instead, you reach up and touch his face.
Not roughly. Not with urgency. Just the pads of your fingers skimming his jaw, smoothing down a damp strand of white hair from his forehead, tucking it behind his ear like heās something fragile.
āYou wanna sleep here tonight?ā you ask, voice barely above a whisper. āIāll tuck you in. You can shower if you want, or I can run the bath. Whatever you need.ā
He doesnāt answer right away.
Because fuck, heās so used to people not knowing what to do with him. Even Suguruā sharp-eyed, loyal, brother-blooded Suguruā he understands the weight, but he doesnāt soothe. Not like this. Not like the way you just offer softness without waiting for him to earn it.
āIām not gonna break,ā he murmurs eventually.
āI know,ā you say, cupping his cheek like itās the easiest thing in the world. āBut that doesnāt mean I wonāt treat you like youāre precious.ā
Heās not okay.
Not really.
But for a secondā for a breath, he thinks he might be safe here. That maybe youāre the only place he could ever really thaw out.
āā¦Yeah,ā he says, and his voice cracks a little. āIāll stay.ā
You smile so gently at that. Thumb brushing under his eye. āGood.ā
And when he falls asleep a half hour later, freshly bathed and smelling like your vanilla soap, itās with your hand curled loosely in his hair, your knees tucked under the blanket beside him, your voice whispering: ājust rest, my love⦠Iāve got you now. Youāre safe.ā
geto suguru is everyoneās first crush. having a crush on him is as hopeless as it is inevitable though your friends quickly disagree that the awe-struck, mouth gaping expression is a strictly you thing, and that he isn't as much of a campus celebrity as you believe he is. regardless, you're determined to put your inability to hold a conversation with him in the past. the solution is simple, you seek out his best friend. if geto suguru is everyoneās first crush (again, a completely objective statement), then gojo satoru is everyoneās first heartbreak.
pairing: frat&icehockey!gojo x reader
content: mdni, idiots in love, oblivious reader, babyās first kiss + virginity taken by same person (satoru ><), suguru as the wingman, a little angst, mostly fluff + crack !! titjob, a little spitting, p in v, degrading, oral, fingering handjob etc etc 37k+
note: happy belated national arabian horse day! this was meant to come out on the 19th but life got in the way... regardless of the day hit up a friend and start beating a dead horse to celebrate!
Geto Suguru is everyoneās first crush.
Your friends insist youāre seeing him through some delusional rose-tinted lens and that he is, in fact, not as much of a campus celebrity as you believe him to be. You reject that notion. One look at him from across the room, other party goers be damned, is all it takes to confirm what you already know.
Geto laughs at something one of his friends says, tipping forward slightly as the alcohol softens his movements. You catch the tail ends of his laughter through the thumping bass, the glint of light reflected off his lip piercings when he smiles wide, his hand running through his untied black hair.
It would be as easy as walking up and saying hi to start a conversation. It would be as easy as smiling for him to turn his head and grace you with a smile of his own.
Oh, what you would give to be bathed in his gaze, for that pretty smile to widen at the sight of you. Heād spot you through the crowd, youād tuck your hair shyly behind your ear and heād politely excuse himself from his conversation to walk over to introduce himself to this mysterious beauty from across the room.
Shoko makes a noise like sheās strangling herself but when you turn to save her, sheās staring at your face. āDo you have any idea what you look like right now?ā
āWhatās wrong? Did I smudge my liner?ā
You pull out your phone to check your makeup using the reflection but between the flashing lights and someoneās elbow jutting from your peripheral, youāre only eighty percent sure you donāt look a mess.
Considering you dragged your roommate out to this party last minute, Shoko sips her drink with commendable patience. āEven if you did, that would be the least of your worries. Look, you really donāt have to overthink this. We didnāt just spend all night planning this for you to end up weirding him out with that look in your eye.ā
āShit, that was the rehearsed deer look I was talking about!"
āRehearsed how?"
You decisively ignore her. āI just want to do this right."
Her eyes soften slightly. Sheās always been weak to your woes. āYou will. Heāll love you. If you donāt believe in yourself, believe in me. I promise you, Iāve known this guy for years and youāre exactly the type of person he just eats up.ā
You think of all your attempts to enter Getoās world. There's just something mystifying about him, some kind of aura he emits that has you tripping over your tongue and freezing at the worst moments. Your words become stilted, your humour and wit abandoned at every crucial moment, causing you to simultaneously dread talking to him as much as you wished for it.
Shoko turns you to face her, eyes steady in a way yours isnāt. āAre you ready?"
You let out a slow breath and attempt to mimic her determination with a single nod.
āThen go find him.ā
When you hesitate to even take a single step forward, Shoko gives you a push and then youāre off, legs moving without another thought. The crowd swallows you, bodies brushing past and jolting your shoulders, knocking you here and there. But none of that matters. Not when your heart is already set. Not when determination is the one thing keeping you upright, guiding you closer and closer to the boy who somehow makes a packed, sweaty houseparty fade into background noise
For too long, youāve let this intoxicating feeling linger, letting it settle deep in your chest, almost convincing yourself that watching from the sidelines was enough. As if anything short of his eyes on you, perhaps even his lips on yours, could quiet the restless longing twisting in your heart. Limerence is what Shoko diagnoses you with, but the word feels too small for the intensity that surges through you every time his name crosses your mind.
Geto appears like a beacon before you, the crowds having finally parted enough for you to catch a good look. The party music transitions to an angelic choir but admitting that is basically affirming Shokoās concerns that your infatuation is unhealthy, so you quickly refocus. Your heart clenches, pounds against your ribcage, and you only hope the dim lighting will hide the warmth spreading across your cheeks. Heās right there, right within reach. All you have to do is say his name.
All you have to do is make him see you.
You take a step forward, mumble an apology to the girl you bumped shoulders with, take another step towards where heās laughing with a friendāthen veer sharply to the right and slip into the kitchen.
If talking to Geto were really as easy as saying hi, you would have done it months ago.
The kitchen is quieter, the bass reduced to a distant, muffled thump and you can finally breathe as the crowd thins. Thereās still chatter though significantly more bearable and your eyes fall onto the small cluster of boys within, standing in the near dark.
Your feet instinctively slow but Shokoās voice in your head tells you that youāve done too much to stop now and with a deep breath, you step beyond the threshold.
One by one, the group takes notice of you, their rambunctious laughter quietening into soft chuckles as heads pop up to look. Itās not strange for someone to enter the kitchen at a party so the most you get is a head nod in greeting before they return to their conversation.
You reach for a red cup and then for a jug of some mysterious jungle juice.
Unfortunately, the jug sits behind one of the boys. Even worse, it sits behind who youāre really here at the party looking for.
Leaning lazily against the counter and nursing a red solo cup of something strong no doubt, stands Gojo, Getoās best friend.
If Geto Suguru is everyoneās first crush (again, a completely objective statement), then Gojo Satoru is everyoneās first heartbreak.
You can feel the burn of Gojoās stare as you get close enough to lift the jug and pour, hands trembling slightly. Before you can help yourself, you steal glances from the side of your eye, landing squarely on his shirt specifically at the crude letting that reads āTwo Seaterā, arrows pointing abashedly toward both his crotch and his face.
You look back up immediately. You donāt want to know.
The punch sloshes into your cup, some of it missing due to your shaky hands and you donāt notice until a sticky trickle runs over your fingers. You hastily stop pouring and lick at the mess.
Before you can figure out how to announce your presence, thereās a rush of footsteps and another frat boy appears. Hikari, you think his name was, stands by the kitchen entrance, hair slightly disheveled from his usual style, loud and demanding as heās always been.
āHey!ā he calls, scanning the room. āYou guys need to come see this."
A chorus of half-drunk āwhat?ā and āsee what?ā answers him like a herd of seagulls.
āIn the living room,ā he says. āThere's two people on the floor andāā He stops, glancing over his shoulder like the situation might escape him if he looks away for too long. āJust hurry up!"
His vague words cause curiousity to spread faster than wildfire. The group of boys begin funnelling out of the kitchen, cups still in hand, voices rising with excitement.
āWhat is it?"
āIs it a fight?"
āPlease tell me itās a fight.ā
āDid someone break something?ā
Hikari doesnāt elaborate, instead turning and leaving the kitchen, confident the herd will follow. One friend, Choso if you remember correctly, looks back at Gojo who remains calmly drinking from his cup, still leaning against the counter beside you.
āArenāt you coming, Satoru?ā
Gojo shrugs, tipping back the last of his drink. āNah. You go on ahead.ā
Choso hesitates like he wants to ask why, then seems to think better of it.
āSuit yourself,ā he mutters, already backing toward the door as someone behind him shoves past with a whoop.
Within seconds, the kitchen drains of bodies.
Youāre deathly aware of the warm presence beside you. You inhale deeply and turn, ready to get this over and done with only to find him shamelessly looking at you.
For a moment, the two of you just stare at each other, his expression unreadable as he looks you over before his face splits into a lazy grin. āHey.ā
āHi,ā you squeak, immediately reprimanding yourself at the awkward sound.
His smile only grows. āI didnāt expect to see you here. Are you looking for someone? Or maybe you missed the exit? Itās down the hall to your right.ā
āThatās rude.ā You cross your arms in an attempt to place distance between the two of you and to maintain a confidence you donāt feel. āI attend parties.ā
Gojo huffs and you feel slightly offended. He straightens and steps closer, close enough that his cologne hits youāsharp, expensive, and entirely too much. āI donāt know about that. Iāve never seen you at one of these before.ā His head tilts, regarding you. āHow do you even know Sukuna?"
For a moment you blank, wondering why he was asking about Sukuna. It hits you then that this party must be his. āAh. I came with Shoko.ā
He hums. āThat makes sense. Shoko always did have a habit of collecting strays."
āExcuse me?ā
āNot a stray,ā he amends lightly atĀ your glare. āMore like her lost puppy.ā
"Just because youāve only ever seen me when Iām with Shoko doesnāt mean Iām always with Shoko.ā
āI was talking more about how you were holding onto her shirt in the crowds earlier. She didnāt bring a leash for you?"
āDonāt project your weird kinks onto me."
āDo you often spend time thinking about what weird kinks I might be into?ā Thankfully, Gojo lets the topic go before you really do decide to throw it all away and walk out. āBut alright, letās say I believe you and youāre just here for the party. Why are you here in the kitchen, then?ā
āWhat else do people come to parties for? Iām here to drink. And stuff.ā You trail off, clearing your throat.
āReally?ā He eyes your untouched cup. āBecause thatās just juice. The good stuffās over here."
He steps into your personal space to reach over you to grab a bottle from the top of the fridge and youāre face to face with the gross words on his top. He retracts his arm, bottle in hand, but doesnāt step back. āWant me to pour you one?ā
You think back to the last time you let yourself drink under the unwise judgement of Shoko, and how you can only recall glimpses of light and the vague memory of a toilet bowl āItās fine, Iāve already had a lot to drink."
āRight,ā he says, in a tone that makes it clear he doesnāt believe you for a second.
You watch as Gojo pours himself another drink, sipping leisurely, pointedly ignoring the way youāre staring.
Gojo isnāt exactly a stranger, but itās an overestimation to call him your friend. In truth, heās Shoko's friendāwhich means she occasionally drags him back to your shared dorm before disappearing to do whatever it is best friends do. You catch glimpses of him in passing, fleeting and inconsequential, never quite crossing into āintroduce-yourselfā territory. Why would he? Heās the kind of guy who turns heads without trying, long-limbed, effortlessly confident, wearing the grin of someone whoās never been told no in his life.
Where Geto is soft-spoken and warm, guiding you through conversation with patient smiles and gentle ease, Gojo is loud and vibrant and reckless. There's a challenge in his eyes, a knowing smirk on his lips, like the world is perpetually entertaining and heās always in on the joke.
You, on the other hand, are about as normal as it gets.
When the silence draws into something a little less casual and far more awkward, you clear your throat. āIām Y/N by the way."
āI know who you are.ā
āYou do?ā
āShokoās roommate, right? Weāve seen each other before. Sheās mentioned you too.ā He offers a hand, eyes holding yours like he knows youāll pull away with anything less. āIām Gojo. Itās nice to finally meet you.ā
You go to echo his words, that of course you knew he was the Gojo Satoru but hesitate, settling instead for shaking his hand. His grip is warm and solid, carrying none of the jitteriness you feel. Hell, maybe you should have accepted a drink after all. What is this, a job interview? Why are you shaking his hand?
When you let go, you become painfully aware of how damp your palms are and curse yourself silently.
Gojo picks up on the silence and moves to lean against the counter, mimicking your earlier pose such that his arms are crossed over his chest, only emphasising his biceps in his sleeveless top. āSo, Y/N. If you didnāt come in here for a drink, why are you here?ā
His words cause you to still. This was it. Every moment in your dorm, huddled around the whiteboard usually reserved for studying, now littered with far less academic plans, Shoko chiming in her own thinkpieces occasionally. It all accumulated to this moment.
āI was looking for you actually. I wanted to talk to you.ā Your voice is barely a whisper and humiliation slowly sinks in when he doesnāt answer immediately. Perhaps he didnāt hear you considering youāre speaking to your shoes.
When you finally look up, thereās an unreadable expression on his face. Gojo slowly tracks his eyes up and down your figure. Finally, he straightens, head tilted slightly. āTalk to me? Alone?"
You nod, and his face breaks into a broad grin.
āI wasnāt expecting that. Not that I hate it,ā he purrs, voice dropping into something smoother as he steps closer and curls a loose lock of your hair around his finger. āWhat did you want to talk about, princess?"
Your mind vaguely registers the gesture, feeling the dampness of your palms once again. āI donāt really want to say here."
His fingers still, your hair wrapped around it. āOh?"
You wonder what that look in his eyes meant. āCould we go upstairs?ā
Gojo cocks his head, smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. His brows knit slightly, but his eyes gleam with amusement as he releases your hair, the strand falling back into place in a soft wave. āYou do know Iām Shokoās friend, right? And youāre her best friend?ā
āWhy does that matter?ā
āSeriously? You donāt think itāll be awkward?ā
Awkward? You blink, trying to make sense of his words. Perhaps Gojo and Shoko had argued recently. Maybe he didnāt want her catching sight of the two of you together else it put you in an awkward position. Heās more considerate than you expected.
āIt doesnāt have anything to do with her,ā you say carefully. āWhether you or I are friends with Shokoāit doesnāt matter to me. I just want to talk to you.ā You smile in satisfaction, relaxing a little at his kindness.
Gojo suddenly laughs, brushing a hand through his hair as he throws his head back like youāve said the funniest thing. When he looks back down at you, his eyes are shining. āThatās what Iām saying! But every time I joke about it to Shoko, she goes all crazy on me. Looks like we have a lot in common, huh? I guess that makes us compatible.ā
You continue to smile, the corners of your lips wavering a little in uncertainty. Youāre not entirely sure what he means by that but considering youāre about to ask him for a favour, you appreciate his good mood.
āWell, alright,ā he says at last, taking your hand. āIād love to hear you out. Lead the way.ā
Ignoring the little flip of nerves your stomach does as you hold his hand (perhaps he felt too drunk to climb the stairs alone?), you turn and lead him back into the living room and up the stairs to the quieter rooms of the house. The hand holding serves another purpose, you realise, as you weave through the crowds of people and he would surely have lost you had you not held on tighter, practically dragging him onward.
You feel a tug before your feet can even touch the second floor, like heās suddenly become immovable. Before you can turn and check on him, you feel the warmth ofĀ his chest against your back, his hand slipping from yours to settle at your waist. Youāre pulled to a stop, his breath now brushing against your ear, his hair tickling the side of your face. Youāre certain heās leaning over you despite being a step lower, and the faint scent of alcohol and sandalwood fills your senses.
āI didnāt think youād be so proactive,ā he murmurs. You think he might have inhaled, slow and deliberate, but itās hard to tell over the base vibrating through the floorboards and the frantic pounding of your heart. āWhat else are you hiding from me, hm?ā
He reaches for your hand and turns you slightly so you can watch as he licks your fingers, tasting the sticky residue of your spilt juice. His blue eyes seem to sparkle, mesmerising in a way that makes you freeze. āYou taste sweet.ā
Your breath hitches and he must have heard because the hand on your waist tightens and pulls you against him, head leaning down to gently nip at your neck. Your stomach does that little flip again, this time accompanied with a hot flush that short-circuits your brain.Ā
āWait!āĀ
He chuckles softly, lips ghosting over a soft spot that makes your knees tremble a little. āDonāt be nervous. You have me right where you want me.ā
You freeze, heart hammering, fingers twitching. When his hand slips just barely beneath the hem of your top, the words tumble out of you in a rush.
āI like Geto!ā
For a heartbeat, everything goes still, his hand, his lips, his breath. Gojo pauses, lips pulling back from your sweaty neck. In fact, his entire body jerks back, both feet returning to the step beneath you, hand leaving your waist to turn you to face him. His fingers find your chin to tilt your face down, eyes dark as they hold yours.
āWhat did you just say?ā
You swallow, looking him in the eye. āI like Geto.ā
He stares at you wordlessly for a few more moments before he frowns, letting go of you completely and stepping down one more step just for good measure. āWhat the fuck are you doing here with me then?"
You gesture frantically between yourselves, finding the answer quite simple. āTo talk? Thatās what I said earlier, didnāt I? I wasnātāI wasnāt insinuating⦠I wasnāt trying toāyou know?ā
āYou said you wanted to come with me upstairs.ā
āYeah?ā
āAlone.ā
āRight.ā
His frown only deepens at your easy response. āYou know how that sounds, right? To get a guy alone upstairs at a party?ā
āIt sounds like I wanted to talk to you privately?ā You try again at his disbelieving expression. āThe music was super loud. I didnāt think youād be able to hear me downstairs and I had to ask you something important so I didnāt want to risk it.ā
He lets out a huff, something short and breathy, lips quirked upwards like he finds something amusing, even as his eyes stay locked on you, unmoving. āYouāre kidding me, right?ā
You hold out your hands as if to say, āWhat can you do?ā.
Gojo groans, dragging a hand down his face. āFigures this was too good to be true.ā His hand drops from his eyes to cover his mouth as he continues to stare at you. āNothing about that situation implied you just wanted to talk. And about Suguru, of all things? Seriously, heās being a cockblock and he isnāt even here.ā
āWhat was that?ā
āForget it.ā He drops his hand. āIām leaving.ā
You quickly hold onto his arm before he can completely turn. āWait!ā
Maybe itās the desperation in your voice, maybe itās your iron-clad grip on his bicep but he doesnāt attempt to pull away. Instead, he looks back and wrinkles his nose at you, a strangely childish gesture.
āIām not in the mood to just talk. Not anymore.ā
āCome on, please? Thereās no one else I can ask!ā
āI donāt see how thatās my problem.ā
āIf you could just please, out of the kindness of your heart, hear me out I would seriously appreciate it!ā
He doesnāt budge.
āI wonāt tell anyone I rejected you!ā
He frowns. āFirst of all, you didnāt reject me because it was a misunderstanding. Second of all, are you really in a position to blackmail me right now?ā
āI wonāt tell Shoko you were the reason her favourite candle knocked over and singed a bit of her rug.ā
His frown only deepens. Blackmail, you think, is surprisingly effective. āHold on, how do you even know that?ā
āWhat do you mean? I was literally right there.ā
Gojo lets out a deep, long groan. He wriggles out of your hold, sending you a glare. āYou know, you really suck at asking for help.ā
āYou donāt have to agree to helping me just yet. Just at least give me a chance to explain. Weāre already here, arenāt we?ā
āYeah, well, I had other plans when we got up here that didn't involve just talking.ā
You remind yourself to be patient. Again, you were the one asking for a favour, heās the only one that can help you with your dilemma, you need him. Donāt call him a disgusting freak and walk away.
Clapping your hands together, you muster your best pleading look and send it his way. āPlease, Gojo.ā
Youāre not really sure what broke through his defenses. For your own ego, you decide it must be because of your puppy dog eyes because he lets out a sigh and gives a reluctant nod.
āGo to the room to the right of the stairs.ā
You bite back the instinct to cheer. Halfway through turning around, you look over your shoulder. āYouāre coming too, right?ā
āJust get up there before I change my mind.ā
Wondering if souring his mood like this would backfire on you, you quickly hop up the remaining steps and head to the mentioned room just in case he really does change his mind. It would be beneficial to appease him before you ask for a crazy favour, after all. Therefore, you donāt even try to eavesdrop as Gojo continues to mumble to himself as he follows behind, worrying that somehow he might hear and turn around.
When you both reach the room, he closes the door and leans against it, arms crossed over his chest and expression flat in a way that feels very un-Gojo. Youāre suddenly struck by the unfairness of it, of how someone with such a careless, teasing exterior can also appear so unreadable when he wants to.
āFive minutes.ā
You clear the irrelevant thoughts from your head. āExcuse me?ā
āYou have five minutes before Iām going back down.ā
You take a deep breath. This is it, no backing out now. āOkay. I need your help.ā
He huffs, unamused. āSo youāve said. But with what exactly? Calculus? Because spoiler, Iāve been drinking.ā
āWith Geto.ā
You watch in real time as the connection in his brain is made. He straightens off the door slightly. āWait. Suguru? You want help with Suguru? What kind of help? Love help? You want love help with Suguru?ā
Every word from his mouth is like a bullet to your dignity. Through gritted teeth, you hiss, āYes. Can you be any louder?ā
āI can try,ā He says with a hint of humour. The smirk returns to his face and a feeling of foreboding looms over you. āThis is what you wanted to get me alone to say?ā
āLook, I needed someone whoās close with him and youāreāā
āClose? Please, Iām his best friend. Iām practically his wife.ā
āOh. So that makes us competition?ā
He wrinkles his nose and looks you up and down. āYou want me to help you get him.ā
You nod.
āYou want to confess to him.ā
āObviously.ā
āDate him?ā
āThatās the goal."
āSleep with him?ā
You give him a look so incredulous that he laughs, short and amused. āIf you want advice just hit up reddit. If you want him to like you back then an etsy witch has you covered for five dollars. I donāt see why you have to bother me.ā
āBecause,ā you say slowly. āHeās surrounded by people. He doesnāt even know me. I need all of that, the advice, the reciprocation, and I need someone who can get me close enough to him where he can notice me. And I feel like getting an Etsy witch to manipulate his dreams to include me would cost more than five dollars. And Iām broke. And Iām kind of bad with guys.ā
āSo, what? You want me to introduce you to him?ā
āSure. And maybe tell me what he likes?"
Gojo looks you up and down again. He leans back against the door but this time, thereās something smug and arrogant about his posture, eyes lazy as he takes up as much space as he can. āYouāre not even his type.ā
āThatās fine, Iām flexible.ā
āThatās something you say at a job interview, not when youāre trying to get a boyfriend.ā
āJust shows that I have an adaptable personality.ā
āHe just came out of a 2 year relationship,ā he shoots back.
āI accept and embrace his past.ā
āHe has a habit of leaving his jackets on the arm rest of couches.ā
āI have hands, I can put them away.ā
āWhereās your self-respect?ā
āWith him. Iāll get it back after I get with him.ā
Gojo huffs. āHe doesnāt even know you.ā
āThatās why Iām asking you for help.ā
āYou know, I think I liked you better when you were just a shy little thing stumbling over your words.ā
Again, you can only shrug.
When he only frowns, you decide to use your hidden ace. Before he can open his mouth and surely reject you, you beat him to it, voice overlapping his.
āIāll tutor you!ā
His eyes narrow and when he doesnāt say anything else, you push on.
āI know youāre aiming for that sports scholarship to study abroad next year.ā
āHow do you even know about that?ā He catches on quick with a groan. āShoko.ā
You nod. āAnd I know that youāre looking for someone to tutor you because you need to get good grades to get accepted. If you help me with this, I promise I can definitely bring your grades up. We both benefit!ā
Gojo stares at you like youāve just grown a second head and you think youāve lost him when his lips twitch. Then, almost traitorously, one corner lifts higher.
āYou,ā he says slowly, pointing at you like heās identifying a rare species, āAre trying to bribe me. Youāre trying to bribe me because you canāt get game by yourself.ā
āIt's not a bribe,ā you say stiffly. āI'm just saying thereās something in it for the both of us.ā
āItās a bribe,ā he repeats, delighted now. āHoly shit, Shoko's roommate is bribing me. How desperate can you get?ā
āIām offering to give you academic support!ā
āWith strings attached.ā
āYes,ā you sigh. "That's usually how deals work.ā
He grins, wide and boyish and every bit infuriating as youāve ever known him. āYou think I can't get a tutor without helping you bag my best friend?ā
āWell, you havenāt yet.ā
āThat's because I don't need one.ā
āRight. So I should just forget all the times Shoko has ranted to me about how you keep asking her for help?ā
āYou know, this conversation has really enlightened me on who my real friends are.ā His gaze slides back to you, assessing. āAnd youāre confident you can help me?ā
You straighten your shoulders and give a solemn nod. āIāve fixed worse than you.ā
He studies you, eyes tracking your features down to your shoes and you fight the urge to squirm self consciously. He seems to be recalibrating you, seeing you not as Shokoās tagalong but as an actual person making a very earnest, albeit very ridiculous, request.
Finally, he sighs, long and dramatic.
āWell, at least you have one thing going for you. Suguru eats this kind of stuff up, hardworking, stubborn, a little patheticāā
āHey.ā
āāin a cute pet way,ā he amends smoothly. āRelax.ā
You glare at him anyway but the rational part of your brain reminds you that you need this. He grins back, entirely unrepentant.
āFine,ā he continues, raising a finger, āIf I do this, weāre doing it my way. That means we need rules.ā
You fight the urge to jump up and down in joy. āI was going to suggest that anyway! How about this, weāā
āRule one,ā he says, face settling into something serious. āYou canāt fall in love with me.ā
Unable to help yourself, you burst out laughing. āTrust me, thatās not going to be an issue. You're definitely not my type.ā
At your laugh he smiles though it doesnāt reach his eyes. āRule two, no complaining. Keep that mouth in check, sweets.ā
You giggle. āWhat's wrong, fragile ego?ā
He raises an eyebrow and you mumble irritated curses under your breath. āSorry.ā
āRule three, if Suguru ends up falling head over heels for you, you owe me big.ā
āHow big?ā
His eyes flick down to your mouth again, then back up, smirk slow and dangerous. āIāll decide later.ā
You catch the movement and swallow, feeling none of the humour from earlier. āOkay, deal. Then, rule four, you take your studying seriously. I don't tutor people who donāt care.ā
āI think between the two of us, I want to succeed the most so thatās a given. Any more rules, sweets?ā
When you shake your head, he nods. āWeāll start tomorrow.ā
āNot today? I mean heās literally right here,ā You quickly clarify. āNot a complaint, just a question!ā
āI came here to get drunk and have a good time. Iām going to need at least three drinks to get me back there so be a good girl and wait. Iāll text you tomorrow if you really canāt be patient. Unless, you want to back out already?ā
You straighten your shoulders, trying to match his confidence. āIām not backing out! I just want to make sure youāre not going to ditch me. This isnāt really a normal request.ā
āOh, so you know?ā
You roll your eyes at him but have the decency to at least look bashful.
āTomorrow,ā he repeats then jerks his chin toward the door. āGo on, sweets. Before I sober up and regain some self-respect.ā
āDonāt call me that.ā
āA complaint?ā
You bite your lip. āA suggestion.ā
āHereās a real suggestion,ā he starts, turning around to open the door. Standing in the doorframe, he gives you one last look. āNext time you ask a guy to go upstairs with you at a party, maybe start with the part about not wanting to make out.ā
Your face gets hot instantly, mouth opening to splutter, āI didnāt mean anything by it!ā
But he doesnāt stay to hear the end of it, rejoining the masses downstairs without another word. He lifts his hand once as a goodbye and then heās gone, leaving you alone in the room, half mortified, half exhilarated. Unwilling to give him any sense of victory with his last words, you head back downstairs and find Shoko to tell her the results of the first step of your plan.
Itās a struggle pushing through the thick waves of people but you finally find your roommate off to the side, musing herself in a conversation with someone you donāt recognise.
Instinctively, your eyes search for Geto if only to recall what youāre doing this for. Standing beside him, arm swung over his shoulder is Gojo, already sipping from a cup and laughing into the conversation with a natural ease that reminds you of the gap between who you were and who he is. As if sensing your gaze, he looks over and you flinch as if burnt. Something stirs in your gut and you wonder if your little plan to get with Geto has taken a slightly unpredictable turn.
āYou okay?ā Shoko asks, noticing your fluster.
You nod, looking away quickly. āOf course. All going to plan, you know?ā
āThen I guess youāre up to step two.ā
āRight,ā Your eyes drift back to Gojo and find him looking at you over the rim of his cup. The feeling in your stomach lurches. āStep two.āĀ
Step two begins with Gojo texting you at the ass crack of dawn. You blink the sleep from your eyes, squinting at the bright light of your screen in mild disbelief and annoyance as he tells you to pull up to his 9am lecture. Despite the lingering feeling that youāve bitten off more than you can chew, you understand that this is necessary.
You know for a fact that you have no classes today and therefore no reason to make the trek to university. a whole day,just gone and tasked with the impossible task of putting up with that infuriating player.
No, you reprimand yourself as you text back your agreement. No complaining. Do it for him, do it for Geto. With those words repeating in your head like a mantra, you pull yourself together and out of bed to get to campus.
It would be helpful, after all, to see where his studies were at if you were going to take this tutoring business seriously.
You get a coffee at the station to combat your sleepiness and the chill of a winter morning before hesitating and getting another. With two coffees, one in each hand, you wait outside his lecture room until the doors swing open.
Spotting him wouldnāt be too hard, you muse, considering Gojo is impossible to miss.
And then, you see him.
His unmistakable frame, hair a messy white halo catching the late morning sun, strides into view. He's mid conversation as he steps out, animated, half-grinning, and you find yourself understanding why so many girls lose their minds over him.
āGojo!ā You call out, voice slightly drowned out by the chatter all around.
Youāre about to give him a piece of your mind, him having been the reason why you kept to your phone all of last night like a wife anticipating the return of her war husband, when you freeze. Because when Gojo turns, your mind barely registering the amused look he gives you, the person he was talking to comes into view.
Because of course, where thereās Gojo there is Geto, the yin to his yang.
You werenāt ready for both of them.
Noticing your sudden stiffness, Gojo looks beside him and scoffs. Unimpressed, he starts walking over. You panic, attempting to smooth out your clothes and fix up your appearance though your hands are full of coffee so you end up doing an awkward wiggle.
āLook at you,ā Gojo starts when heās close enough. āLoitering outside my class like a fan. Maybe this is more urgent than I thought, not because you like Suguru but because you really need your self-respect back.ā
You open your mouth to respond, to clarify, to deny, to just say something, but Geto catches up beside him and suddenly every possible word tangles up in your throat.
āOh. Hey,ā Geto says, recognition flickering across his face. āYouāre Y/N, right?ā
You blink, knees feeling weak and mind in shambles that he even knew your name let alone match it to your face. āUh, yeah! Thatās me!ā
He smiles, soft and easy, all the charm youāve seen him use on others now directed to you. āI thought so. Youāre in one of Shokoās tutorials, no? I think I remember her mentioning you.ā
āIām her roommate, actually.ā You try for a smile and pray it doesnāt give off the extent of your adoration towards him.
āRight, that would be it. Iām Geto.ā
You nod mutely, wishing your brain would reboot to say something, anything that doesnāt make you sound like youāve never spoken to a human before. Geto, he says, like you didnāt already know his name, like he wasnāt one of the most known people on campus. Still, the fact that he so humbly introduced himself only proves his humility and your heart gives a quiver.
This moment was everything youāve ever fantasied. His eyes on you, giving you that pretty smile youāve only seen directed at others. You could have stood there and basked in his attention until the end of time if Gojo didnāt suddenly clap Getoās shoulder and butt in.
āGreat, so glad youāre both acquainted,ā he says, ignoring your glare and throwing an arm around your shoulder to pull you into his side. āBut as much as Iād love to keep standing here and soak in this riveting small talk, I think my very dedicated super fan here needs me for something.ā
You shoot him a look. āI am not your super fan.ā
āNo? And is that not my coffee?ā
You look down at your hands as if only remembering now what you were holding. Biting back a remark, you thrust out a coffee. āIt is.ā
He grins, taking it and letting his fingers brush against yours. āThought so.ā
Geto looks between the two of you. āOh, I see how it is."
Your eyes fling back to him at the same time Gojo exclaims, āWhat?ā
āWoah, did I touch a nerve there or something?ā Getoās smile quickly turns smug. He returns Gojoās earlier gesture and thumps him hard on the back twice. āI get it. Iāll get out of your hair then. Be gentle with him, Y/N. Heās actually a pretty sensitive guy.ā
It takes you a while to process his words so Gojo reacts first.
āDude, Iām telling you itās not like that.ā
āSure,ā Geto says in a tone that very much suggests he isnāt convinced at all. āGuess Iāll see you around, yeah? Later, Satoru.ā
You only realise seconds after he leaves that you hadnāt said goodbye. In fact, after Gojoās interruption, you hadnāt managed to say anything more to Geto.
āHuh,ā Gojo muses, breaking the silence. āYou get like that around him?ā
You groan and find the lump in your throat gone. āI stood there like an idiot!ā
āYou did.ā
āHe probably thinks Iām a freak!ā
āProbably.ā
āAnd you!ā You look up to glare at him. āYou didnāt have to make it sound so weird!ā
āSo now itās suddenly my fault?ā
āYou caught me off guard by calling me your super fan!ā
āRight, like that was the weirdest part of the conversation,ā he shoots back, lips curled in dry amusement. āThat, and not the super sour face you were making at him. Like a grimace.ā He mimics your expression and you properly grimace this time, hoping against all odds that that was not the face you had been making at the person you were actually a super fan for.
Deciding you will only lose if you continue to defend yourself, you choose to change the subject. āYou should have told me heād be here.ā
āYou never asked. Besides, is it my fault if you didnāt prepare for that to happen?ā
You sulkingly mumble a yes and he wags his finger at you, tutting disapprovingly.
āNo complaining, remember? Come on, letās go. We have things to talk about.ā
You sigh though relent to fall into step beside him, fingers curling around your own coffee as the crowd thins around you. Now that Geto is gone, the world feels marginally more comfortable, less bright, less sharp, but also less mortifying.
You remember your stuttering self a few minutes ago.
Still a little mortifying but now bearable.
Gojo takes a long sip of his coffee, then glances sideways at you over the rim. āFor future reference, I don't like coffee.ā
You dig your elbow into his side and he winces but doesnāt remove his arm around your shoulder.
āWhere are we going? I was thinking we could go to the library and look over your courses. That way I can pinpoint your weakness and where to target first. We only have a few months into graduation so weāre in a bit of a time crunch but I'm positive I can raise your grades from whatever they may be to⦠what?ā
You trail off when you find Gojo looking down at you in disbelief. He shrugs when your eyes meet and shrugs, though the gesture is a little awkward with his arm over your shoulders.
āI just didnāt think you were serious about the whole tutoring thing.ā
āI keep to my promises, Gojo,ā you pause. āAnd I hope you will too.ā
He reaches over with his free hand to ruffle your hair, ignoring your squeak. āDesperation isnāt a good look on you, sweets. Relax, relax, I'll get you two together. Trust me.ā
You grumble but donāt voice your suspicions, instead letting him drag you in a certain direction. You perk up when you donāt immediately recognise your surroundings.
āWhere are we going?ā
āI get it, you want to check me out. I'm just taking us somewhere where that can happen.ā
āYour studies, not you,ā you clarify.
āYeah, and my studies are mine so youāre checking me out.ā
You grimace and he chuckles, turning you around a corner. āThe library is too quiet so weāre going back to my place.ā
You stop abruptly.
āYour place?ā
āYeah.ā
āYour place?ā
Gojo cocks his head as if listening to something in the distance. āDid you just hear that echo too?ā
āForgetting the fact that we should clearly just go to the library or somewhere on campus at least, I thought you lived in Sig Kap?ā
āRight you are. Wow, I'm really starting to see why youāre the perfect choice as a tutor.ā
āBut you just said weāre going to your place.ā
āNothing gets past you.ā
āYour place as in the Sig Kap house.ā
āLook at you go.ā
You stare at his side profile, waiting for a punchline that wonāt come.
āGojo.ā
āYeah?ā
āI am not going to your frat house.ā
āWhat happened to not complaining? That was the first rule and youāre already breaking it, sweets. I'm starting to dread this whole arrangement,ā he continues to tease, looking ever so peaceful.
āI'm sorry, I don't know what you think I'm about but I wouldn't willingly walk into a den full of men named things like Chad. Do you even have furniture?ā
āI only had a cot for the majority of first year but now I've upgraded to a mattress on the floor.ā
āGreat. Let's end this here.ā
Gojo hooks his finger in your belt hoop before you can walk away. āFirst of all, we donāt have a Chad. We do have a Kyle though.ā
āYou're not doing yourself any favours.ā
āSecond,ā he continues on, pulling you back towards him with his finger. āItās ten in the morning. Half of them are in class and the other half are probably legally dead.ā
You stand your ground. āLibrary.ā
āSig Kap.ā
āLibrary.ā
āSig Kap.ā
āGojo.ā
He leans in suddenly, close enough that you can see the faint crease at the corner of his eyes from squinting in the sun.
āYou want Suguru, right?ā
Your breath catches and despite yourself, you hear him out. āSo? How is that relevant?ā
āBecause,ā he says mildly like heās talking to a little kid. āSig Kap is where Suguru hangs out. He's my best friend, you know heās my best friend thatās why you came to me. Why wouldnāt he be over at mine all the time? If you canāt handle coming over now how are you ever going to fuck him?ā
āI am notāā you choke, voice pitching before forcefully lowering your voice when you notice people looking at you. āThat is notā I haven't evenāā
Gojo hums, watching you with a victorious grin. āSo you donāt want to sleep with him?ā
You make a startled noise and start walking in a random direction, eager to leave him behind. Life, however, is full of disappointments considering he follows, his arm draping over your shoulder once more.
āSo where are we going?ā
You give in. āSig Kap.ā
āWrong way, sweets.ā
You groan but follow as he steers you in the opposite direction.
Gojo chatters in your ear the entire walk to where the frat houses are situated on campus, about how his least favourite professor is out to get him, about someone in his frat who set off the fire alarm this morning, about the latest philosophical debate holding the frat hostage: whether cereal is a soup or not. It's a steady stream of nonsense, ridiculous but unbroken because at least he wasnāt talking to you so much as at you.
At some point, you stop responding entirely.
Somehow, his mere presence is enough to change your opinion and you actually feel relief when you finally see the house before you. Sig Kap stands broad and sunlit, paint only mildly chipped, windows open to let in the winter air. There's a couple bikes leaning against the porch railing and thereās an abandoned hoodie on the outdoor chairs.
āOh thank god,ā you mumble under your breath when he finally stops talking.
He lets you go to jog up the steps, opening the door to what youāre positive is about to be an overstimulating nightmare.
Warm air hits you first, carrying the scene of coffee and something oily. Sunlight stretches across worn hardboard floors until Gojo closes the door behind you and the hallway dims. A TV murmurs somewhere deeper into the house and thereās a loud conversation happening upstairs.
āYou said everyone would be either in class or dead!ā you hiss.
āIt was an exaggeration,ā he says lightly. "Don't worry, everyoneās harmless. But if youāre worried, you can just stick close to me.ā
You ignore his cocky grin and shove him to get him walking. Unfortunately, getting to the stairs meant walking past the living room and you know things wonāt be as harmless as he says when a voice calls out.
āYo!ā
Gojo pauses and steps back to poke his head into the living room. āMorning.ā
You awkwardly step back to let him, pushing you into view too.
Two heads snap toward you at once. One of them is sprawled across the couch, blanket half-tangled around his legs and a bowl of popcorn balances on his stomach. The other is slouched in an armchair, controller in hand, eyes bloodshot and face pale as if he was still hungover. Considering the state of the party last night, you donāt doubt that he might be. Speaking of the party, you recognise the one on the left as Hikari.
āYouāre bringing a girl back in broad daylight?ā The controller guy says, no tact whatsoever.
Hikari snaps his fingers in recognition. āHey, youāre the girl at the party.ā
āDamn, back for more?ā
Hikari shoves controller guyās head down at the crude comment.
āShe's here to save my GPA,ā Gojo explains. āSo keep it down, yeah?ā
āThat's what we should be saying to you,ā controller guy smirks.
Unfortunately, Gojo smirks back. āYou know they canāt help it. I'm just too good.ā
He guides you back towards the stairs as the boys in the living room chuckle, and when you finally think of something to say youāre already standing in the middle of his room. By then, thereās another something to take up your mind and computing power.
Despite the relatively large floor plan, Gojo has decided to use none of it. True to his words, thereās a mattress lying on the floor against one wall, blanket a mess and a single pillow sitting flat at the top. A stack of old textbooks make up a bedside table where thereās a cute small lamp. On the other side sits a couch and a giant flat screen in front of it at a distance that would make optometrists frown.
Maybe thatās why Gojo is sometimes seen wearing sunglasses indoors. Maybe theyāre prescription.
āThis is what you bring girls back to?ā
Gojo drops his bag on the floor and flops down onto the couch, patting the cushion beside him. āCome sit.ā
You eye the seat in disdain.
āWhat's with the look?ā
āIs that even sanitary?ā
He snorts. āWorried youāll get cooties or something? Relax, I rarely bring anyone back. Usually I go to the girlsā place for that kind of stuff. Fucking on a mattress is pretty harsh on the back, you know. Youāre the first girl I've brought back in a while. Lucky you, right?ā
You grimace but sit down gingerly. āCan you tell me what courses youāre doing?ā
āWhat's the rush? Let's get to know each other better,ā he says but he still reaches over to grab his laptop from his bag, opening it on his lap.
You can picture it so clearly, Gojo coming back from a long day of (skipping) classes to do his assignments and homework like this, slumped over his laptop on this surprisingly comfortable couch. The bare mattress on the floor might be a big contributing factor to his back pain, but you have no doubts that this routine wasnāt doing him any favours.Ā āHere,ā he places his laptop on your knees and leans back, pulling out his phone from his pocket. āYou look.ā
Considering his complete disregard of safety is not your issue, you donāt protest and quickly type in the college website. As if sensing this is not the right time, a prompt pops up to log in again.
āPassword?ā you ask, tilting the screen to him.
He barely looks up from his phone, one arm behind his head, the other typing away. āSixeyes69 question mark exclamation mark.ā
You pause and type it in. It goes through.
āWhat's the number?ā He asks, disinterested.
You look on the screen. ā67.ā
He chuckles. āNice.ā
āAre you seriously okay with telling me your password like that?ā
He shrugs, screenshotting the multi authenticator screen before hitting enter. The website in front of you loads and opens to his details.
āTtās not like thereās anything you can do with that. Are you planning to sneak in and do my assignments for me?ā
Finding no fault in his words, you accept it and click through the tabs. Your brows quickly knit together as you read the contents.
āGojo.ā
āMhm?ā
āYouāre missing three assignments in this class, you have a midterm for another in two weeks and youāre barely passing first year statistics.ā
Gojo looks up at the ceiling in deep concentration before looking down with a smile. āYeah, that sounds about right, why?ā
āThis is insane! I'm not a miracle worker!ā
āBetter find a lamp that grants wishes soon because your love life is on the line,ā he points out. āThat was the deal, you find a way to get me into that scholarship and I get you and my best friend together. It's not my fault you were weirdly confident and didnāt check to see where I was at before proposing that.ā
Flabberghasted, you can only open and close your mouth like a fish. āLook, the midterm in two weeks, I can probably help with. The three assignments? You failing statistics?ā
āPretty sure I passed that last quiz. Maybe check again?ā
ā51 is just barely passing which is basically a fail.ā
āOh no, it seems like you canāt do this after all. Looks like the deal is over. Hey, by the way, since youāre already here, why don't weāā Gojo sits up and leans in, one hand on your thigh above his laptop.
āI demand another favour.ā
He freezes. āYou canāt just do that.ā
āI can,ā you square your shoulders and meet his eyes. āI did this statistics class during my first year so I still have my notes. I can easily alter them and give them to you and if you have any questions, we can meet up and I'll go through the questions with you. There's no way you can submit two of the three missed assessments as late but I can help you write the one that was due last week. There will be a mark reduction but I'll make sure itās as good as can be. And, like I said, studying for the midterm is possible in two weeks.ā
Gojo stares at you as if seeing you for the first time. When he finally moves, itās only to remove his hand from your knee and slump back into his leather couch. āYouāre insane.ā
You wonder if heās sulking.
āBut,ā you continue on. āIf I help you with this then I can add to my condition. Besides, I made it too vague earlier and youāve helped me see that. So thank you.ā
He rolls his eyes. āJust tell me.ā
You bite your lip. āGo on a practice date with me.ā
He blinks at you, giving you that same incredulous look before bursting into a fit of laughter that does wonders for your ego.
āHey.ā
He keeps laughing, one hand resting on his chest.
āHey!ā You hit his arm and he finally cracks an eye open to look at you.
āYouāre kidding,ā he chuckles, struggling to catch his breath. āGojo Satoru doesnāt do dates.ā
āDon't refer to yourself in third person.ā You smack his bicep one more time for good measure and because heās weirdly solid under your touch. āIt wonāt actually be a date. I just need to know how dates work. I can't just go from zero to not-zero without practice!ā
His laughter trails off though the smile remains on his face. He tilts his head to the side. āYouāre at zero?ā
You freeze, feeling like youāve walked into a trap.
āDefine zero.ā
āHave you kissed anyone?ā
You look away. āDefine kissed.ā
He laughs again, though mercifully shorter. āThat's crazy. Next thing you know, youāre going to ask me to teach you how toāā
āPlease!ā you say quickly. āIt won't be anything serious. I just need to know the mechanics, you know, how dates actually work. What youāre supposed to say, how you sit, when you pay, whether eye contact should be continuous or intermittentāā
āJesus,ā he mutters, scrubbing a hand over his face. āYouāre actually a lost cause.ā
āWell I've never done one before!ā You clamp your mouth shut after, mortified at how loud you just got.
Gojo watches you for a long moment, the amusement still there though dimmed now by something closer to curiousity. Maybe even concern if you squint.
Silence stretches between you, warm sunlight pooling across the floor, distant house noise muffled beyond the door. He looks down at his laptop on your lap then back up to your face.
ā...okay.ā
Your heart stumbles and you inhale sharply. āOkay?ā
āIāll do it.ā
āReally?ā Relief overwhelms your system and your shoulders relax.
āGojo Satoru doesnāt go back on his promises.ā He straightens and places a hand over his heart, a mock solemn expression on his face. Before you can poke fun of his use of third person again, he continues. āBesides, I need to figure out where you stand. Let's go on a date tomorrow.ā
āEager much?ā
He shrugs. āRip the bandaid off. Besides, I have no other time this week, I have practice all of this week for the upcoming game.ā
Though you were ready to disagree, you find yourself nodding. āOkay, tomorrow.ā
āIt's a date,ā he says sweetly before clapping his hands together once loudly. āSo, does that mean I'm off the hook for today? Steam is having this massive sale and I have money to spend.ā
You snort. āWhat makes you think youāre free to go?ā
āYou got what you wanted,ā he points out reasonably. āPractice date secured so mission accomplished, right? Seems like a natural stopping point and the Steam store is calling me.ā
He reaches lazily toward the laptop. You smack his hand away without hesitation.
āWell hang up because youāre failing statistics and the submission box for that technical report is waiting for you. I'm afraid youāre going to have to reschedule.ā
āYou're kidding. I dragged you here and gave you nothing to prepare with, thereās no way you'll have anything to tutor me with.ā
You stretch out your arms, fingers interlaced, and listen to the satisfying pop of your joints. āWatch me.ā
Night has long since settled by the time you return to your dorm. Despite his perennial sulking throughout the entire tutoring session, lips jutted out when he isnāt whining, eyes drifting from the screen when youāre not giving him your full attention, he still offers to walk you back to the opposite side of the campus where the dorm houses are. Guiding him through the writing assignment was somewhat akin to extracting teeth from a little kid, but heās surprisingly quiet when youāre talking and only chooses to complain when youāve stopped.
And by the end of it, youāre proud to announce that he has 500 words on a once empty doc that was almost ready for submission.
Hey, you did mention before that you canāt create miracles.
Still, thereās something bright in his eyes when he reads through his own work, mumbling the words under his breath. So then, when you had reached down to pick up your tote bag and call it a day, heās on his feet almost instantly, laptop snapping shut as he follows.āIāll walk you,ā he says, like itās not even a suggestion.
The campus at night feels different, all those late nights in the library had taught you that. Itās quieter, softened at the edges and maybe it's placebo, maybe it isnāt, but the air feels fresher and time seems to slow. Streetlamps cast warm pools of light along the pathways, the winter air crisp enough to bite at your cheeks. Your breath fogs slightly as you walk, footsteps echoing in companionable rhythm.
For once, Gojo isnāt talking.
He makes the occasional comment, something about how dead campus feels after dark, how he hates early morning practices, how someone keeps taking his chocolate milk from the fridge, but for some reason you donāt find it so tolerable. Maybe itās the way heās saying it, slower and calm, nothing like before.
You steal a glance at him.
His hands are shoved into his jacket pockets, shoulders relaxed, expression softer than youāre used to seeing. Without the performative grin and constant chatter he looks less like the campus celebrity Everyone knows and more like heās just some guy. Albeit, very attractive but you digress.Ā
āYou didnāt have to walk me,ā you say into the silence that he hadnāt immediately rushed to fill after his last anecdote.
āI know.ā
āThen why are you?ā
He shrugs. āJust felt weird not to. Besides, itās late out and your dorm is half a century away. I need you alive to fix my grades, remember?ā
You give him a faint chuckle and look forward again.
A few more steps pass in silence, broken only by the shuffle of feet.
āHey,ā he says suddenly.
You look up, watching the light scatter over his side profile.
āThanks.ā
āFor what?ā
āFor today.ā He kicks at a pebble on the path, watching as it skitters ahead. āFor not giving up on me after the first five minutes.ā
You huff softly. āI said I'd help. And Y/N never goes back on her promises.ā
He looks over at you and you both share a smile before his expression turns thoughtful. āYeah, but people say stuff all the time.ā
You study him. āDo they?ā
He hums and doesnāt elaborate.
The dorm building comes into view ahead, lights glowing warmly through the windows. There's still a couple students drifting in and out, bundled in hoodies and coats and wearing slides, soft laughter spilling into the night.
You slow, suddenly aware that the walk is almost over. You turn to him so you can look at each other.
āYou know, youāre not as hopeless as you think,ā you say quietly. āI think youāve just never pushed yourself to seriously try.ā
He snorts. āThanks, real inspirational.ā
āIām serious,ā you protest but the corners of your lips quirk up.
He looks at you then, properly looks, eyes searching your face with a small frown. When he canāt find whatever heās looking for, his brows relax.
āYou really think I can pass?ā
āYes.ā
Something in his shoulders loosens, tension easing away.
āOkay,ā he breathes out. āThen, my grades are in your hands, teacher.ā
You make a face. āI think I prefer sweets.ā
He laughs and you turn to walk up to the entrance. The automatic doors remain stubbornly closed until you step into the sensorās range, humming softly as they slide open. Warm air spills out, smelling faintly of old carpet and air freshener.
For some reason your feet slow.
āHey, Y/N.ā
You turn, looking at him as he stands just outside the warm lobby light, hands in his pocket, shoulders slightly hunched against the cold.
āYeah?ā
He hesitates.
āSee you tomorrow."
You bite your lip and nod, repeating his words softly. Then, before you can do something stupid, you turn and walk into the building. The doors close with a soft thud, sealing you inside.
Through the glass, you watch him turn and head down the path, white hair catching the glow of the streetlights. And of course, he doesnāt look back.
Your reflection stares back at you instead, cheeks flushed from the cold, eyes a little too bright, heart still beating faster than it should.
Tomorrow, apparently, youāre going on a date, practice or not.
For some reason, Geto pops up in your mind and you tighten your hold on your tote bag, making your way up the stairs. The soft curve of his smile earlier this morning, the way he had said your name like it belonged in his mouth, or maybe that was just wistful thinking. But the warmth in his eyes that had nearly short-circuited your brain was most definitely real and you cling to the image.
Right, this is for him.
Your phone buzzes a little after you settle into bed that night, making you jolt. you roll onto your side and reach for your phone, pulling it free from your charger as you read through your notifications.
gojo: i made it back safe in case you were wondering ><
You get comfortable, tucking your doona under your chin as you type back, your phone the only light source in your dark room.
you: trust i wasnāt worried but thanks ig
gojo: who said anything about being worried?
also donāt flake on me tomorrow
iām taking this mentorship very seriously so u better aswĀ you: i wonāt flake ik iām already asking sm of u
gojo: oh u know do u?
so ure going to pay for our date tmrw?
you: itās not a date
gojo: sure it isnāt
you: itās just practice
gojo: i didnāt say it wasnāt
but if you admitted it was a real date iād pay yk
you: please
like iād actually want you to pay for my coffee
not a date, not real, donāt need u to pay for my drinks
gojo: ure a hard girl to please
you: if its from someone like you, its gonna be harder than just hard
try impossible
gojo: harder than hard?
you: ?
gojo: something feels wrong about that sentence for some reason
anyway
is the campus close for you or should we meet up in the city
you: the campus works for me
gojo: ure not just saying that to avoid the date allegations are you
you: no way
gojo: sure sweets i believe u
donāt wear anything boring
first impressions matter yk
you: oh my god stop pushing the date allegations
its just practice !!!!
gojo: okay and you can practice dressing up for me
for suguru
like for practice
you: ?
i know what u meant
but sure
as long as u do too theres no way im embarrassing myself by showing up overdressed if u show up in sweats and a hoodie
gojo: wouldnāt dream of it
see u saturday sweets
You stare at the nickname longer than you should.
Your fingers hover over the keyboard for a moment before moving.
you: goodnight gojo
The reply bubble appears then disappears before appearing again. Nothing comes of it as it disappears one more time and stays gone.
You swipe off the app and place your phone back on your bedside table, ignoring the pleasant buzz running through you.Ā
You show up early like a super fan.
Youāve been sitting at the little corner table situated at the back of your favourite campus cafe for the past ten minutes now, stirring your drink just to look busy. The cafe hums around you with soft chatter, clinking spoons against teacups and ceramic against ceramic, a mellow playlist faintly playing in the background, but your nerves drown most of it out.
Youāve already gone through three mental checklists as you sit there, waiting. Your fingers curl around your empty cup, feeling the beads of water drip down your fingers and you really hope you wonāt need to make an awkward break for the bathroom anytime soon considering he should be here about now.
You tell yourself youāre not nervous but you catch yourself glancing at the door every other second, heart jumping each time it swings open.
The bell chimes again and you look up with a start, eyes immediately locking onto Gojo as he saunters in, lifting his sunglasses so they rest on his head. Heās dressed casually, a white and blue jersey over a pair of blue baggy jeans, but his good looks mold the outfit into something appropriate for a date.
Gojo spots you at his first look around and grins, sliding into the seat across.
āMorning,ā he greets, a wide smile on his face. His eyes flicker down once at your empty cup. āDid you wait long?ā
āNo, not at all!ā You remember who youāre talking to and relax a little. āActually, I got here fifteen minutes early. I guess I got a little anxious.ā
āWell, you donāt need to be. You look nice,ā he says, tone light. His eyes look you over once to make his words comprehensible and then one more time purely for the love of the game. āTrying to impress me?ā
You scoff, trying to recover. āYou told me to dress nice.ā
āCāmon, sweets. Play along. Weāre on a date, you know. Your next lines should be something like,ā he suddenly tucks his elbow in, body curving to the side slightly, hand half closed and held delicately over his lips and chin. His eyelashes flutter over his cheek as he looks down and to the side, a faux shyness that makes you want to laugh. āāThank you, you look good tooā.ā
You let yourself laugh, shoulders relaxing. āWhat the fuck?ā
āYou give it a try. It always works in anime.ā
āNo way in hell,ā you continue, laughing fading into occasional giggles as his gesture replays in your mind. āBesides, this is a practice date. I'll save that technique for the real deal, thank you very much.ā
āAnd for practice, weāre going to pretend this is a real date.ā He leans back into his seat, legs stretching out and bracketing yours under the table. His feet bump against yours lightly.Ā āLet's give it another try. Did I make you wait long?ā
You stir the straw inside your drink, pretending to be nonchalant, though your fingers twitch slightly against the glass. āNot long⦠I guess.ā You try a mysterious act, hearing that guys like a woman with secrets. At least, thatās what Shoko told you though a small part of you wonders if you should be taking āhow to seduce a guy 101ā from a lesbian.
āāI guessā?ā he echoes, tilting his head. āThatās the best you can do? Youāre supposed to be charming me, remember? At least try to make it look like I'm not coercing you here.ā
āI donāt care if I charm you or not,ā you say quickly, cheeks warming. āIām here to learn and youāre here to teach me.ā
He laughs, a low, easy sound that makes your chest tighten. āYou know, I'm not exactly made of time. Do you know how many girls and guys would kill to be in your position right now?ā
You resist the urge to roll your eyes though donāt stop yourself from making your voice dry. āOh sure, letās spend this entire date talking about all the competition I have.ā
āWe would need at least four more dates to cover it all.ā
āI didnāt know getting into a relationship with you would be such an investment.ā You snort. āIf all five of our dates are just going to be you listing my competition, I'd rather stand you up now and save myself the time. And the money.ā
āI did offer to pay for your drinks.ā He grins at the back and forth, the sides of his shoes bumping into your ankles lightly. āThatās it, youāre getting into it.ā
āFor practice.ā
āSure, sweets. Practice. Speaking of,ā he says, leaning forward just enough that the sunlight catches his hair. āYou should call me Satoru. Weāre on a date, remember? I canāt tell if youāre on a date with me or my dad if you call me Gojo.ā
You grimace. āCalling you by your first name makes it too real.ā
āIt is real. Thatās what you should tell yourself to get into this.ā He juts out his lower lip, drawing his eyebrows inward. āCome on, sweets, let me hear you say my name.ā
āWhen you say it like that, it makes me want to throw a drink in your face.ā
āJust once, Y/N.ā
You huff and roll your eyes. āSatoru.ā
āOh my god, a girl called me by my first name!ā he squeals.
You almost stand to get out of here if it means preventing people from associating you with him. He grabs your hand and drags you back down into your seat before you can properly escape, much to your dismay. āRelax, Iām just playing.ā
āAre you here to mess around or help me?ā
āWell, you need to tell me so I can help you. What do you even know about him?ā
āAbout Geto?ā
āYeah, unless thereās someone else you want to know more about?ā He grins, easy and confident.
You ignore his comment. āWell, I know he⦠likes books. music. He's kind⦠thoughtful. Plays the guitar. Ah, specifically electric."
āAre you listing off whatās on his dating profile right now?ā
āShut up,ā you snap, but it comes out weaker than intended.
āHe isnāt actively on any dating app right now, just for your information.ā
āAnd how would you know this? What are you doing on there?ā
āIām not on hinge, unfortunate for the female population, I know. We just tell each other everything,ā he says, leaning back, one elbow resting on the armrest of his chair as he studies you from across the table. āIām helping you, you know? First rule, donāt just parrot his interests. Though maybe I don't have to worry about that since youāre clearly struggling to even remember them.ā
āI wasnāt going to parrot him.ā
āI know you were,ā he interrupts, wagging a finger. āLast time I checked, liking exactly what he likes does not make you compatible. It makes you predictable. And desperate.ā
āOkay, harsh.ā
āIt's all tough love, sweets.ā
You fold your arms, slumping back in your seat, letting gravity do half the work of your sulk. āFine then, oh wise love guru. What should i say instead? Like, letās say he asks me what I'm into and my mind goes blank like last time. What then?ā
āYou're asking like itās that difficult. Just be honest, tell him what you like regardless if it matches his interests. Do you want to be a groupie or be something more than a friend?ā
āI want to be someone he likes.ā
āSo you're going to play the role of Suguruās perfect girlfriend? And what after that, genius? Are you just going to pretend forever?ā
Gojo looks over to the front counter and smiles at some waitresses standing there already looking in his direction. He turns back as they start giggling and playfully arguing over who should come over to take his order.
āDonāt force yourself to perform for him or curate yourself to be digestible. If the two of you are meant to be then he should want you.ā
You look away, picking at nothing on your glass. āThat's easy for you to say.ā
āIt's actually incredibly tiring being this emotionally intelligent all the time,ā he says, face neutral.
You snort despite yourself and he looks satisfied.
āAnd what if I tell him and he doesnāt like it?ā
Gojo shrugs, slow and deliberate. āThen heās not for you.ā
You frown. āWow, youāre terrible at pep talks.ā
One of the waitresses finally makes it to your table, an eager smile on her face and a determined look in her eyes. Behind her, you catch the rest of the staff shooting encouraging looks. She clutches her notepad a little too tightly, taking in a deep breath before talking.Ā āHello, are you, um, both ready to order?ā
āYeah,ā Gojo says easily, flashing her a smile. āIāll just grab a hazelnut toffee latte with soy milk.ā
The woman quickly scribbles his order down. āOf course! One hazelnut toffee latte with soy milk.ā
āAnd whatever she wants,ā he adds, nodding toward you.
You blink, caught off guard. āOh, I already ordered earlier. I'm fine for now, thanks.ā
The waitress spares you a glance, eyes flickering briefly over you before returning to Gojo like a magnet snapping back into place. āNot a problem. Is there anything else I can get you started with today?ā
āWe're good, thank you.ā
Her face falls. She nods, but lingers a moment too long, clearly hoping for something, another question, a joke, anything to keep the interaction going.
Gojoās grin grows just a little bit wider as he obliges.
āBusy today?ā He asks casually, tone warm and interested.
Her face lights up and she quickly steps forward again. āA little! It's usually busy in the mornings what with the morning rush and all. Honestly, itās like nonstop until at least 1pm.ā
āThatās brutal,ā he sympathises, leaning back in his chair, posture loose and open. āAt least youāve got good coffee to survive on.ā
She laughs, a bright and breathy sound that makes it clear sheās not just laughing at the coffee comment alone. āPerks of the job, I suppose. Do you come here often?ā
Gojo tilts his head as if the question deserved genuine thought and wasnāt just a throwaway pick up line.
āNot as often as I should,ā he decides easily. āBut I might start if the service is this friendly.ā
Her smile widens, pink creeping into her cheeks. āWe try our best.ā
āI was talking about you, sweetheart.ā
Youāve been listening and watching with apt attention, taking mental notes on the right time to smile, when to tilt your head just so, when to tuck your hair behind your ears and when to employ the double tuck, when his last words make you frown.
You clear your throat, eyes fluttering away when both Gojo and waitress look over at you.
āWell,ā the waitress starts suddenly, glancing down at her notepad like she needs to remind herself sheās on the clock, "I'll bring your drink out as soon as itās ready.ā
āLooking forward to it,ā Gojo replies, though he hasnāt looked away from you yet.
She lingers half a beat longer, then turns and walks away, shoulders a little straighter than before.
āDone staring?ā He teases.
āI was not staring. Don't you have the tact to not flirt with someone else when youāre on a date?ā
āOh, so now itās a date? Only when itās convenient for you, huh?ā
You reach over for a napkin and crumble it up to throw it at him. It barely makes it halfway across the table before it starts fluttering down.
āItās only manners,ā you insist, cheeks warm. āI didn't know what to do when the two of you were talking.ā
He snorts. āYou couldāve joined the conversation.ā
āAnd said what? "Hello, I'm also present and this jerkās date for the day?ā
āHey, I like the sound of that,ā he muses.
Your next crumpled up napkin doesnāt get any further than its predecessor. You glare at him, something about that conversation rubbing you the wrong way, echoing unpleasantly in your head in a way that makes you want to peel your skin off.
You clear your throat again.
āYou're here to teach me like I taught you statistics, right? Even though one is clearly harder than the other.ā
āRight. Getting you to date ready is much more difficult.ā
You ignore him to save the life of one napkin. āSo, how do I do that? Flirt so effortlessly and not make it cringe?ā
āYou want to use what I just said with the waitress on Suguru?ā He actually laughs out loud. āDo not, heās going to see right through you. You should have met his last ex. The two of them were absolutely disgusting andā oh wait, should I not talk about that?ā
āYeah, letās not.ā
He hums and changes the subject. āAnyway, just let it happen. Be natural. You talk to me just fine.ā
āYeah, but youāre you. frivolous, class clown, never takes anything seriously, probably never commits to anything,ā you start listing, counting them on your fingers.
āI feel like the first thing and the last thing mean the same thing. Put one finger down.ā
You refuse, still holding up four fingers. āSleeps on a mattress on the ground.ā
āSo does half of Sig Kap. But relax, I get it. So you suck at flirting. Shouldnāt you be happy I gave you a live demonstration of how itās done?ā
That gets you frowning again.
āDo you always call everyone something?ā
āWhat does that even mean?ā
āYou called her sweetheart.ā
āI don't know her name. I wasn't about to call her āwomanā, that sounds very sexist and I'm a feminist at heart. Thoughts on banning periods?ā
āShe has a name tag.ā
āI donāt look at that area on a woman on the first date,ā he pledges.
You continue without thinking.āHow is anyone supposed to know when you actually mean it when you give everyone similar nicknames?ā
He goes quiet, eyes narrowing slightly. āWhat?ā
Before you can elaborate, or maybe divert and make him look away so you can dig yourself out of the hole you just created, the waitress returns with his drink. She leans over him, placing it down carefully.
āHere you go!ā
āThanks,ā he says, polite but no longer quite as engaged. In fact, he hasnāt looked away from you, still giving you that same disbelieving look.
You fiddle with your own drink. Maybe you should have ordered something else if it meant spicing up the number of objects you have in your possession to pass awkward silence with.
The waitress lingers a moment before hesitantly leaving when itās clear thereās no encore performance.
āI just meant itās confusing for anyone, hypothetically,ā you say in a rush, beating him. āAnyway! Flirting techniques, letās talk about them!ā
He watches you for a moment longer before dropping his head and ruffling his hair. You grimace, eyeing how close his head is to his open drink. When he looks back up, whatever conflict on his face has disappeared.
āFine, okay. Let's talk. First of all, itās important where the date takes place. There's unspoken etiquette for every typical date location.ā
āLike how you go on a coffee date, you shouldnāt flirt with the waitress.ā
Gojo cracks a grin. āYouāre getting it. Look, Suguru is kind of an artsy guy. He'd probably take you to an art museum or like a jazz bar for your first date.ā
You narrow your eyes. āHow do you know that?ā
āI told you, he tells me everything. Focus.ā He dismisses your look. āHeās kind of an enjoy-the-moment kind of guy. Probably wonāt talk too much while youāre both admiring something together and saves all the talking until after when he leads you to some underground totally underrated dinner spot.ā
You wince. āShit. I kind of like making little jokes in the moment.ā
He snaps his fingers, face brightening. āRight? Like when youāre watching a movie in the cinemas!ā
āOkay, that is a bit tricky. It depends.ā
āDon't Genshin theorycraft me.ā
āYou're lucky I got that reference.ā
Gojo shrugs. āWell, Suguru enjoys just existing with his special someone. Don't get me wrong, he definitely talks when you get him started but I think heās kinda cool for being able to sit in silence with someone.ā
You chew the inside of your cheek. āIām kind of bad with silences. I end up embarrassing myself just to fill them. Do you think itās fixable? Should I just not talk?ā
āWoah, slow down. Itās fine, he has enough social awareness to fill in the gaps if youāre uncomfortable. But iām just telling you what he likes,ā he studies you. āHe doesnāt like petnames, by the way.ā
Heat creeps up your neck.Ā āThatās fine, itās not a dealbreaker,ā you mumble.
āI'm just saying. He's a real fan of using your first name. When you two get on that basis, of course.ā
āAnything else, Geto expert?ā
Gojo hums, taking a long sip of his latte, eyes tracking up. āHe likes meaningful stuff like art with a story behind it, long conversations about philosophy. Like yeah he still likes doing things just for fun but thereās a difference between like and love.ā
You wince. āBut love is meant to be silly, meaningless stuff. Like sending pictures of dogs cuddling because it reminded you of us or whether youād still love each other if you turned into worms. Like taking the longer way back home just to spend more time together. Or, I don't know, building blanket forts as adults.ā
Gojoās mouth twitches.
You stop, suddenly aware you sound like youāve been storing these thoughts and theyāve suddenly all gotten loose.
āStuff that doesnāt matter,ā you finish weakly.
He rests his chin on his palm. āLike going to the arcade and getting plushies for each other at the claw machines?ā
You laugh, shoulders relaxing. āI'd obviously do better. You look like you have no hand eye coordination.ā
āDid you forget I literally play ice hockey?ā
āRight, your role as the benchwarmer?ā
āMy ass has never once graced those benches.ā
āI don't know, I swear I remember seeing you on the sidelines.ā
āYouāve come to watch me play before?ā He grins, cheek slightly smushed from his position.
āBecause Shoko went.ā
He juts his lower lip out. āHarsh.ā
There's a few seconds of silence as the conversation replays and you feel a sudden rush of embarrassment. You look up to see if he clocked your earlier slip up but he only tilts his head more into his hand.
āWhat?ā
āNothing.ā You clear your throat and look down at your drink. It's left behind a ring of water around its base. āHow are you two best friends when youāre so different?ā
āBecause he slows me down,ā Gojo says like itās simple. āAnd I drag him out of his head. But he doesnāt need another person to do that for him so donāt even think of taking my spot.ā
You both share a laugh and it lingers a little longer than the joke deserves, warm and easy, until it naturally tapers off into something softer.
āWhy do you even like him?ā He suddenly asks, voice soft against the murmur of the cafe.
You slowly slide your gaze out the window as if reliving the moment. You can almost feel the rain on your skin, the warmth of a hoodie not your own, and the residual laughter at the back of your throat that makes you smile.
āLast semester when it was pouring rain, he saw me waiting outside a building without an umbrella and we ended up running through the storm. Itās stupid but it was fun and meaningless and definitely what I needed after my finals.ā
Your words make him frown, finger tracing a random shape on the wet surface of his glass absentmindedly. āThat doesnāt sound like him.ā
āMaybe you donāt know him as well as you thought?ā You offer.
āDonāt be ridiculous, heās my other half.ā
āAgain, should I be concerned right now?ā
āAre you homophobic?ā
āNo?ā
āThen youāre fine.ā
āWaitā¦ā
Gojo glances down at his phone and sighs. āIt's getting late, sweets. I'd love to stay longer but I promised the boys weād go do this carwashing event.ā
He pauses and looks up.
āDid you want to come?ā he quickly adds on, āYou donāt have to come alone, you could bring Shoko along or something.ā
You wrinkle your nose. āNo thanks.Ā You can imagine that sheās not keen on seeing a bunch of shirtless boys.ā
He grins. āSuit yourself. I'll walk you out. It's the least I can do on this date.ā
You roll your eyes but stand and follow him out anyway, ducking under his arm as he holds the door open for you. Stepping out, youāre almost blinded by the bright sun and you have to cover your eyes to look up, squinting even with the shade provided by your palm.
He moves to stand in front of you. āWell, I'll see you around.ā
Next tutoring session,ā you remind him, letting your arm drop to your side. "Don't forget to watch the online lectures before then. And remember to do the weekly quizzes this time. Andāā
He reaches over to ruffle your hair fiercely, laughing when your words turn into a startled squeak.
āYes, yes, I got it,ā
He lets you go and watches with a toothy grin as you start fixing your hair, glaring up at him and his audacity to smirk. His face quickly softens.
āSorry I canāt walk you back to your dorms. I'm already running kind of late.ā
āDon't worry about it,ā you say when you feel like you look presentable enough. āUm, get there safe?ā
āI will,ā he starts stepping back. āText me if you need anything.ā
āOkay, make sure toāā
āRelax, sweets, I got it,ā He says with a chuckle and a wave, before he turns and starts walking off in your opposite direction.
You watch him go for a little longer before heading back to your dorm.You stare up at your ceiling. your ceiling stares back down at you. You've been staring at your popcorn ceiling for so long that youāve begun to discern shapes and different shades of what you had previously considered to be beige, plain and simple, but was now warping into the image of Gojo.
Something he had done yesterday clung to you even hours after the date. The ease in which he allowed the waitressā fingers to brush his as he handed her the menus, the way he easily held onto your hand at the party, the lack of concern as he stood close to you on the walk back. You lift up your hands and slowly interlace your fingers. It's comfortable, familiar. until you start wondering one hand as someone else's.
Before you can doubt yourself, you pull yourself up and gather your phone and keys, heading to the door without another thought. On the way through the dorms, you send a quick text.
you: u free? im coming over
You stand outside Gojoās door and knock. There's a muffled, incoherent reply before the door is pulled open, revealing Gojo. His hair is slightly damp with stubborn strands clinging to his forehead and heās brushing his teeth. He's not wearing a shirt.
You stare at his chest.
āOne second,ā he says around the foam in his mouth. He holds the door open a little wider and ushers you in, letting the door fall to a gentle click behind you. āSit on the couch.ā
Wordlessly, you do, watching his bare back as he heads into his bathroom. The sound of water muffles your racing thoughts until he reappears, still shirtless but at least heās not brushing his teeth anymore.
āHey,ā he says, irritatingly casual. āI saw your text. You didnāt even wait to see if I was free or not. For the record I am but imagine I wasn't. That would have been an awkward situation and between you and her, I would have picked her.ā
You blink away your surprise and look up at him. āHer?ā
āItās a Friday night, Y/N. Youāre lucky I don't have someone over.ā
You frown a little at that and he continues, heading to his kitchenette to open his fridge, pulling out two beers. He hands you one, pushing it towards you once more when you donāt immediately take up his offer.
āSo, what are you doing here?ā
āAre you going to put on a shirt?ā
He blinks before a wide grin splits across his face. āI was wondering what you were looking at so deep in thought. I didn't want to assume again after you made a fool of me at the party but I guess you do have working eyes after all. Do you want me to put on a shirt?ā
You blush, finally looking away. āObviously.ā
He chuckles and places his beer down on the coffee table before going on a hunt to find a clean shirt. āBut from the way you were eyeing me it really wasnāt that obvious. Besides, youāre telling me to put on a shirt in my own home?ā
āIt's common sense when you have a guest over.ā
His voice carries over from his room. āYouāre not really a guest, more like a pest. A guest implies I invited you over, no?ā
āBut yesterday you said I could come to you for anything.ā
āRight. What was I thinking?ā Gojo comes back out and flops next to you, the couch dipping under his sudden weight. He takes the beer from your hands and cracks it open before handing it back and doing the same to his. āSo, you finally going to tell me whatās up or are you just here to leech off my dwindling beer supply?ā
āI donāt even drink,ā you mumble, watching as the water beads down your fingers.
āNo, but I do have some manners for my guest.ā
āYou just saidā¦ā you trail off, recognising that youāll only go round and round in circles if you keep up this conversation. you place the beer on the floor and turn to him. āForget it. I'm here because I need your help.ā
āFigures.ā He holds the beer to his lips and takes a deep swig. āWhat can I do for you today?ā
You bite your lip before turning to him. āCan I kiss you?ā
Gojo chokes, pulling the beer from his lips with a hack, liquid spitting out onto his no longer clean shirt and sweatpants. He finally manages to get his mouthful of beer down, but he only coughs and hits at his chest. Hesitantly, you reach over and pat his back lightly.
He shrugs your touch away, looking at you in disbelief. āWhat did you just say?ā
āI was wondering if youād let me kiss you?ā
āJust because youāre saying it politer now doesnāt take away how crazy you sound.ā He stares at you incredulously. āLook, I know we went on a date yesterday but I thought you of all people knew it was a practice date. I'm sorry but I don't feel the same way. Gojo Satoru doesnāt do relationships.ā
You groan, rolling your eyes. āI didnāt suddenly develop a crush on you, Gojo.ā
āSatoru,ā he corrects you despite his shock.
āSatoru,ā you emphasise. āI donāt like you.ā
āCould have fooled me.ā
āYesterday just got me thinking. Youāre so natural with touching and stuff and I realised that I have literally no experience whatsoever. I know Geto isnāt the type of person to care about whether I'm a virgin or not but I care. I care because I know I'll freeze up if we ever get to that part.ā
He stares at you. āWhen i asked you a few days ago about whether or not you wanted to sleep with him, you told me to shut up.ā
āThat was a few days ago.ā You shuffle closer to him on the couch and watch as his eyes drop to your thighs inching closer, then back up, something like fear on his face. āI know this is a big favour but I thought since youāve kissed so many girls before and theyāve never meant anything that you might be okay with this? I mean you thought we were going to kiss that time at the party. So is this really that crazy to ask?ā
āYes,ā he says immediately. āIt is. because you like Suguru and I'm his best friend.ā
āBut this is practice.ā
āYou canāt just echo what I've said in the past.ā He runs a hand through his hair, looking off in the distance before coming back to you. āSuguru isnāt the type of person to rush to things like that. You'd be in good hands.ā
āI know but this is for me. So I know what to expect.ā
His face is contorted in a way youāve never seen before. You decide to give another push.
āJust think of me as one of your hookups.ā
He exhales softly, eyes staring into yours. āAre you sure? Have you even thought this through?ā
āYes, I have,ā you lie. āI mean, there arenāt any cons. I'll lose my first kiss, get experience, and itās all under practice anyway so it wonāt mean anything. And you get a hookup for the night. It's a win win!ā
His face only seems to pale more at your words. āYou havenāt had your first kiss yet? Fuck, thatās a lot of pressure. And I feel like you have the wrong idea about what a hookup entails.ā
You shrug. āKissing? Making out?ā
āSex.ā
You pause. āWell, we wonāt go that far. Maybe.ā
āMaybe?ā He exclaims and you quickly deflect because heās looking more and more shocked.
āWe can start with kissing.ā You shift closer, your thigh pressing against his. āCome on, it doesnāt have to mean anything.ā
Gojo looks at you, really looks at you, from the encouraging look in your eyes to the determined line of your lips. He huffs, running another hand through his hair at the absurd change to his Friday night plans. Sure, kissing someone wasnāt a big deal for him, not when heās tasted the lips of many before, but there was something different about taking someoneās first kiss.
Finally, he sighs, long and hard. āJust a kiss.ā
You beam, face lighting up. āOf course!ā
He hesitates, cursing under his breath something long but incoherent, before gently reaching out to tilt your chin up. āTell me if you change your mind. Just shove me away, okay?ā
You nod enthusiastically. āWhat do I have to do?ā
āJust let me take the lead for now. And if you feel confident enough to kiss back, go for it.ā Again, Gojo mumbles something under his breath, the absurdity of the situation still not lost to him. He leans forward as if to seal the deal before pausing, moving his hand up to caress your cheek tenderly.
Your breath hitches, eyes wide as you curse your own touch-starved form.
āYou okay?ā He asks, stroking your cheekbone with his thumb. āChanged your mind?ā
You shake your head slightly.
Gojo huffs and you feel the puff of air against your lips.
When his lips finally press against yours, fitting against yours in a way youāve only ever seen in movies, you feel⦠nothing. You squeeze your eyes tighter, trying to dig through the sensations and pick out the one thatās meant to set off fireworks and melt your stomach into goo. Instead, it just feels like thereās someoneās lips touching yours.
Sensing your discomfort, Gojo pulls back, eyes fluttering open to meet your unsure ones. His nose scrunches up a little as he studies your expression.
āHey,ā he starts, voice low. āYou're hurting my ego.ā
You lick your lips, trying to return your lips to their usual sensation. āIt just wasnāt what I was expecting.ā
āWhat were you expecting?ā
āButterflies?ā
He chuckles, hand still caressing your cheek. āYou're kissing me without any feeling. Itās not my fault youāre as stiff as a board. Relax. Imagine Suguru or something.ā
Now itās your turn to make a face. "Wouldn't that hurt your ego more?ā
āJust relax,ā he repeats and you make the conscious effort to focus on the way heās stroking your face soothingly. āThatās it. Good girl.ā
āDon't call me that, I cringed.ā
He laughs, leaning in. āAbandon the part of you that cringes not the part of you that is cringe.ā
With that, he brushes his lips against your again, letting you feel the slow movement and determine the pace.
Itās not exactly rocket science, this kissing business, and you start to mimic the motion of parting your lips against his. It takes a few tries for him to hum in approval and deepen the kiss, his free hand sliding up to cup your neck and gently pull you closer to him. You let out a soft squeak and quickly pick up from the momentary break in rhythm on your end.
When his tongue slides against the seam of your lips, you blanch and pull back.
āOkay,ā he starts. āThat really hurt my feelings.ā
āWhat was that?ā You cover your mouth with your hands, the slimy sensation replaying in your mind.
āThat was my tongue.ā
āWhy didnāt it feel good?ā
He rolls his eyes at your complaint and slides an arm around your waist, pulling you closer until youāre half on his lap. āBecause youāre thinking too hard.ā
āI was not thinking at all, actually,ā you say, scandalised. āI didn't know I was going to be ambushed.ā
āOkay, my bad, I should have given you a heads up.ā He pauses and announces solemnly, "I'm going to start using my tongue.ā
You make a face and he huffs out a laugh, forehead dropping briefly against yours. Up close like this, you can feel the vibration of it in his chest, the way his grip tightens just a little like he doesnāt want you getting any bright ideas about you escaping.
āYou're doing fine,ā he says more softly, thumb brushing slow circles at your waist.
You think briefly that this must be the allure to him that has girls fawning for his attention. You're not immune either, and you sub consciously melt under his touch, relaxing again. Once youāve done it once, given into his temptation, itās easy to fall back again.
āFine doesnāt seem like outstanding status,ā you mumble, trying to maintain some resistance.
āFor your first time, it wasnāt so bad.ā His nose nudges yours, playfully and coaxing and youāre in his web again. āCāmere.ā
Gojo doesnāt pull you this time. Instead, he just waits, one arm warm and steady around your hips, hand stroking your hair as he waits for you to come to him. It's a sign of consideration that has you feeling jittery and warm, though thereās a lazy smirk on his lips that suggests he has other ulterior motives that makes it as infuriating as it is attractive.
Your gaze flicks to his mouth then back to his eyes. His lashes lower just slightly, watching you watch him, and something in your stomach flips over completely. Probably your common sense.
āJust⦠slower,ā you mumble.
āYeah,ā he says quietly. āSlower.ā
He still doesnāt move first which is deeply unfair, because now you have to be the brave one.
You lean in. It's clumsy at first, more of a gentle bump of noses and a too-soft press of lips than anything smooth or cinematic like he had kissed you earlier. You almost pull back in embarrassment, ready to admit that maybe he was a better kisser than you had given him credit for if itāll mean this pathetic peck of yours can end and he can make it good again, when his hand tightens on your hip and he takes over.
His mouth settles properly over yours, angle shifting until the awkwardness disappears, until it stops being babyās first kiss and starts becoming a warm, steady pressure that has your toes curling. Yhe faint brush of his breath against your cheek, the subtle tilt of his head that fits your mouth together and when he nips at your bottom lip, a soft startled sound escapes before you can stop it.
He swallows it down without hesitation.
His hand tightens reflexively and slides down, cupping your ass as he leans back and guides you onto him, fingers pressing into the fabric of your clothes to keep you there, not that you had any plans of moving. One moment your body is twisted awkwardly to meet him and the next youāre seated full on his lap, his warmth solid beneath you.
His breath fans across your cheek in uneven bursts, warm and damp, and the faint scrape of his teeth lingers as a tingling awareness.
You realise, distantly, that youāre no longer stiff.
Your hands, which had been braced awkwardly against his shoulders, loosen without permission. One slides up into his hair as you lean into him, damp strands cool at the ends, warm near the scalp, and the sensation grounds you in a way nothing else does. His mouth opens at the sensation and when his tongue sweeps along your lower lip again, you donāt pull away. It isnāt slimy or invasive like last time, in fact you welcome it, mimicking his openness and the kiss deepens.
Your breath mingles, movements syncing up and under the guidance of his lips and tongue, you start getting bolder.
You shift closer, just a fraction, your head moving up and face tilting down to angle yourself deeper when a low sound slips out of him.
Your eyes fly open and you pull away. āWas thatāā
āNope,ā he says immediately, eyes darker than when you last checked. He's panting beneath your palms, a slightly warm tint to his face as he stares at you.
You swallow. āYou justāā
āI didnāt,ā he insists, far too quickly.
When heās so adamant like that, itās a little hard to say anything more. Besides, while itās almost fun to poke the bear, the memory of his mouth on yours has you thinking about something else entirely.
You donāt move from his lap and he doesnāt push you off.
āThink youāre getting it?ā he asks, watching you with something unreadable lurking in his eyes.
You donāt hesitate. āNo.ā
You stare at each other, catching a much needed breath.
āAlright,ā he says, voice rough. āOne more. and then we have to stop.ā
You lean in and he lets out a soft sigh like a man doomed before meeting you halfway.
Gojo doesnāt start slow this time, maybe because he knows if he does, he wonāt be able to control himself.
His hand slides more firmly to the back of your neck, guiding you towards him with a kind of impatience, mouth finding yours with confidence, your chest tightening at the gesture. Your fingers clutch at his shirt instinctively and he makes a low noise at the back of his throat, deepening the kiss until you slide your fingers up and into his hair.
A low exhale slips through his nose, almost shaky and he tilts his head in response to your faint tugs.
āThatās it,ā he murmurs against your lips.
Emboldened, you tilt your head and slide your tongue into his mouth to taste him. He tastes like beer and minty and something addictive that has you repeating the movement over and over. When he reciprocates, your stomach swoops instead of recoiling.
You shift, suddenly desperate to get closer and settle over his bulge.
Wow.
You both jerk away from each other quickly, your hands leaving his hair and his arm retracting from your waist. The break feels violent in its suddenness, like surfacing too fast in deep water.
Cold air rushes between you where there had only been warmth seconds ago. Your lips tingle, oversensitive, parted as you drag in a shaky breath.Ā Gojoās chest rises and falls sharply, eyes wide in a way youāve never seen before, pupils blow dark. For once, there is no smirk, no teasing glint, just a raw, stunned awareness, like heās trying to process several things at once and failing at all of them.
You become acutely aware of exactly where youāre sitting.
Heat floods your face and to the tips of your ears. you scramble backward, knees slipping against the couch cushions, putting space between your bodies even as the loss of his warmth makes your skin prickle.
āOh my god,ā you breathe, horrified. āI didnātāI mean, I wasn't trying toāā
āDonāt,ā he groans, slumping back, covering his flushed face with his arm. His other hand reaches down to adjust himself though he doesnāt seem to have any ideas of covering himself so you watch unabashedly. āJust donāt say anything for a second.ā
You clamp your mouth shut obediently.
The room feels too small, too quiet, every little sound like the rustle of fabric or the faint hum of the fridge in the kitchenette, even your own uneven breathing, suddenly feels magnified.
Eventually, Gojo pulls himself up, fixing dark eyes on your figure.
āIām sorry.ā You rush to say, though youāre not sure what youāre apologising for.
āItās fine, itās not your fault. It wasn't because of you, I guess I've just been pent up,ā he runs his hand through his hair and you watch as he pauses, something passing over his face before he abruptly pulls his hand away. āAnyway, itās normal.ā
You nod too fast. āRight, yes. Totally fine. Super normal, nothing weird happened.ā
āRight,ā he says. āNothing weird.ā
Your shoulders sag a little, tension leaking out now that thatās been cleared up. The adrenaline leaves behind a strange floaty sensation and you try, and fail, to push down the sudden desire to continue, to explore even further.
āWeāre definitely stopping the practice today,ā he says, crushing your dreams.
You nod again, somewhat grateful that a decision has been made for you considering the conflict thoughts warring in your head. āOkay.ā
He suddenly ruffles his hair all messy and stands up with an exaggerated groan that makes you jump. āOkay! That's over. You did good by the way. Youāre gonna be trouble when you actually start dating someone.ā
You frown. āWhy?ā
āIt's a compliment, sweets, learn to recognise them, yeah?ā He starts walking over to his kitchenette. āWant an actual drink?ā
Your brain is still somewhere back in that last kiss, struggling to catch up. āSure. Just water, right?ā
He snorts. āIām not a creep.ā
When you lean back against the couch and close your eyes to recenter yourself, he steals a glance and lets out a long exhale. He closes his eyes for a moment like heās deeply exhausted.
When he opens his eyes again and makes his way to you, his signature smirk is back.
If anyone saw how nervous you look about to text Gojo, they might think you had a crush on him. Which is absurd because you clearly have a crush on Geto.
Your thumb hovers over the send button, chewing the inside of your cheeks as you debate whether this is a good idea or not.
Itās been a week since you first asked Gojo for advice and though his methods werenāt orthodox nor was he incredible help, you still had to give him his merits. Talking to him was relaxing in a way, the constant back and forth familiar and even his judgement didnāt seem to come from a bad place. The physical stuff was a whole other story and did not influence your thoughts on how you felt about him whatsoever.
In summary, Gojo has given you determination that you couldnāt have achieved on your own.
Using this newfound confidence, you take a deep breath and finally hit send.
you: hey are you in class today?
Not even a full minute later, his reply buzzes.
gojo: yeah i am
stalking me, super fan?
you: god this is exactly why i hate texting u
gojo: :(
why whats up though
ur class doesnāt finish until 2 right?
you: yeah how did u know that?
u sure ure not my super fan?
gojo: guilty!
i just know dont ask what u cant handle
so u gonna leave me in suspense or are u gonna tell me
you: well you have class with geto right
The inside of your cheeks starts getting a little tender as you continue to gnaw and bite at the flesh, anxiously waiting as Gojoās typing bubbles appear and disappear.
gojo: yeah i do
you: can i come see you?
gojo: what
you: like ill come to your class but can you leave after so its just me and him
u were talking about creating these situations on saturday right
so like
wouldnt this be perfect?
gojo: god this conversation isnāt good for my heart
you: ?
gojo: our class ends later than urs
you: thatās fine i can wait !!
gojo: nah i dont feel like it
you: ?????
man what the hell you said youād help me
gojo: and i did
on saturday
what if i want suguru all to myself today?
you: come on please???
gojo: what if i dont want to see u
you: well i wont be bothering u this time
i just need an excuse to see him
i think whatever magic u casted over me on sat worked im feeling like scarily confident
i want to talk to him before the feeling goes away
like i feel like i can really do it this time you know?
please satoru?
gojo: god u have no idea how evil u are
fine
ill get us to go to the library
you: THANK YOU@!!!!!!
gojo: u owe me
you: YES DEFINITELY
gojo: another date this friday then
you: OKAY!!!
wait what
Waiting at the library is agonising. you attempt to complete some smaller tasks for your courses that youāve left in lieu of thinking about, well, boys. But just like every time before, your thoughts stray and settle on him. His pretty effortless smiles, his soft laughter, that sparkling glint in his eyes when he looks at you and itās like the world quietens just to listen too. his long fingers, the mole on his earlobe, his whiteā
When your phone buzzes again an hour later, you jump up from your seat to find the location of the photo Gojo sent.
You slip into the fifth library floor as quietly as possible, scanning the endless rows of students for the familiar top of someoneās head. It doesn't take long for your eyes to settle on him.
Gojo is impossible to miss, slouched low in a study booth, hood up and drooping over his hair and the bottom pulled up to cover his mouth. His arms are crossed over his chest as he stares at his laptop screen.
And of course, Geto sits across from him.
Taking in a deep breath, you slow your pace into something that might pass as a casual stroll as if you had randomly come upon them by chance and stop by their booth.
āOh, hi Satoru!ā
He doesnāt look up. āHey.ā
Then, after a manual moment, you turn to Geto. āOh my god! Geto? Wow.ā Your voice comes out pitched a little too loud. āWhat a coincidence!ā
Geto looks up with a smile. āHey, Y/N. What are the chances we ran into each other?ā
Gojo snorts and you donāt miss how pointed it is. You take the chance to glare at the side of his face but he only sinks into his hoodie with a grumble. You continue to stare, even narrowing your eyes as if itāll sharpen your gaze and he finally lets out a loud groan, flipping the hood down to ruffle his hair and sit up.
āOh no,ā he announces into the silence, loud enough to draw a few irritated glances, not that he cares. He checks his phone, staring at his empty notification list. āIt looks like my best friend accidentally locked himself out of his dorm.ā
Geto pauses. āI'm your best friend.ā
You purse your lips, watching as Gojo begins to slowly pack up his things. Granted, he only needed to close his laptop and shove it into his tote bag, without a case mind you. He refuses to look up despite your efforts to catch his gaze.
āSorry man, duty calls. I canāt help that iām such a good friend.ā He stands, slinging his bag over his shoulder. When he passes by, his arm brushing against yours despite the empty space all around, he leans down to whisper, āGood luck.ā
You donāt have the time to decipher if itās sincerity or sarcasm that you detect because he leaves, his lingering cologne the only sign that he was ever there.
You turn back to Geto, offering a small, awkward smile, wondering if heās caught on.
āWhat was that about?ā You laugh.
Geto chuckles softly. āSorry about him. You know how he can be sometimes.ā
He looks up at you patiently.
āWell, an empty spot has opened up. Are you staying to study?ā
You fight the urge to celebrate. You happily erase thoughts of Gojo from your mind, leaving the gruelling task of decoding his strange behaviour for another day. Gojoās seat is still warm when you take it, pulling out your laptop just for the act. There was no way you were wasting this golden opportunity with actually studying, donāt be silly.
āSo,ā you begin, picking at the corner of your sleeve. āAny plans this weekend?ā
āYou didnāt hear? Satoru is having a game this weekend. Itās just a preliminary but heās been hyped for it. I'm sure heād love it if you rocked up.ā
You almost laugh out loud. āNo way. He'd hate that.ā
Getoās brows lift, amused. āWhy would he hate it?ā
āBecause,ā you say, gesturing vaguely. āWe're not really friends. More like we have a symbiotic relationship. If we didnāt have that, I doubt weād even talk to each other.ā
āI don't think so,ā Geto smiles at you but instead of giving you the butterflies, it leaves you feeling unsure. āBut you should come. Not by yourself, of course, I'm sure Shoko would come along.ā
āIf she was going to go, sheād just take Utahime.ā You shift in your seat, throwing the idea around in your head. āEven if I wanted to, I don't think I know anyone else whoād want to come with.ā
āDo you want to go with me?ā
Your brain blanks.
āWhat?ā
āI was planning on going anyway,ā he says, tone casual and all your senses tunnel-vision on him. āBesides, I've been curious about the girl whoās been taking up so much of Satoruās time.ā
Your answer is obvious.
āIād love to!ā
It comes out a little too fast, a little too bright, but you canāt quite bring yourself to care. Relief, excitement, disbelief, it all tangles together in your chest until the only discernable thing left is a giddy sort of lightness.
Getoās smile widens, clearly pleased and you beam back. He hands you his phone.
āCan I have your Insta then? So I can text you the details later.ā
Your hands shake as you take it, thumbs clumsy as you type in your username, backspacing more times than youād like to admit. Youāre suddenly hyperaware of everything, the way heās close enough to see your screen, the warmth of his hand where it had just been, the ridiculous desire to go through your own profile but through his eyes settling on your mind. Later, you can already imagine stalking your own profile, scrutinising every photo, every caption, trying to imagine what it would look like to be him scrolling through for the first time.
When he takes his phone back, he doesnāt immediately pocket it. Instead, he actually looks, thumb scrolling down, humming.
Oh god, heās looking right now.
"Where's that quote from your bio from?ā He asks, glancing up briefly. āIt sounds familiar.ā
āOh, um. Itās from my favourite novel.ā Your eyes flutter across his face as you tell him the title, sneaking in a quick description to try to sell it.
āIāll have to check it out then,ā Geto says, putting his phone away. āDo you read often?ā
āNot as much as I want to. You know how it is, with school and everything. Not to mention books are crazy expensive nowadays.ā
He nods sympathetically. āThere's this small bookshop tucked away near the city. It's actually close by the rink where Satoruās game is. I could show you after his game on Saturday.ā
Your breath catches.
āAfter the game?ā You repeat, trying very hard to sound normal and not out-of-breath.
Geto nods, completely at ease.
āIf youāre not in a rush to get back after,ā he adds, considerate as ever. āIt says open pretty late.ā
You stare at him for a second, thoughts scrambling over each other.
Heās inviting you out after a game. That meant walking together, talking more, being alone without the buffer of a crowd screaming over a bunch of men slamming into each other and hitting with their sticks.
You realise youāre meant to give an answer and quickly hurry.
āYeah, that sounds perfect actually!ā You say, a touch too fast, then wince and try again, softer. āI meanāyeah. That sounds really nice.ā
āGood,ā he says simply, smile deepening. āIt's a cozy place. You could get lost in there for hours.ā
āThat sounds dangerous. I already have a book-buying problem."
āSecondhand prices,ā he reminds you. āIt's much safer.ā
You hum. āThat's debateable. Lower prices just means I have to buy more.ā
You canāt believe your luck. Not only had Geto basically invited you on a date to Gojoās game, heās also asked you to go book shopping together afterward. And somehow, you had just finished a perfectly normal conversation with him without embarrassing yourself beyond recovery.
Could things possibly get any better?
āYou know,ā he starts up again and you lean in. āSatoruās doing suspiciously good in his classes recently. Any clue why?ā
You freeze, temporarily thrown off guard. āHe better be. I don't tutor him for nothing.ā
āI knew it was you. Why are you tutoring him? If heās blackmailing you, I can help,ā he says with a straight face.
āNo, no! Nothing like that!ā You rush to explain.
He cracks a smile. āIām just joking. He's not actually as bad as his reputation makes him out to be. It's all bad rep, you know?ā
While youāve known Gojo through his reputation for as long as you can remember, youāve never once stopped to consider that might not be everything about him.
āWhat do you mean?ā
āSig Kap had a frat sweetheart two years ago,ā Geto explains, folding his hands loosely on his laptop. āShe was nice, really sweet but some of the older guys treated her like shit. When Satoru called some of the boys out for messing with her they werenāt too happy.ā
Your brows lift. āSo did they kick him out or something?ā
āNot that thereās much they could have done considering his family.ā
āWhat about them?ā
He glances at you surprised. āYou donāt know?ā
You shake your head.
āHuh.ā His expression softens into something gentler. āYeah. A lot of people approach him because they want something, connections, favours, you know the deal. He absolutely hates it. Ironically, that influence is also what kept the older guys from pushing back too hard and they couldnāt exactly scare him off so heās there to stay.ā
āAnd some people still donāt like him?ā
āSome still donāt,ā Geto confirms. āSo they spread all those stupid rumours instead. Probably easier that way since itās not exactly traceable.ā
Your stomach tightens. āWhat kind of rumours?ā
He hesitates, then shrugs. āStuff about him sleeping around. that heās messed with every girl on campus, that kind of thing. You donāt have to look so devastated, it doesnāt bother him much. If anything, it gets him more game. But itās far from the truth. I mean youāre a girl on campus and he hasnāt messed with you.ā
Something about the way he says it, calm and matter-of-fact, makes your chest ache.
āHe did earn a lot of respect back,ā Geto continues, oblivious to your growing distress. āEspecially from the younger guys. But some of the older ones never really got over it.ā
He falls silent, studying you with that gentle, searching look that makes you feel like youāre under a microscope and the spotlight is shining down on you. Whatever he sees under the lens makes him smile.
āItās nice,ā he says softly. āThat youāre so genuine with him. He doesnāt get that very often.ā
The words hit like a punch to the gut. Couldn't he have used a word other than āgenuineā? Because you arenāt genuine, far from it, and that realisation makes your stomach drop, nausea blooming sharp and sudden and upheaving the contents.
You approached Gojo with a plan just like all those who have approached him with ulterior motives in the past. And youāve used him for his friendship and his willingness to help, to get closer to the person right in front of you.
You are no better than the people Geto just described. Worse, even.
Heat rushes to your face, then drains away just as quickly, leaving you cold.
You push your chair back abruptly, the legs scraping loudly against the floor.
āWhere did Gojo go?ā you ask, wincing internally.
Geto blinks up at you, startled by the sudden shift. āOh, uh.ā He gestures vaguely toward the exit. āHe said he had to help meāthat is, his friend unlock his door. He's probably back in his room now though.ā
You nod too quickly, already stuffing your laptop into your bag with fumbling hands, cables tangling as if theyāre conspiring against you.
āAre you going after him?ā Geto asks gently.
You freeze for a split second.
Are you?Here you are, sitting across from the person you supposedly like, the person you engineered this entire situation to get closer to, and youāre about to abandon the conversation to chase after his best friend. This is your chance, the perfect golden opportunity, and youāre throwing it away. and yet, you canāt bring yourself to completely doubt yourself.
āYeah,ā you say, half a smile hovering on your lips. āIām so sorry. Thereās just something I need to say to him.ā
You bite your lip.
āSee you at the match though?"
Getoās surprise melts into an easy grin. "Don't worry about it. Good luck. And Y/N, seriously, take care of him, okay?ā
The words prick at your skin with a faint sense of deja vu, but you donāt stop to examine it. Instead, you give Geto one last shaky smile, sling your bag over your shoulder, and hurry toward the exit. Your heart pounds so loudly it drowns everything else.Ā
You knock at what you believe is his door if memory serves correct.
āGo away, I'm jerking it.ā
You canāt decide if heās being serious or just scaring unwanted guests away. Regardless, you clear your throat and talk.
āSorry for interrupting? Look, itās me, itās Y/N. Can I come in?ā
No sooner had you said your name, the door flies open, Gojo standing right behind, eyes wide and face flushed.
āY/N?Ā What are youāI mean, I thought you had that date with Suguru?ā He goes to run a hand through his hair but pauses, switching to his other hand.
āYeah well, clearly I left him to come see you.ā You sigh deeply and brush past him into his room. āThereās something I need to say to you and itās really eating up at me for some reason.ā
āNo sure, go ahead. Walk right in,ā he mumbles but doesnāt try to stop you, instead closing the door gently. āWhat are you doing here? Because if youāre here to gloat or have a girl talk, Shoko is the one for you.ā
You flop onto his couch, staring up at his ceiling. He pauses before following, the couch cushions dipping under his weight as he drops down beside you.
āGojo, Iām really sorry,ā you say, turning to him.
He stares back unamused. āI told you to call me Satoru.ā
You blink, momentarily caught off guard before correcting yourself. āSatoru. I'm really sorry.ā
āOkay.ā His frown lifts and he leans back to look at you. āAbout what?ā
You open your mouth, then close it again, suddenly unsure where to even start.
āAbout everything?ā You try weakly.
He raises a brow. āThat narrows it down.ā
You groan, dragging a hand over your face. āOkay, specifically I feel like I've been using you and being annoying and dragging you into my mess. And also I abandoned you in the library which was rude and I donāt know what I was thinking. I guess I wasn't and I'm really sorry.ā
Gojo blinks at you and you hold your breath for the verdict.
ā...thatās it?ā
āThatās not āitā, thatās a lot,ā you argue, pushing yourself up. āYou've been helping me this whole time and I'm just barging into your life, asking for unreasonable favors and taking up your time.ā
He watches you for a long moment, something unreadable flickering behind his eyes, surprise, confusion, maybe even something softer that he quickly buries under a flippant expression.
āThat's it?ā he repeats, slower this time.
You nod, twisting in your fingers together in your lap, the fight leaving your body as quick as it came. āI mean, it's not nothing. I know I've been a lot. And you didnāt have to help me at all, with any of it, but you did and Iā¦ā Your voice falters. āI don't want you to think I was just⦠using you.ā
Silence settles between you, thick but not entirely uncomfortable. The hum of his mini fridge in the corner fills the gaps. Somewhere down the hall, a door slams and laughter echoes faintly before fading.
Gojo exhales through his nose and leans back, head tipping against the couch cushion as he stares up at the ceiling.
āYouāre terrible,ā he mutters.
He turns his head to look at you properly, blue eyes sharp in a way that makes your chest tighten. Up close like this, without the buffer of banter or crowds or motion, itās impossible to ignore how intense he can be when he isnāt performing for anyone. You've had the privilege to see this side of him a few times, and the thought that heās let you in and youāve only gone and used him fills you with more guilt.
āYou didnāt abandon me in the library,ā he continues. āI left on my own free will, remember?ā
āYeah butāā
āAnd youāre not using me,ā he adds, voice flattening slightly. āIf you were, then you arenāt using me to my full potential.ā
You huff a weak laugh. āThanks?ā
āI mean it,ā he says, not smiling. āPeople who use others donāt show up at their door looking like theyāre going to throw up from guilt.ā
Heat creeps up your neck. āI did not look like that.ā
āYou did,ā he says easily. āStill kind of do.ā
You shove his shoulder lightly. He barely moves, solid as ever, but the corner of his mouth lifts and the tension in your chest loosens at the sight.
āSo⦠youāre not mad?ā You ask carefully.
He considers that more seriously than you expected. āI was.ā
The worry comes back tenfold.
āBut not for the reason you think. So stop looking like youāve aged ten years, sweets, itās not a good look on you.ā
You wait for him to elaborate but he doesnāt.
You sigh, unable to keep up with the emotional whiplash and opt to instead throw it all away.
āOkay, well thatās cryptic," you mutter.
He shrugs. āI'm a mysterious guy. Itās all part of the irresistable, untouchable charm.ā
āI donāt see how you can be mysterious when youāre so loud.ā
āI open up to you and this is what I get?ā
āYou did not open up.ā
He turns his head back toward the ceiling. āAnd now I'm closing back down.ā
You roll your eyes, but the knot in your chest has loosened enough that you can breathe again, you almost miss this back and forth and it seems he does too because he relaxes fully into his couch. Without thinking, you mimic him, shoulder brushing his. This time, neither of you moves away.
The proximity feels different than before. You've been closer to him than this, and you randomly recall being on his lap for some reason unrelated to this specific moment and the charged, quiet atmosphere.
After a moment, he speaks again, softer.
āDid you at least get what you wanted?ā
You hesitate, the question knocking you out of orbit. āI think so. I mean he asked me to go to the game with him. and then a bookstore after.ā
Gojo goes still beside you.
āMy game?ā He shakes his head with a scoff. āFigures. Well, good for you.ā
You twist the fabric of your sleeve between your fingers, suddenly unsure why that answer feels so unsatisfying.
āYeah,ā you say anyway, forcing brightness into your voice. āIt is good.ā
He hums noncommittally, eyes still fixed somewhere on the ceiling. For someone who never shuts up, his silence feels louder than anything he could say. You sneak glances at him from the corner of your eye, observing the strong curve of his nose, the harsh bob of his Adam's apple, the rise and fall of his chest and his big hands youāve had the opportunity to feel on your ass.
The quiet stretches, though it is far from quiet inside your head.
Then, before you can stop yourself, youāre already opening your mouth.
āCan I ask you something?ā
His gaze slides to you instantly, sharp and attentive as if he was waiting for you to break the silence first. āNot to be that guy but you just did.ā
āA real question.ā You roll your eyes though his somewhat predictable rage bait helps ease some tension. Still, you hesitate, throat tight. If you say it out loud, it becomes real and no longer a suppressed fantasy. But if you donāt say anything, this feeling in your chest might never go away, tainting every future you might have with Geto.
āHow do you know what youāre doing?ā You ask.
One white brow lifts. āIn what context? I'm good at a lot of things. You're gonna have to narrow it down, sweets.ā
You groan softly. āWith girls. With⦠touching. And stuff. Etcetera.ā
Understanding dawns slowly, then all at once. You donāt catch the shift in experience because you stare stubbornly at your hands clasp in your lap, heat flooding your face.
āOh.ā
āI just donāt know,ā you admit, voice small. āI don't know what I'm doing at all and itās embarrassing.ā
He sits up a little, attention sharpening in a way that makes your skin prickle.
āY/N.ā
You press on before he can interrupt. āI mean, I know theoretically, obviously. That's what bio class is for right? But I know in practice Iāll just freeze. Or overthink or do nothing. And if things ever go further with Geto, I don't want to be useless. You mentioned heās had exes before, right? But I haven't. And that kind of sucks to think about.ā
Then softly. āYou're probably the closest thing to experience I have.ā
āUseless,ā he starts. āIs not the right word I'd use. Suguru would never think that. Heās not a dick.ā
You finally look at him. āI donāt want him to regret it. Or think I'm awkward. or that I don't want him.ā
He studies you for a long moment, jaw tight, eyes searching your face like heās looking for something he hopes not to find. āAnd youāre telling me this becauseā¦?ā
You scoff. āYou're not stupid. I mean sure, you almost failed babyās first statistics but youāre not dumb.ā
āNo, I guess I'm not, thanks,ā he sighs, running a hand through his hair. āBut I was kind of hoping maybe I'm still fantasising.ā
āYou were fantasising before?ā
āLet's not go there.ā
āItās a Friday,ā you say slowly. "Shouldn't you have a hook up right about now?ā
He pouts, looking oddly down. āI wasn't feeling like it.ā
āSo you had to use your hand.ā
āI wasn't jerking off, Y/N.ā
Neither of you believe that statement. Here you are, sitting on the couch of campus heartthrob Gojo Satoru, joking around about the lack of a female body against him while youāre upset about being a virgin. Even Gojo, who isnāt admittedly the best at math, shouldnāt struggle with putting two and two together.
āRight, I believe you.ā You bite your lip, opening your eyes wider as you plead. āI just hate feeling unprepared. Youāve seen just how bad I freeze. Canāt you help me?ā
He chews on his lips aggressively before finally groaning, running a hand down his face. āYou have the worst ideas known to man. Fine. I'll help you. But we're stopping if it gets weird.ā
āObviously.ā
āDo you even remember how to kiss?ā
āFind out for yourself.ā
You grab his collar and tug him towards you, smacking your lips against his the second heās in range. It's not the graceful, fireworks-exploding moment from rom-coms, more like two magnets clashing awkwardly, teeth bumping before you recall the right angle. Gojo chuckles into the kiss, the vibration tickling your mouth, and you pull back just enough to glare at him.
āIt hurts that you donāt remember my lessons, sweets,ā Gojo purrs, clearly enjoying your fluster.
āShut up and kiss me properly,ā you mutter, snarky even as your cheeks burn.
You dive back in, and this time it clicks, most likely due to his more active participation. Your lips move in sync, his tongue slipping past your teeth. It's surprisingly nice, all heat and shared air, making your stomach flip in a way thatās equal parts nerves and excitement. You didnāt realise how much you were craving this since the last time.
Gojoās hands stay loose on your waist, respectful but firm, until he deepens the kiss with a low hum. You feel him shift under you, his body reacting before his brain catches up. When you break apart for air, his eyes are darker, pupils blown wide. He adjusts his hips, and thereās no missing the semi-hard bulge straining against his jeans because it nudges insistently against your inner thigh.
You both look down.
āUh, yeah,ā he says, voice a little rough, something like accusation in his eyes as he glares down at Gojo junior.Ā āGuess that means you do remember lesson one after all. Mind if I lose the pants?ā
You snort, trying to play it cool despite the heat pooling in your gut. āNot so reluctant now, huh?ā
āGame is game.ā
He grins, all cock swagger, and pops the buttons off his jeans. They slide down his legs in a heap, leaving him in snug black boxers that do nothing to hide his growing interest. Gojoās leaner than youād pegged him for, abs carved from lazy gym sessions, waist dipping in before flaring to solid shoulders. But your eyes zero in lower, where his cock twitches half-hard against the fabric, outlining a decent length thatās got you curiously intrigued rather than intimidated.
When he sits back down, he leans back on his palms and smirks. āYou can touch me, you know. I bet itās better than just looking.ā
āAnywhere?ā
āI'm practically offering myself up to you on a platter. Yes, Y/N. Everywhereās fair game.āĀ
You eye him for a little longer. He's not as big as he carried himself around to be.
As if sensing your unspoken realisation, he hurriedly explains, "I'm not completely hard yet.ā
You nod, sympathetically. āRight, no I get it.ā
āIām serious, Y/N, stop looking at me like that.ā
He grabs your hand and places it on his abs, ignoring your sudden squeak.
āYouāre going to have to work to get me there.ā He watches as you hesitate, his heartbeat quickening slightly under your touch.
āThis seems less like teaching and more like you just wanting someone to get you off.ā
āYouāre learning.ā Despite his teasing tone, he eases you closer to him. āLook, itās not exactly rocket science and what I tell you probably wonāt apply to everyone. But most guys are animals so if you can make them feel good then thatās all that matters. What's meta for most guys though is probably their neck and lower stomach. But you can start anywhere.ā
His smirk falters just a tad when you explore, tentatively at first, palms sliding over his ribs and thumbs brushing his nipples until they pebble under your touch. Gojoās breath hitches, but he keeps it together, murmuring encouragement. āI guess you could try there too. Fuck, this is kind of embarrassing. Canāt you be normal and go at my neck or something?ā
āYour neck?ā Your fingers slide up to touch him there but he laughs and gently brushes your hand away.
āOkay, donāt strangle me. When I say touch, I don't just mean with your fingers. You can touch your lips too, canāt you?ā
You bite your lips and nod, wetting them quickly with your tongue. You lean in closer, your lips finding the pulse point of his neck. It's a quick peck at first, testing, and he just arches a brow, unimpressed.
Fine, challenge accepted.
You brace yourself on his shoulders and lick a slow stripe up the tendon, tasting salt and faint cologne which isnāt the best tasting thing in the world, so you nibble the skin. Gojo hums, head tilting to give you better access, and you dive in, sucking lightly, alternating with kisses that leave faint marks.
Itās heady, this rush of control. His bare chest radiates warmth against your arm, heavy breaths ghosting your ear as he lets you lead.
āHungry, are you?ā Gojo finds his footing against the absurd situation because if thereās one thing he knows, itās receiving attention from pretty women. If he closes his eyes like so, focusing only on the cute licks against his neck, he can almost ignore the fact that itās coming from you. āI'd be careful not to leave any marks. Girls get jealous easily, you know?ā
You roll your eyes at his very unsexy comment. He's underestimating you, youāre sure he is, and youāre even more determined to prove him wrong.
You kiss down his neck, licking at the column of his neck, and when you find this soft patch of skin, pale under your lips and glimmering with a thin layer of sweat, you do what your instincts roar at you to do and bite him as heās mid yapping.
āI never really let girls kiss me like this, so be grateful that Iāohfuck!ā
Gojoās reaction is immediate as a downright sinful moan escapes his pretty lips unchecked. His hands tighten in your hips, head dropping forward, panting as he catches his breath from the sudden sharp inhale.
You let go, licking at the mark left behind. āOh, sorry. You donāt do marks, right?ā
āThat wasā¦ā He trails off, eyes dark as he holds you in his gaze. āJesus, sweets, where did you even learn that kind of stuff?ā
You shrug, letting him hold you back and feeling a little bit like a rabid animal. āIt was just something I wanted to do. Was it bad? Did it hurt?ā
āNo, it was fine. Keep going just⦠use your hands a bit more too,ā he hurries to add on, clearing his throat and loosening his hold on you. āIt feels better if you use both your mouth and hands at the same time. Keep going, but donāt forget the rest of me.ā
Finding no error in his words, you enthusiastically go back to kissing and sucking on his neck, tasting the salt of his sweat. Meanwhile, you slide your hands down his chest, marveling at how smooth he feels despite his muscle.
When you graze your finger tips between the medial line of his abs, you feel him shiver and you detach your lips from his neck to watch his eyes track your every move, hungry and unblinking.
āAtta girl,ā he rasps, abs flexing under your palm and he shivers as you slide even further down, hand hovering his stomach. His cock visibly thickens in his boxers as you trace the ridges of his abs.āThatās it. Take your time, sweets. I'm not going anywhere.ā
You never considered that Gojo would be so vocal during sex, not that this even counted as sex yet. If anything, that made you even more curious, wondering if he himself knew how much he was talking and how little any of it even meant. In case he didnāt, you didnāt dare talk in case it would break the spell.
Your fingers skim the waistband of his boxers and he sucks in a breath, voice dropping an octave.
āFuck, yeah. Thatās the spot.ā The fabric tents fully now, his cock hard and straining, the tip outlined clearly. It's thicker than you expected, pulsing with need, and the sight sends a thrill straight to your core.
Gojoās eyes flick between your hand and your face, flushed and focused. āSee? told you itād wake up. want to see all of it?ā
You nod, eyes trained on his bulge.
He grins, taking your hands to hook your thumbs into the sides of his boxers. He helps you slightly though he lets you do most of the work. Emboldened, you tug the boxers down just enough to free his cock, watching it spring up, thicker now, veins prominent along the shaft, the head flushed and glistening with a bead of precum.
Your first words are, of course, very sexy.
āOh damn.ā
Gojo laughs breathlessly. For my own ego, I'm going to take that as a good thing.ā
āIt just doesnāt look how I expected it to.ā
That makes him frown. He ducks his head to meet your gaze. āHey. She has feelings too, you know. Donāt imply that sheās ugly, sheāll sag.ā
āShe?ā It's so ridiculous you snort, the nervousness running away to let curiousity fuel your movements once again, fingers curling around his hot, velvety length. He's rock hard under your soft touch, precum slicking your palm as you pump him experimentally. Gojo groans low in his throat, head falling back against the couch.
āShit, just likeānghāthat,ā he grits out, voice wrecked. The sound hits you like a spark, raw and primal, making your thighs clench. āMyāmy dick has she/her pronouns. Itās 2026 now, get woke.ā
Still looking at you, he takes your hand again, wrapping it around his shaft.
āHold it properly. Feel how hot it is.ā
He groans softly as you hold him, guiding your hand up and down in a slow stroke, pressing down where heās sensitive just the way he likes it. āSqueeze gently and twist your wrist as you move.ā
He demonstrates the twist motion, his large hand enveloping yours, precum beading at his tip from both the sight and feel of you.
He lets you go, leaning back on his elbows, enjoying the view of you jacking him off. āYouāre a natural, keep going, just like that.ā
His breathing becomes heavier, his abdomen tensing. He canāt help but buck slightly into your hand.
Despite his unattractive dirty talk, it doesnāt drive away the power you feel and it doesnāt take away from the sounds, the way his body trembles under your control. It's all so intoxicating, way better than any awkward fumble youāve imagined with Geto late at night with your hands down your pants.
To shut him up, you squeeze a little tighter and he hisses, pulling you away.
āSlow down,ā he pants, catching his breath. He closes his eyes for a moment before locking you in a fierce gaze. āDo you usually shove your finger inside when youāre dry?ā
āWhat?ā
āThis is why lube exists, woman. God, my poor lady,ā He looks up at you, eyes trailing down from your eyes to your lips.
āPlease donāt refer to your dick as a lady.ā
āIāve gotten no complaints so far.ā Gojo reaches up, tracing your bottom lip with his thumb, dragging it down slightly. āHave you ever spat on anyone?ā
āExcuse me?ā You look down at him as if heās grown another head.
He lets out a strangled groan, hips bucking up under you. āYeah, keep looking at me like that and spit on my dick. Give her the good old hawk tuah.ā
Your grimace only grows and he bites his lip, the corners quirking up. āPlease,ā he whispers and youāve lost.
The word hangs between you like a dare, his blue eyes locked on yours, all wide and pleading in a way that clashes hilariously with his usual attitude if the unsure quiver to his lips didnāt wreck you.
Gojoās cock throbs in your loose grip, the head leaking more precum that drips down the shaft, making your fingers slick without even trying. You hesitate, face heating up at the sheer audacity, but the way his abs tense, the subtle roll of his hips begging for more, chips away at your resistance.
āFine,ā you mutter, rolling your eyes to mask the flutter in your stomach and you must have imagined the way he groans. āBut just know Iām judging you the entire time.ā
āEven better,ā he moans.
You lean over him, one hand steadying on his thick thighs, firm muscle under smooth skin, and purse your lips as you spit on him. Itās awkward as hell, the glop of spit landing off-centre on the underside of his shaft, but you smear it around with your palm.
The glide turns smoother instantly, wet and filthy, your strokes picking up speed as his cock slicks up fully.
Gojoās reaction is immediate, a deep, rumbling moan spills from his chest, his head knocking back against the couch with a thud, not that he notices. āFuuuck, yesāthatās it, just like that.ā
His hands fist the fabric of the couch on either side of his hips, knuckles white, like heās fighting not to grab you and take over. But he doesnāt, he lets you work him, hips jerking up in shallow thrusts to meet your rhythm, the tip bumping your palm on every upstroke.
āKeep going, tighter⦠shit, youāre killing me here.ā
The power rush hits you harder now, watching him come undone under your touch. His cock feels massive in your hand, thick and veined, pulsing hotly as you pump from base to tip, thumb swiping over the slit to collect more precum and spread it down. You can feel every ridge, every twitch, and itās nothing like the vague fantasies youād spun about Geto. This is real, messy, and way more intense. Your own arousal builds, thighs pressing together as you grind subtly against nothing, the heat between your legs turning insistent.
āDoes it⦠feel good?ā You ask, voice breathy and you slow your strokes just to tease, squeezing the base and watching in awe as a fresh bead of precum pearl at the head.
He cracks one eye open, gaze hazy and dark, lips parted in a pant. āGood? Sweets, donāt sell yourself short.ā
A grin tugs at his mouth but it falters into a groan when you resume, faster now, the wet schlick of your hand echoing in the room causing you to squirm.
āDonāt stop,ā he all but whines. āGonna cum if you keep this up. Want me to, sweets? Want me to paint your hand or what?ā
The crudeness should turn you off, but it doesnāt, it only amps up the thrill, making you bold. You nod, biting your lip as you lean closer, free hand bracing on his chest to feel his heart hammering.
āYeah, do it. cum for me.ā
Gojoās control snaps like a rubber band. his moans pitch higher, body arching as his cock swells in your grip, veins bulging. āFuckāfuck, canāt help it, Iām gonnaāā
He bucks hard once, twice, and then heās erupting, thick spurts of cum shooting from the tip to splatter your fingers, his stomach, even a streak across his abs. It's hot, sticky, rope after rope as you milk him through it, not knowing what else to do. You slow your strokes until heās spent, twitching sensitively in your palm.Ā
He slumps back, chest rising and falling like he ran a marathon, a lazy, disbelieving laugh bubbling out. He runs a hand down his face, groaning softly.
āI amā¦ā He lets out another breathless laugh, head dropping back against the armrest of the couch. āSo fucking washed. What the hell was that, sweets?ā
You blink, a little dazed yourself. Your hand is still loosely wrapped around him, slick and messy, and only when his eyes flick down do you jolt and snatch your hand back like youāve been burnt.
āIāI donāt know,ā you mumble, gratefully accepting the tissue he hands you, awkwardly deciding to dab at his stomach and abs too, anywhere your eyes can safely land that isnāt his softening cock. āThat was⦠hey, wait a minute. Shouldnāt i be asking you? What the hell was that spitting thing?ā
He shrugs, your body moving with the motion as you remain on his lap. āI told you, thereās some things some guys like and some donāt. As a note of reference, maybe donāt spit on Suguru. Youāll kill his ego.ā
He has the audacity to smirk at the thought considering the state of him, hair a mess, cheeks flushed, mouth pink and kiss-swollen from all the swearing and groaning.
āYou're disgusting,ā you accuse weakly, trying not to think about how heād looked under you a few seconds ago, jaw slack, eyes glazed, like youād wrung the soul out of him.
āMmm.ā His gaze drags over your face, down the line of your throat, lingering a beat too long at your chest before he drags it back up. āSo, how are you feeling after all that?ā
āEmbarrassed,ā you say immediately.
āBut kinda turned on, too?ā he guesses, just as fast.
Your mouth drops open. āI did not say that.ā
āDonāt have to,ā he says, maddening. āYouāre still sitting on me, you know.ā
You freeze. You're still straddling his lap, knees planted on either side of his thighs on the couch, hips pressed to his, fingers bunched at his stomach. You'd be so focused on that scrunched up look on his face when he came that you kind of forgot to be mortified about the position.
Now you remember.
āI was busy,ā you mutter, shifting like youāre about to climb off.
His hands come up automatically, one at your waist, one braced at your hip, holding you there without quite pulling you back down. āHey, hey. I didn't say you had to move.ā
āBut youāre allā¦ā you wave a hand vaguely at his lap, face burning. āPost-nut clarity or whatever. You should be resting or something.ā
āThatās hilarious, do you think Iām an old man?ā He huffs a laugh. āIf my stamina lasted one puny handjob I would never show my face anywhere. Hey, donāt glare at me like that. you know what that does to me. you glaring at me and spitting on my cock while you jerk me offāfuck.ā
āDon't say it like that,ā you hiss, heat flooding your chest. āYou literally told me to.ā
āAnd you did so good,ā he croons. āLook at you, all flustered now. You were seconds away from calling me pathetic, you know.ā
āHow are you turning this on me? Youāre the one that liked it,ā you shoot back, shoulder tensing.
His fingers flex at your waist, like heās remembering it. āYeah. I really, really did.ā
The way he says it sends a tiny shiver through you. You feel ridiculously aware of yourself suddenly, of your damp palms on his chest, of the way your thighs are pressed around him, of the restless thrum under your skin youāve been trying not to notice since he first groaned for you.
You shift again, intending to put some space between you, and hiss as the movement drags you a little too firmly against him, sparking through the ache low in your belly.
You go very still and so does he.
His eyes flicker, dropping for a fraction of a second to the point where your hips meet his. You can feel the change in him, no longer wrecked and loose-limbed, but sharpened like heās honing in on every tiny flinch.
āOh,ā he says softly. āFeeling something, sweets?ā
āDonāt start,ā you warn, feeling every urge to catapult yourself off his lap. His hand tightens on your waist, thumbs rubbing absent circles, maddeningly casual. āCan you let me go already?ā
āBut itās not over yet, are you sure you want to miss the best part? If I said I wanted to make it your turn, would you say no?ā
The question hangs between you, heavier than his usual teasing.
āThis isnāt⦠about that.ā
āSure it is,ā he whispers, lips curved into a wicked grin. āYou wanna learn how to make a guy feel good right? Then you also need to know what you like. If you know what works for you, itās easier to tell him what works for him.ā
Has Gojo always been so reasonable?
āBesides,ā he continues when youāre not rushing to sign up to his touch. āIām being selfless here. You canāt seriously think I'd let you walk out of here without repaying the favour first, right?ā
āWay to sound like a douche.ā You swat at his chest, a weak attempt to appear levelheaded.
āHow else am I supposed to say it?ā He laughs softly, catching your wrist but not pushing it away, thumb stroking over your pulse. āI want to touch you. properly. Can I?ā
Your stomach swoops.
āJust to know what it feels like?ā
āExactly.ā His smile goes crooked at the edges. āNow youāre getting it.ā
You stare at him, breathing shallow. Your heart is thudding way too fast. youāre hyperaware of your own body again, of the way your panties stick uncomfortably, of the restless ache thatās only been getting worse, of how easy it would be to fall into his tempting embrace.
āHey, come back to me,ā Gojo murmurs. āWe don't have to do anything you donāt want. I promise I'm not a dick. So? What do you want, sweets?ā
You look down at where his hands rest, big and warm on your hips, fingers flexing like heās trying very hard to stay put.
You could say no, you know that. He'd let you hop off, probably make a dumb joke to break the tension, and the both of you can go back to pretending the constant physical touch is driving you up the wall. But you also know your legs are still a little unsteady, and that every time you shift you have to bite back a sound you really donāt want him to hear.
You swallow, hard.
āYou have to listen,ā you say finally. āIf I say stop, you stop. and none of your stupid comments either.ā
His expression sobers instantly, hands jumping a little at your hips. āPromise. Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye.ā
āIām telling you, when you say shit like that, everything goes back inside.ā
āYeah, yeah, I get it, you want me quiet. So can I touch you or are you going to keep torturing us both?ā
āYou deserve the torture,ā you grumble, then quieter, āBut, yeah. okay.ā
He hums. āNot good enough. Say it again?ā
You bite back a complaint. āI want you toā¦touch me.ā
It comes out barely more than a whisper, but it hits him like a truck. His eyes darken, lashes lowering as he sucks in a breath. One moment youāre straddling him, the next heās sat up and turned you around so your back leans against his chest, his breath tickling your neck.
āYou donāt know what you do to me,ā he groans, hands sliding down to your stomach. His fingers play with the hem, nails barely grazing your bare skin. āCan I?ā
You shiver, looking down to watch his hands with anticipation. Swallowing, you brace yourself and nod.
āGood girl,ā he breathes.
His hand trails under your shirt, fingertips tracing nonsense shapes on your skin. He doesnāt go straight where you know youāre aching for him to go. Instead, he takes his time, mapping out the sensitive spots he finds, where your muscles jump when he squeezes, lowering his hand to where your breath stutters when he drags his knuckles along the inside of your thigh.
āYou're wound so tight,ā he murmurs, half to himself. āRelax for me, Y/N.ā
āShut up and stop teasing,ā you hiss, and then gasp when his hand finally slips higher, brushing over the edge of your waistband.
āIs that a no?ā He asks instantly, stilling.Ā
]You want to throttle him. āIām just⦠nervous.ā
āOf course you are,ā he says, voice going stupidly soft in your ear, hands playing with the fabric. āThe first timeās always weird. But it doesnāt have to be bad-weird.ā
He slowly slips his hand under the band, feeling you go still.
āHey.ā He presses his lips to your hair, mumbling soft words of praise. āYou're okay, youāre doing good. Just breathe for me.ā
You do, albeit shakily, his fingertips brushing the damp centre of your panties.
āYouāre already⦠Jesus," he says quickly. āI really did a number on you, huh? And without even touching you, too.ā
āIf you donāt shut up, I'm leaving,ā you threaten weakly.
He chuckles, guiding your attention away. Gojo slides your shorts down so you can see exactly where his fingers press against, a rush of heat flooding your cheeks at the sight of his thick fingers prodding against the backdrop of the panties you chose out this morning. If you knew something like this would happen, you would have worn something else.
Gojo thankfully doesnāt comment on it. Instead, he slowly explores, no sudden movements, no overwhelming pressure, just the occasional slide against your clit.
āOkay?ā he asks, and you realise youāve gone silent, holding your breath again.
āYeah,ā you gasp. āJust feel different thanānevermind.ā
āDifferent good?ā He prompts, thumb pressing down on your clit and you jolt, an audible inhale escaping you.
You feel his arms tighten around you.
āOh, there we go,ā he mutters, sounding ridiculously pleased with himself. āThat got you.ā
You donāt dignify that with an answer, not that you have the capacity to because the next moment, heās moving his fingers with practiced purpose. His thumb circles your swollen clit through the damp fabric, the barrier muffling any sharp pleasure though it helps you wrap your head around the sensation.
When you start lifting your hips to meet his touch, he knows he has you where he wants you.
With his other fingers, he slowly slides your panties to the sides and touches you directly. The effect is immediate, your eyes snap down to watch, body tensing, want like youāve never known it before shocking you.
The sight of your own arousal makes you wetter and he abandons his touch to touch you directly.
āLook at that,ā he coos in your ear, voice breathy with awe and smug satisfaction. āHere you were acting like you wanted to leave when youāre this wet. Thought I wouldn't know, sweets? That I couldn't see you eye my dick all hungry like that?ā
He emphasises his words with a harsh pinch of your clit and your head falls back to rest on his shoulders with a filthy moan ripped from your throat, raw and unprocessed.
Gojo takes the chance to kiss your neck.
You should hit him for his words, you really should. But instead, your hand flies up to his forearm, nails digging in when he slides a finger to circle your entrance and the world briefly whites out.
He groans quietly, like your reaction is doing something to him. āThatāsāfuck, youāre so cute. Do that again.ā
āDonāt tease,ā you say again, voice barely there and brain too mushy to think of something original.
And like he knows, Gojo slowly slides a finger into your pussy and the pressure temporarily pushes out all of the pleasure. But then his free hand is playing with your clit and heās telling you how good you are and how pretty you sound, and it comes back.
He thrusts that finger in and out slowly, letting you adjust to the intrusion and when youāre sighing soft moans and broken demands again, he curls it and doesnāt stop moving. He could easily overpower you, could pin you down and take, take, take, but he doesnāt. Every time you tense like you might pull away, he backs off just enough, murmuring at your ear, though by the time youāre close you havenāt panicked in a while.
Heās the one breathing hard when you start to chase your peak, like heās the one being touched.
Youāre writhing now, his arms having to tighten around you to keep you still as he slides another finger inside.Ā
āThatās it,ā he whispers, panting when your thighs clamp around his hand, head tipped back on his shoulders and eyes starting to roll back. āThere you go. I've got you. Let go for me, yeah? Doing so good for me, sweets.ā
āS-Satoru,ā you choke out, the name ripped from somewhere deep.
His whole body jolts behind you and you feel a twitch near your ass.
āOh, fuck,ā he groans, like youāve done something filthy. āSay my name like that again, I swear to godāā
You donāt because suddenly, youāre gone.
His fingers pressed against the spongy spot inside, his thumb circling your clit, and suddenly everything tightens then snaps and youāre tumbling, shaking around the steady anchor of his hand and his arm and his voice in your ear. He doesnāt speed up, letting you ride your orgasm on his hand, mumbling sweet nothings against your sweaty neck.
Itās messy and overwhelming and a little scary for a second, then his palm is flat over your lower stomach, grounding you as waves of sensation roll through your body. His other hand finally gentles and you can breathe again.
When you finally slump back against him boneless, the room feels dimmer. your chest heaves, skin prickling with aftershocks that he guides you through.
He eases his hand away and wipes it on his pants, keeping you steady on his lap.
āHey,ā he says softly, lips brushing your hairline. āYou still with me?ā
You nod, or at least you try to. āI think so.ā
āYeah?ā He presses, smiling against your skin.
āYeah.ā
āGood.ā he exhales like heās been holding his breath with you. āYou did amazing, sweets.ā
āYou're making me sound like a dog.ā
āWell, you were very obedient,ā he says lightly, then winces. āOkay, that sounded kinda bad.ā
He huffs a quiet laugh, the sound rumbling through his chest where youāre still half-leaning against him. One of his hands comes up, hovering for a second like he isnāt sure if touching you again is allowed, then settles gently at your side.
You catch your breath, stealing a glance. His hair is a mess, cheeks flushed, eyes still blown wide but thereās something softer around the edges, so different from his usual cocky composure that it does something strange to your chest.
āYou're the worst,ā you mumble, just to say something.
āOh?ā his brows lift. āYou seemed pretty satisfied with the lesson.ā
You keep your mouth shut because there is absolutely no winning that argument.
Silence falls, not heavy nor awkward, but certainly unfamiliar. Without the distraction of movement or adrenaline, your mind starts spinning into the consequences of your actions.
And the fact that youāre still sitting between his thighs.
You stiffen and he notices immediately.
āUh. Do you⦠want toāā
āYes,ā you say at the exact same time he says, āWe should probablyāā
You both stop, voice overlapping as you tell each other to continue then stop again. Itās funny if not awkward and you laugh, startled and breathless.
āOkay,ā he says, hands lifting slightly in surrender. āYou first.ā
āNo, you go,ā you insist, scrambling upright a little too fast. The room tilts for half a second and you grab his thigh to steady yourself.
His hands hover again, then settle at your waist just in case.
āCareful,ā he murmurs. āYouāre still a little⦠yāknow?ā
You straighten and stand away from the couch, legs wobbling in a way you pretend not to notice. The cool air hits your skin and reality comes rushing back in a tidal wave of embarrassment.
Your skirt rests on your thighs but theyāre crumpled, and your hair is surely a mess.
Gojo watches, biting his lip hard enough to leave teeth marks. He stands too, running a hand through his hair, suddenly looking almost shy as he grabs his discarded shirt and pulls it back on.
For a moment, neither of you know where to look.
You fixate on a crack in the wall and he studies the floor.
āDo you, uh⦠want me to walk you back?ā
The normalcy of the question feels surreal.
āIām fine with walking,ā you say quickly. āThe weatherās nice so.ā
āYeah,ā he nods. āFresh air. Definitely.ā
You grab your bag with fumbling hands, nearly knocking it off the couch in the process. He catches it before it hits the floor, fingers brushing yours again as he hands it over.
Neither of you pull away immediately. Then, you both do at the same time.
āRight,ā you say.
āRight,ā he echoes.
He opens the door for you, peeking into the hallway first before gesturing.
āYou sure you donāt want me to walk you back?ā
You almost cry at the visual of a way out. āNo, no, I'm fine. Itās not too far anyway.ā
Gojo studies your face like heās trying to decide whether to argue or not. For once, he doesnāt look like heās in on some big secret. He just looks uncertain.
āIf you say so,ā he mutters, stepping aside.
You slip past him into the hallway, letting out a big sigh of relief when you hear the door close gently behind you with a soft click. Looking over your shoulder, you see Gojo follow you out anyway.
Your feet slow. āYou donāt have to, I'm really okay.ā
āIām not,ā he says quickly, shoving his hands into his pockets. āIām just heading in the same direction. That's all. What a coincidence?ā
āUh-huh.ā
The staircase is only a few doors down, but the short walk stretches, each step heavy with things unsaid. You can hear voices downstairs, life continuing on, oblivious.
At the top of the stairwell, you stop.
āAre we still going the same way?ā
He shakes his head.
āIāll see you around,ā you settle on when the silence stretches.
āSee you, Y/N.ā
You take one step down, then another. After a third, you glance back.
Gojo is still there, watching. your chest does something uncomfortable as he waits.
āGoodnight, Satoru,ā you say softly.
He blinks, like the name catches him off guard every time. Then he smiles, small but warm.
āNight, sweets.ā
When you reach the bottom and push out into the night air, it feels shockingly cool against your overheated skin. The campus is quiet, streetlights painting everything gold and shadowed, the distant sound of traffic humming like white noise.
You walk faster than necessary because if you slow down, the thoughts will quickly flood in. And if you start thinking, you might realise that somewhere between asking him for help and leaving his room tonight, something has gone very, very wrong.Ā
Youāre not sure why you care so much.Ā
You tell yourself itās because Geto will be there, because this is a chance to make a real impression, because this is what all of it has been building toward. But as you stand in front of your mirror, turning this way and that, smoothing imaginary wrinkles, adjusting your hair for the third time, checking your reflection from angles no one in real life would ever see, you realise this isnāt normal.Ā
Youāve never put this much thought into a ācasualā outing before.Ā
Not the outfit, carefully balanced between cute and effortless, like you didnāt spend forty minutes deciding between two nearly identical tops just for the jersey to cover it anyway. Not the makeup, soft enough to look natural, deliberate enough to feel like armor. Not the way your stomach flips every time you picture stepping into the arena.Ā
You know deep down this isnāt about Geto. That thought alone makes your chest feel tight.Ā
You grab your purse before you can overthink it further and leave.Ā
When you walk into the arena, the roar of the crowd hits you like a physical force, loud and electric, buzzing with anticipation and cheer. It bleeds through the concrete walls, through your bones, and through the floor beneath your shoes.Ā
The game hasnāt officially started yet, you made sure to come before then, but the energy is already at a fever pitch.
Your eyes sweep the rink automatically, searching. And you spot him immediately.Ā
Gojo, in his navy and white jersey, skates across the ice like it belongs to him, like the rink exists solely to accommodate his momentum. It doesn't seem to matter that his helmet obscures most of his face, youād recognise him anywhere. the easy confidence in the way he moves, the loose, effortless posture, the casual speed that looks like he isnāt even tryingāitās unmistakable.Ā
His hair, damp under his helmet, peeks out in soft white tufts. His cheeks are slightly flushed from exertion, breath fogging faintly in the cold air as he glides past teammates, exchanging easy shoves and taps of sticks. He's the easiest person in the world to look at and the hardest to look away from.Ā
He glances up towards the stands during warm-ups, scanning lazily, and your heart stutters. You freeze, suddenly aware of yourself, of the crowd, of how ridiculous it is to hope heāll notice you among hundreds of people wearing the same colours.Ā
I mean, all these people? All wearing the team jersey? And you wouldnāt call yourself beautiful, not in the kind of way that makes someone stand out across a packed arena, and certainly not in a way that draws eyes automatically, notā
Gojo turns a little more. and then his eyes meet yours.Ā
The jolt is instantaneous, sharp and electric, like touching a live wire. Your breath catches, lungs forgetting their purpose entirely as a stupid, bright grin spreads across his face.Ā
A strange warmth floods your chest, blooming outward until it feels too big to contain. You bite your lip, trying and failing, to suppress your own giddy smile as you tug lightly at the hem of your jersey, lifting it just enough to show the number at the front and point at it.Ā
06.Ā
If it's even possible, his grin widens. He spins around without hesitation, and easily mind you, skating backward for a few seconds just to show off the back of his own jersey, jabbing a glove thumb at the matching number with pride.Ā
Heat rushes to your face.Ā
It's ridiculous, childish even, but your heart is pounding and the warmth in your chest swells until itās almost overwhelming.Ā
When warm-ups end, he lifts his stick in your direction in one last, unmistakable acknowledgement before skating toward the bench, where his teammates swarm him instantly. One of them hooks an arm around his neck, dragging him down while another plays bongos on his helmet, elbows digging into his ribs.Ā
From this distance you canāt hear what theyāre saying, but you donāt need to. His expression gives everything away, the wide grin and mock protests, and the way he shoves them back half-heartedly while still laughing.Ā
Someone whistles, another bumps his shoulder and one even points toward the stands, toward you. Your stomach flips.Ā
āY/N?āĀ
You start, tearing your eyes away as if caught doing something incriminating. Geto stands beside you, already holding two drinks, his expression warm and easy.Ā
āHey,ā he says, offering you one. āYou made it. I found seats over here, itās a pretty good view, if I donāt say so myself. We should head over before the game starts.āĀ
You take the cup automatically, fingers brushing his. āThanks!ā
He smiles, guiding you through the rows of people with gentle awareness, making space and steadying you when someone brushes past too close. It's thoughtful and careful and exactly the kind of thing that made you fall for him in the first place.Ā
Once seated, conversation comes easily to him. Itās all polite small talk and soft jokes, quiet observations about the team and season. He fills in the silence like Gojo had predicted, never letting it become uncomfortable. He does all the right things that you could almost tick them off a list. He laughs at your comments like theyāre genuinely funny and asks questions that make it clear heās paying attention.Ā
It should be perfect, it should be everything youāve ever wanted.Ā
And yet, your eyes drift back to the rink, to the flashes of navy and white.Ā
To the tall figure leaning against the boards, helmet off now, shaking his hair as he listens to a coach, nodding absentmindedly while his gaze flicks upward.Ā
Your pulse jumps when his eyes land on you again. Except this time he doesnāt grin. It might be your imagination but he seemingly looks to Geto beside you, then back, just watching.Ā
You force yourself to look back at Geto, nodding at something he just said, hoping your smile looks natural and not strained.Ā
BUZZWORD
The game starts fast.Ā
Faster than you expected, faster than anything youāve watched on TV, faster than seems physically possible for men balancing on thin blades over frozen water. The pluck drops and suddenly the rink explodes with motion, bodies colliding, sticks clashing, skates carving violent crescents into the ice.Ā
You lost track of the puck almost immediately.
Geto leans closer, voice raised just enough to carry over the roar of the crowd. āWatch Satoru, he plays center so heāll usually be in there.ā
Your eyes find him easily.Ā
He moves differently from everyone else, you see, loose, flashier, or maybe thatās just you. No, you reject that notion as he accelerates in bursts, gliding between players with impossible precision, stick tapping the ice impatiently when he doesnāt have the puck.Ā
Every time he skates past your side of the rink, your chest tightens and your throat hurts a little more as you try to cheer louder.Ā
The first goal goes to the other team.Ā
Your side of the arena groans as one, a wave of disappointment that rattles through the stands. You feel it too, a sinking drop in your stomach, though you donāt fully understand the play that led to it.Ā
Gojo slams his stick once against the ice in frustration, then shoves off hard, jaw set.Ā
Geto doesnāt seem worried. āTheyāll bounce back. Satoru is the best they have, after all.ā
Just like he predicted, they do. Midway through the second period, one of Gojoās teammates manages to slip the puck past the goalie, and the building detonates. People surge to their feet to cheer and you find yourself in that crowd, cheering without thinking, adrenaline crackling through your veins like you personally contributed.Ā
On the ice, Gojo grabs the scorer by the shoulders and shakes him, helmet bumping into helmet, grin blinding even through the cage.Ā
Itās a tie game until itās not. Another goal to the opposing side which Gojoās team equalising moments after. Again and again, a tense back and forth that even has Geto inhaling sharply at moments.Ā
By the third period, your nails are dug into the flimsy paper cup in your hand, ice long melted into a yucky watered down version of whatever was in the drink. You barely notice when Geto takes it from you and sets it aside so you donāt crush it completely.Ā
The scoreboard reads 3-3 and the clock tells you thereās two minutes left.Ā
The noise is deafening now, frantic and desperate, every movement on the ice met with gasps or shouts.Ā
Gojo has long since lost the playful edge from earlier. He circles near centre ice, knees bent, weight forward, eyes tracking the puck like itās the only thing that exists in the world. A defender tries to box him out and he shrugs him off with a brutal shoulder check that makes the crowd howl.Ā
The puck slides loose along the boards, ricocheting off a tangle of skates and sticks like it has a mind of its own. Someone on Gojoās team snatches it first and fires it forward, a risky pass that slides clean across open ice, and towards him.Ā
Gojo receives it in stride, blade cushioning the impact with effortless control. He doesnāt even glance down. his head is already up, scanning his way forward. A defender lunges for him and he slips past with a sharp pivot, hips twisting, edges biting deep into the ice.Ā
Youāre on your feet before you realise youāve moved.Ā
āGoā!ā you scream and like a domino effect, people around you start to cheer.Ā
Gojo fakes a left. The goalie commits.Ā
He snaps right, dragging the puck across his body in one powerful motion, forcing the goalie to witness the outplay. And then he flicks his wrist and a sharp crack echoes across the rink.Ā
The puck lifts, a black blur slicing through air, threading the narrowest gap between glove and shoulder, and slams into the back of the net.Ā
For half a heartbeat, there is silence. Then the buzzer screams and the crowd erupts.Ā
Sound crashes over you in a tidal wave, screaming, stomping, clapping, the metallic rattle of the stands shaking under hundreds of pounding feet. Youāre shouting too, throat tearing with it, hands flying to your mouth before dropping again because you need them free to clap and wave, anything to release all this energy exploding out of you.Ā
Down on the ice, Gojo throws his head back and roars, pure exhilaration bursting out of him. His teammates collide with him seconds later, swarming him in a pile of navy and white, shoving his helmet and grabbing his shoulders, almost knocking him over in their celebration.Ā
He's laughing.Ā
Even through the cage, from the distance, you can see it, the wild brightness in his eyes and the way his chest heaves with adrenaline.Ā
They won.Ā
They actually won.Ā
Youāre bouncing on your toes without realising, hands clasped in front of your mouth.Ā
Gojo breaks free from the pile just enough to turn and look up into the stands. It's easier finding you this time around when he knows where to look.Ā
His whole face lights up, grin splitting wide and unrestrained, so bright it feels like it could blind you, he lifts his stick and points it straight at you then thumps it once against the ice in a triumphant salute.Ā
Your stomach swoops violently.Ā
You laugh, breathless and giddy, lifting both hands to wave back like an idiot. Your body is already leaning forward, feet shifting as instinct screams for you to move. To go down there, to be closer, to meet him at the glass while heās still glowing with victory looking as beautiful as youāve ever seen him, so alive that it radiates off him in waves.Ā
You want to throw your arms around his neck.Ā
You want to tell him that was incredible.Ā
You wantā
āY/N?ā
Getoās voice cuts gently through the chaos, close to your ear.
You blink, tearing your gaze away from the ice to find him watching you with a small, amused smile.Ā
āThat was intense,ā he says, laughter in his voice. āI forgot how crazy these games get at the end. Makes you glad you came, right?ā
āYeah,ā you breathe, though it comes out shaky and raw from all the cheering. āYeah it was. Definitely.ā
Your eyes flick down despite yourself and find Gojo still looking up, smile dimmed.Ā
Geto gestures toward the aisle. āIf we leave now, we can beat the post-game crowd. The bookstoreās only a short walk away anyway. We can find Satoru after he comes out.āĀ
The words land heavy in your chest. How could you forget? There was a plan in action, the reason why you came, the person youāre supposed to be focusing on.Ā
āRight,ā you say, though your voice sounds far away even to your own ears.Ā
On the ice, Gojoās teammates are tugging him toward the bench, shouting in his ear and shoving him here and there. He goes easily enough, though not without one last glance at you. He tilts his chin, a silent question in your eyes, clear despite the distance.Ā
Are you going?
Your fingers curl into fists at your side.Ā
āReady?ā Geto asks softly.
You swallow. ā... yeah.ā
But as you turn to follow him up the aisle, the roar of the arena swelling behind you, you canāt shake that youāve made the wrong decision. You feel it, that strange, electric thread stretching thinner and thinner behind you as the tunnel swallows Gojo whole.Ā
BUZZWORD
It should be fun.Ā
Geto is easy to talk to, heās polite, thoughtful and gentle, and all the right things. You trail behind him between the shelves as he talks about a book he likes, or some theory he discovered that explains so much and makes so much sense.Ā
You try, you really do. You nod your head and attempt to store that information away.Ā Ā
But everything just doesnāt feel right. It's hard to store that information away when your head is full of that look Gojo had given you, the way his white hair had stuck out from under his helmet, damp from the effort and glory of winning, eyes sparkling under the stadium lights, the way he had lifted his stick to point at you.Ā
Geto is kind. But your tastes donāt match. Your jokes land in different places. He's nice, and you do enjoy his conversation. But not in the same way you had enjoyed Gojoās company that day in the cafe.Ā
You donāt feel nervous. You donāt feel excited. Honestly, you just feel like pretending.Ā
And as if the universe is screaming at you about something just beyond your grasp, when you reach for the same book, your fingers donāt brush. And you donāt want them to.Ā
Getoās phone buzzes when heās in the middle of explaining some theories from this guy called Slavoj Zizek? He winces at whatever he reads.Ā
āSorry,ā he starts, sounding genuinely apologetic. āI need to head out. But hey, hereāā He pulls a paperback off the shelf and hands it to you. āThis is the one I was talking about. I think youāll like it.āĀ
you accept it automatically. āThanks,ā you say, and then heās waving and gone the next moment, door swinging behind him.Ā
For a while, you wander the bookstore in an attempt to rationalise the complex emotions warring inside you. Geto is your crush. You know this. And yet, it all feels so superficial. Gojo had been right, there was nothing personal about the things you liked about him to explain the crush.Ā
You stand in the quiet of the aisle, holding a book you frankly donāt care about, surrounded by a silence that feels like the wrong choice made tangible long after the last customer walks out. Heavy rain falls outside, pelting against the roof of the store, a steady white noise that backgrounds your thoughts.Ā
When the bookstore begins to close, youāre ushered outside. You swear as youāre suddenly caught in the harsh weather and through the heavy sheets of rain, there looks to be no other store open. Hastily, you run out in the rain to find some place where you can get cover over your head. Finally, you see a small awning from a closed shop.Ā
You run under the awning, hugging your arms to your chest as you wait out the storm, feeling stupidly alone and stupidly unsure why youāre this upset. This is what you wanted right? But the part of your heart that has always known the truth traitorously voices the thoughts youāve been pushing down all this time.Ā
Gojo.Ā
Through the sheets of heavy rain, someone is running towards you. Tall, white hair, still in his jersey, his hair now damp (read: soaked) with rain water rather than sweat.
He skids under the awning, breathless, terribly drenched, an unopened umbrella in one hand.Ā
āWhat the hell,ā he says immediately, voice sharp with concern and frustration. āAre you trying to get pneumonia? Why didnāt you go home? Didnāt you check the weather? It clearly said it was going to rain today!ā
You blink, gaping at his sudden presence. āWhat are you, no, why are you here? Shouldnāt you be celebrating?ā
He snorts. āYeah, I was. Until Suguru texted. Said he left you at the bookstore and for me to pick you up. Seriously, you didnāt even bring an umbrella?ā
The situation finally catches up to you and you frantically gesture to his own umbrella. āHow can you lecture me when you just ran out all the way here without opening your umbrella? itās literally in your hands, all you had to do was open it!āĀ
āLike i had the time to! My legs are literally burning from the game and you made me run all this way out to save you!ā
āI never asked you to!ā
āWell, I had to!ā He steps closer, finally freeing himself from the rain completely. His presence fills up the cramped space under the awning and you catch a whiff of cedar and sweat. āI couldnāt just let you die out here in the cold!ā
Speechless, you open and close your mouth like an idiot. Finally, you manage to ask, āHow did you even know I was out here?ā
āWerenāt you listening? I told you Suguru told me he ditched you!āĀ
At Getoās name, your face falls. Ah, right. your little moral dilemma about Geto.Ā
Gojo also calms down a little, his chest heaving a little slower as he uses the silence to catch his breath. his eyes scan your expression, picking up on the way you bite your lip, eyes looking away.Ā
āHey,ā he says, voice soft though still strained. āYou okay?ā
Your throat tightens. āI guess? I don't know. Look, sorry. I appreciate you coming.ā
āDon't give me that. Just donāt. Youāve told me every embarrassing thing about yourself when you outed that you, you know, like Suguru. Donāt hide something from me now. Are you upset that he left?ā His hand comes out to wipe water off your cheek. āDon't cry.ā
You scrunch up your face in mild disgust. āIām not? That's literally just rain water.ā
āOh. So you're okay?ā
You inhale and let it out slowly. Were you okay? You shouldnāt be, not if Geto was your crush and he just ditched you. And yet, under Satoruās shadow as he stands in front of you, blocking the rain, brows furrowed and lips pressed tight as he looks you over in concern, you find yourself feeling okay. More than okay.Ā
āWhy do you even like him?ā He asks, quietly, a question that would have easily been lost to the rain if you werenāt hanging off his every word.Ā
āI told you,ā you start, just as quiet. āHe saved me that one time.āĀ
āYeah?ā He opens the umbrella with one hand, and holds your hand in the other, gently guiding you out from under the awning. Rain hits heavy against the fabric and he holds you close to keep you out from the storm, your chest grazing his. āHe saved you that day in the rain, did he?ā
You swallow. āYeah.ā
āJust like this?āĀ
Mutely, you nod. In his arms, you barely notice the slight chill.Ā
Gojo searches your eyes for something. He exhales, long and uneven, like heās been holding this in for longer than heās willing to admit. And yet, he doesnāt shy away, doesnāt tear his gaze away from yours, just keeps holding the umbrella over your head, tilted ever so slightly in your direction such that youāre completely covered.Ā
āThat day,ā he says, quiet but steady, āWhen you got caught in the rain after that stupid orientation thing? Suguru wasnāt on campus. He went back home for a month before the semester started and didnāt come back until the second week. I was the one that found you.āĀ
Your breath falters. āWhat? But he⦠he gave me his hoodie. His name was on the tag.āĀ
āYeah,ā Satoru laughs, a single disbelieving puff. āI was wearing his hoodie. He wasnāt at the dorms so I stole some of his clothes to wear. Itās whatever, he steals some of mine sometimes. The point is, I was the one that helped you.āĀ
For a moment, you stop breathing entirely. The rain pours around the two of you, a curtain of noise, but itās silent under the umbrella.Ā
Youāve never seen Gojo so nervous. Definitely not before the big game earlier, not on any of the practice dates, never when he talks to a group of people. Between the two of you, nervousness came more naturally to you. And yet, standing before you vulnerable, wet lashes stuck together, cheeks flushed from running and is that a faint bruise forming on his jaw? He looks nervous and itās a sight that sends warmth all over your face.Ā
His eyes are unbearably soft as he waits for your verdict.Ā
āWhy didnāt you tell me?ā Your voice sounds too small.Ā
āBecause you thought it was Suguru. Because you liked him. And back then, I didn't realise that I wanted you to know it was me.ā
Your heart thuds, something a little more daring saying the next few words for you. āAnd now?āĀ
This moment was perfect. The two of you had been slowly closing that small gap of distance, eyes seeing nothing but each other and suddenly all those rom coms and kdramas come to mind. All those scenes of first kisses (forgetting the practices because those didnāt include real romance), all those late night conversations with Shoko about what itās like, they all come and leave your brain.Ā
But instead of leaning in and sealing the deal, Gojoās entire body suddenly stiffens. His arm around you loosens, placing more distance between the two of you.Ā
What the hell?Ā
His gaze drops a little further before coming back up with a discipline that can only come from reciting the digimon opening theme over and over in his head. āNow I'm trying really, really hard not to stare at you.ā
Curious, you look down to your soaked shirt where the fabric clings painfully close, embarrassingly sheer. It only serves to emphasise the lines of your bra and though you canāt really see anything, Gojoās face is flushed pink not just from exertion, and his jaw is tight.Ā
āSatoruāā
āMy place,ā he blurts. āWe should, uh, get you warmed up. Your shirt is literally see-through and if I have to keep pretending I don't notice, I'm going to walk myself right into traffic.āĀ
āThat is so dramatic.ā The beginnings of a smile cause the corner of your lips to quiver upwards at his flustered state.Ā
āiām dramatic,ā he insists, voice strained, still not looking. āNow come on. I still donāt want you catching pneumonia out here and Sig Kap is literally right near the gate. We can keep talking there when you donāt look like a puppy left out in the rain.ā
āSays you.ā You eye his white hair plastered to his forehead and smile, reaching up to move a few clinging strands from his eyes. āBut okay. Iād like that a lot.ā
Unfortunately, the gesture makes him look back down at you, inevitably making him catch an eyeful of your chest. He closes his eyes. āLet's just go before I give you this umbrella and walk onto the road.āĀ
You laugh a little. āGeez, you really are dramatic.āĀ
He walks you to Sig Kap, refusing to stand fully under the umbrella. When you try to grab his arm and pull him under, he only launches into a talk about being a feminist and how chivalry isnāt dead and how much he hates periods and loves matcha. You laugh and he smiles down at you before looking away. Seriously, he needs to get over that.Ā
At the door outside the house, Gojo stops you.Ā
āHere.ā he hands you the umbrella, fingers brushing yours, before reaching down to take his jersey off. You instinctively blush and look away, but considering your state of undress it would only be fair if you stole a glance. So you peek at him from the corner of your eyes.Ā
You only manage to look just below his abs when something warm and slightly damp flops over your head.Ā
āHey!ā
He takes the umbrella back from you, standing in front of you and covering your back with the umbrella.. āPut that on before we head inside. Take your wet jersey off, hurry.ā
Feeling warm despite the rain, you hastily pull off your soaked top, making sure heās looking politely away, and throw his jersey on. Itās still damp but not as drenched as your own. Looking down, it falls past your skirt and just above your knees.Ā
āYouāre going to walk in shirtless?ā
āBetter than you walking in looking like that.ā He doesnāt give you a moment to think about his words. āCome on, youāre going to catch a cold.ā
He leads you to the now familiar front door and when it opens before Gojo can even touch the doorknob, you understand the reasoning of his actions.Ā
āDude!ā Hikari cheers, wrapping an arm round Gojoās shoulders and eagerly pulling him in despite his grunt of protest. āCongrats on the win, man!ā
Hikari quickly notices your presence.Ā
āOh. So youāre already celebrating, huh?ā
Gojo brushes past him, his hand holding tours to guide a path through the sweaty frat boys. āShut it, Hikari. Is Sukuna in?ā
āNah. The whole floorās gone.ā Hikari answers, raising his voice as Gojo quickly places distance between him and you.Ā
When the door of his room closes behind you both, he turns and pulls you in, his hand falling down on your hips, pulling you close. You both look like wet dogs but you couldnāt care less.
āSorry about them,ā he mumbles against your hair.Ā
āItās fine,ā you pause. āWho's Sukuna?ā
āThe guy in the room next to mine.ā
āOh.ā
He hesitates, searching your eyes in the dark of his room. The storm rages on beyond his window, rain entering through a slightly ajar window, but neither of you make the responsible move to close it. Instead, you find yourself pressing up against him, hoping for more.Ā
āSweets,ā he says, his voice low. āPlease donāt tell me this is still practice.ā
āItās not.āĀ
He takes a deep breath in. āYou piss me off. Youāre annoying, and insistent, and you always get what you want.ā
You frown a little. āHold on, I thought this was going a different way.ā
He shushes you by placing a finger against your lips. āYou never listen to me and you never act how I think you will. Youāre definitely not normal and your thoughts are all weird and messed up. But youāre always in my head and you have the prettiest smile and the softest voice and when you tell me to shut up I want to drop to my knees and lick your feet.ā
āOkay, itās definitely getting weird now.āĀ
āI think Iām seriously doomed,ā he whispers despite your protests. āBecause I bought that coffee you gave me months ago and I still drank it even though I hated how it tasted. And I havenāt been able to get it up without thinking about you and those pretty lips.āĀ
āNow I see why you donāt do relationships.ā
Gojo chuckles, eyes unbearingly soft. āI think Iām in love with you, Y/N. Youāre all I can think about.āĀ
You let out a slow exhale.Ā
This was not how you imagined any of this. That day when you sat down with Shoko to plan a devious scheme to get with Geto, you naturally assumed it would end with him by your side, or with a crippling inability to reassimilate with society.Ā
Never in a million years did you think youād be here, in Gojoās enormous room inside a frat house, him hanging off your every word.Ā
But thinking on it now, thereās nothing you want to change in your plan.Ā
āI think Iām in love with you too,ā you say just as quietly, a smile playing on your lips.Ā
āReally?ā If he had dog ears, they would have surely perked up. āBecause I was lying, I definitely donāt just think that.ā
āWoah, letās calm down a little.ā
He chuckles, breath misting your face.Ā
His thumbs rub circles and you shiver at the faint sensation.
āCold?ā
You bite the lip and nod. Now that youāve confessed, the forbidden desire building up in your core no longer feels like something you need to hide. Instead, you embrace it, and you let Gojo see the change in your eyes.Ā
He nods back, looking down at his jersey on you.Ā
āYou should probably take this off or youāll get sick.āĀ
You grab the bottom of his shirt and pull it over your head, leaving you in just your bra. You mentally fist bump your past self for overthinking your attire earlier that morning and throwing on a matching set.Ā
His pupils dilate as he looks at you, eyes lingering on the delicate lace.Ā
āAm I moving too fast?ā He whispers, breath misting your ear as he leans in.Ā
You rapidly shake your head, heart pounding in your chest. The air between you crackles with tension, the rain pattering against the window like a distant drumbeat.Ā
He sighs, a low, relieved sound that vibrates through his chest. āGood. Cāmere.ā
He backs you up against the door, the wood cool against your bare back. His hands slide up your sides as he traps you. The guise of getting you out of wet clothes feels like a thin excuse now, but you donāt mind, your own hands already tugging at his waistband, eager to feel more of him.Ā
Gojoās lips crash into yours, hungry and demanding, his tongue sweeping in to claim your mouth. You kiss back just as fiercely, fingers digging into his shoulders as you push against him, guiding him backward step by step. He stumbles slightly, surprised by your assertiveness, but a smirk tugs at his lips against yours.Ā
He falls onto the couch with a soft thud, pulling you down on top of him. You straddle his lap, only because itās the only position youāve had experience with thus far, and the friction of his hardening cock against your core sends sparks through your body. Your mouths meet again in a heated makeout, tongues tangling, breaths mingling in short, desperate gasps.Ā
His hands roam your back, unhooking your bra with practiced ease, letting it fall away. You arch into him, pressing your bare breasts against his chest, nipples hardening from the contact.Ā
āFuck, youāre so hot like this,ā he growls, nipping at your lower lip. āWhere were you hiding all of this, hm?ā
You shiver, fingers digging into his shirt. āYou like it when I tell you what to do, donāt you? Big bad frat boy, already so hard because a girlās got you pinned.ā
He groans, hands gripping your ass to grind you against him. āKeep talking like that, and I'll show you whoās really in control.ā
But you donāt stop. Instead, you push him back further into the cushions and trail your lips down his jaw, his neck, biting lightly to mark him. He lets you, for now, his breath hitching.Ā
His eyes look down your body, hands feeling the softness of your skin before resting at the waistband of your cute, little skirt. He smirks and before you know it, youāre torn from his neck because he flips you onto your back in one swift move, pinning your wrists above your head.Ā
āMy turn,ā he purrs, voice rough.Ā
You try to wriggle free. āWhat are you doing?ā
āYou've always had a thing against my tongue, havenāt you?ā
āThat was weeks ago, I don'tāwait a minute!ā Your hands find his head, trying to push him back up but he refuses, settling properly between your legs and lowering.Ā
āRelax.ā He turns his head and kisses your palm, eyes on yours. āI'll make you feel good. I always do, don't I?ā
You hesitate, your arms losing their strength as the tension eases from your body. He watches you carefully, his gaze soft yet intense, making sure youāre okay before he moves. With a gentle nod from you, he lifts the edge of your skirt and flips it up onto your stomach, groaning low at the sight of the damp spot on your panties.
āSo cute,ā he hums, his free hand sliding between your legs to rub at the numb poking out through the fabric. āThis little clitās begging for attention.āĀ
You let out a startled gasp, hips bucking up involuntarily at the sudden touch. Itās all still so new, the sparks of pleasure shooting through you like electricity.Ā
āYou want my mouth on this pretty pussy, donāt you?ā He murmurs, lowering to mouth against your panties.Ā
His warm breath seeps through the thin material, and the flat of his tongue presses against you, exploring with teasing pressure thatās not quite enough to satisfy the ache building inside.Ā
You jolt again, the sensation overwhelming, back bowing slightly as if to instinctively pull away. He doesnāt let you go far, his hand on your thigh tightening to pull you back against his mouth.Ā
āI know, I know,ā he coos against you. āIt's too much, isnāt it?ā
You whimper, looking down and feeling a fresh surge of heat when you meet eyes with him.Ā
āThatās it, just feel it,ā he encourages, his thumb stroking your thigh in slow circles.Ā
Finally, he draws your panties to the side and doesnāt waste another second.Ā
Gojoās mouth descends on your pussy, tongue flicking out to lap at your clit.Ā
You gasp sharply, hips bucking up as he sucks the sensitive nub between his lips, rolling it gently. His hands hold your thighs apart, fingers digging into your skin to keep you open for him. He eats you out like heās starved, tongue delving inside you, tasting your wetness then circling back to your clit with firm, insistent strokes.Ā
āOh god,ā you choke out, the words tumbling from your lips in a breathless rush. āFuck, itās tooāfuck itās so good!āĀ
With your hands free, you curl your fingers in his soft white hair, guiding him exactly where the pleasure feels strongest. It's your first time feeling anything like this, and the intensity builds fast, a coiling heat thatās overwhelming but addictive.Ā
He hums against you, the vibrations making you whine as his tongue thrusts in and out, mimicking whatās to come, stretching you open with wet, probing motions.
āMmm, taste so fucking sweet,ā he growls between licks, pulling back just enough to speak, his breath hot against your folds. āYouāre clenching so hard alreadyāgonna finger fuck you open so you can take my cock later.ā
He adds a finger, sliding it inside your slick heat slowly, curling it to brush against that spot that makes stars burst behind your eyelids. āThat's it baby, feel how wet you are for me? so tight around my finger, imagine how youāll squeeze my dick when I'm buried deep.ā
You nod frantically, the haze of pleasure making it hard to form words.Ā
He senses your building release, slipping a second finger inside to stretch you further, scissoring them gently to prepare you while his mouth latches back on your clit, sucking harder. āCome on, cum for meāwanna taste you so fucking bad, sweets. I want to feel you shake.ā
The orgasm hits you like a wave, crashing over your body without warning. you cry out, back arching off the surface beneath you as your pussy clenches around his fingers, pulsing with release. He doesnāt stop, lapping at you through it, drawing out every shudder until youāre boneless and gasping for air, his tongue coaxing every last tremor from your oversensitive folds.Ā
Gojo pulls back slowly, a string of saliva still connecting to you until he wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, his eyes gleaming with satisfaction as he crawls up your body.Ā
āFuck, you taste like heaven,ā he murmurs, leaning in for a deep kiss and letting you taste yourself on his lips.Ā
You kiss back weakly making him chuckle, and he pulls back with a wet chu.Ā
āYou okay?ā
You nod weakly. One moment youāre catching your breath on the couch, the next heās lifting you over his shoulder and laying you down on his bed.Ā
You yelp, feeling gravity turn on its head until youāre safely on his mattress.Ā
Watching as he eagerly strips, you say, āYou got a bedframe.ā
He grins widely, shimmying down his boxers to join his sweatpants on the floor. āYeah, I did. Do you like it?ā
You huff. āYeah. About time, Satoru.ā
Gojoās smile is oddly bright as he gets on the bed and hovers over you. He shifts, propping himself up on his elbows, his blue eyes darkening as they fixate on your chest. Without a word, he moves down, his mouth hovering just above your skin before he presses his face into the soft valley of your tits, inhaling deeply as if savouring your scent.Ā
āGod, I love these things.ā he groans, voice muffled, his lips brushing the sensitive underside. āSo goddamn perfect. Feel how hard you make me just staring at them?ā
You squirm, indeed feeling his cock throb against your leg. āYouāre such an animal.ā
āI can't help it. Been thinking about these ever since last time.ā He peeks up at you though heās still hesitant to part with them completely. āCan i fuck them?ā
Your nod is all the consent he craves. He straddles your waist carefully and guides his thick length to rest in the plush channel youāve created by pressing your breasts together. The first slide is torturously slow, the velvety skin enveloping him as he rocks forward, the tip emerging shiny with precum near your collarbone.Ā
āShit, yes,ā he hisses, hips snapping in a shallow rhythm. āSo soft, so fucking warm around me. Look at that, sweets. Your tits are hugging my dick like they were made for it.ā
His voice drops lower, rough with building pleasure, each word punctuated by the slick glide of skin on skin.Ā
You watch him, mesmerised by the concentration etching his features, brow furrowed, lips parted as he pants. Sweat beads on his forehead and trickles down his temples as his abs flex with every controlled push. The friction builds between your tits, his precum smearing across your skin, making the slide even smoother and more obscene.Ā
He glances down to watch his cock disappear and poke out from your cleavage. āOpen your mouth for me, baby.ā
āSweets,ā you remind him.Ā
He lets out a stifled groan, hips jerking forward. āSweets, please. Let me see your pretty tongue. Want it on my tip when i come through so fucking bad.āĀ
The nickname sends a thrill through you, and you part your lips obediently, flattening your tongue in invitation. He groans at the sight, hips stuttering as he angles higher, the flushed head of his cock brushing your waiting mouth on the next thrust.Ā
āFuck, just like that,ā he rasps. āYour tongue feels so good lapping at me like that. Swirl it around, taste how much I want you. God, sweets, youāre killing me.āĀ
You do, tracing the sensitive underside when he pushes forward, the salty tang of him flooding your senses. His reaction is immediate, a deep, guttural moan escapes him, his rhythm faltering as he jerks deeper, chasing the wet heat of your mouth.Ā
āCan't get enough,ā he growls, drawing back only to thrust again, his tip kissing your tongue with deliberate precision and drawing back a sticky string of his precum and your saliva. āGonna fuck your mouth next, stuff it full of my cock until youāre choking on it. You'd take it so well, wouldnāt you? Suck me down like the greedy little thing you are.āĀ
Saliva pools on your tongue and drips down to mix with the mess on your chest. He watches it all with hooded eyes, rutting faster now, the slap of his hips against your breasts echoing softly in the room.Ā
āFuck, sweetsāgonna cum,ā he warns through gritted teeth, his forehead creasing in that pretty, desperate way. āCanāt hold back with you squeezing me like this. Shit, iām gonna paint you, mark every inch of these pretty tits.ā
He lurches forward suddenly, back bowing as he towers over you, one hand bracing beside your head while the other strokes his base to control his release. The first hot spurt lands across your neck, thick and warm, followed by another that arches toward your open mouth. He aims with a focused groan, pressing down on the head to guide it, ropes of cum landing on your tongue, filling your senses with his taste.Ā
āTake it, thatās a good girl,ā he pants, voice breaking on a final, shuddering thrust. āLook at you, covered in me. So fucking hot, dripping with my cum on your face and tits.āĀ
His body quakes through the aftershocks, eyes never leaving yours, drinking in your reaction as he milks every drop onto you.Ā
When heās spent, he collapses forward slightly, catching himself on his forearms to avoid crushing you and leans down.Ā
Your lips meet his in a deep, unhurried kiss, tongues tangling slow and sweet at first, then hungrier as you melt into it. The taste of him, salty from earlier, mixed with the faint tang of your own arousal, ignites you, and you tug him down, hands roaming his shoulders, feeling the flex of muscle under sweat damp skin. A soft moan escapes you, and he swallows it, his grip tightening just a fraction.Ā
He pulls back and pants against your lips, half laughing.Ā
āSorry, I should have warned you. Kind of not the most virgin friendly thing to do, huh?ā He sits up and reaches for some tissue to clean you. āShould of saved this for inside you, sweets.ā
You clench, squeezing your thighs together. āIāve neverā¦ā
His eyes soften, wiping the last of his cum. āI know, sweets. We can wait if you need to, thereās no rush.ā
But curiousity and want is a dangerous cocktail and you find yourself shaking your head. āI want to.āĀ
Gojo lets out a shuddering breath and nods, sliding off your chest, his cock glistening and heavy against his thigh. āLet me get you warmed up again.ā
He doesn't find much difficulty with that because one hand against your slit and his eyebrows are rising, feeling your wetness despite the lack of attention.Ā
You blush, feeling caught. āWhat? Donāt look at me like that, itās embarrassing.ā
āWhatās got you so wet, hm?ā
You squirm, feeling the lingering pleasure flare up. āItās not my fault youāre so vocal.ā
āDirty girl. You like hearing how good you make me feel?ā His thumb smears your entrance, picking up and spreading the fresh arousal that gathers there and itās as good as any verbal answer. āFeel that? So worked up with nowhere to go.ā
His fingers part you gently, circling your entrance with feather-light strokes that make you gasp.Ā
āLet me warm you up again, sweets. Youāre so swollen here, feels like youāve been waiting for more. Gonna make sure youāre nice and ready for me.ā
He plays with the mess between your legs, his own expression a mix of hunger and restraint, breaths coming in measured pulls as he fights the urge to rush. One finger dips inside you shallowly, then two, curling just right to brush that spot that sends sparks up your spine.Ā
The stretch is easier now, your body remembering the pleasure, and he coos softly at your soft whimper, thumb finding your clit to rub in slow, firm circles.Ā
āShit, youāre so tight,ā he groans quietly, voice rough around the edges. āSo warm and wet, itās killing me not to slide in right now. But weāre taking our time, yeah? Making this perfect for you.ā
Your hips rock instinctively into his hand, the coil of heat tightening low in your belly, and he grins, leaning in to pepper kisses along your jaw.Ā
āLook at you, getting into it. My sweet girl, so responsive.ā
You whine, the pleasure having reached a plateau and when you buck up for more, he withdraws his hand. The loss makes you whine but he hushes you with a gentle kiss to your forehead, reaching over to the nightstand and searching through his messy drawers for a condom.Ā
The foil crinkles under his fingers as he tears it open and positions himself at your entrance. You're still slick, heās made sure of that, but the anticipation makes you clench, nerves building up. He notices your sharp inhale and lets his tip nudge your slick folds, parting them teasingly though he pauses there to let you feel the pressure without pushing in.Ā
āHey, eyes on me, sweets,ā he murmurs, voice steady despite the way his chest heaves, his cock twitching against you. āYou still okay? Tell me if itās too much, Iāll stop, I promise. But fuck, Iād be lying if I said I didnāt want to be inside you.ā
āIām okay,ā you whisper breathlessly, fingers curling into the sheets below. āJust⦠go slow?ā
He notices and slides a hand down to interlace your fingers, bringing your hand up to his lips and placing a soft kiss to your palm. āOf course. Whatever you want.āĀ
The stretch is immediate, a slow burn as he guides himself in, sinking bit by bit. His cock is much thicker than his fingers but the warmth of him, the way he watches every flicker of your expression with that twitch in his jaw, makes it bearable.Ā
āFuck, youāre so fucking tight,ā he rasps, eyes shutting briefly. āGripping me so good already. Easy, sweets, just relax into it.ā
His voice cracks a little on the end, his fingers digging into your skin as he holds himself still once heās halfway in.Ā
It aches, but the fullness is intoxicating, waves of pleasure chasing the discomfort as your body yields. You gasp, squeezing his hand and he coos softly, stroking you with his thumb.Ā
āCan I keep going?āĀ
You nod and even before your next breath, heās already sliding in and bottoming out with a shared gasp, hips flushed against yours. His forehead rests against yours, breaths mingling in the humid air.Ā
"How's that feel? Too much?ā He asks softly.Ā
āFull⦠so full,ā you whimper, rocking experimentally and he hisses through his teeth, hips bucking up just a fraction before he catches himself.Ā
āFuck, want me to move, sweets?ā He shifts beneath you, guiding your hips in a gentle circle to grind against you, his praises making the movement slick.Ā
āPlease,ā you gasp out as the fullness sparks pleasure deep inside and he rewards your honest words with a slow roll of his hips.Ā
āGood girl,ā he praises, voice dropping to a gravelly whisper as he starts to move, shallow thrusts that build a steady friction. Each slide in and out drags against your inner walls, drawing out filthy whimpers and sighs as he hits that sweet spot with precision born of his experience.Ā
Soon, your toes are curling and your back bows off his mattress, desperate to meet his thrusts.Ā
āListen to those sounds youāre making,ā he coos, emphasising his words with a deep thrust. āYouāre taking me so well, sweets. Makes me want to stay buried in your forever.ā
The pace gradually quickens, his control fraying at the edges as your moans encourage him. He shifts the angle, one leg hooking over his shoulder to deepen the penetration, and the new position has you crying out, pleasure coiling tight in your core.
Sweat beads on his skin, dropping onto your chest and he leans down to capture a nipple between his lips, sucking gently as he thrusts harder, the wet slap of skin echoing softly.Ā
āThatās it, let go for me,ā he urges against your tits, teeth grazing the peak before soothing it with his tongue. āI can feel you squeezing, you close for me already? Come on, sweets, chase it.ā
His words weave through the haze, dirty and devoted, spurring you higher as his freehand slips between you to circle your clit in time with his hips. The dual sensations overwhelm, building to a peak that has you trembling beneath him.Ā
When it hits, itās blinding, your orgasm crashing over you in waves, walls clenching rhythmically around him and pulling him deeper. He groans your name like a prayer, thrusts stuttering as rides it out with you, prolonging the bliss with expert rolls of his hips.Ā
Only when you slump, sweaty and panting, does he let himself follow, a filthy groan escaping his lips as he buries himself deep one last time and spills into the condom, body shuddering as he struggles to hover over you.Ā
He doesnāt pull away immediately, instead pressing his hips closer to ensure youāve gotten everything before collapsing half on top of you, peppering lazy kisses along your neck.Ā
āYouāre amazing,ā he whispers. āMy perfect girl, did so good for us.ā
You whimper against the ticklish sensation. āYou're too heavy.ā
He chuckles and rolls off you, slowly pulling out to pull the condom off and discard it. you watch him with sleepy eyes, eagerly nuzzling into his arms when he settles back beside you.Ā
āNeed anything? Water? Cuddles?āĀ
You hum, feeling the satisfaction morph into a drowsiness that has you melting into his arms, only feeling his warmth.Ā
āYou?ā
He chuckles, pressing a kiss to your cheek. āIām so glad I stole you away. Youāre so fucking perfect for me.āĀ
You lean into his side, feeling a sense of indescribable completeness that fills you with certainty.Ā
Geto Suguru may have been everyoneās first love but Gojo Satoru is the one you choose.Ā
And judging by the way his arm tightens around you, the way his grin softens when he looks down at you, he knows it too.Ā
Geto Suguru is everyoneās first love.
Even to this day, your friends will roll their eyes and insist that canāt possibly be true. But from experience, that was exactly who he was, someone to admire from afar like a painting behind glass. Beautiful and alluring, and just out of reach.Ā
You see him now up, sitting on the couches at the house party driving the murmur of conversation with ease, a red cup used to gesture. Laughter ripples outward in waves, people leaning closer, drawn in.
You smile out of solidarity, resting against the wall with content misplaced at a busy place like this.Ā
āDid you wait long?ā
You turn your head to find your boyfriend weaving through bodies with the casual confidence of someone who assumes space will make itself around him. Two drinks in hand, hair messy under his cat, grin already forming because heās caught you staring.Ā
You push off the wall, reaching automatically for whichever cup is closer but he pulls back to sniff both before handing you the opposite one.
You take it gratefully and when you take a sip, you realise itās your favourite juice.Ā
āWait time longer than the lines at Universal,ā you tease.Ā
He grins, leaning down to kiss your forehead. āNext time I'll get us the priority pass. Not that it looked like you minded the wait. Donāt think I didn't see you eyeing Suguru like that. Do I have competition again?ā
You shove him playfully. āPlease, like I'm the one whoās been draping themselves over him for the past hour.ā
Across the room, Geto laughs again, someone hanging off his shoulder while he tries to keep the liquid in his cup from spilling. He catches your eye briefly and lifts his cup in greeting. You return it with a smile.
Next to you, Gojo sighs dramatically.
āWow,ā he says flatly. āRight in front of me too. Why canāt I see any remorse in your eyes?ā
āBecause there isnāt any there,ā you snort. āYou're the one who told him to come tonight.ā
āWhere thereās Satoru, thereās Suguru.ā
āI learnt that the hard way.ā
He hums, arm sliding around your waist to pull you flush against his side. His thumb starts tracing lazy circles just above your hip, absentminded and affectionate, a touch so familiar you barely notice as you lean into him in return.
āStill,ā he murmurs, quieter now, his breath warm against your cheek. āYou donāt have to keep looking at him like that.ā
āLike what?ā
āLike youāre thinking about what you could have had.ā
You tilt your head to look up at him. His expression isnāt jealous, not completely, just searching, softer than the bravado he usually wears.
āI'm not,ā you promise gently. āIt was always superficial. You know that better than anyone. I guess now, looking at him is like looking at a relic of a different version of me.ā
He hums. āHe would have liked that sentence.ā
You roll your eyes, ever so familiar with his dramatics. āYou have nothing to worry about, baby. I promise.ā
āYeah?ā
āYeah.ā You reach up and adjust the brim of his cap slightly, smoothing down a piece of hair that refuses to stay put. āBesides, I think I traded up.ā
āKeep talking like that and I'm going to start thinking you actually like me,ā he grins, voice lowering.
You smack his chest but your other hand lingers in his hair, fingers slipping into the soft hair at his nape. "Don't get cocky.ā
Too late. He's already smiling wide, not the loud, flashy grin everyone else gets, but something softer and almost boyish reserved just for you.
Gojo leans down and finds your lips. The kiss is slow and unhurried, deeper than something meant for a crowded room but not quite indecent, like heās forgotten where you are or just doesnāt care.
He pulls back just enough to talk. āHey, I have an idea thatāll solve this three way jealousy.ā
āWhat?"
āWhy donāt we just have a threesome?ā
a/n: i had to repost this because i realised i could fit everything into one post but holy hell reformating everything made me wanna die so please smash that like button hit subscribe and don't forget to turn on that notification bell ++ shoutout to flatline and happy pokemon day to those who celebrate
synopsis: A winter getaway was supposed to be a relaxing break, but a room mix-up leaves you sharing a small room with your ex. Between the mountain air and the shared space, the distance you spent seven months creating starts to crumble before the weekend is even over.
The blue light of your phone screen was the only thing illuminating your bedroom as you stared at the Winter trip! RSVP list for the tenth time. It was a minimalist app Nanami had insisted on using, and it was currently the bane of your existence.
Everyone was marked in green. Nanami, Geto, Shoko, and Haibara. They had all confirmed their rides and their grocery contributions. But there was the final name at the bottom of the list.
Gojo Satoru. Status: Undecided.
You bit your lip, thumb hovering over the screen. It had been seven months. Seven months of untangling your life from his, of learning how to sleep in the middle of the bed again, of ignoring the headlines when his firm made another billion. You were doing fine. You swear. But your hands said differently.
They scrambled to open your messages with Shoko.
you: hey is satoru gonna go on the trip? the stupid app says heās still undecided
shoko-pie: honestly? no clue. heās been in london for meetings & he hasnāt replied to us in days. knowing him he probably forgot the password to the app
you: i really dont want to ruin the trip if heās going⦠i can just sit this one out
shoko-pie: donāt be boring >:( heās probably 4,000 miles away & even if he does decide to come, heāll be late and probably stay at a hotel because heās a snob and u know it. just come!!! i need someone to help me drink this case of wine
You took a breath. He hasnāt decided. In Satoru-speak, that usually meant he had something better to do. After an eternity, you tapped the green check mark and deleted the app, desperate for some relief from the stress.
The drive to the mountains was supposed to be relieving. But as the sun dipped behind the jagged peaks and the snow began to smear the windshield into a blurry mess of white, the drive felt more like an isolation ward. The GPS led you deeper into the woods, down a gravel driveway that ended at a sprawling, cabin-style house that looked like it belonged in an architectural magazine.
You parked, grabbed your bags, and ran for the porch to escape the snowstorm. Inside, the house was alive. The smell of steak and expensive wine hit you first. You heard Haibaraās boisterous laughter and the rhythmic thrum of a playlist.
"I made it!" you called out, kicking your shoes off by the door. "And I brought the good vodka."
"In the kitchen!" Shokoās voice drifted out.
You rounded the corner, a smile already forming on your face, ready to drop your bags and melt into the safety of your friends. But the smile died before it could fully form. Standing at the kitchen island, a bottle of beer in one hand and a glass of water in the other, was Satoru.
He wasn't wearing a suit. He was in a black hoodie, the sleeves pushed up to his elbows; his hair was a mess, white strands sticking up in every direction, like heād been running his hands through it. He looked up as you entered. For the first time in your life, you saw Satoru look utterly blindsided.
He choked on his water, coughing as he slammed the glass onto the marble counter.
"Youāre here?" he gasped, his blue eyes wide and darting toward Shoko, then back to you.Ā
"Youāre here? You didnāt even RSVP!" you snapped, the shock finally giving way to a prickling flare of anger. You turned to Shoko, who was leaning against the fridge, looking entirely too relaxed. "Shoko. You said he was going to be in London."
"He was," Shoko said, tilting her head toward Satoru. "Then he took a private jet because he missed the mountain air. He showed up like thirty minutes ago. Don't look at me, I didnāt know either."
"I checked the app before I boarded!" Satoru defended, his voice hitting that defensive pitch that always came out when he was caught off guard. "It didn't update. I thought I was safe."
"Safe?" You dropped your bag with a heavy thud.
"Well, you're both here now," Nanamiās voice cut through the tension as he walked in, looking exhausted. "And unfortunately, because you both were the last to arrive and everyone else has already unpacked, youāre the only ones left for the loft."
Your heart did a painful somersault. "The loft?"
"The house is overbooked," Nanami said, rubbing the bridge of his nose. "There are four bedrooms. Three are taken. Shoko has the fourth. But, thereās a finished loft upstairs with a king bed. It was supposed to be for one of you. Now, apparently, itās for both of you."
The silence that followed was heavy enough to drown in. Satoru looked at the ceiling, then at you, then at his beer.
"I can sleep on the couch," Satoru muttered. He didnāt look at you when he said it. He was focused on the label of his beer, picking at the corner with his thumb. It was a classic Satoru move, offering a sacrifice that sounded noble but was practically a dare. He wanted you to tell him no.
"Good," you said immediately, your voice clipping the end of his sentence. "Because I'm taking the bed."
Satoru finally looked up, his eyebrows arching. Heād expected a fight, or at least a polite are you sure?
"Right," he said, a slightly forced smirk spreading across his face. "The couch it is. I'll just⦠You know⦠Fold myself into a crane or something. It'll be a fun challenge."
"Satoru," Nanami interrupted, his voice like a cold splash of logic. "The couch in the loft is a mid-century loveseat. Itās barely five feet long. Your legs are basically the length of the entire thing."
"I'm very flexible, Nanami," Satoru chirped, though the bravado felt a little thinner than usual. He glanced at you, his blue eyes searching yours for a hint of softening. "Unless you're worried I'll get a cramp and have to scream for help in the middle of the night?"
"Iām worried you're going to spend the whole weekend sighing loudly so everyone knows how uncomfortable you are," you countered, crossing your arms. "But that's your problem. Iām not sharing a bed with you."
Shoko cleared her throat.
"Well, now that the seating chart is settled," she said dryly, "let's eat. I didn't spend three hours on this spread to watch it get cold while you two play chicken."
The dining table was a polished slab of oak that seemed to stretch for miles, even though Satoru was sitting directly across from you. The air in the cabin was warm, smelling of roasted garlic and the expensive wine Shoko had been pouring with a heavy hand, but to you, the air had felt thin. Oxygen was hard to come by when every breath felt like it was being shared with him.
You kept your eyes on your plate, tracing the ceramic pattern with your fork. You didn't trust yourself to speak. If you opened your mouth, you weren't sure if a sob or a scream would come out, so you settled for a practiced silence.
"So, Satoru," Geto chirped, blissfully unaware of the tectonic plates shifting beneath the table. "How was the London trip? Did you actually do any work, or did you just spend the whole time playing tourist?"
"Work, unfortunately," Satoru replied. His voice was lower than usual, stripped of its typical theatricality. "Meetings, contracts, the usual boring stuff."
"It couldn't have been that boring," Nanami interjected, his voice calm and clinical as he cut a piece of steak. "You seemed fairly distracted when we had dinner last month. I assume it was that woman you were seeing? The architect?"
The world seemed to tilt on its axis.
The architect. The words echoed in your mind, loud and distorted. You felt a cold, prickling sensation crawl up the back of your neck. You didn't look up, but you could feel Satoruās gaze snap to you, then away, his silhouette tensing in your peripheral vision.
Of course, heās seeing someone. You were exes; heās allowed to see other people. Itās been months. Heās Satoru Gojo. He doesn't sit in empty apartments and wonder why the silence is so loud. He fills the space. He moves on. He finds an architect. You pictured her, someone with clean lines and a logical mind. Someone who didn't fight him about how he pushed people away.Ā
"It was just a few dinners, Nanami," Satoru said, and you could hear the subtle edge of a warning in his tone. "Nothing worth mentioning."
"You mentioned her plenty at the time," Nanami said, entirely without malice. He was just stating facts, his mind already moving on to the next topic. "You said it was nice to be with someone who didn't know your history. You know, a fresh start."
A fresh start. You wished the wine in your glass were poison, but when you lifted it to your lips, it betrayed you by tasting like nothing more than wine. You felt Shokoās eyes on the side of your face, the perceptive gaze that saw through every one of your defenses, but you refused to crumble. You stared at a small knot in the wood of the table, memorizing its shape, its grain, anything to keep from looking at him.
You wondered if he took the architect to that Italian place. The one with the dim lighting where heād first told you he loved you. Or maybe he was smarter than that. Maybe he was building a whole new world where you didn't exist as a ghost, or even as a mere memory.
"The food is great, Shoko," you finally said, your voice sounding small and far away in your own ears. It was the first thing youād said in ten minutes.
"Glad you like it," Shoko replied, her voice uncharacteristically soft. She knew. They all knew. The silence that followed was heavy with the collective realization that a wound reopened without anyone meaning to touch it.
You fled upstairs under the guise of exhaustion, the wooden steps creaking under your feet like a countdown. After you got ready for bed, the loft settled into a silence that felt unbearable. The skylight showed a world of black and gray, snow falling against the glass in a frantic pulse.
You heard him coming up the stairs a few minutes later. You didn't turn around. You stood by the sliding door, watching a single snowflake race down the glass. Satoru entered the room, and the space immediately felt half its size. He didn't say anything. He went straight to the small loveseat in the corner. You heard the rustle of his bag, the soft thud of his shoes hitting the floor.
"You're not going to fit on that," you said, your voice steady despite the hammering of your heart.
"I'll manage," he said. He sounded tired. Not the tiredness that comes after a long flight, but the bone-deep weariness of a man who was tired of his own skin.
You finally turned. He was sitting on the tiny sofa, his knees nearly hitting his chest, his long arms draped awkwardly over the sides. He looked absurd. He looked like a giant calico critter in a minuscule dollhouse. You climbed into the bed, the sheets cold against your skin. You rolled onto your side, facing the glass door, putting your back to him. The silence was so thick you could almost hear the thoughts racing in his head. Or maybe they were yours.
Creak. He shifted his weight. Thud. His heels hit the floor as he tried to find a place for his legs. Sigh. A shaky exhale that vibrated through the floorboards and up into the mattress. You gripped the edge of the duvet, your knuckles white. You wanted to tell him to shut up. You wanted to tell him to sleep in his car. But mostly, you wanted to ask him if that damn architect made him laugh.
"The snowās really coming down," Satoru said. His voice was thin, stripped of its usual richness. It wasn't an opening for a conversation; it wasn't a plea for forgiveness. It was just a hollow observation, a way to puncture the suffocating silence before it choked him.
"I can see that," you whispered. You didn't turn around. You didn't want him to see the way your eyes were stinging. Another long, agonizing stretch of time passed. You heard him stand up, the floorboards groaning under his height. You tensed, your fingers curling into the fabric of the duvet. You expected him to walk toward the bed, to explain, to lie, to say anything about the architect that would make it hurt less.
But he didn't.
He walked to the sliding glass door and pushed it open just a few inches. A sudden, sharp blade of mountain air sliced into the room, smelling of ice and dead pine. It was cold, but it was better than the recycled air of the loft. He stood there, a towering silhouette against the ghostly white of the storm outside. His shoulders were hunched, his hands buried deep in the pockets of his hoodie.Ā
He looks lonely, the thought hits you with the force of a physical blow. You wanted to hate him for the fresh start. You wanted to be disgusted that heād tried to replace you with someone logical. But as you watched him stand there, looking out into a white-out that offered no answers, all you felt was the echoing grief of two people who had forgotten how to exist in the same space.
The draft from the balcony vanished as Satoru slid the glass door shut. The click of the lock felt final, echoing through the muffled silence of the snowy night. You watched his silhouette move, a dark shape against the pale moonlight reflecting off the drifts outside.
He didn't even look at the loveseat. He didn't try to make it work a second time. Instead, he walked past the foot of the bed toward the linen closet in the corner. You heard the door creak, the rustle of him pulling out one of those complimentary, cheap, scratchy wool blankets, the kind that were meant for decoration, not for comfort.
Then, the sound of him sinking.
It wasn't a graceful movement. It was the heavy, thudding weight of a man who had reached his limit. You heard the rustle of the wool as he spread it out on the hardwood floor, right next to the bed. The floor. Your heart twisted. Satoru Gojo, a man who spent his life surrounded by the finest things, who slept on silk sheets and lived in penthouses, was lying on a dusty wooden floor because the air between you was too toxic to breathe.
You lay perfectly still, your eyes wide in the dark. You could hear everything. The soft friction of his hoodie against the floor. The sharp, chilly exhale as he tried to find a position that didn't hurt. The floorboards creaked under his weight, a rhythmic protest.
You wanted to tell him to get up. You wanted to tell him that you weren't that heartless, that the king-sized bed was big enough for two people who stayed on their own sides. But the words were stuck in your throat, choked by the memory of Nanamiās voice. A fresh start. If Satoru wants a fresh start, youāll let him have it. Let him feel the cold. Let him feel the hardness of the floor, just like youād felt the hardness of the silence heād left you with seven months ago.
But as the minutes ticked by, the silence of the snow outside seemed to seep into the room. The house was dead quiet. And then, you heard it.
A shiver.
It was faint, the involuntary rattle of his teeth, the sharp intake of breath as his body tried to generate heat. The loft was poorly insulated, and with the heater struggling against the mountain storm, the floor was likely ice-cold.Ā
Don't look, you commanded yourself. Heās a grown man. He made his choice. But you knew Satoru. You knew that even when he was freezing, even when he was miserable, he would never admit it. He would stay on that floor until his bones turned to ice just to prove that he could. He was stubborn, arrogant, and currently, he was shivering three feet away from you.
You rolled onto your stomach, staring at the dark heap of him beside the bed. He was curled on his side, his long legs tucked in, the thin blanket barely covering his shoulders. He looked like a shadow of himself.
"Satoru," you whispered.
The shivering stopped instantly. He didn't move. "Go to sleep."
"You're going to catch pneumonia."
"I'm fine," he said, his voice tight and vibrating with the cold he was trying to hide. "The floor is... solid. Good for the back."
"You're a bad liar," you said, your voice cracking just a little. "You're freezing."
He finally shifted, rolling onto his back to look up at the dark ceiling. In the faint light, you could see the glint of his eyes. He looked exhausted. "Even if I am, itās better than the couch. And itās better than..." He trailed off, the rest of the sentence, better than being near you and knowing I can't touch you, hanging in the air between you, heavy and unspoken.
"Satoru," you said, your voice louder this time.
The shivering stopped, but he didn't answer.Ā
"Get up," you commanded, sitting up and pushing the heavy duvet aside. The cold air of the loft immediately bit at your shoulders, giving you a taste of what heād been enduring for the last half hour. "Get off the floor. Now."
"I told you, I'm-"
"If you say you're fine one more time, I will actually kick you," you snapped. You reached down, grabbing the corner of the scratchy wool blanket he was huddled under and yanking it. "Get in the bed. Itās a king, Satoru. Stay on your side and don't say a word. Just get up before you get sick."
A long silence followed. Then, the agonizing sound of him unfolding his cramped limbs. He stood up, his tall frame a wavering shadow in the moonlight. He looked unsteady, his shoulders pulled up to his ears as he shook.
He didn't argue. He walked to the empty side of the bed and climbed in, moving with a cautiousness that was entirely uncharacteristic. He stayed right on the edge, his back to you, leaving an empty expanse of white linen between your bodies. As he settled, the mattress dipped under his weight. The heat radiating off him was immediate, even through the distance. He was like a furnace that had been left out in the snow.
"Thank you," he whispered. His voice was raw, the bravado finally extinguished by the cold.
"Don't thank me," you said, pulling the duvet up to your chin and rolling onto your side, facing away from him. "I just don't want to explain to Shoko why thereās a frozen corpse in the room tomorrow morning."
Logically, the problem was solved. He was warm; you were safe. But the physical proximity was torture of its own. You were acutely aware of him. You knew exactly where his heels were resting, the way his shoulders took up too much space, the rhythmic puff of air against the pillowcase.
For seven months, you had practiced the art of not thinking about his scent, that mix of expensive laundry soap and something uniquely him. Now, it was filling your lungs, digging up memories you had worked so hard to bury.
You thought about the architect again. Did he hold her the way he held you? Did he pull the covers over her shoulders in the middle of the night? The fresh start Nanami mentioned felt like a physical wall between you, thicker than the two feet of mattress separating your spines.
Satoru shifted. The bed creaked.
"You're still awake," he murmured. It wasn't a question. He always knew, after months, he still had a sensory map of you that heād never quite be able to forget.
"It's hard to sleep when there's a giant in the bed," you replied, your voice flat.
"I'm staying on my side."
"I know."
"I really didn't know you were coming." He spoke to the ceiling, his voice low and vibrating through the mattress. "If I had known, I wouldn't have put you in this position."
"It doesn't matter," you said instead. āWeāll be out of here in a few days, and we can go back to pretending we donāt exist to each other.ā
A heavy silence followed. You expected him to agree, crack a joke, or fall asleep. But he didn't.
"Is that what you've been doing?" he asked softly. "Pretending I don't exist?"
"Itās the only way to move on, Satoru. Some of us don't find architects to fill the gaps."
You regretted it the second it left your mouth. It was too revealing; it showed him exactly where the wound was. You heard him turn over, the mattress groaning as he shifted to face your back. You didn't move, but your heart began to hammer against your ribs.
"So that's what this is," he said, and you could hear the realization in his voice. "Nanami and his big mouth."
"I don't want to talk about it."
"There is no architect."
"Well, no- there was an architect," Satoru said, his voice flat, echoing against the slanted wooden ceiling. "I went on dates. I sat through dinners."
You waited for the punchline. You waited for him to say he missed you, or that it was a mistake. But the silence stretched, filled only by the muffled thud of snow sliding off the roof.
"And?" you finally prompted, your voice barely a whisper.
"And nothing," he said. He let out a heavy breath that sounded like a tire losing air. "I didn't like her. Not like that. Not even a little bit, really. She was perfectly fine, but we had nothing to talk about once we got past the what do you do for a living part. I sat there for two hours checking my watch and wondering if I had enough milk in the fridge for coffee the next morning."
A strange, bitter knot formed in your stomach. You should have felt relieved. You should have felt a sense of victory that the architect hadn't won. But instead, you felt worse. He tried to find a way out, but he just found a wall. But what if he had broken through the wall and discovered there was still something worth saving on the other side?
"Is that supposed to make me feel better?" you asked, turning your head to look at him. The moonlight reflected off the white snow outside, casting a pale light over his features.Ā
"No," Satoru said, turning his head to meet your gaze. His blue eyes were dull in the shadows. "It wasn't for you. It was for me. I wanted it to work. I wanted to be that guy who goes on a date with a professional woman and has a nice, professional life. I wanted to be someone who doesn't come to a cabin in the mountains and spend the whole night staring at the ceiling."
He shifted, his arm brushing against the duvet.
"But Iām not that guy," he continued, a hint of his usual edge returning, though it was tinged with self-loathing. "Iām just me. And she was just her. It was a chore. Everything feels like a chore lately."
You looked back at the ceiling. Everything feels like a chore. You understood that feeling. Since the breakup, your own life has felt like a series of boxes to check. Wake up. Go to work. Eat something that doesn't require much cleaning. Call Shoko. Sleep. Repeat. You hadn't gone on dates with architects, but you had spent plenty of nights staring at your phone, wondering if you should download dating apps, only to realize the thought of explaining your favorite movie to a stranger felt like climbing a mountain.
The architect wasn't a threat because she was better than you. She was a threat because she was proof that Satoru was trying to be done with you. But it still upset you, because the fact that he failed didn't mean he was yours again. It just meant you were both stuck in this liminal space, unable to move forward and unable to go back. Seven months of thinking he was off living some grand, redesigned life, only to find out heās just as stagnant as you are.
"Why did you come, Satoru?" you asked. "If you had any doubt, why didn't you just stay in London?"
"I told you," he said, and for the first time, he sounded defensive. "I wanted the mountain air. I wanted to see Shoko, Geto, and you know, everyone. Iām allowed to have friends."
"You didn't come for the air."
"Fine," he snapped. His presence was suddenly a physical heat. "I came because I was tired of the silence. I was tired of feeling alone. I thought seeing everyone would make me feel like a person again. I didn't think youād be the one assigned to the loft. I thought Iād be drinking with Geto until 4:00 am and sleeping on a rug."
"Instead, I'm here," he whispered. "With you."
With the windows cleared of the nightās heavy snow by a sudden gust of wind, the loft was instantly flooded with a light so white and aggressive it felt like a physical weight. You squinted, the back of your eyes throbbing with the remains of a restless sleep.
For a second, you forgot. You reached out to pull the duvet higher, your hand sweeping across the vast expanse of the king-sized mattress, until it hit something warm and solid.
You froze.
Satoru was still there. He had drifted during the night; now he was lying on his stomach, his face buried in the crook of his arm, his white hair a chaotic halo against the pillowcase. He looked younger when he was asleep, the cynical lines of his face smoothed out by the sheer exhaustion of the night.
You watched him for a moment, your heart doing a painful roll in your chest. Even in sleep, he looked like he was bracing for something. You pulled your hand back, sliding out of the bed with the stealth of a thief. But every creak of the floorboards sounded like a gunshot. You grabbed your bag and ducked into the bathroom, the click of the lock the only thing that made you feel like you could breathe again.
The bathroom was freezing, the tiles like ice under your bare feet. You stared at yourself in the mirror. You looked exactly how you felt. Your hair was a mess, your eyes were puffy, and there was a faint, lingering scent of sandalwood on your skin, Satoruās cologne. You dress in layers, anything to create a barrier between your skin and the world. When you finally emerged from the bathroom, Satoru was sitting on the edge of the bed.
He was awake, staring at the floor where heād tried to sleep just a few hours earlier.
"Morning," he said. His voice was a gravelly wreck, a remnant of the cold and the late-night talking.
"Morning." You didn't look at him. You focused on zipping your bag. "Shoko's probably making coffee. We should go down before she starts screaming."
"Right." Satoru stood up, stretching his arms over his head. The hem of his hoodie lifted, revealing the lean strength of his torso, a sight that used to be as familiar to you as your own reflection. He caught you looking. "You okay?"
The house was full of the domestic sounds of people who hadn't spent the night wrestling with the ghosts of their exes, the smell of bacon and coffee filling the air.
"Look whoās alive!" Haibara shouted from the stove, waving around a spatula. "We thought we might have to send a search party into the loft."
Shoko was at the kitchen island, leaning on her elbows and holding a mug. Her eyes flicked from you to Satoru, then back at you again. She didn't miss the way you were standing three feet apart, or the way Satoru was unusually subdued.
"How was the couch, Satoru?" she asked, her voice dripping with dry amusement.
"The loveseat is a war crime," Satoru said, sliding into a chair at the far end of the island. He reached for the coffee pot, his movements slow. "Iām pretty sure my spine is permanently shaped like a question mark."
"I told you to take the bed," Nanami said, not looking up from his newspaper. "But you always were a fan of unnecessary drama."
You sat next to Shoko, clutching your cup like a lifeline, āReady to snowboard, āKo?ā
The group moved like a bright, noisy wave down the ridge, but Satoru remained hushed. He didn't speak. He didn't offer the hand youād expected. He simply adjusted his goggles, the reflective surface hiding his eyes, and kicked off his board.
You followed. The sound of the mountain was dominated by the sound of steel edges carving through the crusty top layer of snow. In the silence, every other sound was magnified: the wind whistling through the vents of your helmet, the rhythmic puff of your own breath, and the confident thud of Satoruās board landing a jump a few yards ahead of you.
Heās not even trying, watching the fluid way his body shifts. You remembered a time when he would have been doing spins just to make you laugh, or spraying you with a wall of snow as he skidded to a stop. Now, he was just a black silhouette against the blinding white, a memory in high-end gear. You hated how much you still knew about him. You knew by the way he was standing that his left knee was probably aching from the cold. You knew that he was thirsty but was too stubborn to ask for the water bottle tucked in your side pocket.Ā
He looked back then, his goggles catching the sun. For a second, you thought he was going to say something. The air felt heavy, expectant. You prepared your "fine" and your "Iām okay," ready to shut him down before he could start.
But he didn't speak. He just gave a single, curt nod, a "you good?" translated into a movement, and then he dropped over the edge of the next steep incline, disappearing into a cloud of white powder.
The slopes stretched ahead, sun glinting off untouched powder and jagged edges, trails weaving through the forest like ribbons of white. Shadows from the pines cut across the snow in sharp lines, and the crisp mountain air carried the faint scent of pine and ice. Every incline and drop seemed alive, waiting silently for someone to carve through it. Riders streaked down the slopes, leaving trails of powder in their wake. A blur of neon jackets and helmets darted between trees, carving tight turns and launching off hidden lips. Laughter and shouts bounced off the cliffs, mingling with the hiss of boards on snow and the occasional thud of a wipeout.
The teenager in front of you had been a blur of fluorescent neon and bad judgment for the last three runs. He was doing 180-degree flat-ground spins on a crowded trail, catching edges and laughing with a group of friends who were filming him on their phones.
You saw him a split second before the world turned upside down.
He tried a trick he didn't have the balance for, caught the front edge of his board, and became a human projectile. He slammed into your side with a sickening thud, the weight of his momentum sweeping your legs out from under you. You hit the hard-packed snow shoulder-first, your helmet bouncing off the ground with a hollow crack that echoed inside your skull.
For a few seconds, the world was just white noise and the smell of churned-up ice.
"Hey! Watch where youāre going!" the kid yelled, his voice cracking with the defensive adrenaline of someone who knew they were wrong. He was already scrambling up, more worried about his GoPro than the person heād just attacked.
Then, the air in the valley seemed to drop ten degrees.
Satoru decelerated with a violence that sprayed a wall of ice over the teenager. He was off his board before the mist had even settled. He didn't look at you first; he looked at the kid.
"Hey," Satoru said.
It wasn't his playful voice. It wasn't the voice he used in boardrooms or the one he used to tease Shoko. It was a vibrating growl that made the teenager freeze mid-sentence. Satoru stepped into the kid's personal space, his towering height casting a predatory shadow over the neon jacket.
The kid went pale, his mouth hanging open. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry, I didn't see her!" the kid stammered, his eyes darting to you where you lay in the snow.
Satoru didn't acknowledge the apology. Not even a second later, he was on the ground beside you.
"What the hell happened?" Shoko and Geto slid to a halt beside you, their boards throwing up twin sprays of snow. Shoko was off her gear in an instant, her medical instincts overriding the vacation haze.
"Kid was being a moron," Satoru snapped, not looking up from you. "Check her shoulder, Shoko. She hit the ice hard."
Shoko knelt on your other side, her cold fingers expertly feeling along your collarbone. "Deep breaths," she muttered to you, her eyes flicking to Satoru. "Relax, Satoru. Youāre vibrating so hard the snow is melting under her."
Geto stood over the group, his arms crossed as he watched the teenager and his friends scurry away down the mountain. He looked back at Satoru with a heavy expression.
"I'll go talk to the patrol. Satoru, let Shoko work. Youāre crowding her."
"Sheās fine," Shoko announced after a moment, though her face remained serious. "Strained joint, maybe some bruising. But weāre done for the day. Letās get her back to the house and get some ice on this."
"I'll carry her," Satoru said immediately.
"I can walk," you protested, trying to sit up, but the world did a slow, nauseating tilt.
"You're not walking," Satoru said, his tone leaving zero room for argument. He looked at Shoko, then at Geto, a silent communication passing between the three of them. Satoru slid his arms under you, lifting you with an ease that made you feel small. He didn't look at the mountains. He just looked at you, his jaw set in a line of unadulterated terror that he was trying and failing to hide.
The cabin was warm, smelling of cedar and the leftover coffee from the morning, but the atmosphere was suffocating. Satoru had carried you through the front door as if you were made of glass, ignoring your protests and Getoās quiet suggestions that he let you sit on the chair. Instead, he deposited you directly onto the kitchen island counter, his hands lingering on your waist a second too long before he stepped back, pacing the length of the tiles like a caged animal.
"Ice," Satoru muttered, his movements jerky. He started opening cupboards at random. "Where is theā?"
"Bottom drawer of the freezer, Satoru. Same place itās been since we got here," Geto said, leaning against the doorframe. He looked at you with a knowing exhaustion. He knew Satoru was spiraling; heād seen this version of his best friend before, usually right before something, or someone, broke.
Shoko walked in, having already shed her snow gear. She dropped a medical kit on the marble counter next to your hip and pointed a finger at Satoru.
"Out," she said simply.
Satoru froze, a bag of frozen peas in one hand and a dish towel in the other. "Iām helping."
"Go pace on the porch. Go anywhere that isn't here while I check on her.
Ā "I'm staying," Satoru said, his voice dropping into that stubborn pitch. He didn't look at Shoko; he looked at you.Ā
"Satoru," you said softly, your first words since entering the house. "I'm okay. Just let Shoko work."
He flinched at the sound of your voice. For a moment, the tension in his shoulders was so high you thought he might actually snap. Then, with a sharp, frustrated exhale, he slammed the peas onto the counter and walked out, his boots thudding heavily as he retreated toward the living room. Geto gave you a small nod and followed him, likely to keep him from putting a fist through a wall.
The silence that followed was heavy. Shoko began to gently peel back the layers of your sweater, her hands cool and steady. You hissed as she manipulated your shoulder, the pain sharp and hot.
"Deep breaths," Shoko murmured. "Nothingās broken. Just a nasty strain. Youāre going to be colorful tomorrow."
You watched Shoko work, your mind drifting back to the mountain, the way Satoru had looked.
"He hasn't slept, you know," Shoko said suddenly, not looking up as she taped a cold compress to your skin.
"What?"
"Since the breakup. He acts like heās fine, better than fine, actually. The dates, the London trips." Shoko finally looked at you, her dark eyes tired. "But Iāve seen him when the lights go down."
"Everything is a chore for him right now," Shoko said, packing her kit. "Heās never learned how to be alone. Seeing you hit the snow today, I think it broke the last bit of his resolve. Heās in the other room trying to figure out how to be your ex when he clearly still feels like your boyfriend."
She patted your knee and stood up. "Don't let him back in here until you're ready to deal with him."
The only sound was the hum of the refrigerator and the muffled voices of Geto and Haibara out on the porch, discussing the snow chains for the tires. Satoru didn't barge back in. He lingered in the doorway first, leaning his shoulder against the frame. He had taken off his heavy outer gear, standing now in just his black t-shirt.Ā
"Shoko says you'll be fine," he said. His voice was casual, but there was a softness to it that hadn't been there all weekend. He walked over to the counter, not standing too close, and picked up the bag of frozen peas heād discarded earlier.
"I heard her," you said, shifting slightly on the counter. The pain in your shoulder had settled into a manageable throb. "Itās just a bruise. Iāve had worse."
"Yeah," he murmured. He reached out and gently nudged the ice pack Shoko had taped to you, making sure it was centered. It was a small gesture. "You always were a bit of a magnet for trouble on the slopes. Remember that time in Switzerland?"
A ghost of a smile pulled at your lips despite yourself. "I hit a tree, Satoru. A very large and stationary tree."
"And you tried to apologize to the tree," he added, a genuine huff of laughter escaping him.
The silence that followed wasn't the sharp, jagged one from the night before. It was comfortable.
"Nanamiās a gossip," Satoru said suddenly, leaning his elbows on the marble island beside you. He wasn't looking at you; he was looking at his own hands. "He makes it sound like Iām out there building a new life. I wasn't. I was just... bored. And lonely, I guess."
"I know," you said quietly. "I think we both are."
"She didn't get my jokes," he said, tilting his head to look at you. His blue eyes were clear, the frantic energy from the mountain gone. "Iād say something, and sheād just look at me like- I donāt even know."
You looked at him and saw the man youād left. He hadn't changed, but the space between you had. "I'm going to drive your car back when we go home," he said, shifting back to that helpful tone. "Your shoulder is going to be too stiff to handle the gear by the time we hit the highway. Geto can drive my car."
"Satoru, you really don't have to-"
"I want to," he interrupted, pushing off the counter. He reached out and briefly, almost tentatively, squeezed your hand. It was a quick touch, gone before it could become something, but the heat of it lingered on your skin.Ā
He walked out, his steps light on the wooden floor.
The next morning arrived with a stillness that only exists in the mountains after a storm. Because of your shoulder, the planned hike for today was scrapped, and the group fell into a lazy, unhurried rhythm that felt like a throwback to your university days.
The afternoon dissolved into a haze of board games and competitive bickering. You were glued to the sofa, propped up by a mountain of wool pillows, watching as Geto and Satoru nearly came to blows over a game of Monopoly. It was a sight youād seen a thousand times, Satoru leaning back with a smug, infuriating grin as he bought up every utility on the board, and Geto methodically counting his remaining cash with a dangerous, quiet focus.
"You're cheating," Geto said, his voice a calm contrast to the way he was crushing a small plastic hotel between his fingers. "There is no physical way you rolled three doubles in a row with those dice."
"It's not cheating, Suguru, it's destiny," Satoru chirped, though he didn't look at the board. His eyes flicked to you every few minutes, checking the height of your ice pack or the way you were shifting your weight.
Later, the games were pushed aside for a makeshift lunch. Shoko sat on the floor by your feet, peeling oranges and passing the slices up to you without a word. There was a comfort in the silence, the kind that only comes from people who have seen each other at their worst and decided to stay anyway. You watched Haibara try to teach Satoru how to knit with a pair of pencils and some spare twine, a disastrous endeavor that ended with Satoru accidentally tangling himself in a limitless knot of yarn.
You realized then that while Satoru had been looking for a fresh start in London, he had left the only people who actually knew how to handle his edges right here in this room. You caught his eye as he struggled with the yarn, and for the first time all weekend, he didn't look away. He just gave you a small, sheepish shrug; the most powerful businessman in the country was defeated by six feet of cheap acrylic wool.
The next day, you welcomed your last night at the cabin. The snow had stopped, leaving the mountain in crystalline perfection. In the fire pit behind the house, Suguru had built a blaze that roared against the freezing night air, the orange light dancing off the snowbanks like flickers of gold.
Everyone was gathered around. Shoko was wrapped in three blankets, nursing a glass of whiskey, Haibara was trying to roast a marshmallow to a perfect golden brown, and Nanami was staring into the flames with the profound exhaustion of a man who knew he had to be back at his desk in thirty-six hours.
You were tucked into a low porch chair, your injured shoulder propped up by a cushion. And Satoru, in his typical fashion, wasn't sitting in a chair. He was perched on the stone rim of the fire pit itself, the heat of the flames at his back, his face half-hidden in the shadows.
"I don't want to go back," Haibara sighed, his marshmallow finally catching fire. "I think I could live here. Just me, the snow, and enough cocoa to drown in."
"You'd last three days before you missed the city's noise," Shoko deadpanned. She flicked an ash toward the fire and looked at you. "Howās the shoulder holding up?"
"Itās fine," you said, the word feeling familiar now. "Just stiff."
You felt Satoruās eyes on you. He didn't say anything, but he reached into the cooler at his feet, pulled out a fresh bottle of water, and leaned over to set it on the small table next to your good arm. It was a silent, casual check-in, the kind that didn't require a thank you.
You watched the sparks fly upward, disappearing into the black void of the mountain sky. This was always the part of the trip where the real world started to bleed back in. Tomorrow, youāll be in your apartment. Satoru will be in his. You wonāt be sharing a loft or a kitchen island. You looked at Satoru. He was poking at a log with a stick, his expression unreadable.Ā
"I think I'm moving," Geto said suddenly, breaking the quiet.
The group shifted. Even Satoru looked up, his interest piqued. "Moving where?"
"Further downtown. Closer to the park," Geto shrugged. "New start. The old place has too many ghosts."
He didn't look at anyone when he said it, but the implication was heavy. Everyone at this fire had ghosts. You all were untangling yourselves from the lives you've lived together for a decade.
"Ghosts are fine," Satoru said, his voice surprisingly soft. He tossed the stick into the heart of the fire. "They remind you that you actually lived somewhere. The new places are just empty. No matter how much logic you put into the blueprint." He wasn't looking for a fresh start. He was just trying to find a way to live with the ghosts he already had.
"I like my apartment," you said, finding your voice. "Even the ghosts. They make it less quiet."
Satoruās head tilted toward you. For a second, the rest of the group seemed to fade into the background. The firelight caught the edge of his jaw, the slight curve of a smile that wasn't arrogant.
"Yeah," he whispered. "The quiet is the worst part."
The loft was colder on this final night, the heater downstairs finally giving up against the sub-zero mountain air. The skylight was a dark window into a universe that felt much too big, and the only sound was the heavy thump of snow sliding off the roof.
You were already under the covers, your back to the empty side of the bed. Your shoulder was throbbing in a way that made sleep feel like a distant country.
The floorboards groaned.
You didn't turn around, but you felt the mattress dip as Satoru climbed in. He didn't hesitate tonight. He simply slid under the duvet, his movements slow and careful, mindful of the invisible line that still ran down the center of the bed. For a long time, neither of you spoke. You just lay there in the dark, two silhouettes in a house full of sleeping friends.
"I'm not going to pretend I didn't see you hit the snow the other day," Satoru said suddenly. His voice was low, vibrating through the mattress and into your spine, cutting through the heavy silence of the loft. The incident had happened days ago. The board games, the shared meals, and the quiet afternoons on the sofa had happened since, but hearing him say it days after made the pain in your shoulder flare up again.
"And I'm not going to pretend," he continued, his tone dropping into a jagged tone, "that seeing you hurt hasn't been the only thing I've thought about every second since. It made me want to level the entire mountain just for being under your feet."
You squeezed your eyes shut. "Satoru, it was just an accident."
"It wasn't just an accident to me," he murmured, and you felt him shift in the dark, his heat drawing closer to you. "It was a reminder that Iām not there anymore. And I havenāt been able to breathe right since."
"I'm not asking for anything," he whispered, and for once, his voice lacked any hint of his usual arrogance. "I know weāre where we are for a reason. And I know Iām a lot to handle."
You rolled onto your back, looking up at the ceiling. "It wasn't just you. It was both of us. We just⦠ran out of room."
"Yeah," he murmured, propping his head up on his hand. He wasn't crossing to your side of the bed, but he was close enough that you could feel the heat radiating off his skin. "But this room feels pretty big tonight."
You looked at him in the shadows. His eyes looked softer, more vulnerable without a veil. You wanted to say it. You wanted to tell him that youād spent the last seven months looking for his face in every crowd, or waiting for him to call your phone again. You wanted to tell him that hearing about him trying to move on had felt like a physical wound.
But you didn't.
Because a confession wouldn't fix the reasons why heād left. It wouldn't fix the way his life tended to swallow yours whole, or the way the silence between you sometimes felt like an abyss. Instead, you just let the air exist between you.
This is enough. Being able to breathe in the same room is enough.
"We're leaving early tomorrow," you said, your voice finally steady. āWe need to leave before the next snowfall hits.ā
"I'll have the car warmed up," Satoru replied. He reached out, his hand hovering over the sheets between you. He didn't grab your hand; he just let his fingers rest on the mattress, an inch away from yours.
"Thank you."
The morning was a blur of frantic packing and the smell of exhaust fumes in the freezing air.Ā
You were in the passenger seat of your car, your arm in a sling, watching Satoru load the last of the bags into the trunk. He moved with that same effortless grace, his white hair bright against the morning sun. He looked back at the cabin one last time, then hopped into the driver's seat beside you.
"Ready?" he asked, his hand on the gear shift.
"Ready," you said.
As the car pulled out of the gravel driveway, you looked in the side mirror. You saw Shoko and Geto standing on the porch, waving as the house got smaller and smaller. Satoru didn't look at you as he drove, but he reached over and turned on the seat heater for you without being asked. He kept his eyes on the road, his hands steady on the wheel, navigating the winding mountain curves with a focus that felt like a promise.
The highway was a grey ribbon cutting through enclosures of white powder. Inside the car, it was warm, almost too warm. Satoru drove with a relaxed precision, one hand on the wheel, the other resting near the gear shift. The silence was comfortable until his phone, currently mounted on the dashboard, buzzed with a persistent vibration.
He glanced at it, a flicker of that familiar, high-stakes focus crossing his face.
"Don't," you said softly, staring at the passing trees. "It's Sunday, Satoru."
"It's the Tokyo-Hong Kong merger," he muttered, though he didn't reach for the phone. "Theyāve been trying to close the logistics gap for six months. If I don't answer, theyāll lose the window for the spring quarter."
The words hit you like a physical weight. The spring quarter. The logistics gap. It was the same language, the same tone, the same relentless urgency that had been the background noise of your entire relationship.
"It sounds just like the Singapore deal," you said, your voice sounding flat even to your own ears.
Satoruās grip on the wheel tightened. He knew exactly what you were referring to. The Singapore deal had been the beginning of the end. It was the night of your third anniversary, the night heād left you at a table for two for five hours because the so-called window was closing. By the time heād come home, exhilarated by the win, youād already packed half your clothes.
"I remember," he said quietly.
"You came home at 3:00 am," you continued, "you were so high on the adrenaline of the deal that you didn't even notice I was sitting in the dark. You started telling me about the contract terms before you even asked why I wasn't in bed."
"I was doing it for us," he said, but even he sounded like he didn't believe the lie anymore. "I thought if I just finished that one, if I just secured that last bit of the market, I could finally stop."
"But you never stop, Satoru. Thatās the problem. Thereās always another window, another quarter, another merger.ā He hasn't changed, you realized. He still hears the buzz of the phone like a siren call. You thought about the months after the breakup, how the silence of your apartment had been terrifying at first, but then it had become a relief. You didn't have to check your watch. You didn't have to wonder if a meeting was more important than your dinner plans.
But seeing him now, driving your car, caring for your injured shoulder... It was a reminder that the man who forgot your anniversary was also the only man who knew how you liked your seat heater set. It was a cruel, complicated thing.
"I didn't take the Hong Kong call last night," Satoru said suddenly.
You turned your head to look at him. "What?"
"In the loft. My phone buzzed three times while you were asleep. I didn't answer it. I didn't even check the preview." He glanced at you, his eyes honest. "Itās not much, I know." But it's a start. Iām trying to learn how to separate work and my life."
You noticed the way his thumb traced a small arc on the steering wheel, a restless habit he only had when he was truly present. You felt a strange, flickering sense of safety in the shared space of your car. Satoru was quiet, his profile sharp against the passing streetlamps, his hands relaxed on the wheel. The highway had slowed to a crawl, a sea of red brake lights reflecting off the slushy pavement. Inside the car, the heater hummed a steady note that made the world outside feel distant and unimportant. It was a fragile peace, but it was enough to make you want to offer him a piece of the life you had built in his absence.
"Iāve started going to the supermarket on Sunday mornings," you said. The statement was so mundane it almost felt like a challenge to the air in the car. Satoru didn't jump in with a joke; he simply tilted his head, eyes still on the car in front of him, letting the silence open up to receive the words.
"At 8:00 am," you continued, watching the rhythmic arc of the windshield wipers. "The city is dead then. I spend twenty minutes picking out the right kind of apples. I stand in the aisle and read the labels on things I don't even plan to buy. Itās calm, and itās slow."
Satoru let the car roll forward a few inches as the traffic breathed. "That sounds... peaceful."
"It is," you said, turning your head to look at him. "I used to think I needed a lot of noise and a lot of movement to feel like I was getting somewhere. But lately, Iāve found that Iām perfectly fine just being the person who knows which grocery store has the best light in the morning."
You didn't mention the mornings you used to spend with him. You didn't mention the late dinners or the missed calls. You just gave him a glimpse of the person you had become while he was away.
"I think Iāve forgotten how to do that," Satoru said softly. "Everything I do has a deadline. I don't think Iāve looked at an apple in three years. I just eat whatever someone puts in front of me between meetings."
"You should try it," you said, a genuine smile touching your lips. "But find your own store. I like having mine to myself."
Satoru let out a real, bright laugh, āfair enough."
He watched the reflection of the red brake lights in the rearview mirror and felt the jagged edges of his own restlessness finally begin to blunt. For the first time since heād packed his bags for London, he wasn't thinking about the next quarter; he was just thinking about the way your voice sounded when you talked about something as simple as apples. It was a terrifyingly quiet realization, but it gave him the courage to offer up a piece of his own clumsy attempt at a life without you, a small, unpolished truth that he hadnāt even told Shoko.
"I tried to buy a plant last month," he said.
"A plant?" you repeated, shifting slightly to ease the pressure on your shoulder. "You don't even have a watering can, Satoru. Youāre never home long enough to even keep a cactus alive."
"I know," he said, and for the first time, there was no defensive edge to his voice. "I stood in the shop for like forty-five minutes. The guy kept asking if I needed help."
He tapped his fingers against the steering wheel, a restless motion. "I ended up leaving with nothing. I realized I didn't know if the windows in my new place even got enough light. Iāve lived there for like six months, and I couldn't tell you which direction the living room faces."
You watched a single snowflake melt against the side mirror. In the past, you would have filled that silence. You would have told him which plants were easiest, or offered to go back to the shop with him. You would have managed his life for him, because thatās what you did; you were the anchor.
But now, you just listened.
Heās realizing he doesn't know how to live. It wasn't a satisfying realization; it was just sad. He was the most powerful man in his field, a person who could move markets with a phone call, and he was defeated by the orientation of his own windows. It showed how much of his life had been a carefully constructed stage: work, you, and nothing else. Take away his work, and he feels empty. Take away you, heās not only empty, but he doesnāt even know where to begin with a plant.
"My apartment has south-facing windows," you said, your voice quiet. "The light is great for ferns. But theyāre finicky. Youād have to mist them every morning."
"Every morning," he repeated, as if memorizing a mantra. "That sounds very consistent."
The car crawled another few feet, the wipers clearing away a fresh layer of sleet. The city felt closer now, the air was getting thicker with the hum of sirens and the smell of wet asphalt.
"How was London?" you asked. It was a neutral question, the kind youād ask a distant colleague.
"Gray," he said after a moment. "It was mostly just gray."
"The city or the meetings?"
"Both." He let out a dry breath that wasn't quite a laugh. "I stayed in a hotel for three weeks. Five stars. Floor-to-ceiling windows. I could see the entire skyline, but I spent most of the time staring at the minibar and wondering why the television had so many channels."
"Nanami said you were doing great," you said, looking at his profile.
"Nanami sees what he wants to see," Satoru replied. He looked at the red brake lights ahead. "I did the work. I met the people. I went to dinners at those places where the plates are too big, and the portions are too small. I even went to museums on my off days because I thought I was supposed to be expanding my horizons." He paused, his jaw setting.
"I stood in front of a massive oil painting in a museum for forty minutes. I tried to feel something, inspiration, awe, even just boredom. But all I could think about was that the room was too cold and I didn't have anyone to tell about the weird brushstrokes in the left corner of the canvas."
You could almost hear your own voice in that cold museum air, whispering a joke about the artistās messy technique just to see the corner of Satoruās mouth twitch. He was lonely, you can tell. The kind where you have all the money and power in the world, but no one to share a mediocre museum trip with. You thought about the London trip you both went on years ago, how youād dragged him to a tiny bookstore in the rain, and heād complained the whole time until you bought him a hot chocolate. Back then, the gray didn't matter because you were the color in his world.
"Did you find what you were looking for there?" you asked softly. "In the museums? Or the dinners?"
"No," he said, and the finality in his voice was absolute. "I was still me. I was still the guy who works too much and forgets to eat. London didn't change the architecture of my head. It just taught me a different view of my life."
The traffic finally broke, the red river of brake lights dissolving into the familiar, flickering lights of your neighborhood. The transition felt jarring; the mountainās muffled white world had been replaced by the metallic screech of the subway and the smell of exhaust and damp concrete.
Satoru pulled the car up to your parking spot in your apartment building. He didnāt kill the engine immediately; he let it idle, the vibrations of the car a low hum between you. In the harsh, yellow glow of the parking structure, he looked exhausted.
"We're here," he said softly.
"We're here," you repeated.
He stepped out of the car and walked around to the trunk. You watched him through the side mirror, his tall frame cutting through the parking garageās shadows. He moved with quiet efficiency as he lifted your bag. He met you at the passenger door, holding it open as you navigated the parking lot with your stiff shoulder. He didn't reach out to grab you, but he stood close enough that you could feel the warmth of his body.
"I'll walk you to the elevator," he said.
The lobby was bright and smelled of floor wax. The doorman gave you a professional nod of recognition, a sign that your life here had continued without interruption while you were away. Satoru sets your bag down by the elevator bank. He looked out of place in the lobby, too large and too vivid for the beige walls and the quiet atmosphere.
"Take the ice pack Shoko gave you," he said, his hands buried deep in his coat pockets. "And don't try to unpack tonight. Itās just clothes. They can wait."
"Right."
He nodded, his eyes lingering on the bandage visible at the collar of your sweater. He looked like he wanted to say something more, something about London, or the grocery store, or the months of silence, but he caught himself. He wasn't going to break the peace.
"I'm gonna call my Uber now. Iāll also see if I can find that supermarket of mine."
"Good luck," you said, and for the first time, the smile you gave him was entirely real. "Try green apples first. Theyāre harder to mess up."
He let out a short, genuine huff of laughter. "I'll keep that in mind."
The elevator dinged, the doors sliding open with a mechanical sigh. You stepped inside and turned around. Satoru was still standing there. He didn't wave, and he didn't wait for the doors to close. He just gave you that same, curt nod from the mountain, a silent acknowledgment that the space between you was still there, but at least it was peaceful.
As the elevator rose, you watched the floor numbers climb in the silence. You walked into your apartment, dropped your bags, dropped your keys on the bowl by the door, and listened. It was empty. It was calm. You moved through the rooms in a daze, turning on lamps that cast long, lonely shadows and adjusting a stack of mail you didn't care about, trying to reclaim the space that had felt so vital to your independence just a few days ago. To fill the calm you claimed was so healing, you found yourself chasing the low hum of the kitchen lights and throwing the windows wide, desperate to let the frantic honks of the city traffic drown out a quiet that had become far too loud.
You had only been home for twenty minutes. The radiator was still clanking as it struggled to wake up while you stood in the kitchen staring at the kettle on the stove. Yet, even with the artificial buzz of the apartment and the outside, it was still too quiet; the world couldn't compete with the deafening roar of your own mind, replaying every look Satoru gave you and every word youād left unsaid.
But then, the knock came.
It wasn't the measured tap of a neighbor. It was heavy, hurried, and persistent. Your heart did a slow, painful thud against your ribs.
When you pulled the door open, Satoru was standing there, still in his coat, his hair tousled by the wind. His eyes were wide, bright, and terrifyingly bloodshot, as though he hadnāt spent his time waiting for his Uber at all, but fighting a silent war with himself and losing instead.
"I can't do it," he said, his voice raw. He didn't wait for an invitation. He stepped into your space, forcing you to back up into the hallway. "I took one step outside, and I realized I was just going back to an empty box of an apartment. Iām tired of being alone, Iām tired of the silence."
"Satoru, we talked about this-"
"No, you talked. I listened. And I tried to be the guy who could just let you leave." He let out a frustrated breath, his hands shaking as he reached out, not to touch you, but as if he were trying to grab the tension between you. "But Iām not that guy. I sat in London for weeks thinking about how to be better, how to be less, how to be someone who doesn't leave you at the table."
He moved closer, his height suddenly overwhelming in the small confines of your apartment. He looked smaller than he ever had, in the way that his shoulders were hunched, the way his gaze was searching yours with a terrifying vulnerability.
"Please," he whispered. The word was a wreck. "Don't make me go back to where I don't even know which way the windows face. I don't want a fresh start with anyone. I don't want a fresh start at all. I want the mess we had. I want to try again, but actually try this time."
You wanted to tell him that he was too late, seven months too late. But as you looked at him, you saw the man who had stayed awake in a freezing loft just to make sure you were comfortable. You saw the man who had watched you hit the snow and looked like his soul had left his body.
"It won't be different just because you want it to be," you said, your voice trembling. "Work is still there."
"I'll give it up," he said instantly, an irrational edge to his voice. "I'll give the mergers to Nanami. Iāll quit the firm. Iāll go to the supermarket at 8:00 am every single Sunday for the rest of my life if it means I get to come home to you."
He took a step forward, finally closing the gap. He dropped his forehead against your good shoulder, his weight leaning into you, his hands clutching the fabric of your sweater like a lifeline.
"Just a second chance," he choked out against your skin. "A real one. Please. Iām dying out here."
You didn't say yes. You didn't throw yourself into his arms. Instead, you reached up, your fingers grazing the damp strands of his white hair.
"Go sit on the sofa," you said, your voice barely a whisper. "The tea is almost done."
The kettle whistles in the kitchen, a domestic scream that cuts through the raw tension of the hallway. Satoru didn't move. He stayed hunched over, his forehead resting against your shoulder, his breathing ragged. He was waiting for a verdict.
"Go sit down, Satoru," you said again, your voice firmer this time.
He obeyed, though he moved like a man in a trance. He walked into your living room and sank onto your couch, the one heād helped pick out years ago, the one that still held the faint indentation of where he used to sit. When you walked in with the mugs, the air was different. In his place was just a man in a damp hoodie, looking at your bookshelves as if they were a foreign language he was desperate to relearn. You set his sweet tea on a coaster and sat in the armchair opposite him. You needed the distance to think.
"You can't give it all up, Satoru," you said, cutting through the silence. "Don't lie to me. Youād be miserable in a week if you didn't have a market to move. Iād have to watch you fade away."
"I don't care about work anymore," he argued, his voice cracking. "I told you, London was gray. Everything is gray."
āBecause you think itās all or nothing. You think youāre either the most powerful guy in business or youāre just a guy buying apples. The reality is, I wanted a partner. I wanted someone who understood that the meetings werenāt more important than the person sitting across from him at dinner."
"If we do this," you said, your voice dropping an octave, "there are no more windows to close. There are no more midnight mergers that I find out about in news articles. You donāt get to be Mr. Gojo in this apartment. You just get to be Satoru. And Satoru has to show up."
Satoru looked at you, the blue of his eyes finally focusing, sharp and clear. "Iāll show up. Iāll show up every day until youāre sick of me. Iāll pass the Hong Kong deal. Iāll pass all of them if I have to. I just... I just need you. Please."
You looked at the space on the sofa next to him, the space youād kept clear for months, even when you told yourself you were moving on.
"Come here," you whispered.
He didn't hesitate. He set the mug down with a clatter and was across the room in a heartbeat, but he didn't grab you. He knelt on the floor by your chair, his hands resting on the armrests, looking up at you with a hope so fragile it made your chest ache. You reached out, your fingers sinking into the white shock of his hair. It was soft, cool from the city air, and so incredibly familiar that it felt like a physical homecoming.
"We aren't fixed," you warned him, even as you leaned down to press your forehead against his. "Itās going to be hard. Youāre going to mess up, Iām going to mess up and be angry, and the world is still going to try to pull you away."
"Let it try," he breathed, his eyes closing as he leaned into your touch. "Iām not going anywhere again." He stood up then, pulling you with him. He wrapped his arms around your waist, burying his face in the crook of your neck. He was heavy, solid, and warm, a stark contrast to the cold gray of the mountain. You held him back, your good arm hooked around his neck, finally letting the weight of the last seven months drop.
The radiator in your bedroom was clicking a rhythmic pulse, and the city outside was a muffled hum of distant sirens and falling sleet.
Satoru was asleep. Truly asleep. Not the guarded rest heād been having the last few months. He was sprawled across the mattress, his heavy limbs taking up nearly three-quarters of the space. You lie on your side, watching the steady rise and fall of his chest. Your shoulder was still stiff, a dull reminder of the collision, but the ache in your chest had finally quieted.
Then, the nightstand vibrated.
The sound was sharp and intrusive, the aggressive, persistent buzz of a high-priority work alert. In the silence of the room, it sounded like a siren. You didn't move, but you felt Satoruās body tingle beside you. His eyes didn't snap open, but he shifted, his hand moving instinctively toward the noise.
The screen of his phone lit up the room in a cold glow. You could see the preview from where you lay: Tokyo Logistics ā Final Confirmation Required. Urgent. It was the window. The one he had told you about in the car. The one that used to be more important than your sleep, your dinners, and your life together.
Satoruās fingers brushed the phone. He squinted at the screen, the blue light reflecting in the iris of his eyes. You held your breath, the old fear, the one about the Singapore deal and the three years of being second best, rushing back into your throat.
Heās going to take it, you thought. Heās going to slip out of bed, go into the kitchen, and be Mr. Gojo again.
But Satoru didn't take the call.
He didn't even unlock the phone. He looked at the notification for a split second, his jaw tightening, and then he did something he had never done in the three years you were together. He swiped the notification away, pressed the button to silence the ringer entirely, and flipped the phone face-down on the wood of your nightstand.
The blue light vanished. The room returned to the heavy darkness. He turned over, his large frame shifting toward you. He didnāt say anything; he just buried his face in the crook of your neck.Ā
The sunlight hit the kitchen tiles in a sharp, geometric slant, illuminating the dust motes dancing in the air. It was 7:45 am on a Sunday. Three months ago, this hour would have been a hollow victory, a quiet apartment, and a solo trip to the store. Now, it was a negotiation.
Satoru was leaning against the counter, still in his sleep-muddled state, his white hair a mess of static and gravity. He was staring at the grocery list youād stuck to the fridge with the intensity of a man deciphering a high-level security code.
"We don't need the organic apples," he murmured, his voice thick with sleep. "I checked the ones in the bowl last night. Theyāre still crisp. Itās the milk weāre low on. And that specific granola you like that always sells out by nine."
You leaned against the doorway, a mug of that tea in your hands, watching him. He was just Satoru, the man who now knew exactly which shelf held your favorite snacks and which burner on the stove was the finicky one.
"Youāre over-optimizing the grocery run again," you said, a small smile tugging at your lips.
"Iām not over-optimizing," he countered, finally looking at you. The blue of his eyes was soft. "I'm applying logistics to the most important deal of the week. If we miss that granola, the whole morning ecosystem collapses."
It wasn't always this light. There were still nights where the phone vibrated at 11:00 pm, and you saw that familiar and sharp hunger for the win flash in his eyes. There were days when your shoulder ached from a long day at work, and you found yourself snapping at him just because he took up too much space in a room. Last Tuesday, he stayed late at the office. Youād sat at the dining table, the food getting cold, and felt the familiar bile of the Singapore deal rising in your throat. Youād almost packed a bag. Youād almost called Shoko to tell her it was a mistake.
But then, at 8:30 pm, the door had opened. He hadn't come in with excuses about the workload. He had walked straight to you, dropped his bag, and sat on the floor at your feet.
"I'm late," he had said, resting his head on your knee. "I let the meeting run over. Iām sorry. I'm learning."
And that was the difference. He was a man who was willing to be seen failing, as long as he was failing in your direction.
"Ready to go?" Satoru asked, grabbing his keys from the bowl by the door after you both got ready for your usual Sunday routine. Heād added a small keychain of a tiny mountain, a silent ode to the winter trip mistake that had started it all.
"Ready," you said, reaching for your coat.
As you walked to the elevator, he reached out and took your hand. It was a firm, grounding weight. It was an anchor. The city was waking up below, the same gray, frantic world he had tried to outrun. But as the elevator doors opened and you stepped out into the 8 am light, you realized that in the end, Satoru didnāt have to quit his job or dismantle the parts of himself that made him, him. You also didn't have to be perfectly okay with every late dinner or missed phone call.
The work meetings still ran over, and the phone still buzzed at dinner, but you stopped looking at those moments as reasons to leave. He learned to stop treating his life like a series of winnable contracts, and you stopped trying to make yourself small enough to fit into the gaps of his schedule. You just learned how to exist alongside the parts of each other that were simply always going to be there. It wasn't a perfect fix, but it was finally enough to just be home.
author's note: heheheh i love when a man grovels and yearns!!! BUT! whatever u do... DO NOT go back to ur ex!!!! ( `ε“ ) overall i had a great time writing this piece even tho it was difficult to write an ending that felt Right. but as always, let me know what u think! <3