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[miyaniacs]

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all the victims

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victim #1  victim #2  victim #3 victim #4 victim #5

suggesting a target: open

emergency kills : open 

after work

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(pls note that no 3d or 2d humans are being harmed) 

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[miyaniacs]

Corrupted by Darkness

- Chapter 11 -

Chapter 10 ; Wattpad ; AO3

A/N: Heyyyy again THANK YOU ALL SO SO MUCH! I was so overwhelmed and happy with your responses <3  I try to write more now while I take some breaks from studying and working out :D I finally more of a plan on how to continue with the whole Azriel or Xaden drama ^^and maybe You‘ll now get the  inner circle and the fourth wing squad together now ^^

Nea‘s POV

Warm rays of sunlight, warm my face and wake me up. A soft smile tugs at my lips as I slowly open my eyes and look out of my window onto Velaris. The city slowly wakes up under the orange and red sunlight. With a deep sigh I turn around in my bed and nuzzle my face into Azriels chest. 

“Good Morning my love.” He smiles and kisses my head. 

“Hey Azzie” I mumble and press a soft kiss on his skin. 

“How did my angle sleep tonight?” His fingers dance around the curve of my hips. 

“Mhhh good I guess… I don’t remember much of it.”

“Really? You woke my up tonight, it seemed like you had a nightmare…” he replies softly. 

“Did I? I’m sorry.”

“No no it’s fine… it’s just …”

“Yes?”

“Forget it, you were just dreaming.” He shrugs and pats my hip. 

“No, no what is it baby? You promised not to keep any secrets.” I put. 

Azriel sighs and looks in the opposite direction.

“Who’s Xaden?” He whispers. 

“Who?” I ask and lift myself up on my elbow. 

“Xaden… you mumbled his name tonight… over and over …” His shadows swirl around his shoulders and you roll on top of him, straddling his waist. 

“Azriel I seriously have no idea who you’re talking about.” With both of my hands I grab his face and force him to look at me. “Hey … baby - you said I had a nightmare? So he probably was the monster in it.” I joke and place a small kiss on his lips. 

His hands grab my waist and he rubs small circles on my skin. 

“One more?” He pouts and I laugh while leaning down again, placing small kisses all over his face. 

“I love you.” Mumble before placing a kiss on his lips. 

“I love you more my mate.” He smiles against my lips and spins us around, “let me show you how much you meant to me, yeah?” His voice drops and his lips find my neck. 

“Yes please show me.” I moan out as his teeth gaze my skin and I feel him smirking while his shadows warp around my wrist pulling them upwards and pinning them over my head. 

“Had some special training this morning?” Cassias greets us, as we step into the dining room, the table already full with breakfast. 

“Yes real special.” Azriel winks and I roll my eyes, sitting down next to Mor and opposite of Nesta.

“At least you had more fun than I had.” Nesta groans and stretches out her sore muscles. 

“I missed you tho, it feels like I haven’t seen you in ages.” I smile at her. 

“Invite me next time.” She winks and Azriel rolls his eyes. 

“Keep on dreaming Nesta.” He says and grabs some orange juice. 

Soft tipples run around the table and a soft “meow” echos from under the table. 

“Loooook who woke up toooo.” Mor beams and reaches down, lifting up a small black cat. 

“Noctissss where have you been? Why are you so dirty?” She runs her hands over the soft black fur, trying to get all the dust off him. Noctis meows again and stretches out his little paws in my direction. 

“Nawww do you wanna come to me? Get out of Mor’s grip?” You laugh and more hands him over. 

As soon as he’s in my arms, he starts purring and nuzzles his little head on my neck. 

Azriel smiles and reaches over me, scratching my in between his ears. 

“Such a happy little family - I’m going to throw up.” Nesta fake gags. 

“Hey Az, how are your wounds healing?” Cassian asks and looks over at Azriel. 

“They’re still not healing…” he sighs and I look over at him confused. What wounds? 

Looking at his beautiful face, I see a red tear running over his soft skin. And another… and more… blood spills out of his nose and eyes and ears. 

“Nea wake up.” He says while blood spills out of his mouth. 

I scream and shoot up, ripping the covers off. 

Sweat runs down my skin and my head shoots to the left and right, trying to orientate myself. 

This is my room. In Velaris. In the house of wind. This was all a bad dream. 

“NEA!” The door slams open and Mor storms inside. 

“Mor?” 

“Omg Nea, you’re finally awake!” She says and tears run down her face. 

“It’s the middle of the night, what do you mean finally?” I ask confused. 

“You’ve been asleep for about two weeks now.” Rhys answers calmly and walks around Mor. 

“Two weeks?” I whisper, “Why?”. 

“You don’t remember?” Rhys asks and sits down next to me on the bed. 

I close my eyes trying to concentrate on the last thing I remember, but everything’s dark. 

“No… Rhys I just know going to bed in Basgiath… and waking up here.” 

Basgiath… Noctis!

“You’re finally back little one.” His deep voice echos though my mind and immediately I start to feel more calm.

“… Do you want me to show you?” Rhys asks. 

“Yes please.” I whisper and a second later I feel him knocking on my mind. 

Nea‘s POV

Warm rays of sunlight, warm my face and wake me up. A soft smile tugs at my lips as I slowly open my eyes and look out of my window onto Velaris. The city slowly wakes up under the orange and red sunlight. With a deep sigh I turn around in my bed and nuzzle my face into Azriels chest. 

“Good Morning my love.” He smiles and kisses my head. 

“Hey Azzie” I mumble and press a soft kiss on his skin. 

“How did my angle sleep tonight?” His fingers dance around the curve of my hips. 

“Mhhh good I guess… I don’t remember much of it.”

“Really? You woke my up tonight, it seemed like you had a nightmare…” he replies softly. 

“Did I? I’m sorry.”

“No no it’s fine… it’s just …”

“Yes?”

“Forget it, you were just dreaming.” He shrugs and pats my hip. 

“No, no what is it baby? You promised not to keep any secrets.” I put. 

Azriel sighs and looks in the opposite direction.

“Who’s Xaden?” He whispers. 

“Who?” I ask and lift myself up on my elbow. 

“Xaden… you mumbled his name tonight… over and over …” His shadows swirl around his shoulders and you roll on top of him, straddling his waist. 

“Azriel I seriously have no idea who you’re talking about.” With both of my hands I grab his face and force him to look at me. “Hey … baby - you said I had a nightmare? So he probably was the monster in it.” I joke and place a small kiss on his lips. 

His hands grab my waist and he rubs small circles on my skin. 

“One more?” He pouts and I laugh while leaning down again, placing small kisses all over his face. 

“I love you.” Mumble before placing a kiss on his lips. 

“I love you more my mate.” He smiles against my lips and spins us around, “let me show you how much you meant to me, yeah?” His voice drops and his lips find my neck. 

“Yes please show me.” I moan out as his teeth gaze my skin and I feel him smirking while his shadows warp around my wrist pulling them upwards and pinning them over my head. 

“Had some special training this morning?” Cassias greets us, as we step into the dining room, the table already full with breakfast. 

“Yes real special.” Azriel winks and I roll my eyes, sitting down next to Mor and opposite of Nesta.

“At least you had more fun than I had.” Nesta groans and stretches out her sore muscles. 

“I missed you tho, it feels like I haven’t seen you in ages.” I smile at her. 

“Invite me next time.” She winks and Azriel rolls his eyes. 

“Keep on dreaming Nesta.” He says and grabs some orange juice. 

Soft tipples run around the table and a soft “meow” echos from under the table. 

“Loooook who woke up toooo.” Mor beams and reaches down, lifting up a small black cat. 

“Noctissss where have you been? Why are you so dirty?” She runs her hands over the soft black fur, trying to get all the dust off him. Noctis meows again and stretches out his little paws in my direction. 

“Nawww do you wanna come to me? Get out of Mor’s grip?” You laugh and more hands him over. 

As soon as he’s in my arms, he starts purring and nuzzles his little head on my neck. 

Azriel smiles and reaches over me, scratching my in between his ears. 

“Such a happy little family - I’m going to throw up.” Nesta fake gags. 

“Hey Az, how are your wounds healing?” Cassian asks and looks over at Azriel. 

“They’re still not healing…” he sighs and I look over at him confused. What wounds? 

Looking at his beautiful face, I see a red tear running over his soft skin. And another… and more… blood spills out of his nose and eyes and ears. 

“Nea wake up.” He says while blood spills out of his mouth. 

I scream and shoot up, ripping the covers off. 

Sweat runs down my skin and my head shoots to the left and right, trying to orientate myself. 

This is my room. In Velaris. In the house of wind. This was all a bad dream. 

“NEA!” The door slams open and Mor storms inside. 

“Mor?” 

“Omg Nea, you’re finally awake!” She says and tears run down her face. 

“It’s the middle of the night, what do you mean finally?” I ask confused. 

“You’ve been asleep for about two weeks now.” Rhys answers calmly and walks around Mor. 

“Two weeks?” I whisper, “Why?”. 

“You don’t remember?” Rhys asks and sits down next to me on the bed. 

I close my eyes trying to concentrate on the last thing I remember, but everything’s dark. 

“No… Rhys I just know going to bed in Basgiath… and waking up here.” 

Basgiath… Noctis!

“You’re finally back little one.” His deep voice echos though my mind and immediately I start to feel more calm.

“… Do you want me to show you?” Rhys asks. 

“Yes please.” I whisper and a second later I feel him knocking on my mind. 

[miyaniacs]

Corrupted by Darkness

- Chapter 10 -

Chapter9 ; Wattpad ; AO3

A/N: hello … sorry for not updating, but I was busy with life tbh. But here it is and I finally have some ideas and motivation again to continue this story ^^ so I try to update more in the future :) thank you all so sooooo much for all of your feedback and the Votes - it means so much to me and I'm so thankful that you’re supporting me <3 

Noctis POV

I was shocked, I did not knew how to act or what to say. 

I haven't seen those eyes in centuries and now they are starring up at me. 

A nostalgic feeling rushes though my veins. All the good memories we shared, when humans and fae weren't even in their early stages, come back to my mind. Her eyes were full of joy, hope and light. I could stare at them for ages and get lost in the thousands of universes they showed. When the first fae walked this earth she was enlightened, happy to help them with their needs and they worshipped her. I knew it was wrong, I knew that things could turn, yet I couldn't bring myself to stop her, seeing her so happy was all I wished for, 

But now, those eyes hold nothing from that light anymore. All those years spent in isolation made her go mad, made her loose any sense of what's right and what's wrong. 

Nea... even though she took control of her body, she has to be in there somewhere. 

Reaching through the bond, I try to find just some glimpse of her, but all I see - or all Sanguis shows me - are memories... memories of all those dying humans and fae, how she burned them alive, showing me how much fun she had doing it. 

I couldn't control myself anymore. Rage clouds my mind, rage that I held in my heart for all those centuries. A rage i once held against myself, blaming myself for all the wrongs which happened. Now that I feel how much she enjoyed it, how much she enjoys torturing and using Nea's body... It all shifts to her and I can't stop the fire inside of me. 

Something blue catches my eye and in less than a second my flames hit the ground, where Sanguis stood just before. 

Azriel? Why would he be here and save Sanguis?

No... No... not Sanguis. Nea. 

Immediately my mind becomes crystal clear and I realized what I did. Sanguis couldn't burn... but Nea can. 

Sanguis knew exactly what would happen if she keeps on provoking me, trying to get me to kill Nea... something she can't do apparently, otherwise I'm sure she would have done it herself. 

Her powers... when she settled in Nea's body all those years ago, she must have accidentally given her some of her powers - Sanguis would have never allowed her to be able to control her blood manipulation skills. It's an ancient power which only runs in her family. 

But if she lost some of her powers, that means... 

Taking a deep breath I channel all of my powers into this one command I thought I've never say to her. 

"LEAVE"

Power rushes through me, into the bond and straight into Nea's soul. 

I was right. Sanguis was weaker that she used to be. Immediately the ghost of a white dragon leaves her body and flys out into the sky. 

"So you choose her?" A whisper of her voice echos though the wind. 

'I do.' I think to myself and close my eyes. Deep inside of my heart, I knew that I lost her now, even though I may have lost the real her all those centuries ago. 

But now, something inside of me shatters and I feel our connection crumble until there is nothing left. 

A pain I've never felt before, consumes every cell of my brain and I cry out. 

The ground and the mountains around us shake, rocks start falling to the ground, but I couldn't stop, I couldn't stop until l there was nothing left anymore. No pain, no hope, no light, just darkness. 

Darkness and a small little light, showing me that at least I didn't lost my bond to Nea. 

As I open my eyes again, I see various humans rushing from the college towards us, next to me crouching over two lifeless bodies, is Rhysand and some other Illyrian Fae. 

The two body's belong to Nea and Azriel. 

But no... she can't be dead. I can still feel our bond. 

Desperately I look for it inside of my mind, look for the small light - but it's not there anymore. 

Darkness rushes out of me, surrounding the whole college. 

I killed her. 

Sanguis won.

Xadens POV 

'WAKE UP NOW' Sgaeyl screams. 

My bed shakes, the walls around me shake, the whole college seems to shake. 

And the there is this deep roar shaking up every vessel inside if my body. 

Jumping out of the bed and grabbing my jacket I sprint out of the room. There is only one dragon powerful enough get the whole college shake. 

Small pieces of stone fall onto my head, other riders rush out of their rooms, horror written on their faces. 

"Xaden!" Garrick and Bodhi run towards me while I make my way out into the night. 

"What is happening?" Bodhi asks and sprints down the corridor next to me. 

"Noctis." I scream over the voices of the other students. 

"Are you sure?" Garrick asks as we finally set our foot on the grass outside and see the whole disaster. 

The college is breaking down. 

"If he doesn't stop now, we're all going to be buried under rocks here." Bodhi whispers, fear shown in his eyes. And he was right. One of the towers starts to slide towards the ground we are standing on. 

"Oh no.. no no no-" Garrick grabs my arm and drags me backwards. 

But before the tower falls to the ground, Noctis stops. 

"What the hell" Liam, who arrived next to us with Imogen, Rhi and the others, voices what we are all thinking. 

'Sgaeyl?'

'I'm fine, they are on the flying grounds.' 

"Where's Nea?" Rhi asks and looks at me, "She wasn't in her room, I thought maybe she was with you.." her voice is laced with panic as she realizes that Nea wasn't with me. 

"Flying Ground." I reply. 

But when I'm about to start running again, darkness wraps around us. 

Pure Darkness. 

I lift my hand, holding it right in front of my face but my eyes aren't able to see anything. 

It's a kind of darkness I've never seen before. 

I scream out for the others, but nothing. 

There is no sound.

Nothing. 

Searing my mind, I try to find the door connecting me to Nea, yet it's gone. 

'No.. No, No.. - Sgaeyl, tell me this isn't the reason for his outburst.'

'I'm so sorry... I - I don't know. We're stuck in the same dark as you are.' Her voice is barely a whisper inside of my head. 

'Is it shielding our magic too?' 

'It is.' 

[miyaniacs]

Corrupted by Darkness

- Chapter 9 -

Chapter 8 ; Wattpad ; AO3

A/N: I know it‘s short and not good but its an update? Sorry I‘ve been too exhausted the past days to get myself to start writing again. The ideas are there but the energy isn’t. I try my best tho :) The next chapter will be Noctis POV :) Thank you so much for reading and supporting me! I appreciate it so much <3

Nea's POV

I see Noctis opening his mouth again. 

That's it. This is how my life ends now...

The flames start to spill out of his mouth. I close my eyes. The last thing I hear is Sanguis laugh. 

"NEA!" A scream, blue lighting and strong arms warping around me. 

Carefully I open my eyes and see no other than Azriel himself. 

He came... he heard me. He came to save me. 

I look at his beautiful brown eyes, which show nothing but worry. 

"Azriel." I whisper... but my mouth doesn't open... Sanguis is still controlling my body. 

"Ohhh...no. You're not appearing here like her knight in shining armor and destroy my whole PLAN!" She hisses and I can feel the power running though my veins. 

"NO! Sanguis no please! I'm begging you stop." I happen against the invisible wall. Throwing my whole body against it, ignoring the flaming pain of my burned skin. 

"Oh no, that's your fault for bringing him here." She snarls and I can feel my hand reaching out, cupping his face.

"Oh Azriel." She smiles at him, "You shouldn't have come here." 

"But you called..." he whispers his eyes searching for something in my eyes he can't seem to find, "No... Nea called me... not you." He corrects himself and moves out of her grip, getting closer to Noctis. 

"Sanguis.. STOP NOW." He growls and takes a step closer to Azriel, trying to shield him off with his body and own shadows. 

"Oh make me." She smirks, but before Noctis can react, Azriel interrupts him: "No don't, you're killing Nea. Her body's not inflicted by your flames, but her soul is." 

"I- Is that true?! Was plan all along?!" Noctis eyes throw daggers at the smiling women in front of him.

"How would you know, that she's still alive?" She smirks. 

"I can still feel her." Azriel says quietly. 

"Oh yeah.. that matter." She rolls her eyes and I feel the power rushing through me again. 

Blood starts to run out of Azriels nose.... And his eyes... and mouth. And all I can do is scream. Scream in pain. The pain he feels because of something I do. I'm killing him. 

Then I hear her laugh again. 

No... She is killing him. 

She is using my body and my powers to kill...my mate.

"Nea." Azriel whispers, "It's okay, I know it's not your fault. I'm just glad to die, knowing that I wasn't meant to stay alone." A soft smile spreads on his face, while he falls to his knees. Then to his side. His wings spread over the ground, now colored in a deep red. 

Inside of me is a small tug.

And then I feel it. 

A power that I've never felt before. 

One last time I get up and throw myself against the wall. 

And it shatters. 

Finally I have control over my body again. Dropping my hand I stop the power flowing trough my veins and rush immediately rush towards Azriel. 

"NO!" I hear a scream in my mind, "You're not ruining my plan!" Sanguis screams and I feel her claws burring the self's inside of my mind. 

Falling down on the ground next to him, I place his head on my legs. 

"Azriel?" I whisper and stoke his soft dark hair.

"Azriel... can you hear me?" I ask him again and focus on the golden line inside of my chest, tugging on it. But there is no response. 

"Az? Az, please answer me." Tears run down my face and I let myself fall down, crouching over his body. His blood mixes with my tears as I call his name over and over again. 

Sanguis claws burry deeper and deeper inside of my mind and I know that I can't withhold her any longer. 

"Mine." She hisses, yet before she can take the final push, a deep, powerful voice echos though my mind. 

"LEAVE." Noctis commands and I feel his darkness spreading out inside of me, while my vision gets dark. In the distance I can hear a soft scream and I tug one last time on the golden line.

While drifting off into the darkness, I imagine feeling a soft tug on the other side. 

[miyaniacs]

Corrupted by Darkness

- Chapter 8 -

Chapter 7 ; Wattpad ; AO3

A/N: Hello :) sorry for the lack of updates... I had to finish my assignment first :D But i wanted to thank you all for your feedback, the comments and the votes! It makes my day whenever I see them <3 So again thank you so much for reading this story and supporting me <3 

Azriels POV

Shadows swirl around me while I stare at the ceiling in my room, lost in my thoughts. 

"Why did you fuck her when you hated her all those years?" Cassians words echo though my head... like they did for the past weeks ever since he threw them at my head. 

I couldn't answer him that day even though I knew the answer then just as clearly as I know it now. If I'd be honest with myself I had known it since the first time I looked in her eyes. Ever since that day, I felt the need to protect her and keep her save. The older she got, the more a different feeling sneaked its way into my mind... or my heart. I tried my best to stay way from her, closing myself off whenever she wanted to get to know me more, finding excuses to leave the room when she got there... it worked out for me until that night I found her crying, sitting alone on her birthday in a dark hallway. 

If my heart wasn't arching so much to be close to her and be her shoulder to cry on, I would have ripped that asshole in pieces. Having me so close to me on that night... I thought I was stronger, yet I should have known that my self control wouldn't be as strong as I thought it would be when it came to Nea. 

So here I am now, dealing with the aftermath of that night. 

I knew it was wrong to leave her broken on the floor that night, my heart was breaking into pieces while I said those words, seeing the tears in her eyes, tears that I caused. I still think that it was necessary to break things up with her... to let her be free and not chained to me, while she is in there and I'm who knows where Rhys sends me. And now that her life is chained to Xadens - I don't need my shadows to see the way he looks at her... to know that he was there for her when I left her crying. I hid myself within my shadows that night, watching over her, in case something would happen. Then I saw him. Heard how she whispered my name, full of hope that it would be me... and I saw the hurt in his eyes, when he saw the disappointment on her face when she realized it was him and not me. 

Closing my eyes again I try to recall the way her eyes lit up whenever she talks about the things that excite her, tying to remember her smell, her touch ...

Neas POV

'NOCTIS! NOCTIS HELPE ME!' I scream up at the dragon above me. Another blast of fire wraps around my body and I scream at the feeling of my skin burning. My fists hammer against the imaginary wall that keeps me shielded off whatever controls my body and whatever Sanguis is controlling right now.

'Someone please... Help me.' I cry out. 

'XADEN? Xaden can you hear me?' I shout at the opening I in my mind I left for him. But no answer ... it feels like I don't even reach him, just like I can't reach Noctis. 

More fire. 

Physically my body doesn't burn, but when I look at my hands all I see is burned flesh. Tears run down my face and I keep on screaming. 

Sanguis laughs. "Don't worry little girl, two more times and all that's left of you is a sad little pile of ashes... and your body is mine." 

"No...! No - please I'll do anything- please." I beg. 

"But there is nothing you could offer me." She smiles evilly and then says something to Noctis again, fueling his anger even more. His eyes glow as he opens his mouth again. 

Sanguis laughs, while I cry out in pain, as I feel my skin falling off of me.

'Please.. please not like this... not now... not him...' I cry and fall down on my knees. 

My vision gets darker and darker and I fall to my left, hugging my knees. I'm going to die... and no one will notice.

Theres a small tugging in my chest... and within the darkness a small golden thread appears. 

I wrap my hands around it, as if this small thread is my lifeline- "Help me. Please." I whisper to who or whatever is on the other side of the line.

Above me Noctis opens his mouth again. 

'Well that's ...' I close my eyes and wait for the fire to hit me. 

Azriels POV

My eyes shoot open and I sit straight in my bed. 

Was I dreaming? I ask myself and run my hand though my hair. 

Small droplets of sweat run down my neck. 

Something feels off.

With a sigh I roll out of bed and make my way to the kitchen. 

The whole time I can't get that feeling off my chest, that something is wrong... as if someone's in danger. 

"Couldn't sleep?" Cassian asks and I almost drop the glass in my hand. 

"Wowwww did I just surprise the one and only shadow singer?" He jokes and playfully hits my shoulder, yet his demeanor quickly changes when he sees the look in my eyes. 

"Az, what's wrong?" His voice has a serious tone in it.

"I ... I don't know." I let my head hang and my eyes search for anything and everything while I scan the ground. "It feels like she is in danger..." I whisper the last part. 

"Nea?" Cassian asks and leans on the counter next to me. 

"Yes... Cassian she..." I begin but my voice breaks. There's a tug.... A tug where all those months was nothing... a tug and the feeling of fearing for ones life. 

The glass falls to the floor and Cassian is left alone in the kitchen. 

"I know Arziel... I know..." he whispers and pushes himself off the counter. 

"RHYSAND" He screams into the night and quickly makes his way to his house.

[miyaniacs]

Corrupted by Darkness

- Chapter 7 -

Chapter 6 ; Wattpad ; AO3

A/N: Hey.. sorry for not updating... Uni got in the way ... I hope you like the chapter tho :) And thank you all so much for reading and the feedback <3 

"She bonded you way before I did." 

The words keep on repeating in my head. 

Sanguis bonded me... A big white dragon with dead black eyes. Noctis wasn't even surprised I knew how she looked like. He knew I saw her in my head... that I saw her in my head on the worst day of my life. 

It was dark outside as I looked through the widow in my room. Something seemed off, it was way too quiet, no animal was seen outside and when I somehow managed to saw one, it looked like it was running away from something. Resting my head on the window, I scratch the cat on my lap and close my eyes. Just when I'm about to fall asleep, my cat gets up and hisses at something outside of my window. "Huh? What's there?" I ask her and press my face against the window trying to figure out what she's hissing at. 

Suddenly two dark eyes appear right in front of my face. 

My cat screams and tries to attack whatever there is. 

Then I feel it. 

Every cell in my body starts to burn and something's pushing... against me from within. 

"No!" I scream out as I fight against it, throwing everything my soul has to offer against the intruder. I scream and scream and scream, but the burning sensation is too much. 

From somewhere I hear my parents voice and I feel their hands on my body. I try to answer, tell them to go away and leave me alone, but I can't form words, I just keep on screaming. 

Tears run down my face as I feel my parents hugging me, shaking me, screaming at each other in panic. I need to warn them. Need to tell them to run, run from what I'm loosing control over. It's pushing against me, trying to take control over my body, I feel it's power, it's soul, it's thought and everything screams death. 

"I'm sorry." I whisper as my mind goes black and I it taking control over my body. The last thing I see are the faces of my parents crying red tears. 

"Hey little one... hey... heyyy... you're awake." A soft deep voice echos in my head. As I open my eyes I stare at the night sky ... within someone's eyes. 

"What...who are you? Where are my parents?" I panic and look around. I'm in an unfamiliar room, its rather small yet cozy, the windows allow a look at a beautiful small garden, the sun is out and shines in the room, showing small particles in the air. 

"You're save here. I'm Rhysand and you're in my home in Velaris." 

I open my eyes and close my mouth. I really need to stop screaming in my sleep. 

"Nea? Are you alright?" Liam calls out from the other side of the wall. 

"Yes." I yell back. 

"Are you sure?"

"Yes Liam, go back to sleep." 

Rolling my eyes I get up in my bed, put on my small light. The light illuminates my the skin on my wirkst, making the small mark on the inside glow. A smile spreads across my face as my fingers trace the form of the small dragon. Taking a deep breath I get up and start searching for my coat.

The wind blows around me and I pull my coat closer to my shivering body. As if being in a trance something inside of me pulls me towards the flying field. I need to see him, I need to feel save, need to put off the mask I wore for way too long. 

Taking a few more steps I stop.

"Noctis." I whisper and his glowing eyes appear in the dark of the night. 

"Let go of her." His deep voice echos through my body. 

"No." I reply and smile. 

"Why her?" He asks. 

"Don't know... she looked happy."

"And you needed to destroy that?" 

"No I wanted it... but she didn't want me..." I sigh and fake pout. 

"That's why you killed them?" He snarls. 

"Yup." An evil smile spreads across my face, "That little bitch closed me off, hid me in the darkest parts of her soul. But I manage to sneak out. Not often but I did... "

"You sneaked out on that night with Rhys."

"Yes. I was bored, her life was too boring, I needed to spice things up."

"Spice things up?!" Noctis hisses.

"Yeah. She was about to discover her bond with Azriel ... and since his already snapped..." I shrug. 

"It's been years... you're strong enough now to materialize your own body now." Noctis breathing gets heavier and heavier, he tries his best to control himself but its too late. The anger inside of him is too much. The flames shoot out of him. Light blue flames cover the body of his rider and a sinister voice laughs inside to them. 

"Feeling better now my love?" Sanguis smiles and looks up at Noctis. 

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'What are you starring at?' Xaden smirks. 

'Garrick's arms' I respond and smile to myself when I see Xaden glancing to his left at Garrick , while flexing his own arms. 

"Ready for flying lessons?" I ask my friends and steal a pice of the apple Rhi was just cutting.

"That's the only thing I'm exited for today." Rhi sighs. 

"Honey, we need to study later. No buts." I laugh. 

"Has any of you seen Dain tho?" Liam asks. 

"Nooo... I need my flying break." Rhi whines. 

"Let's just go to the field and see if he's there." I suggest, hoping as much as Rhi that we get that break. Or more to get a break to fake that everything's fine.

Talking about Liam's embarrassing childhood story's we make our way to the flying field. 

"Liam. A worm isn't an acceptable gift for the girl you liked." Rhi laughs. 

"I was 5 okay?!" Liam defends himself, walking a bit faster and turning around to face Rhi, while continuing to walk backwards. "As a little boy a worm is something cool so I wanted to gift the girl something cool? That's just logical?" 

"It is not logical." Ridoc agrees. 

"He's always been strange." Another voice joins our conversation and I immediately roll my eyes. Not him please. 

"You are supposed to be on my side Riorson." Liam points his finger to the person behind us. 

"I'm on no ones side here." He answers and laughs. 

"What are you even doing here." I look over my shoulder glancing at him. 

"Being a good wingleader and taking over your flying lessons, since Dain's not able to make it."

"What's wrong with him?" Ridoc asks and turns to his left, looking at Xaden who's by now walking next to us. 

"Didn't care enough to ask." Xaden shrugs. 'And I never seen Noctis in action.' 

Rolling my eyes I look ahead on the filed, where our dragons already landed. Or to be more precise their dragons already landed, mine not. 

'Where are you?' I ask him. 

'Discussion.' He answers shortly. 

'And how am I supposed to be flying now?'

'Non of you will if I don't finish this discussion so be quiet now.' And he cuts me off. 

"Where's Noctis?" Rhi asks and looks around.

"Discussion." I repeat what he told me and roll my eyes at her. 

"What with who?" Rhi asks confused. 

"Sgaeyl." Xaden sighs. 

"Sga- why?" I look up at him. 

"Oh he didn't told you?" He raises his eyebrows. 

"Told me what?" 

"You could say that he's her .... Well.. ex." He says and looks at me desperately. 

"Dragons have Ex's?" Liam asks and looks up to his dragon, which seems to nod. Before I can ask Xaden what that means, a sound close to thunder echos though the field. The other dragons shield there riders while moving backwards. Looking up, there's a giant navy blue dragon and a swirl of dark shadows.

"Someone's dying today." I sigh and run my hand over my head. Sgaeyl and Noctis land simultaneously on the field, Noctis still not fully materialized. The other dragons jump backwards as the two of them make their way over to us, teeth snapping at each other. 

"For once I agree with you." Xaden looks down at me, his eyes showing the same distress mine do. 

'You know the saying's ladies first, right?' I roll my eyes at him, which results in a now fully materialized teeth snapping at me. 

With a sigh I crawl up on Noctis back and open my connection to Xaden, 'Okay how are we going to survive this?' I ask him. 'Well... let him fly behind Sgaeyl and she'll be fine.' He suggests. 'Okay good for her and you, but not for me?' - 'Not my problem.' Xaden laughs and Sgaeyl immediately takes off into the sky. 

If it wasn't for Noctis keeping my up, I would have fallen off of him by the way he shoots up in the air. 

'COULD YOU CALM DOWN?' I scream at him. 

______

Looking at the water on my nightstand I sigh. I'm thirsty... but is it really worth it moving my body to reach it? Every muscle in my body hurts. The flying lesson was pure torture, I fell off of him about four times, not counting the one I his magic kept me on him, while I was dangerously slipping to one side. Trying to rob up a bit, I almost scream at how much my arms hurt. The water is definitely not worth it. 

'Noctis..?'

'Hello?'

'Are you for real still ignoring me?'

'...what do you want.' Noctis deep voice echos through my head. 

' For you to talk to me.'

'Well it's a clear night isn't it?' 

'It is. So what happened between you and Sgaeyl?'

'Nothing that should interest you.' he mumbles. 

'Oh please says the one that's always getting involved in my life.' I roll my eyes, ' Noctis...you've been there for me before so I'm here for you too if you need me.' I say softly. He's always been alone for god who knows how many centuries. I get that he's used to dealing with stuff on his own,..., and that opening up isn't the thing he tends to do... funny enough he kind of reminds me of me of Azriel. Immediately after he crosses my mind again, i feel a sting in my heart. 

'Please stop thinking about him. You're too good to be treated that way.' Noctis answers, his voice way more softly than usual. 

'I know I know...' I sigh and nuzzle deeper into my pillow. 

'We had something ...' Noctis suddenly says. 

'Xaden mentioned she's your Ex?' I ask. 

'Well yeah you could say that...I ended things with her...not in the nicest way.' 

'That explains why she's so mad at you.' I laugh, 'Why did you end it?'

'I started to like her...' he grumbles. 

'Noctis. You're telling me you ended things with her... because you liked her?! I should slap you in her behalf.'

'As if I'd even feel that.' He huffs, ' But yes i did.' His voice sounds nostalgic now. 

'You still feel like you made a mistake...' I whisper, his feelings flowing over to me. 

' I promised to wait for someone. She saved my life a long time ago... our souls are linked.' 

'She's your mate?' I asked. 

'More than the mates you know... or the ones other dragons know.' 

'Where is she now?'

'She locked herself away... she lost faith in this earth and well... in herself.'  I waited for him to continue, not daring to interrupt him now.

'We can share our powers and one day, she took some of mine. It was an unspoken agreement between us, that we keep our powers balanced. I was mad at her and left her for a some years, retracing myself from every fae or humankind. Things got worse... the power was too much for her and she lost control. I tried to help her, saving her from herself...' I feel like crying, all of his emotions are too much for me. 

'Fae and Humans agreed to a pact trying to kill me... they thought I was the reason for all the wrongs they lived through. Before you ask, their spell couldn't kill me... she didn't need to do all of that... San didn't need to kill all of them.' The last part of his sentence, is barely more than a whisper now. 

'San?' I carefully ask. 

'Sanguis. That's her full name.' The way he says her name sounds like a prayer, 'She killed everyone who was there. They started bleeding until there was nothing left.'

'Bleeding? As in...' Despite my arching muscles I shoot up in my bed.

'Yes... the blood manipulation is her power. You're... you're bonded to her as well.' 

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“You overreacted.” Rhys says for the nth time. 

“SHE KILLED YOU.” Feyre says for the nth time.  

“Okay that’s enough. Rhys tell us exactly what happened.” Amren says rubbing her temples. All the constant yelling from Feyre and the constant “No’s” from Cassian, annoying her to death. 

“We were training like always.” Rhys begins, “and maybe it was my fault for pushing her too much, I knew she was already exhausted…” he mumbles more to himself. 

“Being exhausted does not justify killing someone.” Feyre snarls. 

“Well I’m here right? So she did not kill me.” Rhys smiles at her placing his hand on her knee. “Anyway… She should try it for the last time for that night and everything seemed normal as it always does. The next thing I know is, that the look in her eyes became more distant… and her eyes seemed darker - then I felt the blood running out of my noes… and eyes… I tried to talk to her, yet she seemed to be distant… then I collapsed but I remember Noctis knocking her over and then the pain in my head stopped.” 

The room was silent, except for Amrens small steps, as she walks up and down in the room. 

Nesta, Mor and Cassian sit next to each other on the sofa, Elain sits on a chair next to a window, Azriel, completely surrounded by his shadows stands to her left in a corner, while Feyre sits on Rhys lap. Ever since they came back that night, she wouldn’t leave his side. The feeling of loosing her mate, again, was something she can process. 

“This can’t be true… she would never hurt any of us.” Mor whispers. Her left hand clenches around the fabric of her dress. 

“At least not intentionally.” Nesta agrees with her. For Nesta and Mor, Nea quickly became one of her closest friends. At one of their wine and gossip nights, Nea told them about her and Azriel. She was afraid of their reaction for several reasons, yet they were nothing but supportive… and noisy. Nea was the only one Nesta dared to talk to about her feelings, Mor used to crawl in her bed, when she was feeling lonely, which usually ended in then staying up the whole night talking. 

“She did and we should have known.” Azriel quietly replies from the back of the room. Now all eyes are fixed on him. 

“What do you mean?” Cassian asks, the anger slowly rising inside of him. 

“You know how we found her. I told you on the very first day to leave her there.” 

“Leave a kid alone in a village covered in blood?!” Cassian rises to his feet and takes a step towards Azriel. “She was 10. TEN AZ. Ten and standing the blood of her parents.” 

“And do we know how it was possible for a whole village to bleed out?” Azriel comments, his shadows swirling around him. 

“Why did you fuck her when you hated her all those years? Never trusting her?” Cassian hisses. Azriels shadows move closer to him, almost swallowing him completely. “Oh no answer?” Cassian laughs and throws his hands in the air, turning his back to Azriel. All eyes are fixed on Cassian, waiting for his fist to crash in Azriels face. All eyes except for Rhys. He looks directly at Azriel, his eyes showing a certain understanding and sympathy, the others don’t understand. 

“Two of the same, one good one evil, one brings light one brings darkness, one brings death one brings life. Two of the same, yet neither can live without the other.”  Amren whispers. 

“… uhm What?” Cassian blinks. 

“That’s what they whispered.” Amren speaks more to herself, “ That’s what it whispered.” She looks at Rhys, her eyes wide in shock. 

“Amren… are you sure?” He asks, gently moving Feyre off him to stand up and walk closer to Amren.

“I really hope I’m wrong.” She says, “I need to go, check something.” And with that she rushes out of the house, leaving the other confused.

“Rhysand what’s going on?” Feyre asks, crossing her arms. 

“She’s talking about Noctis opposite.”

“His… opposite?” Mor asks confused. 

“Well Noctis should be the darkness… so his opposite should be the light?” Cassian mutters. 

“But that means, Noctis brings death?” Feyre acknowledges. 

“That’s not sure. My magic has its roots in Noctis power, and besides what everyone else thinks, it doesn’t exactly brings death.” Rhys corrects her. 

“Every Power brings death or life depending on how you decide to use it.” Nesta frowns. 

“So are you implying that “light” brings death?” Mor asks.

“There’s this myth. Once there were two spirts, who roam around Prythian. No one knew where they came from, but the creatures living at that time, saw them as gods. One was used to scare the children, telling them when darkness comes, they can’t hide, they cant escape, it will see all their wrongs, which means they shouldn’t go out once the sun is setting. That’s why they should stick to the light, stick to the good. They worshipped the light, some of our celebrations are still rooted in some of the festivities they held for it. While darkness was the bad, light was everything good. As the time goes by, more bad things happened and the fae blamed the darkness, telling themselves that it sucks the powers out of the light, causing all the bad things. This resulted in the great hunt.” Rhys pauses and looked around. 

“But, wasn’t the great hunt the hunt that… allegedly… created The Prison?” Mor whispers. 

“It was. They captured everything evil and put it inside the mountain. Now… eventually they had to face the darkness. When they sent the powerful spell to kill it, Light came and protected darkness, taking the spell. The spell should kill darkness, yet it only harmed light. 

Light was deeply hurt and lost every faith in the fae, after they tried to kill . It  imprisoned itself in the mountain, where it, supposedly, up until this day, still lives.” Rhys finishes. 

“Why didn’t it kill it?” Cassian asks and drops down on the sofa again. 

“ Light was more powerful than darkness.” Nesta states. 

“But if they were opposites, shouldn’t they have the same power?” Feyre asks. 

“What if darkness wasn’t the one stealing powers.” Elain whispers from the back.

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“How.” 

“I knew something was up with you after two weeks… so I followed you.”

“You followed me exactly on this day?”

“No… for the past 2 weeks.” he leans against his desk and crosses his arms over his chest. 

You were to focused to recognize him. 

But you did?!

Yes. 

AND DID NOT TELL ME?

I thought it could be helpful. 

Helpful? Who knows how may of his friends now know about … this.

‘No ones knows. I kept your little secret.’ He smirks and I look at him confused - his mouth is still closed… that means…

‘Yup in your head.’ he finishes off my thought.

“How.” I ask him. Is he like Rhys? I quickly check my wall - nope still up- so how is he able to get inside my head. 

“If you dare to even touch my mind I swear to whatever there is to kill you.” I hiss and he quickly raises his hands in defense. 

“Hey hey - I can’t do any of your little fea magic.” 

“So why is it then?”

Because you both posses the same signet. The signet that I once gifted the very first shadow wilder. So both of you have a bond to me. More or less. Noctis explains. 

‘So because of that we both have a bond?’ I ask annoyed. 

Yes. The stronger the dragon, the stronger the bonds. 

‘And if there are any other shadow wilders, we too have a connection with?’ Xaden asks.

Yes. 

‘But… our bond is stronger right?’ I whisper to Noctis, suddenly feeling kind of jealous, that I’m not the only one having a bond to him. 

Yes. Your my special little shadow. He answers sarcastically and I glare at Xaden who smirks. 

‘Could you stop talking to both of us now.’ I hiss at Noctis. 

As you wish little shadow. I can hear the amusement dripping out of his voice. 

‘Is this why you spoke to Rhys?’ I ask Noctis, side eyeing Xaden to make sure, he isn’t hearing it. 

Yes his powers were once gifted from me to one of his ancestors. And no he can’t hear us, so stop glaring at him. 

“What did you see?” I ask Xaden. 

“… enough to know your second signet.” He sits down on his chair and look at me. 

“And from what happened last night?”

“You almost killed the most powerful high lord, almost got attacked by his wife and your boyfriend broke up with you.” He raises his eyebrows, his voice heavy with sarcasm. 

“He wasn’t my boyfriend.” I snarl. 

“Oh that’s the one thing you comment?” Xaden smirks and I take a deep breath trying to control the impulse to slice his throat. I get up and walk towards the door. 

“I told your teachers that you’re sick. So you’re free for the day.” I hear him shouting while I slam his door close. 

I can’t believe this. Why didn’t you tell me?! 

Hello? Noctis?

Noctis?

Okay FINE ignore me then. 

Angrily I march down the corridor and turn to the left and run straight into a person. 

“Wow … slow down Nea” a familiar voice says and two hands grab my shoulders. Moving my head up I look directly at Liam. 

“Riorson  told us you were sick… so why are you coming out of the 3rd years corridor… OH” he wiggles his brows. 

“No. No - LIAM NO that’s not what happened.” I cover my face in embarrassment. 

“Hey chill - your dirty little secret is save with me - at least I now know who to blame for all the sleepless nights.” He laughs, “I’m just a bit offended that you didn’t consider me.” 

Crouching down I move out of his grasp and take his arm, dragging him with me towards my room. 

“Wow woowww…. Okay. I said it as a joke, but I’m down if you are.” Liam jokes, but his voice is filled with nervousness and panic. 

“No Liam. Relax.” I sigh and close my door behind us. 

Don’t tell him. Noctis warns me. 

‘Oh now you talk to me.’ 

You’re angry at yourself but let it out on everyone else, so yes I try to keep out of the line of fire. 

‘WHY SHOULD I BE ANGRY AT MYSELF? You were the one not telling me about Xaden. For how long is he creeping in my head?!’

One week. 

‘Okay… good.’ I say calming down a bit. 

One week… after your signet showed. Noctis added carefully. 

‘WHAT?!’ 

“Nea?” Liam, who’s still leaning on my close door, brings me back to reality. 

“Sorry… just a small discussion with Noctis.” 

“And that’s why you’re angry?”

“Why is everyone saying I’m angry? I’m not angry!” I yell and throw my stuff animal at him and collapses on my bed. Catching my stuffy, he walks over to my bed and sits down next to me, placing it on my lap. 

“Okay. You’re not angry - then what is it?” He asks gently. 

I look down at my stuffi. It’s the only thing I have since my childhood. My dad got it for me when  was just a day old. 

“I’m overwhelmed.” I mumble, “And alone with it.”

“Then talk to me. So you won’t be alone anymore.” Liam places his arm around my shoulders. 

“I can’t.” 

“Why not?”

“Noctis told me not to.”

“I hate to say this now, considering how big and scary he is, but screw him. Deigh told me to not eat that second portion of breakfast right before our flying lesson - did I listen to? No.”

“Was it that time you’ve immediately thrown up after getting off of Deigh?” I ask, glancing up at him. 

“Well yes.” he chucks and I smile, “But that’s not the point!” He laughs and I can’t help but affected by his childish behavior. 

“Anddd there’s that beautiful smile again.” He smiles and squeezes me closer. 

The smile on my face fades as I lay my head on his shoulder. 

“I had special training with Rhys.” I mutter. 

“Rhys? As in the big bad high lord who adopted you?” Liam asks. 

“Yes… and I almost killed him yesterday…” I whisper. Liam stays quiet, waiting for me to continue. “It was an accident. I didn’t mean to… I just couldn’t control my powers…” I swallow, remembering the events, “ And then Feyer came… and Az-“ I shake my head, the thought alone of speaking out his name, hurts like hell. “ She said that I should never to them again. Or come back home.” The tears now run down my face again. “Liam- I’m alone. I’m alone again. I not only lost one… but two family’s now.” I sob. Liams hand finds its way in my hair, gently rubbing my head. 

“She was in shock. Let her calm down a few days… Let Rhys talk to her… I’m sure she was just speaking in the act of the moment.” He tries to reassure me. And I know he is right… Rhys wouldn’t drop me just like that… And if he explains everything to her… she probably at least be in the same room as me again… The others… I’m not sure… I’d needed to talk to them in person …

But not Azriel. No. 

“He won’t forgive me.” I whisper. 

“I know you’re not talking about Rhys … ?” He asks gently. 

“No..” I smile at him, signaling that I don’t want to talk about it. “But tell me what have I missed in class today?” I try to change the subject, getting up from the bed and whipping the tears away and grabbing my water bottle. 

Liam looks at me as if he still wants to say something… or asks, but quickly drops it and puts on his usual smile. “Well… Eve fell off of her dragon.” He laughs out loud as I choke on the water. 

“She what” I ask i between coughs. 

“She fell.” He proudly, “but sadly she’s still alive.” He sighs and gets up, patting me on the back. 

“I’m okay Liam.” I laugh and put the bottle away.

“Good. Then come now, Rhi and Ridoc wait for us on the country yard.” 

“Us?” I question him.

“Well me, but they wouldn’t mind me dragging you along.” He smiles and opens my door, “Also… some Vitamin D is good for someone who’s… sick.” He jokes and I just slap his arm, while walking next to him to meet the others. 

‘Maybe I was wrong.’ Noctis admits

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Then there’s movement behind his closed eyes and they flutter open. 

“Well Nea that was something else …” he laughs, his voice raspy and barely there. 

“Rhys I’m so sorry - I - I don’t know what happened… I lost control I-“ 

A Flash of darkness and blue. 

“RHYS!” I hear Feyres desperate voice call out. She pushes me off him and cradles his face in her hands. 

I crawl back from the two of them and look at the person standing behind her. 

Azriels eyes lock with mine and I crawl back even more until I hit one of Noctis claw. 

His head moves down, resting on eye level with Azriel. He fleshes his teeth as Feyre gets up and looks at me. 

“WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO HIM?” She hisses and slowly walks closer. 

“I - I - Feyre I don’t know. I didn’t want this to happen.” You cry. 

“YOU TRIED TO KILL HIM!” Her eyes throw daggers at you. 

“Feyre darling,” Rhys gets up on shaking legs, immediately supported by Azriel, “I’m alright, she didn’t kill me. It was an accident.” He struggles to keep on his feet, as he moves closer to Feyre placing a hand on her shoulder. 

“Darling. Let her be. Don’t you see that she’s frightened enough.” he gently rubs her shoulder and smiles at me. 

Meanwhile Noctis got into whole protection mode, ready to kill whoever takes the next step. 

“Feyre let us go.” He says again, gently pulling her away, aware of the the way Noctis is looking at her. 

“Don’t. Don’t ever come to us again. Never… and if I see you again, I promise you I’ll kill you myself.” She spits out every word before grabbing Rhys arm and disappearing. 

Now it’s only me and Azriel left. 

I get up on my shaking legs, wobbling a step forward and another … until I’m right in front of him. 

“Az…” My voice breaks and I stretch out my hand needing to feel his touch, but he takes a step back.

“Az?” I whisper. 

“Nea… you.. you tried to kill him.” He says, his voice cold. 

“Az.. I don’t know what happened…I didn’t mean to.” I beg. I feel my heart breaking, his usually warm eyes show nothing but disgust. 

“Nea no… don’t contact me again… no.. don’t contact us again. I always knew it was a mistake when he took you in.” Shadows swirl around him until nothing is left and I’m alone. 

Totally utterly alone. 

My legs give out and I fall on the ground. 

Tears stream down my face and my whole body starts to shake. 

I’m alone. 

Completely alone. 

Again. 

No, I’ll always stay by your side. Noctis voice sounds soft in my head. He lays down next to me and I rest my head against his. 

“Nea?” A deep voice calls out my name and I feel someone kneeling down next to me. 

Who is this… and why is Noctis letting him near me. 

As I open my eyes my vision is blurred through my tears. Next to me kneels a tall male, dark swirls run up his arm, his dark hair shines in the rising sun. 

“Az..?” I mutter, hoping that he came back to me. That he realized that it wasn’t my fault and he’s now here to help me through it. To be my anchor again, like he was in the year after my heartbreak. We became so close after that, I finally felt like he was accepting me, opening up to me and just… I had this stupid hope in my head that… maybe we could be more… 

“No Nea… It’s me Xaden.” I blink a few times and now see the contours of his face, the scar running over his eye, his strong jaw… “Hey… we need to get away from here. The teachers heard that something happened.” He whispers and pulls me up and surrounding us in shadows, while he drags me away from Noctis, who himself, disappears into shadows. 

I don’t say anything while Xaden guides me though dark corridors and stairs, until we reach a door and he pulls me inside. 

“Here… sit down.” He gently pushes me onto his bed. 

“Wait here okay? I get you something warm to drink.” He smiles softly and leaves the room. 

And now I’m alone again. 

I lost everything. 

The tears start to run down my cheeks again and my vision blurs. 

How could this happen… How could I let this happen… let this happen again. 

This voice in my head… Something about it sounded familiar… As if I heard it again tonight after years of it being quiet. 

The door opens again and Xaden walks back inside, in his hand he has a big mug, filled with hot chocolate. 

He quickly places the mug on the desk next to his bed and rushes beside me. 

“Hey…hey… It’s okay, come here.” He gently pulls me into his arms holding me close. 

I cry and cry… until nothing’s there anymore and I just feel… numb. Numb and exhausted. 

It takes all of my strength to look up at Xaden. 

“Thank you.” I whisper and fall back into his chest, my eyes closing. 

The sun shines through my closed eyes and I shift around in my bed trying to turn towards the wall and shielding my eyes from the light. After a few seconds I open my eyes in panic. 

THE SUN? I need to wake up before the sun is that high to wake me up?! I rush out of the bed and open the upper drawer from my night stand, fishing out a new bra. 

But there is no bra. 

Why is there no bra? Instead of a bra I pull out a box of … condoms?

I quickly drop the box and  pull my hand back and take in my surroundings - this isn’t my room. 

Looking down on myself I check my clothing, which is the same I wore as I left last night to meet Rhys. 

Oh. 

Rhys. 

The events of last night start to come back. I’m still in Xadens room, he brought me here after he saved me from more trouble last night. 

My eyes look back at the drawer. Why does he have a box of condoms right next to his bed. 

You know Nea… when two people like each other, but don’t want to commit to children yet…

Noctis! You groan. 

Well you are asking those stupid questions and not the real one.

Why was he at the flying field?

Good girl. 

Before I can start a mental argument with Noctis, the door opens and the owner of the room walks in. 

“Oh good you’re awake.” He says and I look him up and down. He’s dressed in a simple tight fitting black shirt and  some black joggers. Small droplets of sweat still run down his temples.

Yes, you should have checked the size while you had the chance. Noctis laughs and I couldn’t help the blush creeping up my neck. 

“How did you know were I was?” I quickly ask him. 

“Hello to you too.” He smirks and closes the door. 

[miyaniacs]

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- Chapter 2 -

Chapter 1 ; Wattpad

A/N: hey again, today was a really good writing day :) I know this chapter is shorter, but the next one is already finished :) if any of you are willing to give me some feedback or comments, I’d really appreciate it <3

My knees hit the ground as I try to hold my body up with my arms. Small drops of sweat color the underneath me, my breath is heavy and it feels like I can’t breath fast enough to give my body the oxygen it needs.

“I need a break.” I whisper as I look up through my lashes. Rhys is standing right in front of me, the blood running out of his nose already stopped.

“Do you know how to control it now?” He asks and kneels down.

“I think so …” I grumble and sit down, resting my arms on my knees.

Thinking isn’t good enough. Noctis hisses.

‘I’m sorry! It’s exhausting to concentrate the energy running through me to another person.’

Well but if you don’t know how to control it and lose your temper again you’ll die.

Looking up, I glare at the giant dragon. I know he’s right, but this power is so much more than the magic I’m used to.

“Rhys this is so much harder than you trying to teach me to not get my mind crushed by someone like you.”

“But I can’t crush yours, can I?” A small smirk plays at his lips.

“No…”

“So you’ll manage to control this power too. - hey Nea. Look at me.” His hand grab your face and force you to look at him.

“Nea. You’ll find a way and until you’ll do so, I’ll be here every single night ready for you to make me bleed.” He smiles and whips away a tear running down your cheek.

“What if I accidentally hurt you?” I start to sob.

“You won’t. You’d never hurt me. Or any of us.” His hand leaves my face and reaches for my hand, pulling me up with him.

“The sun is rising, I should go now … and you should eat something.”

“Hey Rhys?”

“Yes?”

“Thank you.” I smile and he returns it, before clouding himself in his darkness and disappears.

Go now. Your hunger is rubbing off on me.

‘Why were you here in the first place?’

Moral support.

‘All you’ve been doing, is telling me to do it faster and concentrate more.’

Because I worry about you. You’re excellent at challenging your other powers, but this?

‘ I don’t want to talk about this now.’ Annoyed I turn around and stomp off the field. On my back I still feel the hot air from Noctis huff and stumble forward when he flys off, a bit too energetic.

I tried my best to avoid my friends today, I really couldn’t bear them asking me what is wrong with me and lying to them about me just being tired. Exhausted I fell down in my bed and passed out immediately, until I wake up by Rhys calling me. So I get up and spend the night working on my … blood manipulation… and have my breakfast again, and class, and training with Xaden…and sleep and Training with Rhys again…and so my days go by for the next month. At some point my body gets used to it and everything is more bearable now. So here I am again, standing on the flying field an making Rhys bleed form his almost healed wound again. He told me he got it because Feyre distracted him while training with Cassian.

“Do it again.” Rhys says after his wound closes again… or more like the blood stopped pouring out of it again.

“Isn’t it enough?” I sigh.

“No. Again, one more time Nea.” He smiles.

Focusing my powers, you concentrate on feeling of his blood running through his body, feel how it concentrates on his organs… on his brain.

Do it. A soft voice whispers in my head.

Do it. It speaks again.

It is as if my powers channel themselves, my fingers tickle yet I don’t move a finger. I’m fully consumed by my powers and feeling of Rhys blood in his head.

“N- Nea?” Rhys voice breaks, and his fingers move up to his mouth. Blood starts running… out of his mouth, nose.. ears… and eyes.

“Nea…” he whispers and collapses on the ground.

NEA! Noctis calls inside my head.

STOP NOW.

No… keep going. The soft voice hisses.

DON’T LISTEN TO HER. YOU NEED TO STOP NOW! Noctis screams and throws his tail around, knocking me off my feet. The very second I hit the ground I feel my powers leave. My head is spinning, my ears ring and my breathing is heavy. I don’t understand what happened. Why am I on the ground? Why is blood dripping out of my nose?

NEA HELP HIM NOW! Noctis screams and growls.

Him?… Him… RHYS.

I shoot up and stumble towards him.

He lays flat on his back in a puddle of his own blood. At least the blood stopped running.

Panic starts to rise as I shake him, again and again, calling out his name.

“RHYS!” You cry out, “Rhys please… wake up.”

[miyaniacs]

Corrupted by Darkness

- Chapter 1 -

Intro ; Wattpad

A/N: Hey :) Yes I’m forcing myself to write again… and if I wouldn’t update it immediately I’ll never update - so yes maybe there’ll be some some adjustments / reuploads. Still I hope you enjoy it. The next chapter will be a bit more story heavy - Thank you for reading it! <3

“YIELDDD” the blond haired guy yells. Getting up with a smirk, you take his dagger and leave the mat.

“Well that was … personal?” Rhi looks at me.

“I don’t even remember his name?” I look at her confused.

“I’m not talking about Leon.” She smirks and looks across the room, towards a shirtless Xaden… and Eve.

How is it possible that she’s always glued to him?

And why aren’t you glued to him?

‘Ohh shut up.’

Maybe he takes her because he can’t have you?

‘I look nothing like her? And before - I’m not jealous. I’m just forced to spend time with him and she’s always there.’

Uhuuu

‘NOCTIS!’

“Hellooooo? Earth at Nea?” Ridoc waves his hand infront of your face.

“Sorry sorrrryyy”

“Class is over - and we’re finally free!”

“For the day.” Liam sighs as he walks over towards your group.

“Aren’t you the most energetic out of all of us?” Rhi raises her eyebrows.

“OMG LIAM!” Ridoc fake gasps, “who’s the lucky one?”

“That you should ask Nea.”

And now all their eyes are fixed on me. I really should have remembered that his room is right next to his.

“Non of your business.” I smirk at them and start to make your way out of gym.

“No no nooo not so fast.” Rhi hurries next to you, quickly followed by Ridoc on your other side.

“There’s nothing to say.”

Sure there isn’t

‘Could you please stay out of this?

Hey you were the one involving me in it last night.

‘I already apologized for it didn’t I?’

I am still traumatized

‘Not my fault that you don’t get laid.’

Excuse me?! Maybe I just know how to keep you out of it?

‘And now I know for sure that you don’t get laid.’

“Sorry guys but it’s a secret.”

“Ok but was it good?” Rhi asks.

“Sounded like it was.” Liam laughs from behind us.

“… could we not discuss this right now.” I beg and rub my temples.

“And what should we discuss then?” Ridoc smirks and looks at me.

Rolling my eyes I glare at him: “ Well how about we discuss our next history test?” I smile innocently, while he groans.

“Why don’t we discuss the whole Eve thematic again?” Liam asks and pushes between me and Ridoc.

“There is nothing more to discuss. Her family is friends with people my family isn’t really … found of.”

“And she’s a bitch that thinks she’s better than us just because she’s a fae - no offense Nea.” Rhi adds.

“Non taken.” I laugh.

“And that’s why she doesn’t like you?” Ridoc asks.

“Yup this and the fact I’m friends with someone she desperately wants to fuck.” I laugh.

“What? Why haven’t any of you told me that she wants to fuck me? I know she’s a bitch but I wouldn’t say no…” Liam fake gasps.

“No Liam we’re talking about someone who’s actually attractive and doesn’t just have a big ass ego.” Rhiannon laughs.

“Ouch. That hurts Rhi.” Liam puts his hand over his heart and pouts.

“Nawww Liam… you know I wouldn’t say no to you - If you weren’t one of my friends.” I laugh.

“Thanks it helps hearing this from the hottest Fae around.” He smiles and puts his arm around my shoulder.

“Well… I loved this conversation, but my bed calls me.” Wiggling out of his “hug” I stop in front of my room.

“If you need any company - just call me, the walls are thin.” He winks and opens the door to his own room.

“See you at dinner?” Rhi asks while she and Ridoc walk towards their own rooms.

“Yes see you there!”

Closing the door I immediately take off my clothes and put on the big shirt Azriel left me last night.

As soon as my head hits my bed my mind wanders off to the events of last night.

Closing my eyes the image of Azriels face appears. It was always different between us.

While Rhys quickly became a father figure for me, Cassian and Mor immediately adopted me as a little sister. But Azriel… I was 15 when Rhys brought me with him and introduced me to his family.

Azriel was always cold and closed off, he avoided talking to me if not necessary, always had someone else with us when he trained me. Things changed on my 19th birthday. Mor was throwing a party for me, inviting everyone including my boyfriend at that time - to make it short he cheated on me that night … in my room… my bed.

While running away from him and the party I ran into Azriel… when I told him what happened something snapped inside of him and let’s just say I woke up next to him that morning… and the morning after… and after … and -

I get it. Please stop thinking about it.

‘Then stay out of my head.’

‘Hey Noctis?’

Yes little shadow?

‘Do you think it’s more than just sex for him?’

Is it for you?

‘…no.. I mean… he’s a close friend, so obviously I care for him…’

And you’re sure that’s all?

‘Noctis. I’m here and he’s in Velaris. Even if I wanted it to be more, it wouldn’t work out.’

And why not? He’s already visiting you.

‘I - He- yes..’

But?

‘Nothing… I should sleep now.’

Sure little shadow.

Wake up. Nea. Wake up. NEA!

I wake up to a voice in my head that isn’t Noctis and feel a hand placed over my mouth and start to panic, searching for the weapon under my pillow. How did this person get inside of my room? Isn’t my magic working? And why didn’t Noctis wake me up?

“Nea. It’s me.”

That voice… I blink and let my eyes adjust to the darkness in my room.

“Rhys?!” I muffle.

“Oh sorry.” He moves his hand off my face.

“Why are you here?”

“You wanted a care package didn’t you?” He smiles and gestures to my desk, where a big as basket full of food and presents, is placed.

“Thank you. And now why are you really here.”

“… Your letter.”

How could he already got … Azriel tool it with him. I mentally roll my eyes.

“Get dressed.”

“And why should I? It’s 3am?”

“Because I want to see your blood manipulation. So get out of Azriels shirt and come with me to the flight field.”

“How…. How do you?”

“Nea please.” He rolls his eyes and chuckles, “We all know.”

I just stare at him.

All of them?

Yes they all know. Now get dressed. I’ll meet you there.

‘Why are you coming?’

Because I asked him to come.

‘Yes it was planned for me to come before I got your letter’

‘WHY ARE YOU BOTH IN MY HEAD?!’

‘Because you forgot to have your wall up.’ Rhys scowls.

‘But why are you two talking?’

You’re underestimating my powers

‘I thought you’re only allowed to talk to me…’

Do I look like I stick to any rules?

[miyaniacs]

Corrupted by Darkness

- Introduction -

Facts ; Wattpad

ACOTAR x Fourth Wing x OC

You know how there’s Good and Bad in the world? Heaven and Hell? Angels and Demons?

For every good person, or fae, there’s an evil one out there. Somewhere.

Well it’s the same for dragons.

And I’m not sure if I found the good one or the bad one.

Hello Family,

I’m sure you all are thrilled to … read from me.

Until I found out you were spying on me the whole time?

Come one! Cassian? Do you have no trust in the way you trained me?

Or you Azzie? You made me a fucking shadow yet you’ve sent your shadows to spy on me?

I know I know, Im still a child in your eyes… but I’m as old as the others around me - besides I’ve survived with you as my “family”, you really think this will kill me?

Anyway, I finally have the privilege to annoy you all with endless letters, the first year is over and I’m still alive baby.

So let me tell you about my year…

On my very first day I made a friend, Rhiannon. We ended up being in the same squad too - Fourth Wing, Flame Section, Second Squad. Two new friends we made in our squad are Ridoc and Liam. I know you told me to stick to the other fae around here… But she’s a bitch and I’m this close to kill her every second she opens her mouth. And I really don’t know why our wing leader is fucking with her- like literally. Humans need to meet more fae, otherwise he’d realize that she’s not special. I really hope more fae will come to the riders and help mixing humans and fae in the future… Geographically our worlds are connected but somehow we are not. Back to this bitch tho. Her Name is Eve and she’s the daughter of some lord from Autumn, who’s dad is or was friends with Beron - this should be enough for you to know that she’s a bitch. So anyway now my friends and our section leader Garrick are now judging Xaden for fucking with her. Which made Xaden, our wing leader, hate me… Don’t ask me why just me and not the others too, but just me.

Maybe it was because I once said to Eve that I know she’s just messing with him because she can’t have the real Shadow boy ( yes I’m talking about you Az) - and he was right behind me. She looked offended tho, so add her to the endless list of girls that want to fuck Azriel, yet he still choses the life of abstinence.

Okay uhmmm all the fighting stuff is actually way too easy for me which is why I’m mainly training with Liam or Garrick and not the other first (now second) years.

The food is awful and doesn’t get better the longer you eat it (pls Rhys I’m begging you, pull some strings and get me a care package).

Well other than that… I know you what you want me to talk about… The dragon who chose me.

Noctis.

What can I say - I or We were the talk of the month when he appeared during Threshing and chose me. Everything around me became black. I couldn’t see anything and then… two glowing red eyes appeared in front of me and he spoke. He spoke in my head.

‘I’ve been waiting for you.’

Then the darkness … vanished and there he was. An enormous black dragon. His scales are razor sharp spikes, his horns ( he has for of them) are so long, I could hold them while riding him. His teeth come close to the size of you Cassian. His tail ends in something that fades into a shadow… just like his wings. They have holes in them and the ends fade into shadows…

He wasn’t a normal black dragon I was sure of that.

Thanks to being a fae I got on top of his back and somehow managed to stay there during the flight.

I’m sure you heard all about the drama that went down afterwards.

He shouldn’t be here.

He’s supposed to stay a legend.

Is he even real?

How can he possible bond to someone?

Rhys.

He doesn’t just look like the Dragon Amren told us about. The one she saw when she first landed on this continent.

He IS that dragon.

And he’s a sarcastic bitch that doesn’t know when to stay out of my head or my business- you two would get along so well.

But he’s pretty cool.

And he’s not screaming in my head rn to write this.

Well… and now to the other matter.

My…signet …

So there’s the one… everyone knows of… Shadow Wielding. That’s kinda obvious with how Noctis looks (and forces me to spend more time with Xaden, since we both have the same signet and he’s told to teach me).

But it’s just one of them… Rhys… I feel it. I feel the blood of the people around me. One time Rhi was bleeding and it just wouldn’t stop and I didn’t know what to do… I just wished it would stop. And then I felt it. I felt her blood running out of the cut on her arm and… I made it stop?

I know it sounds crazy but.. then there was this other time … I was just minding my own business during lunch and Eve had to sit down right in my eyesight and make out with Xaden… I got so annoyed… and just wanted it so end. I thought about blood running down her neck… and then… it started to run. Run out of her nose, down her mouth and…down her neck. She needed to go to the healer’s because it just wouldn’t stop.

Rhys.. what is wrong with me?

Noctis just tells me that he knew why he waited for me.

I know I should go to my teachers.. and learn how to control it.. but something tells me that I shouldn’t.

Oh and Rhys… His power… feels like yours.

Talk to you all later…

Nea.

With a sigh I put away my pen.

Shadows crawl around me and caress my face.

I smile and look at the male behind me.

“Did I wake you up?” I ask him.

“No… But I’m kind of offended our activities knocked me out more than they did to you.” He laughs and gets out of my bed. His lips touch my shoulder blade, right where Noctis marked me. His fingers trace the thin lines on my body, that run from the dragon on my back all over my body.

“They’re beautiful.” He mumbles.

Pfff obviously. Noctis sighs and I feel him rolling his eyes.

“Come back to bed now.” He says and walks backwards, dragging me with him.

[miyaniacs]

Corrupted by Darkness

- Facts -

Hello :)

So this is my try to get back into writing ... I randomly got the Idea of a Acotar and fourth wing cross over... I really hope you like it! <3 I'll appreciate your feedback and try to answer any of your questions :)

This story is a work in progress and I can't promise regular updates, but I try my best.

For inspiration- this is how I imagined my OC

Name: Nea

Age: 22

Race : Fae

Signet: Shadow Wielding ; ???

Dragon: Noctis

Her mark is on her right shoulder blade and from the dragon on, there are fine lines all over her body, from her ankle to her fingers.

[miyaniacs]

CHAPTER SIX

NAVIGATION // Characters // Chapter Five

summary: Reader: female; 20 years old ; Apparently you know something… but what this something is you still got to find out.

But curses, good and bad sorcerer now want to get you into their hands.

Ending up in the hands of the good ones, y/n finally meets her old best friend again - Yuji. Now Yuji and his friends make it their mission to keep you save in this whole new world. Days turn into weeks and you become closer and closer to your ‚bodyguards

Warnings: mentions of depression, death and kinda a bad chapter lol

A/n: sooo I’m back … I know the chapter is bad af… but at least I started again? And maybe there’ll be more soon? I can’t promise it, but feedback is appreciated :)

Turning on your right side, you look out of the window. It’s a sunny day again… it has been for the past two weeks, yet you always stayed where you are staying right now. In your bed, in the room you got at the school ground.

After getting to your apartment that night and grabbing probably everything out of your closet and all of your Uni stuff and favorite books, Gojo teleported you back to the school. The next day, while checking your mails, you realized that Naoya told your professors that he’ll extend your internship for the next year… which means, that you’ll be excused from your classes and tests for the next two semesters.

Your friends also texted, telling you how lucky you are to already get the extended internship and that you need to meet up soon to tell them everything about it.

You haven’t replied to any of them.

Barely talked to anyone, barely eaten anything nor did you leave the bed.

After that night you don’t know how to act…. Or rather how to feel.

A part of you is just incredibly angry - angry at everyone and everything. That part of you just wants to use the power inside of you and burn down everything and everyone.

Another part of you is more… rational. It tells you to get up and go to talk with Gojo or Nanami or just someone who can give you answers… and finally tell you the truth.

But then… there is this other part … the one that has the upper hand right now. This part is just exhausted. Exhausted from everything that has happened the past weeks, exhausted from the mental arguing from those.. well good and bad parts inside of you and mainly just exhausted in general. Every part of your body feels too heavy. Getting out of bed … just the thought of it is enough to give it up again. You just want to sleep. And who should stop you? Your friends think you’re busy with work, your family too… you can’t attend your classes… You practically have nothing left.

WHy should you work out when your life has no meaning anymore? You’ll end up as a living blood bank for either the good or the bad guys… if any of them can be considered as good. So why should you care about your physical appearance?

And then…. There was this story on the news the next day, after the fatal dinner.

Some old men, was found dead in an alleyway, close to your apparent. The women on the news said he was being tourtured to death… his skin was burned off his body and his blood was boiling… They said that whoever did this was the equivalent to a monster with no emotions, nor any sense of what’s right and what’s wrong.

A knock on your door interrupts your metal dialog.

You don’t answer it, the door being open anyways. Soon after you hear your door opening.

Still facing the window, you feel someone sitting next to your bed, his back leaning against it, facing the door.

“It’s been two weeks now Y/n.*

“Yuji and the others are worried about you… but they are too afraid to come inside to talk to you.”

You know why the haven’t talked to you. No one knows what to say after what happened.

“It wasn’t a curse, was it? Your voice is raspy and nothing more than a whisper, after not speaking for the past days.

“No… no it wasn’t.” Gojo reply’s.

“I*m the monster everyone talks about then.”

“You are not a monster Y/n.”

“But I killed a person?” You say, tears rolling out of your eyes.

“And so did I. And many others around here. If you’re a monster, the we are too.” He says his smile dropping.

“Am I going to be insane? I saw a curse… I felt a curse… I - “ your voice breaks.

“You are not. But you will be if you stay here… and let all of your thoughts consume you.”

“ Maybe it’s for the best… that way i can’t harm anyone… and you can just get your daily dose of my blood.”

“I do not want your blood…. And I won’t let you stay inside.” He says and gets up, turning you around and pulling the blanket off of your body. You don’t react to any of it and just stare at the ceiling.

“Now come on - go shower and get dressed in this.” He points to the black clothing hanging on the outside of your wardrobe. Nobara placed it there last week, telling you that Gojo pulled some strings and got you signed up at the school.

“Why?” You ask.

“Because you need to learn to control whatever is inside of you.”

“No … I mean…why do you care?”

Gojo stops at your door, one of his hands resting on the frame. He doesn’t look at you when he answers… but you can feel that his reply holds something more to it, than he wants to admit.

“I promised myself to not let it happen again.”

You stare at your reflection.

You’re dressed in a short dress that ends right at the middle of your tights with slits on each side, that go up so your hipbone. Underneath is a built in shot, which at least covers up your bottom. It has a high neckline and is all in all rather skin tight. There are some arm warmes, which are skin tight until they scrunch up at your hands.

Next to the dress where some boots, that reach right underneath your knees … with a reasonable heel and plateau to walk around comfortable. The last item was an oversized college style jacket that covers all of your dress.

What exactly did Nobara and Yuji thought of while designing this … uniform?

You sigh again and look to your left out of the window. The sun is still up… so you choose to leave the arm warmes and jacket in your room and turn towards the door.

You really don’t want to go out. And talk to the others.

What should you say anyways?

“Hi it’s me - I’m still alive …. Sadly … and yes i brutally killed this poor man… No I don’t know how - I can’t remember anything besides a curse chasing me.”

“Actually no one was about to ask you this.”

Turning to your left, you see Megumi standing in the corridor, walking out of his room.

“I - Uhm -“

“Let’s get outside. I bet Yuji can’t wait to see you again.” He says and looks you up and down, as soon as you fully get out of the room.

“What?” You ask.

“N-Nothing.” He says and turns around a slight blush spreading across his cheeks.

Together with Megumi you walk outside towards the training grounds.

“Is … is this Nobara?” You ask pointing at the figure flying across the air and slamming on the nearest tree.

“Yup.” Megumi says as if that’s the most normal thing ever.

When the two of you arrive, everyone stops as soon as they acknowledge you walking over to them.

As soon as Yuji sees you, he sprints over to you and puts you in a bone crushing hug.

“I missed you so much…. I’m sorry I didn’t come to you.. I just I-“

“It’s fine Yu.” You smile and hug him back. The longer you stay like this, the more you feel the walls you built up the past days crushing down, letting all of your emotions come out at once. The tears are now running freely over your cheeks and you can’t make them stop.

Behind your back, Megumi, Nobara and Maki smile at Yuji and quietly leave, giving you two some space.

Yuji doesn’t say anything at all, he just holds you in his arms and lets you cry.

After what feels like hours the tears are getting less and you peel yourself off him, looking up at his eyes.

“Better?” He asks with a smile.

“Better.” You smile and wipe your eyes.

“Wanna talk?” He asks and sits down on the grass.

“Yes… but I don’t know how to start..” you sigh and sit down next to him.

“Living your life, while knowing that you’ll end up being killed is hard - believe me I know that.” He says.

“Wait- I thought I won’t get killed?!”

“ See, then you have it better than me” he laughs and you can’t help yourself and smile. You lean against him and out your head on his shoulder.

“Ever since they … activated this mark - i don’t know how to explain it … it feels like something inside of me woke up. Sometimes it feels as if I don’t have control over my body. There is this voice inside of me to run and ask you and your friends for help… but then… there’s this other voice telling me to stay and do something I normally wouldn’t do… yet it controls me. It controls my body. And then I wake up again and can’t remember anything that happened.”

“Did his happen when we fond you unconscious in the grass?” He asks gently.

“Yes… and also that night… I remember running away from the curse… and then it i got trapped… and the next thing i remember is…. Well..” you look away and start to blush.

“You don’t have to tell me.”

“No.. I — I woke up… kissing you…. Well no not you- it was Sukuna.”

“Oh…” Yuji scratches his neck and looks basically everywhere except for your direction.

“ I - At least I think so… maybe I imagined it. It was less than a second… and then Gojo came… but …”

“Hey… We’ll figure it out okay?” He smiles again and looks at you, putting his arm around your shoulder and pulling you closer.

“Don’t leave me alone. I don’t want something like this happening again.”

” I won’t.”

“Promise?”

“ I promise, I won’t leave your side.” You smile and put your arms around him.

“And I won’t leave your side too.. my queen.” Sukuna smiles to himself.

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[miyaniacs]

Hello :)

I’m in fact still alive lol

Sorry for kinda just disappearing, but the past months were really rough for me. I finally started therapy tho and I’m now way better compared to the beginning of the year.

So I’m slowly starting to get back in touch with some of my hobbies & I was thinking about starting to write here again? Nothing regular or specific - maybe lush some random lyric prompts? Maybe I find the motivation again to continue my story’s but who knows.

Just wanted to let you all know that I’m still here & maybe start posting again ✨

Oh and I started reading ACOTAR sooooo let’s add this to the things I‘ll be writing for lol

[miyaniacs]

HAHA loving how you disappeared for a year only to come back dragging the jury multiple times<3

Hahaha thank you thank you - but it was so bad this year Omg

& I‘d actually love to start writing again - I really hope that I find the time for it & get my motivation back 🥲