hobbies: making comics, video games, writing (see #deep dives), riichi mahjong š, gardening, crochet, being an OC art fairy godmother (see #not my oc)
interests: ffxiv, d&d, outer wilds, disco elysium, elder scrolls, dragon age, most any danmei, fire emblem. stuck on ultrakill atm!!
listening to: Two Planets Approach the Roche Limit (Kirby and the Forgotten Land)
webcomics you should read: Check, Please! (modern rom-com, hockey, college life) - Archipelago (adventure, dark fantasy, sci-fi) - Prequel (silly, elder scrolls setting, in the style of homestuck)
to all fans of 21ge: you have my blanket permission to use my designs/artwork in 21ge fanart/edits/memes, no need to ask! a ping would be nice so I can see too, but it's not necessary :)
I HAVE BEEN LET OUT OF TUMBLR JAIL! TODAY IS AN EXCELLENT DAY
commonly used tags:
#comics: comics
#21ge fic: fanart for "the 21 grams experiment" by kivaember, a fanfiction on Ao3 for the video game ULTRAKILL. (a subtag of this tag is #I love Uriel, which contains all my Urielslop
#miyeyu's screenshot studies: quick paintings of screenshots from a variety of sources.
#ffxiv: fanart of the MMORPG Final Fantasy 14.
#not my oc: me make a LOT of art of other people's OCs!
it sure took me a long time but I hope you like this art I made of your OC, @the-jordas-trials! I had a lot of fun painting all the different materials, the cloth and metal and beads... oh man, the beads were my favorite part. anyways, here's Sithiel aura farming with a dagger >:D
sneak peek of a wip using a new brush (lippy_original from bunni's masterpack) and I am really liking how it's turning out :} I always have trouble settling on a style and a brush set I like to use... so every piece can feel like starting over from scratch, at times.
a couple scenes from - wait, "a couple"? *checks notes* ahh, yeah, each of these was originally supposed to be one panel! haha! but they started becoming mini comic strips! so I'll just be posting them individually instead~
from ch. 41 of the 21 grams experiment by @kivaember!
here we have the first glimpse of non-smiley Uriel in my comics... remember how I said he looks rather unfriendly when he's not smiling? haha. in front of his oldest brother, he can just be himself. there's a little petty resentment, for how Lucifer doesn't have the time to spend with Uriel and the rest of the family, and how Lucifer takes all that time with Father to himself. a little bit of that teenager contrariness too.
but as for Lucifer, he can only feel grateful that his siblings exist in the first place, no matter how far apart they may be, because he is the only archangel who knows what it's like to not have any siblings at all - to be completely alone.
Miyeyu I call upon you to answer my question related to the ow ask game! I choose Brittle Hollow - what is (one of) your favourite quotes that stuck with you from the game :0
"Our curiosity goes with you on your journey. You walk in the footsteps of those who came before you, and your path guides those who will follow later."
I don't know why, but this one always struck a chord in me... how you pick up this torch that went out thousands of years ago and are able to carry it forward. different race, different age, different language - same curiosity, same determination. this is the point in the game where you know deep in your heart that this message was meant for you. thanks for the ask! :)
I need you to know I am obsessed with how you draw Lucifer from that one fanfic. It makes me go insane in a really good way, thank you for drawing them (ā Ā ā āā āæā āā Ā ā )ā ā”
hehe I kept this in my inbox for a day so I could go back and look at it and every time it brought a smile to my face ( ;Ā“ź³`;) that one fanfic has been a bit of an obsession and a muse for me for a while, and the reason why I've been able to make so much art for it is just how encouraging this fandom has been :3 so thank you and I'm glad it's making you insane!!!
anyways since I'm in a bit of a chatty mood right now, let me shamelessly take this opportunity to tell you EVERYTHING about how I made it š
so, Lucifer! I wanted him to be the opposite of the God we read about in-game in many ways - if God represents the cosmic horror of divinity, then Lucifer is the wonder and cosmic beauty of it. that's why he gazes benevolently at the small blue dot of Earth instead of the looming that the statue of God does. that's also why his hair is this beautiful white-starry night sky ombre, almost like the Milky Way!
I would have liked to include his unfurled wings in the piece, him being an angel and all, but the vision I had in my head didn't have a good way to include it without blocking a good part of the hair... chapter 41 of 21ge just made me think of this radiant, shining being standing in the darkness, someone who is so so precious, all the better to emphasize the tragedy that Ultrakill's world has fallen into. it also would have made the piece take upwards of 8 hours instead of 6, and I just don't have the stamina for that :(
this is the first time I've pushed on the limits of my stamina for a piece in a while LOL and at some point you just have to stop. I did only the briefest of sketching his design in my notebook before going to paint, so I still have to flesh out the smaller details, like what does his halo look like...
honestly, I was kinda scared people would think he looks too uhh... human? or feminine? (I didn't particularly have an idea for how masculine/feminine he is in my head, he's kinda androgynous but beautiful no matter what he looks like) and I would have liked to make him more non-human, it's just that all of my RAM was taken up by painting all that hair ;-; what I really picture is that he's very frail and almost emaciated, something that his wings, which are wrapped around him, cover up. because, as we all know, God's mercy didn't last for very long at all before he snapped and started constructing a living torture nexus for humanity.
thank you for the ask and thank you for reading! everybody go check out the 21 grams experiment if you haven't already because that's who this Lucifer is from! hope you have a great day :)
this is going to be a rather random list, @kivaember, but it'll be interesting to see... I'm gonna exclude 21ge characters for the sake of science but I hope everybody knows I love Uriel a lot ;_;
Which of my seven favorite characters is your favorite?
Jade Harley (Homestuck)
Bingpup (The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System)
Gabbro (Outer Wilds)
Shinsoo (Maplestory)
Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd (Fire Emblem: Three Houses)
Nilou (Genshin Impact)
Miquella (Elden Ring)
Voting ended onMay 15
hrm who to tag... @bumblebeedog, @moonlittales, @plaguedpriest, @megahertzmaroon, @umayans-note! and anybody else who wants to show me their top seven characters :)
Classpecting Ultrakill Characters: God, The Father
Gabriel and V1 // Uriel // Venus-1 // Juno-51 // God
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Yes, you read that right. Today we're analyzing the big man upstairs himself, #1 deadbeat dad of all time, the big G. God. Settle in with your holy hand grenades, because this one's gonna be long.
For those of you who have not read Homestuck - "classpecting" is analyzing a character to identify their role in the story ("class") and their core identity ("aspect") using the framework of Homestuck, which defines 14 classes and 12 aspects to describe people and their relation to the world around them. It's kind of like an extremely elaborate personality test.
Now, I know the other writeups were mostly about 21ge OCs, but I wouldn't say there's a significant difference between the God of canon and the God of 21ge, so let's just focus on the canon version.
First, let me clarify that Ultrakill's God is not exactly the same as the Catholic God - he is neither all-knowing, nor all-powerful, nor all-good. As described in the (Ultrakill) Testaments, he creates Hell and cannot unmake it. He unjustly throws Lucifer into Hell and regrets it. He is a pitiless authoritarian who, losing faith in humanity, sinks into apathy and wallows in regret.
In Ultrakill's narrative, God is the ultimate active character and the ultimate passive character. Everything that is, is because God created it. He once held nigh-absolute authority over the world, but (and this is a big but) in the story we play through, he's pretty much as good as dead. In fact, his absence is more keenly felt than his influence.
Is it any surprise, then, for him to be a Lord? Literally. He's known as the Lord. The ultimate active class, the progenitor; all of reality is his dominion by the very nature of his being. However, God's case is special - though he has the capacity for limitless potential, by the time V1 crashes Hell, he has thoroughly fallen to the worst version of himself. The phrase "The Father" brings to mind a loving, guiding figure (Bible stories prefer the metaphor of a shepherd and his flock), but God is anything but that. He lacks any faith in himself and his creations. He's selfish, vindictive, and petty. He resents humanity, but most of all, he resents himself. He gives up. He stares into the abyss.
You could say that he's gone off the deep end in every way.
Like, wow. I could not find a character more like Rose if I tried. Thus, God is one of those special players who has, in rejecting their true calling and bringing out the worst of themselves, inverted their role - he ghosts the Muse. Simply by not being there/being dead and not doing anything, he causes everything that happens in Ultrakill.
What is he a Lord/Muse of, then? As the literal creator of everything, you could argue that he is a Space or Life player. I'm especially inclined to agree with the Spacebound reading. But I'm of the mind that sometimes it's too easy get lost in the literalness of the aspects. Caliborn did not create Time; he simply exploited it for his own benefit during the events of Homestuck - it is the effects of his decisions that ring through the entire narrative.
God (in both Ultrakill and in the practice of Catholicism) is not important to people because it's on his resume that he created the universe, God is important because of the faith and devotion he inspires.
What does the Ferryman say when Gabriel (who is literally described as an extension of God's will) saves him (it? them??)?
His gentle words eased the pain and mended my wounds. My face wet with tears of relief, my words muffled by the weight of my duty. I could only lay in reverence, carried in the embrace of majesty.
What do the Sisyphean Insurrectionists say when God disappears, causing the angels enforcing their punishment to leave?
All can see how [Heaven has] robbed us of our minds, bodies, and souls, leaving us only the hopes of a salvation that will never come, but no longer.
What do countless psalms and Bible verses and gospel songs talk about, over and over and over (and over and over)?
Deuteronomy 31:6 - "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
Romans 15:13 - "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."
Jeremiah 29:11 - āFor I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.ā
Amazing Grace (1779)
The Lord has promised good to me,
his word my hope secures;
he will my shield and portion be
as long as life endures.
Ok I think I've beaten this horse enough...
While Homestuck's "goal" is the creation of a new universe, Ultrakill's goal is to pose the question of whether existence holds meaning, whether other people define it for you or religion gives it to you or you define it for yourself. I could analyze the entire game and break down every interaction in this lens, but I'll save that for another day because we're still classpecting God here.
Hope is associated with religion, angels, order, the unlimited potential of the way that things could be. Rage is its opposite - the questioning of beliefs and the system, resentment, despair, the raging against the way things are. (If any of this is reminding you of Gabriel, good! As a Hope player, God passes his aspect down to his specialest little boy. I wrote a whole classpect thing for Gabriel too, go read that if you haven't yet.)
Salvation and damnation, hope and despair; these are the things that good little Ultrakill characters, and especially God, are made of.
As a Lord of Hope, God should have held absolute command over faith and is the one who everybody looks up to for salvation. Well - he would be, as the font of all creation and at his fullest potential, but he's long since rejected hope and his ability to change things for the better. He has taken on the traits of a Muse of Rage, with his absence inspiring all the events seen in Ultrakill: an apocalypse of violence, despair, and suffering - a samsara of cut sinew and crushed bone.
Gabriel and V1 // Uriel // Venus-1 // Juno-51 // God
Do you have a favourite shoujo? :3 if yes, which one?
oof. this is a really, really hard question to answer. but if I grit my teeth and forcefully extract an answer, I'd say it's a toss-up between Cardcaptor Sakura and Last Game.
I almost exclusively read romance shoujo, which I enjoy the most, but I cannot say anything but good things about Cardcaptor Sakura. it blended amazing music in the anime, whimsical slice of life stories, a stunningly creative magic system, and nuance in its lore and plot that other villain-of-the-week shoujo could only dream of. it has villains that aren't cartoonishly evil, with strong characterization and convictions. it doesn't sexualize sakura! it lets her be a silly young girl! it's got a whole cast of supporting characters that all have such personality - even the CARDS have personality! it even has romance but sakura doesn't get her iq lowered to 5 in the process! it's just so unlike other shoujo in the best of ways.
now, as a romance shoujo connoisseur (though I don't watch/read much of it these days), I've read all the popular ones and then some, so I'm naturally a little more picky. and I started realizing how problematic a lot of them were as I grew up lmao but! Last Game checks all my boxes as a great romance shoujo - a calm, competent heroine, a simple, cute, clean art style, and my favorite classic and fun prince-and-pauper, rivals-to-lovers dynamic. a lot of shoujo just love to put the male lead in a position of control over the female lead, whether through blackmail or greater maturity (often sexual) or magic power or just having the girl be a blubbering infant, but in Last Game, it's the male lead who has to get over his immaturity to understand the female lead. it's a classic premise executed really well, and it's a satisfying and light read.
I'd also like to plug what I view as the greatest manga I've ever had the pleasure of reading: Chang Ge Xing! it's not shoujo, it's seinen, but it's a masterpiece of both art and writing. in a sentence - the princess of a fallen dynasty swears vengeance and becomes a strategist, gets captured by the enemy and wins the allegiance of their commander, sees the suffering of the world for her own eyes, and undergoes a deep and rich philosophical journey. I aspire to make a manga half as good as CGX is, one day, when I am old and grey.
It was faint, but there was a subtle glow about them that softened the darkness of night around them, and their white wings glittered like starlight, every atom of them clearly crafted with pure, profound love. The most beautiful of them all, the kindest, the most beloved, the eldest of all angelsā¦
chapter 41 of the 21 grams experiment by @kivaember (subject's face has been simplified into a human analogue to protect our mortal minds)
you said once that you ran a moonhaven rp forum? :>
did I ever! I'm in a discord server for Path to Menzoberranzan, a huge dlc-sized modding project for BG3, and it's a great place to find rp and d&d. I did a bunch of forum rp when I was younger (great stuff, everybody should try), so I decided to host one myself that I call Before the Fall...
in a nutshell, the players are accused of being dark justiciars on the night before Moonhaven is invaded. faced with certain (?) doom and perhaps a little divine guidance, they are faced with the hard choice of saving their own skins or risking their own lives for a town that has treated them with nothing but hostility.
so anyways I threw them all in jail together :D
it was my first time running a forum rp instead of being a player in one, but I really lucked out that the players all write really well and have really strong characters! it's such a big difference from when I first started out rping and posts were a couple sentences of characters aimlessly wandering. I guess it's what some people would call "literary rp"?
they were so inspiring, I even made a small fancomic for them :3c oh and this joke comic I don't think I've ever posted here:
like most forum rps though, it's currently on what I would call indefinite hiatus. we're currently doing a more casual tavern rp where our characters just sit and chat...
a snippet from one of the posts of the main rp:
Look at what you've done this time.
Do you ever feel shame for the things you do? The people you hurt?
On the wind, wood-smoke and lavender; magic and old rot. Kit listened silently as Rok and Avala laid out a plan of attack, offering tips on how best to evade the Justiciar contingent and making sarcastic quips like always, but now that the reality of the army was hitting her, she had gone numb on the inside. It wasn't a bad plan. Maybe everybody would even make it out alive.
So run away, little fox. Run like you always do after messing people's lives up, retreat into your money and your apathy. One day you will forget the heartache anyways.
Hmph. The others were idiots if they thought she'd stay and play hero; she couldn't believe she'd fooled them this long. This place was obviously doomed. It would be easy as breathing - smash the necklace, give Avala the slip, and she could be on her way to the other side of the Sword Coast before they even knew she was gone -
But then Rok smiled at her. In his eyes, though darkest darkness surrounded them, she glimpsed a light.
"For... me?" she felt herself ask, not daring to touch the uncut gemstone at first. "No, you can't... I can't - you can't do this." Because I'm not meant to be a wizard. Because you don't even know me. "I won't..."
Because if you do this, I won't be able to abandon you to your fate.
Aight Iām making a chain, what has been bringing you joy recently?
Iāll go first! Iāve figured out how to manage my time so that I donāt feel like a wasted it, and Iāve managed to finish some small tasks that I wouldnāt do otherwise!
There is a new stray cat that has been coming to our yard. We have been feeding him. It's really nice to come back home and see this little guy lying there in one of our garden chairs chilling
I'm a little shy to tag people, so it won't be a lot - @lithoful @carlatsu @muddonium
stargazing on a clear night with the window open and some music on has been pretty nice for me lately, my bedroom window has a really good view of the night sky and it's just real nice for quiet moment y'know ?
no pressure tags i jus think its funsies teehee - @hearthianventures @rupeewallet @verycoolfirefly @zephiraz @kirtini @painted-starsys @abyssal-narration
Iāll be honest, things have been quite stressful lately ;w;
But something thats been bringing me joy is meeting so many wonderful people here on tumblr and discord <3 And Outer Wilds, I love that game and all my lil fish aliens
I never know who to tag so uhhh here (only if u wanna š)
recently something thatās made me happy is starting a stardew valley game online with my friend! i forgot how fun it was to play games with other people, and itās nice to take nothing seriously for a little bit and just chat/goof around in game with buddies :p
im a bit shy with tags but here you go if you want to no pressure!
lately, I've dusted off my old 3ds and looked into this thing called jailbreaking your console! I first heard about it bc I wanted to play Pokemon Unbound and missed the experience of playing on the ds instead of an emulator.
and wow it is so easy and quick and free and you can get all the 3ds/ds games, customization, and qol you ever wanted, all thanks to a long, long line of dedicated random people who figured out how to crack the 3ds, fought the people who tried to gatekeep the info to make a quick buck, preserved these old games, made a smorgasbord of sleek, free custom firmware for anything you could ever want (including reviving multiplayer servers), AND maintain a guide on how to mod your 3ds that's so easy a monkey could do it. we may live in the worst of times, but for those of us who love 3ds gaming, we are also living in the best of times!
@lacamorte @blueartistic813 @captainumayan @micro-pachy-cephalo-saurus @artchivary only if you feel like it~
